When I went home in the evening, Xue Xinyan bought me a few books to read on the road, most of them were inspirational books, and when I got home, I threw them on the bed, took out my mobile phone and clicked aimlessly.

My parents went back to my hometown and went to the door, just to tell my relatives in my hometown that I had just woken up from a big dream.

Xue Xinyan pushed open the door and walked in, seeing that I looked confused, and after a sigh, she said, "Take off your clothes, and I'll wash you." ”

I didn't raise my head and said, "New one, don't wash it, you're busy with your go." ”

Xue Xinyan shook her head helplessly, walked over and snatched my phone, looked at me and said, "I'm very worried that you are so depressed now." ”

I was a little angry after hearing this, and I felt very uncomfortable.

Xue Xinyan saw that I was depressed and depressed, and her heart was heavy, and she comforted: "Xiaotao, you should cheer up, you have been discharged from the hospital for almost a year, drinking and smoking all day long, and you don't hear anything outside the window, and your uncle and aunt are also very worried about you, but I am afraid that you will be sad and do not tell you in person." ”

After listening to this, my heart was extremely irritable, and all my emotions gushed out like a spring.

I stood up and shouted angrily: "Do I want to do this, do I have a choice, I am no longer the unhindered Wang Tao of the year, I am a waste now, I have nothing, I have no diploma, no ideals, no guts, and I can't even fucking sign up for a driver's license, I ask you, what else can I do besides drinking and smoking, you tell me." ”

I seem to have vented all my negative emotions to Xue Xinyan after being discharged from the hospital, and I regret it a little, why am I angry with her, people also advise me to be positive and maintain an optimistic attitude, what is wrong.

Xue Xinyan's beautiful eyes were full of tears, crystal clear, she pursed her seductive thin lips and stared at me, and then she came over and hugged me, and the fragrance of lilies instantly surrounded me, fascinated me, and made me feel at ease.

She choked up and said: "Xiao Tao, I know the boredom in your heart, but I can't slump down, from now on, no matter what you do, I will support you, even to the ends of the earth, I will be by your side without hesitation, you are the driving force for me to live, even in the future, I don't want to see you live without a purpose, in these years of struggle, every time I can't hold on, I will think of you for the first time, think of your encouragement, think of your smile, I have been looking forward to you waking up as soon as possible, Bring me positive energy, the way you are now, is something that no one wants to see, you have to force yourself to grow. ”

She held my body and sobbed, and her body shook slightly from the excitement.

I lowered my head and looked at her, this woman who didn't abandon me no matter what I became, how could I let go, I lowered my head and kissed her fragrant hair, I gently pushed her away, and a smile tugged at the corner of my mouth.

"Xinyan, thank you for accompanying me and inspiring me when I was at the most depressed time in my life."

She raised her long eyelashes, her smart eyes were full of gentle charm, her white face was delicate and beautiful, and her slender neck exuded bursts of seductive body fragrance.

I was once again succumbed to her beauty, I slowly approached her lips, she leaned back a little embarrassed, I took her by the way, and kissed her directly on her red lips as bright as strawberries.

It was like the most beautiful dream I've had in eight years, and if it was, I hope I'd never wake up.

Xue Xinyan's skin is still as compact and smooth as it was back then, she was intoxicated with spasms, her beautiful eyes were closed, her gorgeous thin lips were slightly open, and she let out a seductive moan, I gently possessed her, caressed her, this woman who had waited for me for eight years, the best youth in eight years, all confessed to a waste man lying unconscious on the hospital bed, I kissed her deeply, stroked her, I really wanted this moment to be frozen forever, to be still, time is not flowing, the years are not wasted, the beauty is not aging, Hongchen is not in the hustle and bustle.

The Spring Festival is coming, Xue Xinyan is busy in and out, a blessing word will be pasted, an auspicious painting will be pasted for a while, and a safe knot will be hung for a while, I am dazzled, but she is very busy, my father and mother are not idle, they are steaming seafood and elbows in the kitchen, my father gives full play to his superb ability to cook, each dish can make different characteristics of the pattern, the kitchen is steaming, the living room is full of weather, everyone has a smile on their faces.

