Xu Leqiu and Su Wen were both born in the late 90s of the last century, and they were also in the era of vigorous family planning, but their fates were completely different.

As soon as Su Wen was born, as the eldest daughter of the Su family, according to the local policy, there was no need to fine the first child, and if you wanted to give birth to a second child, the fine at that time was sky-high for the poor people. So, in that era, many patriarchal families, in order to avoid the sky-high fine of the second child, it was best to give birth to a boy in the first child to ensure the succession of the family.

In the 90s, infant abandonment was a crime, but in remote towns and cities, such deeds occurred one after another due to lax supervision. What's more, in some rural areas, in order to escape the fines for overbirth, the baby girl is secretly abandoned in the mountains and forests, leaving her to perish by herself, which is so cruel that it is outrageous.

Xu Leqiu suffered the fate of being abandoned by his family soon after he was born. However, Su Wen's family, instead of abandoning her, cherished her daughter as a pearl in her palm, and even delayed giving birth to a second child for the sake of her daughter's birth in the era of financial constraints.

Xu Leqiu's fate as soon as he was born was far less good than Su Wen's, born in the cold and bleak November, and a few days before the full moon, he was abandoned by his biological parents at the door of a stranger's house in the winter wind in the small county town. Maybe Xu Leqiu should feel lucky from the bottom of his heart, if he is abandoned in the wilderness and forests, not to mention being picked up and raised by well-wishers, it is a great luck not to be eaten by wild beasts.

Born in late autumn and abandoned in early winter. This is the fate that Xu Leqiu faced as soon as he was born.

Xu Leqiu is the adopted daughter of the Xu family.

Fifteen years ago, on an early winter morning when snowflakes were flying, the sky was covered in gloomy darkness, and the abandoned babies who had not yet reached the full moon were placed in simple bamboo baskets, wrapped in thin winter coats and covered with a thin quilt. The abandoned baby sucked the heavy cold frost of early winter in the morning before dawn, and the snowflakes floated on the young cheeks of the abandoned baby who were blown red by the bleak cold wind. Cold is the first consciousness that this abandoned baby has just experienced when he comes to this world.

The sight was gray with the world in his eyes, and the dark sky was like a huge shadow, with a hideous face, sweeping towards the abandoned baby. Great fear enveloped the young heart of the abandoned baby like cold air blowing from all directions. She had to cry, and only by crying all the time, could she soothe the fear of abandonment in her young heart.

The Xu family and his wife heard the cry of the baby outside the door, and when they opened the door in the morning, they were surprised to find that the little face in the bamboo basket in front of the door was frozen red, and the cry resounded through the abandoned baby in the morning with heavy frost. It's a girl, whose parents are so cruel? Leaving a baby who is not yet a full moon old in the streets with winter snowflakes?

The Xu family and his wife lovingly hugged the crying baby, and Xu's mother gently rubbed the baby's red cheeks, recalling the first daughter she had discarded with her own hands a few years ago. In the past few years, even though she gave birth to a healthy son the next year after abandoning her daughter, the pain and self-blame of losing her daughter have made Xu's mother depressed for a long time. Holding the abandoned baby in her arms whose face was red from the cold, Mother Xu instantly cried into a tearful person.

Whose parents are so ruthless as to abandon a baby who is not yet a full moon old on the streets in the cold and windy streets of early winter? But who is in a position to blame the parents who abandoned the abandoned baby? Mother Xu thought sadly, perhaps her behavior of abandoning her daughter back then was more cruel than the parents who abandoned the baby.

On that morning when the snowflakes fell, the Xu family adopted the abandoned baby who had been abandoned at their doorstep. Even for the sake of this girl, their family has to bear a fine that is almost sky-high. On the day they scraped together enough fines and happily went to the household registration, the Xu family and his wife took the word "Le" in the girl's name.

Born in late autumn and abandoned by your biological parents on the streets where snowflakes fall in early winter, then Mom and Dad hope that you will be a happy child in the future.

However, the child named "Le Qiu" did not get the happiness he deserved since he was a child. In Xu Leqiu's memory, she learned from the elders of her adoptive parents' family when she was very young that she was the adopted daughter of the Xu family. At the age of four or five, when I was ignorant, I heard the words "picked up" from my grandmother for the first time, and the little Leqiu didn't understand, what did "picked up" mean?

"Xiaoqiu, when you grow up, you have to be filial to your parents! You are a child they picked up, in order to register for you, I asked relatives to borrow money, and my coffin book was lent to your parents! Do you think you want to be filial to your parents in the future? Xiaoqiu? Gray-haired, wearing reading glasses sitting in the living room of the old tiled house, he often said to Xu Leqiu's grandmother.

Four or five-year-old Xu Leqiu was confused, with a pair of big round eyes, and asked his grandmother, "Grandma, what do you mean by picking it up?" ”

Grandma squinted at little Xu Leqiu, "What you pick up is what you pick up!" ”

"What does that mean? Grandma and grandma, you tell Qiuqiu! Qiuqiu wants to know! Xiao Leqiu faced her grandmother's dumbness, and instantly turned into a curious baby, pouting her little mouth, and her father was angry with her grandmother, shaking her grandmother's thin arm.

