On the day of Lao Jun's retreat, it happened that Jin Juan, a female official beside Nan Xiao, went to the Milky Way to invite Su Shu to go to the country of Xuanyuan to comfort Yun Yan, and I came to see him before his retreat for Xie Laojun to detoxify me and restore my eyes.

At that time, Lao Jun stood in the middle of this vast wind and snow, sighed and said to me: "In the past 10,000 years, if there is anything to do with Sushu, the old man probably won't be able to help, but fortunately, if you are by her side, I can probably rest assured that I can retreat." It's just that she came back from the resurrection, and the calamity is unstoppable, you have to protect her, don't let others hurt her again. ”

Now Lao Jun said that I didn't take good care of the plain book, I never thought of quibbling, I admit it, but he must not know the dead knot that is entangled in my and the plain book.

I pinched out two porcelain cups, poured the tea again, pushed a cup to Lao Jun, poured it myself, and after calming down, I told him the day of his retreat, in the country of Xuanyuan, the soul entanglement between me and Sushu, which was difficult to cut off, and I also told him that it was the last time I saw Sushu.

After hearing this, Lao Jun's face became more and more gloomy, and he stared at me and said, "Putting these things aside, do you know the clarity of your eyes, who gave it to you at the end of the day?" ”

This sentence made me stunned for a moment, and asked him rhetorically: "Don't you know that it is Lirong?" ”

Lao Jun was stunned, and then reacted and said, "Who told you that it was Lirong?" ”

"Ri Rong told me herself, it's her ......"

"Meng Zexuanjun," Lao Jun interrupted me, his face sad, "It's not Lirong, it's a plain book, it's a plain book!" ”

I froze.

He told me it was a plain book.

He actually told me that it was a plain book.

He didn't even tell me that it was a plain book until now.

The past is framed by frame, and the scenes come to mind at this time.

The day before her eyes returned to clarity, on the night of November 30, she was in my arms, caressing my chest, and asked me—

"You'll be by my side in the future, won't you?"

"If I get old and can't walk on my legs, are you still by my side, will you make me crutches to support me?"

"If my hands are stiff in the future, I can't hold a fan or a sword, will you be by my side, fan me to relieve the heat, and kill demons for me?"

"If I am in the future, I say in the future, the old eyes will be dizzy...... I can't see the sunrise and the vastness of the stars, will you be by my side and be my eyes? ”

I was really stupid at that time, I couldn't even hear that her words were foreshadowing, begging me for comfort, she had already prepared to give me Qingming. When she asked me that, I didn't think about it at all.

There is also the streamer in the north sky, the clouds of sunrise in the East China Sea, and the peach forest of three hundred miles under Yanghua Mountain, why did she want to see it at that time, why did she mention it to me at that time, I didn't even think about it, and the fluttering promise I gave was nothing.

"You probably remembered, poor Sushu was waiting for you outside the door that day, but what you waited for was you shouting Liangyu in a dream, the old man knew that Liangyu had indeed saved you in the matter of eyeballs, but Sushu didn't necessarily know, she took out her Qingming to you, but what she heard was the girl next to you shouting, but what she saw was that you rushed out of the door to find Liangyu. If you are her, if you are the one who sacrifices your eyes, watching her shout the name of the immortal next to you and running out, Xuanjun, what should you feel like in your heart? ”

I remember the scene of that day clearly.