This is the first year I spent at home after I woke up, and it is also the happiest and happiest year for my family in these eight years, Xue Xinyan is like a diligent little daughter-in-law, never stop wiping around, but I am leisurely, nesting on the sofa and watching TV, boring to change the channel, most of the TV is New Year's programs and advertisements, Xue Xinyan came over and pinched me, glared at me and said, "Lazy pig, don't help anything." ”

I smiled and said, "I can't even interfere with you at home." ”

She gave me another blank look and went on with her work.

I continued to watch TV, when I dialed a fashion design channel, my eyes were instantly frozen, a woman on the screen dressed in a foreign style, elegant temperament, extraordinary appearance, tall and stylish woman was doing a show, this woman is Xiao Qing, she talks eloquently, her face is delicate and easy-going, speaking English that she doesn't understand, there is a large row of clothes hanging on the hanger behind her, fashionable style, fashionable shape, these are all designed by her.

There were Chinese subtitles at the bottom of the screen, and I stared at the subtitles quickly, when the host asked her: "The Chinese New Year is coming soon, I wonder if Miss Sara has any plans to return to China for reunion?" ”

Xiao Qing smiled lightly and said, "I haven't been home for a long time, and this year I plan to go back to see my mother and friends." ”

I was in a trance, and my mind was full of pictures of being with Xiao Qing, her sweet smile, her shy cheeks, her graceful posture, is she really coming back?

At this time, Xue Xinyan walked over, looked at me curiously and said, "What are you looking at, so fascinated." ”

After saying that, I looked in the direction of the TV, and I panicked and wanted to change the channel, but because of nervousness, I threw the remote control to the ground, and with a snap, the battery fell out.

Xue Xinyan looked at the screen and said, "Look at your nervous look, Xiao Qing has long been a resident guest of this channel, and she is now the chief designer of Seas Fisheries Co.Ltd Company." ”

I was surprised after hearing it, although I don't understand what company, what chief designer, but in my heart I think Xiao Qing is very remarkable, I saw it when I was a child, she is diligent, hard-working, sensitive and intelligent, plus Xiao Qing's mother is empathetic, earnest teaching, it is difficult to think of it.

Seeing that I looked thoughtful, Xue Xinyan came over and pulled me and said, "She will be married in Bali next year, and the groom is the founder and CEO of this company." ”

I was a little bitter after hearing this, and I couldn't calm down in my heart, what unexpected things have happened in the past eight years, everything has changed beyond recognition, and the track has completely changed, they are running so fast that I don't have time to look at their backs, and they are thrown on the starting line.

At this time, the mobile phone rang a familiar Didi Didi prompt sound, it was a message from QQ, Xue Xinyan held my hand and sat on the sofa, I opened the phone, clicked on QQ, it was Sun Kai's avatar flashing, I looked at Xue Xinyan with a look of surprise, she smiled and said, "Look at what Sun Kai said." ”

I clicked on it to check, and there was still a short sentence in it, "Wait for me at home, don't run around, I'll go home for the New Year."

After reading it, I was relieved a lot, Xue Xinyan said happily: "Sun Kai is coming back, I haven't seen him for several years, I don't know how he is doing now, I heard my aunt say that he is also about to get married." ”

I secretly rejoiced in my heart, I haven't seen this kid for eight years, I miss him so much, he just needs to live well.

At this time, my mother came over and said, "What are you two muttering, quickly clean up the table and prepare for dinner." ”

I looked at the table of delicacies, and said to my father with some excitement: "You have been good at cooking in the past few years, and I have never seen many of these dishes." ”

My father smiled and said, "If I had another chance to choose, I would definitely become a chef, not to mention how much I earned, and my family could still eat various flavors of food every day." ”

My mother patted him and said, "Praise you twice and you'll gasp." ”

Xue Xinyan and I glanced at each other and laughed, and the whole family was surrounded by happy laughter.

