"You mind the relationship between me and Lu Chengying, but without Lu Chengying, how could there be He Jiaran now, if it weren't for Lu Chengying, I would have died in that fire a long time ago, if it weren't for Lu Chengying, who would take me back to the imperial capital, if it wasn't for Lu Chengying, who would help me deal with the debt collectors in my family? If it weren't for Lu Chengying, I would have found a place to commit suicide by jumping off a building or going into the sea to be a young lady, how could I still stand in front of you? ”

"I never thought about anything with Lu Chengying, whether you believe it or not, I love you in my heart, I always love you, no matter what you do, I will love you, I don't know what your feelings are for me now, but if you still have a trace of love for me, you will respect me, whether it is personality or dignity, or my friends and family, you should respect."

After shouting these words in one breath, I gasped for breath, and Zou Moyan was silent for a long time and then gently wiped away the tears from the corners of my eyes, which was a promise: "I know, I will try my best to do it." ”

Zou Moyan is a person who does not like to compromise, in other words, he is a very serious and stubborn person, so when he said it in his mouth, I felt a lot of comfort, but what happened yesterday did happen, and I was still afraid of this, so when Zou Moyan's hand touched my waist, I instinctively shouted, "Don't." ”

"I want to take you to the soup. Do nothing else, I promise. Zou Moyan raised his hands and swore, turned around and opened the drawer, and threw the small pink pill into the trash can on the side, "This will not happen in the future." ”

Seeing his repeated assurances, I believed him with suspicion, and a lot of things happened afterwards to prove that this matter, there are two if there is one, there are three for two, and there are three for four, this kind of thing, he is surprisingly addicted.

I really didn't want to eat, I came out of his arms and lay down on the bed, Zou Moyan didn't force me, he slept late at night, probably like me, sleepless all night.

The next day I went to work as usual, and when I arrived at the line, I saw Song Li, who I hadn't seen for a while, she was sitting in her place playing with her mobile phone, she seemed to be a little haggard than before, because today she was uncharacteristically without makeup, and when I came in, I didn't see it, and her head was buried lower.

Lao Yu came to the office and asked me to go to him.

I followed Lao Yu to his office, his face was very ugly, and he threw the newspaper on the table in front of me, "He Jiaran, you disappointed me too much, the code of conduct of a bank employee is not to participate in private lending, look at what you have done!" ”

I stared at the photo on the newspaper, it was a photo of me and my brother and sister-in-law that day, my brother was hiding behind me, I faced the camera, although the shot was not very clear, but I could see that it was my appearance, and there was a shot of my sister-in-law next to it, and the title was also obvious, the crime of private lending was monstrous, and office workers had no money....

"Manager Yu, I didn't participate in this matter, and the reporter also arrived when I arrived, so I took these photos."

"I can't see if it has anything to do with you, but you have you on this photo, do you know how much impact this has had on our unit? Just now, the personnel department has been notified that your excellent place this time has been cancelled, and you are now suspending all your business, and the above wants to talk to you. ”

"What?" I grabbed the newspaper and showed it to Lao Yu, "I'll just show up and participate in private lending?" Wouldn't the industry be looking into this? ”

"He Jiaran, pay attention to your attitude. The newspaper clearly says that you are a bank clerk, so when you go to such a place, you have no resistance or no preparation? Lao Yu slapped the table, "Besides, these arrangements are all decided by the higher authorities, I'm just telling you." ”

"It was arranged by the higher authorities, or if someone saw me calculating me like this, you should know best." I took the newspaper in the palm of my hand, "Manager Yu, I don't mean to offend you, the unit is a reasonable place, I'm waiting for the relevant departments to come to talk to me, I have a new deal, if it goes well, we won't worry about the task next year, if something goes wrong with me, I think which bank I go to, people will be willing to accept me with so many customers." ”

After saying that, I went out of Lao Yu's office, in fact, I also want to test the truth of what Lao Yu just said, if it really cancels my excellent staff, it's nothing, if someone makes a big fuss about it, I think I can pick up more than this.

Because I took a big risk when I came to work in this place, and if something was discovered, my career would be over.

Sure enough, someone came to talk to me in the afternoon, and it was the president.

Lao Yu must have talked to the president before this, the president said seriously, and said that the excellent this year can not be given, let me do a good job, there will be opportunities in the future, I thought to myself, don't I just see those customers on my back, if I have nothing, it is estimated that I am ready to leave now.

