Before the moon before the flowers, the night was warm, and the charming and wonderful drunkenness made me reluctant to wake up for a long time.

At dawn, Wang Ling woke me up, and there was still the smell of last night's wine on her body, mixed with some faint body fragrance, so that the whole room was filled with a sultry taste.

"Little lazy pig, it's time to get up, aren't you going home today."

Wang Ling scratched my chest with her fingers, feeling itchy, I grabbed her hand, slowly opened her eyes, and said hoarsely, "What time is it?" ”

"I don't know, it's not too early anyway."

She put her arms around my neck again and whispered, "Be sure to come back early." ”

"Hmm."

I sat up slowly, picked up my phone to check, at 6:30 in the morning, the journey home was at least about thirteen hours.

I hurriedly dressed and washed, and picked up the luggage again, Wang Ling looked at me in a daze, as if there was a lot to say, I glanced at her, and whispered: "After I leave, you can go home, don't wander outside, after all, the Spring Festival is a day of family reunion, and it is not good for you to wander outside alone." ”

She stumbled to put on her clothes, brushed her hair and said, "Don't worry about me, just take care of yourself." ”

I sighed softly and walked out of the basement, when a cold wind howled and made me shiver, the courtyard was depressed, with dead leaves all over the ground, like a soft carpet.

The laurel trees swayed gently and made a clattering sound, and a few birds chirped and flew by, as if to tell people that spring was coming.

I boiled four salted duck eggs, took out two and put them in the bag, ready to eat on the road, and steamed two steamed buns, the noodles were not good, the steamed buns were dull in color, and the top bloomed, but it was good for breakfast.

Wang Ling's face had a faint tiredness, she sat on the bench, supporting her chin with her hand, as if she was dozing off, and as if she was thinking about a problem, I looked back at her and said: "Hey, have you ever eaten mustard shredded pickles, not the kind sold in the supermarket, they are pickled at home, they can be used for frying, or mixed into side dishes, the taste is very good." ”

She blinked, but she didn't say a word, and there was a sad look on her dull cheeks.

I saw that she was sluggish and haggard, so I began to talk to myself: "The taste of northerners is more heavy, due to the cold climate, we all like to drink liquor, I don't know if you have seen the ondol, I slept on it when I was a child, it was very warm, I heard my dad say, I often live on the ondol, and I can also treat rheumatism." ”

I put a bowl of millet porridge in front of her, she still had that stunned expression, I pursed my lips, and continued: "So, when you have time, you must go to the north to take a look and experience the customs there." ”

"Will you marry me?"

"What?"

She said this sentence for no reason, which confused me, and the heat in the pot was rising, baking the back of my hand, and I hurriedly retracted it, looked at her and said, "Why did you suddenly talk about this?" ”

Seeing the sentimentality on her face, I tried to keep my voice as low as possible so as not to touch her sensitive nerves.

She looked at me intently and said lightly, "Will you marry me home?" ”

I was really stumped by this question, I didn't know how to answer her, whether I was greedy, selfish, or outright cowardly, and in this moment, I understood what confusion was, what deception was.

When she saw that I was looking dull and staring blankly, she stood up, walked up to me, and asked softly, "Are you not happy with me?" ”

In the face of her inquiry, I can't answer calmly, since I met her, I feel that I have changed, I have become more fond of fighting, more loving life, more smiling, the kind of haze that has been entrenched in my heart for a long time, I don't know when, also cleared the fog, and saw the light again, if I must be asked to answer, I would say that I am really happy.

Maybe everything is full of helplessness, Xinyan has never given up on me, even in that bedridden years, she will never give up, waiting hard, how can I Wang Tao have this love, how many years have passed, I can't face my dirty, vulgar and ugly heart, where lives a Wang Tao who is stained with flowers and grass, red apricots out of the wall, he is more and more hideous and ridiculous, inch by inch, so that I don't dare to examine now, what you used to be like.

The world is thin, people are evil, the rain sends the dusk flowers to fall, the wind is dry, the tears are remnant, the desire to write about the heart, the monologue oblique, two bitter tears inexplicably overflow the eyes, slide across the cheeks, and condense into a crystal clear teardrop on the chin.

Wang Ling helped me wipe away my tears and said affectionately: "Do you know the love story of Lu You and Tang Wan? ”

I rubbed my eyes, looked at her with an ignorant face, she smiled, and said softly: "The east wind is evil, the joy is thin, a sorrow, a few years away, the spring is like the old, the people are empty and thin, the tears are red and the shark is transparent, the peach blossoms are falling, the idle pond pavilion, although the mountain league is here, the brocade book is difficult to support." ”

She walked to the bench and sat down, looked at me and said: "Lu You and Tang Wan are both born and scholarly families, but their love is shallow, I thought it was the end of the mountain alliance and the sea oath, and the ending of flying with wings and wings, but they couldn't escape the tragic fate of one separate and two wide, and the former Shen family's garden also became Lu You's last emotional sustenance." ”

"What the hell are you trying to say?"

I was stunned in place, I had never seen her as serious as now, when she was a chapter of the chapter, but after thinking about it, she had a solid family background, and she was a turtle student, and she still had something in her stomach, and it was understandable to say two lines of poetry casually, but what I was not used to was that she hid needles in her cotton and dotted me in a roundabout way.