Xue Xinyan bought two bottles of red wine outside and poured them for my mother and herself, and when I saw that people were seated, I stood up and raised my glass and said, "Today is a full year after I was discharged from the hospital, and it is also the first year I spent at home after being discharged from the hospital." ”

Speaking of this, my nose was a little sour, I rubbed my hand and continued: "Thank you to my family, Xinyan, Mom and Dad, for not giving up on me when I was unconscious, giving me hope, and giving me light. ”

Speaking of this, I choked up a little, I swallowed back, paused, and said: "In this year, I have thought a lot, I can't continue to be depressed, I can't be drunk with money, I can't live up to my family's expectations of me, this year, I read a lot of books, and I feel a lot, Semir Johnson said, optimists see hope in acne, pessimists see disasters in hope, I thank my family for my company and careful care, after the New Year, I plan to go to other places, good men are determined in all directions, Whatever the outcome, thank you in my life for lighting the way forward. ”

After speaking, he drank it all, Xue Xinyan saw this, grabbed my hand and comforted: "What can you do in the field, have you thought it through?" ”

Dad also said eagerly: "I know you have a warm blood, your character with me, cynical, to the field, you will not restrain your temper, and lack of social experience, you will definitely suffer, a few days ago I talked to the leader of the factory, want to find a civilian job for you, you first experience two years, in the field is not too late." ”

After he finished speaking, he took a big sip himself.

My mother looked at me worriedly and said, "Yes, Xiaotao, you can't run away by yourself because you feel sad, now there are mixed fish and dragons outside, you will inevitably be bullied and deceived, you have no social experience at all, what can you do when you go out, or listen to your father, go to the factory for two years first, and then let's make another plan." ”

I was a little short of breath, gloomy and sad, the energy of the liquor rushed into my brain, making me short of breath and my face hot, I thought about the words of my parents and Xue Xinyan, they were all thinking about me, yes, what can I do when I go to the field, go to the construction site to move bricks, or go to pick up garbage to live, no education and work experience, who will take me in.

I looked at my family, bowed my head, and said, "Okay."

After hearing this, Xue Xinyan said excitedly: "This is the style of our Wang family's eldest young master. ”

After saying that, my parents also laughed.

The table was staggered and messy, I don't know how much I drank, what everyone talked about, Xue Xinyan's cheeks were rosy, my parents were also drunk, my mother saw that I and Xue Xinyan were chatting vigorously, so she took the opportunity to say: "Xiao Tao, it has not been easy for Xinyan in the past few years, she has never found a boyfriend for you, everyone sees it in their eyes, and when you go to work in the factory to be stable, you will get married, let your parents hold their grandson as soon as possible, take care of your life, and get rid of this pimple in your heart." ”

I feel dizzy and delirious after hearing this, married?

I have never thought about this problem, although Xue Xinyan is the daughter-in-law that my parents have long taken a fancy to, she works hard at home, and in the eyes of outsiders, she has long been my Wang Tao's daughter-in-law, but in the final analysis, I have only been with Xue Xinyan for a short year, I have been lying in my sleep for eight years, she has been waiting for me in the real world for eight years, I am very sorry not to go, I want to ask me, do you like Xue Xinyan, my answer is of course yes, she is smart and clever, empathetic, good-natured, generous, knows cold and hot, beautiful and charming, etc., She has too many advantages, and I, a poor boy with no money and no power, stupid, short-tempered, and no ink on my chest, how can I be worthy of her.

My inferiority complex is at work again, I looked at Xue Xinyan beside me, she lowered her head shyly, I don't know what she was thinking, I suddenly felt good, I don't deserve such a woman.

I suddenly exclaimed, "I'm not worthy of her." ”

After hearing this, parents and Xue Xinyan were shocked, and then there was an awkward silence.

After a while, Xue Xinyan picked up the wine glass and said: "Uncle and aunt, all the things of my Xue Xinyan are given to me by you, you are my reborn parents, even if you beat me and scold me, I have no complaints, but marriage is a major event in life, which is related to the happiness of the second half of my life, I don't want to find a timid and cowardly husband, and thank you for your kindness." ”

After saying that, she finished her glass, and she staggered to her feet and said, "I'm done, let's go back to the house and rest." ”

I saw that her mood fluctuated a lot, did my words just hurt her, I hurriedly got up to help her, she pulled away my hand and said, "Don't touch me." ”

After saying that, he walked straight to his bedroom.

