In the past seven years, Xue Xinyan has completed junior high school and high school studies under the guidance of Xiao Qing's mother, and has successfully been admitted to key universities, majoring in accounting.

After graduation, she returned to the town, obtained the accountant qualification certificate, classroom qualification certificate, etc., the ability is far beyond my imagination, she and Xiao Qing's mother partnered to open a kindergarten, she is the principal, mainly responsible for the management of students in the park and daily work, the annual income is considerable, she gave all the money she earned to her parents, said that it was as a reward for our family to take her in. She is afraid that her parents will be sad and sad, so she often goes home early after work to cook, wash clothes, and keep the house in order.

Sometimes when I hear my mother talk about Xue Xinyan over the years, I always feel sad and have a burst of colic, how can I Wang Tao be able to marry such a daughter-in-law who is very good-natured, empathetic, loyal and filial, I have nothing now, I am penniless, my talent, education, life experience, and work experience are all blank, and I am not worthy of all the efforts and efforts of Xue Xinyan.

Xiao Qing went abroad to study after graduating from high school, and the number of times she came back after graduation was limited, I heard that she was a fashion designer, earned a lot, and made a foreign boyfriend, I heard Xiao Qing's mother say that it is likely to settle abroad in the past few years, I heard that in addition to wishing her happiness, I can't have a ripple in my heart, maybe I have been asleep all these years, my mind is empty, and my thoughts are scattered. ”

I smiled dismally at myself, standing in front of the mirror and observing myself, this man who was about to run for three, with a face of vicissitudes and strangeness, this is the former high-spirited, unstoppable Wang Tao, I touched my face, tears welled up, wet the unfamiliar face, youth is gone, white clouds and dogs, ink stained red dust, the years, once the shadow side by side, the bustling long street has been laughing and talking, these, are they gone?

After graduating from high school, Sun Kai was successfully admitted to a key university, and after graduation, he worked as a department manager in a joint venture in the south, like a large company engaged in clothing production and design, 9 to 5, the garage has been started, I heard Uncle Sun say that he also made a girlfriend in high school, and he was also in a school during college, and he was going to get married in recent years, Hurt his heart, even if I was asleep all these years, I also had palpitations, it was I who stung him, it was I who was too arrogant, thinking about youth, ignorance, abandoning friendship, to enjoy that love by myself, I smiled bitterly, maybe I valued love more at that time, I don't know what I will value after all these years, has Sun Kai forgiven me?

Qin Xiaolan didn't know where to go, and then I found out from the high school homeroom teacher, she also went to study abroad after graduating from high school, and now I don't know whether it is at home or abroad, I heard that she is also engaged in fashion design, maybe this major is more popular, so everyone chose this major, I think of her lovely Sassoon head, playful face, and youthful atmosphere all over the body, simply and bravely said that she loves me, remembering that year at the school gate, she grabbed me and said, "I like you." ”

The sweet and lovely face, the unhesitating dedication, made me even more sad.

Suddenly remembered the QQ friends I had added in the Internet café in those years, I picked up the smartphone that my dad bought me newly, downloaded a QQ software, after opening it, the phone rang for a long time before it stopped, there were messages from my classmates in high school before, probably all of them were the squad leader's cheers, and the squad leader got better quickly.

I looked up and down, suddenly, I saw Sun Kai's avatar flashing, there was only one message in it, I looked at the date and time, it was sent four years ago, click on the dialog box, there is only a short sentence in it, and it is written: If you still treat me as a brother, wake up quickly.

I looked at the tears in my eyes, sobbing, Sun Kai is still my brother, he forgave me, I was immediately very happy, and the burden in my heart was also released.

I hurriedly typed in the input box: Thank you for still treating me as a brother.

I rubbed my red and swollen eyes, closed the dialog box, and looked down, Xiao Qing's avatar had two messages, I clicked in, the first message was eight years ago, the second message was four years ago, the first one wrote: Can you bear to leave me alone, if you can't bear it, wake up, wake up quickly.

The second article reads: I'm sorry Wang Tao, I can't wait for you, I want to choose my own life.

I clutched my chest, there was a heart-rending pain that made me unable to breathe, and all the joys and sorrows of the world were painful, even if I looked back on it many years later, it would make people cry silently.

I shouldn't be sad, let alone selfish, Xiao Qing has her own sky, her own life ideals and goals, she can live happily now is my greatest gratification, why am I depressed and sentimental, thinking of this, I wiped away my tears and continued to check the QQ message.

The last message is Qin Xiaolan's, there are more than 300 of them, I am dazzled, and the most written in it is: dear, get better quickly, go play with me, dear, I miss you, when will you go back to school, dear, I went to the hospital to see you, you slept like a dead pig, no matter how you screamed, you refused to wake up, dear, I studied liberal arts, and I want to be a writer in the future......

I saw the end from the beginning to the end, with a happy smile on the corner of my mouth, time passed in a hurry, and now Qin Xiaolan will still dare to love and hate like he did back then, without hesitation, I smiled and shook my head.