I woke up from the nightmare, broke free of the spell, jumped up from the bed, watched the pansy color in front of me disperse, and watched the world return to clarity, I was so sad that I grabbed Lao Jun's clothes and shouted, "Where is Ayu?!" Where is she? …… Ayu, she gave me the clarity of her eyes, didn't she? She can't see clearly now, does she? ”

Lao Jun tried his best to endure the description, his cheeks trembling with his white beard: "Have you always dreamed of the Liangyu Divine Monarch?" ”

I looked out the door, I was more sure than anyone else, and I was more stupid than anyone else, and I refused to believe that it was a dream: "That's not a dream, that's definitely not a dream...... If it were a dream, how could I see it clearly now? ”

At that time, what I was most afraid of was owing Ayu a life and then owing her the clarity of her eyes: "I know what my eyes look like, and I know if my eyes can see clearly." She must tell you not to tell me, she must tell you. But I wanted to know the news of her return, and I remember that I even begged him, begging him to tell me that it was Ayu who had returned: "Ayu, she ...... She's back, isn't she? ”

I remember flying out of the door in the wind, and when I looked back, I suddenly saw a plain book standing by the window. I used to hug her, she was stiff at that time, I don't know whether I was happy or sad in my heart, wrapped around her and could only say: "Sushu, I can see you clearly......"

“…… Well. ”

"You really ...... It's beautiful. ”

"Hmm."

"Let me see you more, in a moment...... I'm going to give Ayu back the clarity of my eyes. ”

She closed her eyes and smiled: "Then you can take a good look." ”

I was reluctant, I hated to engrave her appearance in my heart, but what I wanted at the time was to return my eyes to Liangyu, and I even confirmed with her: "It's Ayu who is back, right, Lao Jun refuses to tell me, Sushu you know it's her, right?" ”

"Meng Ze, do you think it's ...... It is. At that time, she spoke in a cheerful tone, but she raised her wide sleeves to cover her face.

She must be crying. She must not want me to see her crying.

I ran for thirty-five days, but what I saw was still a jade tablet of Liangyu, I didn't even see Liangyu for thirty-five days, and the long recipe didn't stop me, but said coldly: "You are so rampant, even after the death of the little jade fairy, you have to disturb her sleep." ”

I knew that the clarity of her eyes was not Ayu's, and she never came back.

When I returned to the galaxy, it was late at night, and Su Shu had already fallen asleep. The wind and snow poured into my sleeve, and I hugged her from behind, and I felt happy and sad at that time, and I was happy that I felt that I had picked up a bargain, and my eyes could finally see clearly; Sadly, Ayu really did not come back to life.

But his grandfather's, this is what kind of cheapness.

She woke up, but she didn't turn around, and when I turned her over and told her to look at me, she froze and her fingertips fluttered, and she grabbed my shirt but didn't dare to move or open her eyes.

I rubbed the corners of her eyebrows, eyes and lips, and I told her to open her eyes and look at me.

But she put her forehead against my chest and smiled, "I usually look at you every day, and I know what you look like." You are tired today, rest early. ”

I didn't know that her eyes couldn't see clearly, I didn't know that she was avoiding me and hiding from me, I thought she was just wronged because of Liangyu's affairs, I hugged her and said melancholy: "Sushu, are you sad?" ”

"Huh?"

"Are you sad because of the things in the day?"

She shook her head and nodded again: "But I can understand, she saved your eyes before, it is normal for you to dream of her, and it is normal for you to think that she is back, just like when I returned to the God Realm after sleeping for 140,000 years, I felt that Nie Su was also alive." You've always wanted the Jade Divine Monarch to come back to life, I know that. After saying this, his forehead rubbed against my chest, which was well-behaved and gentle, "Sleep, I'm really sleepy." ”

From beginning to end, I never thought that it was a plain book, and it was the girl I was the most unwilling and reluctant to give me the clarity of her eyes.

is so unwilling and reluctant, it has become what I think I will not be, it will not be Sushu who saved me.

What 140,000 years of time in the depths of the Milky Way, what silver-white glow burns the eyes.

It's all a lie to me.