I was stunned in place, Wang Tao, Wang Tao, you are a wine bag and rice bag with more than enough success, not only do you have no career, but you also hurt the woman you like everywhere, you are an out-and-out bastard, straw bag.

My heart is like a knife, I hate myself inexplicably, why after a few years of sleep, I will become such a despised appearance, inactive, timid, mediocre, muddy, I clenched my fists, the strength of the wine rose, and I rushed directly into Xue Xinyan's bedroom, and said loudly: "I will marry you"

Xue Xinyan sat on the edge of the bed silently crying, she saw my menacing appearance, and sneered: "I didn't force you to marry me, I haven't shivered to the point where I can't get married." ”

I quickly walked up to her and whispered: "Xinyan, I only love you as a woman in this life, I said that I am willing to marry you, I will cheer up, the current Wang Tao is not the real Wang Tao." ”

Xue Xinyan looked at me with tears in her eyes, which made me feel love and pity, she now looks like the helpless little girl back then, making people unable to let go and extricate themselves.

The next morning, I bought all kinds of gifts, carrying large bags and small bags, and my father drove me to the house of the leader of their factory to visit, just to talk about my going to work in the factory.

The leader's family lives in a very high-end community in the north of the city, my dad went upstairs with a familiar car, rang the doorbell, and after a while, a middle-aged man with unusually lush hair and no wrinkles on his face opened the door, and my father saw the door open, so he said earnestly: "Happy New Year, Mr. Zhang." ”

Mr. Zhang looked at his father and said earnestly: "Happy New Year, Happy New Year, come in." ”

My father and I changed our shoes and walked in, handed over the gifts, and Mr. Zhang said politely, come here, why do you buy things, I am very happy that you can come.

Mr. Zhang's home decoration is very luxurious, look around, all the furniture is made of high-quality Nanmu, tea sets are also very particular, purple clay pot, tea bowl, tea tray, leakage, fairness, tea pets, etc., the whole house pattern is bright and spacious, making people feel relaxed and happy, I secretly thought, how many oceans such a house has to have.

At this time, Mr. Zhang came over and said with a smile: "This is your son, hey, this big one, he looks really standard." ”

My dad said proudly: "Mr. Zhang is too polite, my son's work...."

Mr. Zhang looked at me and said happily: "Don't worry, Lao Wang, I will go to work after the New Year, I have already said hello to the factory, and then let your son report directly." ”

My dad looked at me excitedly and said, "Do you hear me, don't you hurry up and thank Mr. Zhang." ”

I stood up a little embarrassed and said to Mr. Zhang, "Thank you, Mr. Zhang, for bothering you." ”

Mr. Zhang haha: "What's polite, work hard after work, and it will be the world of you young people in the future." ”

My father talked to Mr. Zhang about the factory again, and then hurriedly said goodbye and left.

My father sent me downstairs to his house, said to go to my colleague to pay New Year's greetings, let me go upstairs first, put me down, and drove away, I stood downstairs in the cold wind, a little unusually sad, I thought, or just go and relax, now I go upstairs is boring.

I put my hands in my pockets, wandering without purpose, the street is lit up to welcome the New Year, everyone's face is filled with happy smiles, I walk on a long street, looking around, the long street covered by snow is like a white ribbon, the brilliance is soft, a few cool breezes blow, the pines and cypress treetops on the street sway gently with the wind, falling snowflakes.

Before I knew it, I walked to the door of a compound, this is the school when I was in high school, looking at the familiar teaching building, the school gate that I can't erase in my memory, I feel a lot of emotion, I don't know how long I stood there, I feel that my feet are going to be frozen, my body is numb with the cold wind, I think I should go back.

When he was about to turn to leave, he saw a slender woman with big eyes, beautiful little red lips, and a Sassoon hair, wearing a long white woolen coat, black jeans, and delicate black leather shoes, which still gave people a youthful and beautiful atmosphere.

This is, Qin Xiaolan?