I looked at his smiling face, and I couldn't help but think of Song Li, it must be painful and laborious to be a lover for such a smiling tiger.

Thinking that Song Li's delicate body had to serve at least two leaders, I could only sigh leisurely.

Song Li can still survive without performance, and I, with performance, really depends on people's faces.

This is life, what Song Li and I chose is different, and the result is also different.

When I returned to the station, it was already past lunch time, Zou Moyan called me and said that I was near our unit, and asked me if I had eaten, and I said that I had eaten, and he said that it was okay, see you in the evening.

I was a little afraid of him, and that kind of fear that emanated from my heart always permeated my whole body inadvertently.

There was no one in the office, I took my bag to a nearby fast food restaurant, ordered a rice bowl with green pepper and shredded pork, just took a bite, a pair of shiny leather shoes stopped in front of me, I raised my eyes and saw Zou Moyan, who was frowning and looking at my eating appearance, as if smiling.

"That's what you call eating out?"

I also took a bite of rice in my throat, did I spit it out, it was uncomfortable to swallow, I picked up the drink on the side and drank a few sips, Zou Moyan patted my back, "Am I so scary?" ”

I patted my chest and smoothed my breath, "What do you say, suddenly appeared in front of me, scared to death." ”

"When I called you just now, I was at the door of your unit, and I saw you running out in a hurry and coming here directly, so I followed." Zou Moyan sat down across from me and ordered the same rice bowl as me, "I want this too." ”

"Hey, don't!" I smiled at the proprietress and said, "Replace him with peppercorns, and put less salt." The soup should be spinach and egg drop soup. ”

The proprietress smiled knowingly and said to Zou Moyan, "Your girlfriend is really considerate. ”

Zou Moyan looked at me and smiled, "If you were considerate, you wouldn't have left me aside, and you would have come here to eat by yourself." ”

The proprietress was very fast, and the ten-minute effort rice bowl was served, Zou Moyan obviously didn't like this kind of public environment very much, but he didn't show the slightest dislike, he ate the dishes on the plate slowly, although his brows were furrowed, but the words of complaint were not said after all.

If it was put in the past, it was either that the oil was not good, or it was salty, or the environment was not good, or something like that, he was used to eating Western food, and it was okay to eat Chinese food once in a while, and he would go crazy if he had to eat with me every day.

After eating, Zou Moyan pulled me to walk on the street, it was already late autumn, and the clothes I was wearing were a little thin, Zou Moyan took me into his arms, I leaned on him, and I still couldn't get warm.

"Jiajia, I know what you're afraid of." Zou Moyan hugged me hard and walked to a park nearby, there were not many pedestrians on the road, the two of us walked on the winding path in the park, his hand gently rubbed my shoulder, "You know, no matter what I do, I regret it more than you." ”

"So you hurt, I hurt more, you can't forgive yourself, I can't forgive myself for everything, I want to be good to you, I think of a thousand ways to think of too superficial and ignorant, I'm in front of you, like a clown who has been awkward."

My feet stepped on the leaves on the road, creaking, thinking about Zou Moyan's words in my heart, it was really impossible for me not to mind these things, and I, in the fog of love, slowly groped my own way, I thought it was full of thorns, and if I looked closely, it was a cliff.

If you walk on the thorny road, you will be covered with bruises, and what about the cliffs? Break your bones!

"None of us used to be like this, although you were sullen a lot of times, but most of them spoiled me, I could do whatever I wanted, we didn't have to guess each other's thoughts together, but now, you made me feel fearful, I was always thinking about what you were thinking, but you didn't say anything."

Zou Moyan obviously hugged me tighter, but I didn't speak, I leaned on his chest and sighed leisurely, "Sure enough, everything can't go back." ”

Zou Moyan stopped, with anger on his face: "What do you mean? ”

I reached out and smoothed the frowning eyebrows in the center of his eyebrows, and my fingers delicately swiped the bridge of his stiff nose to the thin lips that were pursed, "I don't mean anything else, I just came here, and I felt it, Mo Yan, everything I did, everything I said, changed with my mood and situation, it didn't make any sense, it was very simple." And you? ”

I stared at his dark eyes, the black whirlpool in them seemed to drown me, and I was just about to open my mouth to say the next words, when Zou Moyan held my face, and the delicate and lingering kiss fell.

I know him, he's not emotional, he's scared.