At dusk, I arrived at the Siming Mansion and heard Qingyue personally say that the natal chart was available. It's just the fate chart of the gods, some things can't be filled in in detail and clearly, and those things have to be decided by heaven's will.

Providence again.

Go to the providence of his ancestors.

I said I wanted to take a look, Qingyue said: "What's wrong with you, don't you know that the laws of heaven are determined, and you can't peek at the fate chart." You've already got the elixir from Lao Jun, right? I have prepared the horoscope here, you can go to the mortal world and bring the Sushu Divine Venerable back immediately. Suddenly remembered something, and said, "By the way, the Emperor of Heaven has already asked Shen Yu to deliver a letter, and the Emperor of Heaven said that it is the luck of the Eight Desolations that Sushu Shenzun is alive, and it is very good to let her return to the God Realm, and he agreed." ”

I nodded, "yes, okay." When he turned around, he hit the door frame in a trance.

Qingyue helped me up, "What's wrong with you?" Why are you so depressed, aren't you happy that Master Sushu is coming back? Still is...... Or do you still have Liangyu in your heart? He patted me on the shoulder and said, "You probably don't know that Ayu is back, but now Changjue still doesn't allow others to see her, even I, Master, and Senior Brother can't see her, saying that I want to raise her, so I can come out to see everyone." Don't worry, the grudge entanglement has long passed, and no one resents you and hates you. ”

The temples jumped suddenly, implicated in a headache and dizziness. I vaguely responded, but I didn't know what I was supposed to do.

My grudge with Liangyu has passed, but now I know that I have ...... This is more harmful than a vegetarian book.

I remembered that when I stumbled out of the old monarch's mansion, he flew to the door and stopped me, and persuaded me: "Sushu her...... She has experienced this experience, flying back to heaven from the mortal world, she can't remember this past, all she can recall is the years from her birth in the mortal world to becoming an immortal. The old man felt that since she had forgotten, she had forgotten. It's better not to tell her. ”

Seeing that I didn't speak, I sighed and said, "I'm not afraid that she will settle accounts with you, I'm afraid that she will compete with herself." Back then, Nie Su cut her fish scales, and you don't know about it. She hated Nie Su for 10,000 years, and in the end, she still took the initiative to ask the Emperor of Heaven to help the astrolabe, if Nie Su hadn't restrained her early, she would have really died instead of Nie Su. For so many years, she has been dressed as a man, and others think that she is more chic and graceful than men, but they don't know that she is very soft-hearted, even if she mixes knives with big and small things, she always swallows it herself, and others bear her, and she thinks about it, and she has never hurt others. If she returns to heaven, let her live without anxiety, and not mention the past, which will add to her sorrow. As for the other immortals who know, tonight I will go to the Emperor of Heaven to restore my life, and by the way, I will ask him for an edict, ordering the world to stop talking about the matter of Su Shu, and wait for her to return to the divine realm. ”

In the more than 140,000 years I have lived, I have never had anything wrong. When I was young, I fought and fought, hurt people and killed people, and I never covered it up, and I never feared the revenge of others, the door of Xuanluo Palace was wide open, as long as I could beat me, I would admit it.

Now, I'm going to keep it a secret. Qingming, who had cut her fins and offered them to the Emperor of Heaven, and Qingming, who had misunderstood her eyes, was given by others, could not tell her.

I'm ashamed.

I have a ghost in my heart.

I'm having a hard time getting through this.

Lao Jun naturally sensed my thoughts, and with a swing of the dust, the two ways of clarity fell on my eyebrows, "You mention the spirit, not for yourself to be unpunished, but for the sake of plain books." As the old saying goes, the Tao is like the sect of all things, frustrating its sharpness, resolving its disputes, and its light, and its dust. Even the Sect of All Things must be mixed with the world, there is no such thing as being clean and immaculate, not to mention that we are immortals born from the Sect of All Things, and it is not a bad thing to conceal occasional lies, the Tao cannot be pure, and all living beings cannot be pure. I don't know if I don't want to, isn't it good to let her live in peace and stability, does it have to be a fish to die and a net to be broken, and Xuanjun can get through this hurdle in her heart? ”

I shook my head, and nodded again.

Sushu can't live like this anymore, she should be happy when she returns to the divine realm.

But after going out a few steps, I still felt that my feet were floating, I paused, suddenly thought of something, raised my forehead and turned back to Lao Jun and said: "You, you are the old friend of the pear blossom demon girl?" Benjun probably can't let her go, the matter of eyes, you have to count; The matter of pelvic fins, to be counted. As for reminding her or not, it's your business, but when Sushu returns to heaven safely, I'm going to ask her to double it back. ”

At that time, Lao Jun and his dust trembled, but finally sighed: "I really want to pay it back, and the old man can't protect her this time." ”

At this moment, Qingyue told me that no one resented me anymore.

When I said goodbye, I was thinking, Qingyue must not know, so I can't see it, and I don't know that Benjun is complaining about himself and hating himself.