The tea cup was crushed by me, this painful thought rose in an instant, the sword trick fell on my blood-stained palm, I turned over, the tip of the sword against the neck of Lao Jun, I listened to my sad voice fell on this Dan room: "Ben Jun asked you?" Why didn't you tell me, Sushu didn't say that she was afraid that I would be sad, why did you hide it from me?! ”

Lao Jun twisted his eyebrows and said, "If the old man told you at that time, what are you going to do?" ”

I let out a sad voice, and my eyes oozed mist: "I can give her back my eyes, and I can't take away her clarity under any circumstances." ”

The golden light flashed, Lao Jun avoided the Yue Xiang Sword, escaped behind me, and said angrily: "Su Shu just thought that you would return it to her after knowing this matter, so I told the old man not to tell you!" I think you owe her, before the retreat, you specially instructed you to protect her, protect her, why are you so unproductive, you actually protect her to the mortal dust, and even the immortal law is gone?! ”

I turned around abruptly and pinched the placket of his shirt with my backhand, and his eyes reflected a red-eyed Benjun's hideous face: "You only know how to retreat for 10,000 years, and after you come out, you say cool things here, do you know that the more I pester her, the deeper the calamity will be, and do you know that the more I appear next to her, the more seriously she will be injured?" ”

Lao Jun was furious: "So you avoided her for 10,000 years, and finally protected her?" Why didn't you show up, she still crashed into the big Mars and went up in smoke?! ”

I burst into tears, and my teeth were almost crushed: "Benjun also wants to ask you, you are also one of the ancient gods, tell me who is the one who pulled such a long-cherished fate between me and Su Shu, and I can't break the knot of death, which god makes us so unhappy, and finally makes us not die well?" ”

Lao Jun couldn't answer.

Lao Jun said he didn't know.

"Do you know that Benjun originally wanted to rely on the merits of sacrificing fish fins to make up for the stars back then, hoping that this sky can untie the knot between my books, but how the sky treats us, you should see clearly. What is fairness, what is merit, heaven and earth have never shown mercy, this calamity is not the same?! ”

Lao Jun grabbed my words, and said with trembling lips and teeth: "You just said that you offered fish fins...... Fill the stars? Where are the fins ......?"

The name "Lirong ......" made me feel disgusted, and I actually believed that she gave me the clarity of her eyes, and she deceived me like this.

"What's wrong with Rirong?"

I chirped: "At the beginning, it happened that several stars of the Big Dipper fell, and the difficulties of life were imminent, she told me that there were silverfish in the sea of desirelessness, and the fins could be cut to make up for the stars, she ...... She asked for a pair of pelvic fins, saying that they could restore the clarity of her eyes. I fucking believed it. ”

Lao Jun was startled and stunned, and read out a passage - "There are fish in the nine days, and they swim in the cocoon." Maintain the eyes and the silver. The Milky Way has a catastrophe, and the stars fall into the lightfall. If the ear of the silver fish can turn into stars...... The fish scales are numerous, which can replenish the Milky Way; The number of fins is small, which can protect the Beidou. The number of fish eyes is double, which can be filled with acacia; It looks like this silverfish, and it is surrounded by a long-cherished fate. After that, he howled sadly, "Meng Zexuanjun, you are really stupid!" The fish scales were cut off and turned into Milky Way stars, the fish eyes gave you a table of lovesickness, and the fins were cut off to turn into the Big Dipper, Xuanjun, Xuanjun, do you know that this silverfish is a vegetarian book, how can you say 'offering fish fins to make up for the stars' so light? ! ”

The fish scales were cut off and turned into Milky Way stars, the fish eyes gave you a table of lovesickness, and the fins were cut off and turned into stars, Xuanjun, Xuanjun, do you know that this silverfish is a vegetarian book.

How can you say 'offering fins to make up for the stars' so lightly?

The sword in his hand fell suddenly.

I really don't know, I really don't know.

I really didn't know that the silverfish was a vegetarian book.

"Which of you told me? You guys...... Which of you ever told Benjun that Sushu was originally a silverfish, and which of you told Benjun? Grief pierced through the intestines, and tears welled up in his eyes, "Sushu, you, Nanxiao, Changjue, which of you has told Benjun, Sushu...... The original is the silverfish? ”

Which of you told Ben-kun?