I saw the last few messages, also four years ago, the message read: Honey, Mom and Dad have to let me study abroad, I don't want to go, I want to stay in the small town with you, I don't want to go to college, I cry every day, they are unmoved, saying that this matter is not negotiable, you wake up quickly, I miss you so much.

Seeing this, my nose was sour again, and I twisted my eyebrows with my hands and continued to look down.

The following message was sent at an interval of three months, and it was also the last one of Qin Xiaolan's QQ message, which wrote a lot: dear, I'm leaving, I'm going to cross the ocean to study abroad, you must wait for me to come back, I'll go to see you when I come back, so you have to wake up quickly, I don't want to go back and see you lying on the hospital bed and continue to fall asleep, I will make you beautiful clothes, you are tall and handsome, you are a model for me, I will make you one every day, dress you up beautifully, you are not allowed to mess with flowers and grass, otherwise I will take you off, Hum! Then we are giving birth to a few dolls, buying a big house by the sea, living happily there, no one can disturb us, the premise of these is that you have to wake up to implement it, don't let me down, love you Xiaolan.

I finished reading the message, mixed with joy and sorrow, sorrow like a tide, Xiaolan Ya Xiaolan, I really hope you can live happily, you can live happily every day, I am content, I clicked on the input box, and wrote in it: I woke up.

Just five words were sent, I don't know if she still needs this software.

I put down my phone, bored, my mother asked me to apply for a driver's license these days, and since I forgot, I put on my clothes and went out.

Over the years, our small town has changed a lot, the surrounding high-rise buildings are higher, the streets have more vehicles, everyone looks down at the phone, I wonder, what is the attraction in this mobile phone, so that they are so reluctant to put down, I walked on the street in a trance, I couldn't figure out the direction, I heard my mother say that the place to apply for a driver's license is here, but in front of me is a fruit supermarket, there is no driving school application center.

At this time, there was a string of prompt ringtones in my mobile phone, I was startled, took it out to check, it was Xue Xinyan's beautiful avatar, I saw it was a WeChat video call, so I clicked the green answer button, a moment later, Xue Xinyan on the other side of the screen stood in front of a group of children, she pointed the camera at herself, and looked very charming and colorful under the light, she saw me with a wooden face, so she smiled and said: "Why did you run to the street, didn't you let you stay at home." ”

I looked at her on the screen, in a trance, and after a moment I said, "I, I want to sign up for a driver's license, but I don't remember where this place is." ”

Xue Xinyan on the screen covered her mouth and smiled brightly, her beautiful eyes were clear and bright, and her red lips were still the same as they were back then, which would still make my heart move, she smiled and said, "Where are you, I'll pick you up, stand there and don't move." ”

I looked around, the place was both familiar and unfamiliar, I couldn't name the street, she saw that I looked confused and helpless, and smiled again and said, "You send me the location, I'll go find you." ”

I was stunned for a moment and said, "What, how?" ”

She patiently taught me the operation process, I looked for a long time before sending it to her, I stood on the street, as if abandoned by the world, it seemed so out of place, I looked around, saw a small supermarket behind me, and walked in, bought a box of cigarettes, opened the cigarette case and took out one, and smoked.

Since I got home, I learned to smoke, I think I can find my former self in the smoke, I remember when I was in school, I hated my dad smoking the most, what second-hand smoke said, hurt the body, don't think about the next generation, I looked at my current self, and suddenly remembered a sentence: The most terrifying thing about growing up is that you may become the kind of person you once looked down on.

I was standing on the street smoking a cigarette thoughtfully, Xue Xinyan drove my father's off-road vehicle to stop in front of me, she opened the car door, and walked out of the car with a graceful figure, she is not fat or thin now, she is wearing light makeup, dark brown hair is coiled on her head, her white neck is becoming more and more delicate, her slender legs are stylish, she is wearing a very fashionable brown windbreaker, her legs are wearing dark gray skinny jeans, and her feet are wearing a pair of small white shoes.

She walked up to me, stretched out her hand and snatched the cigarette from my hand, threw it into the trash can behind her, and said with an angry face: "Why are you smoking again, didn't you tell you to smoke less, it's not good for your health." ”

I pursed my lips and said with a smile, "I also told my dad that." ”

She slapped me and said, "I'll be stiff, go, I'll take you to sign up." ”

I suddenly had a sense of being led to school by adults to report to school, which made my heart feel cold, and I was sentimental, if there were no eight years of sleep, I was there now, what were I doing, would I be the dumb look I am now, even signing up for someone else to take it, I lowered my head with low self-esteem, looked at my own pair of sneakers, my heart was full of mixed feelings, mixed feelings, I want to leave the city, I want to go out, I can't be negative, I want to find back that full of sunshine, self-confidence, passion, I had a dream, my heart was fluctuating, my expression was dull, I stood there motionless, my eyes were filled with tears at some point.