It's the kind of hatred that wants to make yourself jump into the abyss and fall to pieces, the hatred that wants to make yourself crash into the thousand-faced ice blade and cut your own individual skin, and the hatred that wants to make yourself sink into the sea of desirelessness and drown for hundreds of years until your soul and body are dissolved.

I didn't even protect my beloved girl, and even made her look like this with my own hands, I think the word bastard has become so light.

This kind of emotion disappeared into his chest with the cold night breeze blowing his sleeves, and the Benjun above the cloud head was in a trance several times, stumbling and stumbling, not knowing how many immortal trees he had bumped into, nor how many times he had planted a chasm, before returning to the Xuanluo Palace before midnight.

Xiao Yu'er had already woken up, and he and Meng He were sitting under the glass palace lamp waiting for me, they were well-behaved and worried, and their clothes were dressed securely.

When he saw me from afar, he jumped up on a small cloud and flew over, hugged my leg and didn't let go, and looked up at me with a tender cry: "Where did my father go, why did you come back so late?" ”

I picked him up and was silent for a long time, until I got off the cloud and walked into the room, without thinking about how to tell Xiao Yu'er about these things.

Meng He was sensible, Xu was also tired, and when he accompanied Xiao Yu'er and waited for me to come back, he returned to the wing room with his bookbag on his back.

Meng Yu tugged at the corners of my robe, raised his head to look at me, and his little face was full of worry: "Father, don't you want to talk again?" Isn't it...... You shouldn't even talk to you? ”

I found a chair and sat down, but my whole body was empty and fluttering, and I didn't feel the slightest sense of solidity.

Looking down at the little fish beside his knees, his eyes were so clear that I could see myself in his eyes, and I could even see the sad emotions on his face.

"Father, are you sad?" Xiao Yu'er asked me.

I nodded, "Yes." ”

He was excited for a moment when he saw that I finally spoke, but when he saw me like this, he was a little worried: "Why is my father sad?" ”

I pinched his cheek, looked at his tender little appearance in front of me, and felt that the large area in my heart was full of sourness. At the beginning, it was Benjun who cut off the pelvic fin of Sushu with his own hands, and personally caused his child to be born without breath, and personally caused him to float and sleep in the pool for 10,000 years before he began to grow. These thoughts hit the altar, I felt very afraid, the fingers that stopped on his cheeks trembled uncontrollably, if at the beginning, the blade in my hand was a little deeper, and then a wrong point, now this living, innocent and lovely child in front of me is gone, and I can't save it.

Ben Jun is serious, he should be cut with a thousand cuts.

Xiao Yu'er raised his hand and rubbed his face, grabbed my fingers again, and said with a flickering eye: "Father, Xiao Yu'er is obedient today, Brother Xiaohe said that you don't allow me to take off my clothes, so I didn't take them off." After that, I put down my fingers, pulled the silk cloth on my belly, and then pulled the silk on my arm, "Look, father, the little fish didn't take it off, it really didn't take it off," Xu was not enough, bent down and pulled the corners of his trousers, and touched the soles of his shoes by the way, "And here, here, I didn't take them off," After doing this, one jumped into my arms, and the hand that had just touched the sole of the shoe touched my mouth, "Father, you speak, you praise the little fish." ”

I wrapped him in my arms, stroked his hair, and whispered, "Well, Xiaoyu'er is really obedient." ”

"Xiao Yu'er will follow Brother Xiaohe to school tomorrow, Brother Xiaohe said that my father doesn't like Xiao Yu'er to drop out of school, so I will go." Stretched out his arm to hug my neck, and said, "I promise not to take off my clothes, not to transform into the original body, not to jump into the lotus pond, is my father happy?" ”

I said, "Happy." ”

He straightened up and looked at me, "Why don't you smile if you're happy?" Otherwise, the little fish will become a little silverfish to make my father happy? ”

Meng Yu said that he turned into a little whitebait to make me happy, and this sentence made Benjun's eyes moist. Now, when Benjun heard the word "silverfish", he felt a twitch in his heart, and he was afraid that when he saw his original body, his heart would be even more distressed.

He stretched out his little hand and touched the corner of my eye, "Father, are you crying?" ”

"Hmm."

"Why is my father crying?"

"Because my father did something wrong...... I'm sorry for your mother, and I'm sorry for you. ”

He was stunned for a moment, Xu didn't understand, and after thinking about it, he raised his hand and poked the position of my heart: "Father, because I'm sorry for my mother, so my mother doesn't come out inside, right?" ”

I didn't know how to answer, so I looked at him like that.

He thought about it again, squinted and smiled: "Father said I'm sorry Xiao Yu'er, Xiao Yu'er forgives you, but if you forgive you, can you promise me one thing?" ”

I pinched his nose and said kindly, "Anything, as long as my father can do it." ”

His eyelashes flickered, and he was very happy: "Can Xiao Yu'er take off his clothes, can he take off his clothes now?" ”

Me: "......"

His eyelashes flickered again: "Is my mother the same as Xiao Yu'er, does my father allow her to take off her clothes, and she will forgive you?" ”

Benjun held his forehead: "Your mother kisses her...... I don't have your hobby...... "Also, even if your mother takes off her clothes, she can only show me."