"You'll find out when you're older!" Grandma sighed, still reading in pieces, "What I picked up is to say, you don't have to call me grandma, you are not my own granddaughter!" You don't have to call your mom and dad their mom and dad, they're not your mom and dad! ”

Xiao Leqiu was coquettish, "Why? I'm going to call my grandmother, you're going to call my mom and dad, I'm going to call mom and dad mom and dad!" Hum! ”

"You can call it if you like! If you don't call them mom and dad now, who are you going to call them? If you enter our house, it will be our home from now on! ”

It wasn't until he was six or seven years old that he had a sense of the world, and Xu Leqiu heard the words "picked up children" from more and more relatives or neighbors, and gradually understood the fact that he was picked up by his parents.

When he first came into contact with the fact that he was not Xu's father and Xu's mother gave birth to a daughter, Xu Leqiu cried alone in the quilt for a day, his parents came home from work, Xu Leqiu cried with a pair of eyes swollen to the size of walnuts, sobbed and kept asking his parents if it was true, but finally got a positive response from his parents.

"Qiuqiu, you are indeed not the biological daughter of me and your father, but don't worry too much about this, since you were a child, your parents have raised you, and we have watched you grow up! We are not your biological parents, but we are also your biological parents! This does not affect the intimacy of the relationship between us! Mom and Dad will always love you, and you will always love Mom and Dad, right? Mother Xu hugged Xiao Leqiu, whose eyes were red and swollen from crying, and said softly to confess.

Xiao Leqiu heard her mother's words, her sobbing crying finally stopped, and her little hand holding her mother became more and more powerful, "I will always love my parents, I only have you and my parents!" ”

The panicked heart was comforted by the adoptive father and adoptive mother, and from then on, although Xu Leqiu understood the fact that he was not the biological daughter of the Xu family, he regarded himself as the biological daughter of the Xu family in his heart. However, the older he grows, the more criticism Xu Leqiu hears from others.

Studying in kindergarten and primary school in his hometown county, Xu Leqiu would always be sent back to his grandmother's house in the countryside by Xu's father and mother during the summer vacation. When the children in the countryside were playing wildly, Xu Leqiu would always hear all kinds of discussions from the neighbor's aunt who was sitting at the door of the house eating melon seeds and chatting.

"Xu Guoqiang picked up a female doll at the age of thirty, and she looks very handsome!"

"Is that the girl doll? He wouldn't want to be a child bride for his son, would he? Hahaha! ”

"Child daughter-in-law, you are big, everyone has a household registration, and I heard that the fine is 6,000 yuan! We can build a beautiful house in our countryside! ”

"There have been so many strange things these days! If you don't give birth to a baby, you still go to pick up the baby that others don't want to raise! ”

"You don't know, Xu Guoqiang originally gave birth to a female doll, he was poor in those years, he couldn't afford a female doll, and he had to give birth to a male doll later, and the first female doll was thrown away! I don't know where it was thrown, in the streets and alleys of those years, in the deep mountains and old forests, where there are no children who have been thrown away, they are all unhandled, and some are sick, and no one picks them up! The girl who was lost in Xu Guoqiang's family is estimated to have died a long time ago! ”

"Then what did he do when he picked up this girl? Haven't you already given birth to a son? ”

"Guoqiang and his daughter-in-law like it! As soon as I opened the door in the morning, I saw a female doll lying in the basket on the ground, still alive, and remembered the first baby she had lost, and insisted that she wanted to keep the female doll she picked up! It's just borrowing money everywhere and registering a female doll! She even came to me to borrow money back then! My own family was so poor that I couldn't open the pot in those years, how could I have the money to borrow her! ”

"Then this girl is still very fateful! Other dolls were left in the snow, not to mention being picked up by others and brought back to raise, they were already angry! ”

"That's right, this girl doll said that her life is not good, and her life is good!"

"That's it, you see how well she plays with the wild babies in our village!"

So, accustomed to listening to the ridicule of relatives and talkative neighbors after dinner, Xu Leqiu recognized the fact that he was picked up since he was a child. When I was innocent when I was a child, I didn't know what "hate" was, but I understood hatred too early. For his biological parents, Xu Leqiu felt hatred when he thought of it since he was a child.

"Xu Leqiu, picked it up! Xu Leqiu, picked it up! ”

The little friends in the countryside have long heard the fact that Xu Leqiu was picked up from their parents, and during the Tongyan Wuji period, relying on the fact that he was born in the family, he inexplicably gave birth to a lot of superiority, and sang with his good partners in the village as if he was picking it up. Even often holding small hands to form a circle to circle Xu Leqiu in the center of the circle, a group of friends around Xu Leqiu, the little faces that were red and tanned by the sun were all proud and excited smiles, and the immature voice chirped like a bird, "Xu Leqiu, picked it up!" Xu Leqiu, picked it up! ”

"Xu Leqiu, picked it up! Xu Leqiu, picked it up! ”

In Xu Leqiu's dream, these six words, which are played infinitely and repeatedly, appear countless times in Xu Leqiu's dreams.

Xu Leqiu has been repeating a nightmare since she was a child, no matter the scene in the dream changes and changes, the core of the dream is always one - the little Xu Leqiu stood on the cold and bleak street with tears streaming down her face, her biological parents left her in place, turned around and left without looking back, she wanted to move, wanted to run to catch up with her parents, wanted to ask them why they abandoned her, but her legs were filled with lead and she couldn't move, except for the bitterness in her throat, she couldn't make any sound. The wind was roaring, and the snowflakes were falling in the dream, but the young Xu Leqiu was dressed thinly and shivered in place.

It's so cold, it's so cold, I really feel the cold in my dreams.

Whenever he woke up from a nightmare, Xu Leqiu touched his wet face, and his immature face was full of wet and sticky tears.