Seeing this, Xue Xinyan came over and grabbed my hand and comforted: "Xiao Tao, it's all over, don't think about it, people can't live in memories, let alone in dreams, you have to cheer up, in order to have the courage to start a new life, you have to live what you want, show others, I will be by your side when it comes to difficulties." ”

After saying that, she held my hands tightly, I raised my head, hugged her tightly into my arms, and whispered: "Thank you, Xinyan, thank you for not leaving all these years, thank you for never leaving, thank you for everything you have done for this family." ”

She patted me on the back and comforted: "Xiao Tao, this home is my home, no matter where I go, I have to return to the roots, the birds love the old forest, the pond fish thinks of the old abyss, if there was no appearance of you, I would probably go astray and can't turn back, if there is no you, I don't know what struggle is, what is hard work, it is you who gave me strength and let me start again, so don't thank me in the future, okay." ”

She spoke very gently and poignantly, her voice was as melodious as a lark in the morning, she analyzed everything in detail, and all these qualities I did not have, I gently pushed her away, looking at her somewhat haggard face, once again I was lost in it, and I never got tired of looking at it.

Seeing me staring at her directly, she looked away a little embarrassedly, changed the subject and said, "Let's go, don't waste time, or the place where the driving school registration is closed should be closed." ”

I scratched my head bitterly and said, "You come out now, it's okay at the kindergarten, will it affect you." ”

She smiled and said, "Don't worry about it, there are more than ten teachers over there." ”

I saw that she was smiling like a flower, the sun was shining, and the gloomy mood in her heart was also reduced, and it seemed that when she was in a bad mood, she had to stay with people full of positive energy, and the effect was quite good.

The car turned around, I was dizzy and drowsy, Xue Xinyan looked at me and smiled helplessly, she pushed me and said, "Don't sleep, young master, it's coming soon." ”

After saying that, she stopped the car, and I looked at the very congested in front of me, the cars were one after the other, and the water was blocked.

I smiled bitterly and looked at the street, this small town has changed so much in eight years, I was embarrassed, next to the car was a temple, I asked in amazement: "When did we build a temple in this small city?" I remember that in the past, I had to take a car to other places to worship Buddha and ask for children. ”

Xue Xinyan looked at the front intently and said: "The temple has been built for more than four years, and the government has seen that there are a lot of people worshipping Buddha in our city, and this temple was built four years ago, and the incense is particularly vigorous, and all kinds of people come to worship every day. ”

Hearing this, I turned my head to look at her, the little girl who used to follow me and cry at every turn has now become a heroic, moving professional woman, which makes me feel a lot of emotion, time is really a good thing, from nothing to something, from there to nothing, always makes people have no time to sigh and rush by.

Seeing that I had been staring at her, she turned her head and wondered, "What's the matter, I have gold on my face?" ”

After speaking, he smiled.

I turned my face in a panic and continued to look out of the car window, this temple was built very elegantly and chic, with yellow tiles and red walls, carved beams and painted buildings, cornices and corridors, and there was an endless stream of people coming in and out, some prayed earnestly, some came to repay their wishes, some knelt down to ask for peace, and some children chased and frolicked at the door, looking around, a lively and peaceful scene.

For nearly a quarter of an hour, the car continued to drive, turned a street, and came to the place where I was going to apply for a driver's license, the hall was empty, only a woman about 40 years old at the front desk was playing with her mobile phone, I walked over and said, "I want to apply for a driver's license." ”

The woman didn't even raise her head and said, "Fill in the form on the table, a copy of the ID card, a one-inch blue background photo..."

I looked down at the rules and regulations on the form, confused, and couldn't put pen to paper.

Seeing this, Xue Xinyan smiled and snatched the carbon pen, brushing and filling in, I looked at her with a shocked face, she even knew my ID number, and then pulled me to the next door to take an inch of photos, copy ID cards, etc., I just followed her numbly.

After everything was done, she said to me with a relaxed face: "Hungry, young master, what do you want to eat, I invite you." ”

I saw that she was bright and cheerful, and her words were full of seductive charm.

I said, "You can eat anything." ”

Seeing that I was a little resigned, she took my hand and said, "I'll take you to a restaurant that you're sure to be impressed by." ”

I was a little stunned, impressed? Have I been there before?

The car stopped opposite a middle school, and I looked at the middle school and suddenly realized that this was not the high school that Sun Kai and Xiao Qing studied.

The restaurant opposite is the restaurant where I beat up the apes, but I didn't expect this restaurant to be open, my heart was surging, and the memories of the past rushed into my mind.

Xue Xinyan pulled me in, and the boss saw me and hurriedly walked over and said, "Oh, look who's coming." ”

He had a smile and courtesy on his face.

I asked tentatively, "Do you still know me?" ”

The boss smiled and said: "Who doesn't know you in this small city, all the headlines say, in the past, the boy was killed in the valley, and he woke up suddenly after sleeping for eight years." ”

I was in a bit of a trance, savoring the words, and stood there motionless.

Seeing this, the boss hurriedly said to Xue Xinyan: "Hurry up and take your partner to sit inside, there is a private room inside." ”

Xue Xinyan smiled and pulled me towards the private room of the restaurant.