She glared at me and said thoughtfully: "I don't know how deep your relationship with your ex-girlfriend is, but now you have to be clear that feelings are cultivated little by little, as long as you have me in your heart, the bamboo basket will not be empty, no matter how strong and brave a person is, it is impossible to have two relationships in your heart at the same time, understand?" ”

I was completely confused by her, I looked down at my watch, it was already eight o'clock in the morning, I hurriedly took a bite of the steamed bun, put a bowl of millet porridge in the pot, sat on the bench, and ate quickly.

Wang Ling laughed and said: "Another reason is that you are afraid that others will poke your backbone, especially your relatives and friends, you feel that your face is precious and your dignity is paramount, and you can't stand them talking cold behind your back." ”

"Can you let me have a quiet breakfast, besides, why do you talk about those trivial things for no reason, there must be a road before the car reaches the mountain, and the boat will naturally go straight to the bridge, and there will always be a bright day."

I took a sip of porridge, felt it was hot, unscrewed another bottle of mineral water, and drank half of it.

After hearing this, Wang Ling said disapprerovitically: "No wonder you will be defeated and do nothing, it turns out that you have to take one step at a time to see everything, and you have no foresight, so that's why..."

"Don't talk about it."

I snapped and threw the chopsticks on the table, stood up and walked to the basement, Wang Ling was full of calm and relaxed, the clouds were light and light, she felt that I couldn't bear the loneliness, and shrugged my shoulders after stealing the forbidden fruit and pretended to be relaxed, but no one can understand my entanglement and helplessness at this moment, it is an unspeakable torment, I don't even have a word to face my family and relatives and friends, they will ask me how Xinyan is, when to plan the wedding, when to hug the child and return together, I can't answer, far away lovers, she can't answer.

I carried my luggage, locked the iron door in the basement, walked to the yard, and saw that Wang Ling still put on that look of helplessness, I frowned, walked out of the yard, threw the luggage into the car, turned around and said, "I, I'm leaving, you, you take care of yourself." ”

Wang Ling stood up with a hula, two tears flashed in her beautiful eyes, she bit her lower lip tightly, and her beautiful cheeks were full of complaint, sweeping away the arrogant image just now.

A moment later, she walked quickly towards me, threw herself into my arms, crying tears and tears, unable to cry, and her thin and thin body was trembling slightly.

The idle thief wandered around with nothing to do, and I frowned and glared at him, "Get out of here, stay away from here." ”

The thief said sadly: "Yo, your girlfriend is so beautiful, when did you change it?" ”

Wang Ling raised her head and looked at him with teary eyes.

The thief pursed his chapped lips and said casually: "Hey, send you a thousand miles, you have to say goodbye in the end, why bother to be so sad?" ”

I pushed Wang Ling away and rushed directly to him, the thief smiled wryly, he said unhurriedly: "If you dare to hit me, I will tell you both about it, which do you think is more important?" ”

Hearing this, my head slammed, I had never thought about this problem, Wang Ling walked up to me, glared at him and said, "You just say it, I'm really not afraid of you playing this trick." ”

The thief clenched his arms and did not speak, but only kicked the stones on the road with a wicked smile on his face, and looked very unflat.

"You go back to the yard and wait for me."

I turned around, wiped the tears from Wang Ling's cheeks, and pushed her into the yard again.

Wang Ling sat on the bench, looked at me with a panicked face, and said, "You are not allowed to fight." ”

I nodded and walked out of the yard.

The thief leaned against my car, still looking unafraid, and I grabbed him by the collar and walked around the corner of the yard.

"Hey, you're really not afraid of me..."

"Smack..."

I slammed my fist into his eye socket, and he let out a beastly wail.

"I'm the one who hates threats the most, do you think you can do whatever you want by grabbing a little bit of me? To tell you the truth, I'm really not afraid of you going out to make a big fuss, the shelves that were laid out earlier a few days ago, and the electric car in front of the supermarket, did you steal it? ”

I lowered my head, my face was hideous, I gritted my teeth, and he turned his face away tremblingly, as if suppressed by my momentum.

I sneered, helped him wipe away the blood stains from his eyes, and said softly, "I'm a person who advocates fair trade, if you don't want to go to prison." ”

His mouth was half-open, his expression was dull and dull, and he looked demented, and I roared again: "Do you understand? ”

His head was like a chicken pecking rice, and he nodded frequently, and a wicked smile rose on the corner of my mouth, and he helped him up and said, "That's right, and when I come back after the New Year, if I lose anything in this yard, hehe." ”

After he listened, the pattern of the chick pecking the rice quickly changed to the rattle mode, and he shook it and said, "No, no." ”

I nodded in satisfaction, kicked him again, and said, ", dog-like man." ”

Like a little animal lost in the jungle, he ran out of my sight in a panic.

I stood at the entrance of the courtyard, looked at Wang Ling and said, "This time I really left, you take care." ”

After speaking, I got into the car, and glanced at Wang Ling through the window, she was still sitting on the bench, bitter tears came out of her eyes, and the sad and sad expression revealed a reluctant light, as if to tell me that the coming day is long, and the water will flow for a long time.

The car drove out of the city, but my thoughts were scattered, very unpleasant, that kind of mixed feelings, mixed sourness, let me really believe Wang Ling's words, you can't have two feelings in your heart at the same time, even if there is, it is full of deception and lies.

I shook my head, trying to shake off these troubled thoughts, I smirked, it was really a flower floating and artesian, a kind of lovesickness, two places of leisure.

On the radio in the car, he said a very vivid sentence: It is difficult to cross the mountain, and those who are sad and lose their way meet in Pingshui, and they are all guests from other places.