If Sushu was the silverfish, I should have cut it with a thousand cuts. By virtue of me mistaking the girl who had restored my eyes to clarity as someone else, by me tying her body with a fairy rope, by me reaching into the fish tank with a knife and cutting her fins with precision......

The old gentleman beside him said in panic: "Why did Li Rong want that pair of pelvic fins, why didn't she tell you that the whitebait was a vegetarian book...... Since ancient times, the fetus has been bred in the abdomen, and the abdominal fin cannot be moved, if the knife is deep, Su Shu is afraid that he will not even be able to give birth...... You haven't really listened to Lirong, you haven't really cut off those pair of pelvic fins......"

"Little fish."

It dawned on me.

At that time, Sushu was pregnant with my child. So when I tied her with a fairy rope, she didn't move, she didn't move, she was...... It's because I'm afraid that the fairy rope will hurt the child in the womb.

The old sayings of the past have come into my ears -

"This whitebait is so obedient."

"Well, on the way here, it didn't move." It wasn't that she didn't want to move, she didn't dare to move.

"Aze, it seems to be a little sad."

I felt ridiculous in my heart, so I mocked like this: "It's just a fish, where is there any sadness is not sad." ”

I even coldly threatened her after hearing the sound of her hitting the fish tank: "You'd better not think about escaping, this fairy is very spiritual, I'm afraid you can't escape." ”

"Aze, Lord Heavenly Emperor is still waiting for the fins on its body to make up for this Big Dipper."

"I know. But I want to make your eyes clear first. ”

"I want this pair of pelvic fins, and I'll leave the rest to the Emperor of Heaven."

I also wondered, "If you want to cure your eyes, why don't you use the eyes of this whitebait?" ”

But the demon girl said: "Aze, its pelvic fin is enough, you believe me." ”

Under the pelvic fin, there is Su Shu and my child. No wonder the silverfish, which has never moved, struggled so painfully when he heard the word "pelvic fin".

The poor bastard's Benjun was blinded by her words: "Well, I believe you, I will leave the pelvic fin to you." ”

These words, word by word, all fell into the ears of Su Shu.

When the blade broke her fins and came close to her abdomen, she was in pain and despair.

The blood overflowed out of the glass fish tank, and I remember clearly that she had struggled violently to protect the child in her womb, and the fairy rope strangled into her flesh, and she had hit her head and broke the blood.

The hateful things are yet to come.

I also remember cutting off the pair of pelvic fins, turning my head and throwing them to Lirong - "Take them to heal your eyes." ”

I didn't give a second glance at the whitebait in the glazed fish tank. I didn't even care if she lived or died, and I even thought—anyway, if her fins were cut off, she would be of no use.

But I'm a bastard, I listened to that rumor, I hurt my own children with my own hands, and I even hurt Su Shu with my own hands. I thought that I could redeem the little mercy of heaven and earth for me and Su Shu, so that she would be safe and uninjured in this life, but I never thought that in the end, this gentleman would be the one who hurt my child and my wife the most, the most ruthless, and the most decisive.

The old gentleman had already calculated the cause and effect, looked at me, and exclaimed: "Xiao Yu'er is your child of the same book?!" After a pause, he choked up and said, "Because of your knife, Su Shu ...... On the day of the book, in the depths of the galaxy, a stillborn ...... was born."

At that moment, I felt that if my shell was this great wilderness of millions of miles, then above this great wilderness, there was already a landslide and magma raging.

This landslide and the earth cracked, this magma raged and destroyed my mind, destroyed my spiritual platform, and thousands of fires burned these limbs and hundreds of bones into ashes, and fell in front of my eyes, and the wind swept away the clouds and smoke, leaving a large area of grief through the understanding.

This realization made me understand that I am afraid that I will not be able to make up for my mistakes in this life.