What was pulling her on? It was so dull that it looked like it was about to fall into the abyss beneath its feet. Su Wenming was standing on his legs, but his whole person seemed to be constantly falling.

The heart is finally faintly filled with bitterness.

If it was in the past, in the face of the unattainable first place, Su Wen might have laughed and only secretly admired the strength of the excellent. But now, how can she laugh it off?

"Suwen? What's wrong with you? Zhang Xiaoxi's fleshy little hand waved in front of the girl's eyes, "Aren't you improving!" Why do you look so lost? ”

Seeing that the girl was still in a state of distraction, Zhang Xiaoli continued to babble: "We have all moved forward!" Hey, I finally did well in the math test this time, and I did well in the political history test again! ”

Su Wen suddenly woke up, and only then began to find his fifth place, and his eyes swept over the tables to browse the results of each subject. The column next to the final total score shows the liberal arts rankings and grade rankings, as well as the forward or backward scores and rankings compared to the previous exam. Su Wen was in the last column, seeing his "+1" grade ranking.

"Oops, squad leader, he's regressed!" Zhang Xiaoli exclaimed, pointing to the small red text on the last column of Song Yu's report card, "Although liberal arts still ranks first, the grade has regressed by five places!" It's not the second! This is unprecedented! ”

Bode School has always adhered to the principles of fairness, openness and meticulousness in dealing with students' academic performance. Even the progress and regression are marked, and the ranking of the regression is marked with eye-catching red. On the black and white paper, the negative number in red is unusually eye-catching.

The last column is scrolled down from top to bottom, with positive numbers in black intersecting negative numbers in red. Some people are happy, some people are sad, and if they don't advance, they will retreat, and the grade war has always been like this when they were students.

When I was a student, I might as well call it an era of war and chaos. Everyone was on a battlefield called reading, constantly shuttling through the thick smoke of gunpowder, covering their heads one by one, fighting to break their heads. Those who have fought hard are proud of the battlefield; If you can't fight, you will die on the battlefield.

There are always people who laugh and are proud of the battlefield, and there are always people who die on the battlefield. Some people "die in battle" without accident, while others are still honorable even if they "die".

Boyd Middle School uses such a strict and even cold way to let all students face their own learning situation, which is known as an incentive policy. In recent years, the college entrance examination admission rate and the number of students admitted to prestigious schools have exceeded that of another key middle school in the center of G province and city.

Even if she regressed, wouldn't she and him be separated from a distance that she couldn't cross with all her might? The total score of the results began to open the distance from Xiao Shijie in second place, although there was a distance, it was not too big, and after Tang Qianqian in third place, the distance was completely widened, and there was a gap between each place. What this means, goes without saying.

The distance between her and him is obviously not the distance from first place to fifth place in black and white. There are more than 100 points apart, which is the best and most recent result under Song Yu's so-called "abnormal play" and Su Wen's "abnormal play". At this distance, Su Wen tried his best, even if he was like Kuafu's day and night, I am afraid that he would die of thirst and exhaustion on the road. Before she reached the other side of success, she might have returned early by crane.

The saddest thing is that she has the perseverance and determination to make progress, but she always lacks the ability to become a genius.

Not everyone is a genius, there are many ordinary people like her in this world.

Sometimes, you try your best to look up to others, only to know that you are also looked up to by others. This is like Bian Zhilin's sentence: "You stand on the bridge and look at the scenery, and the people watching the scenery look at you from upstairs." The bright moon decorates your windows, and you decorate other people's dreams. ”

Looking down all the way, Su Wen found the name of Liu Chuan before the twenty, as well as Xu Leqiu at the bottom of the list.

Su Wen couldn't help but worry, and turned around to see Xu Leqiu's position, but happened to see Xu Leqiu's figure returning to her seat with his back to her. When did she come over? didn't say hello to Su Wen.

Xu Leqiu, who was standing silently behind Su Wen, what was the feeling in his heart when he saw his results ranking with his own eyes?

At noon, Su Wen and Xu Leqiu went to the cafeteria for lunch together.

Su Wen swiped the meal card, took the food handed to him by the rice aunt in the window, and Xu Leqiu's clear voice came from behind him: "It's the same as her." ”

After a while, the same meal was handed out of the window.

Su Wen took two pairs of chopsticks, looked around with the plate, and finally found two empty places. When Xu Leqiu came over, he smiled and gestured with his eyes to the two vacant seats diagonally opposite.

"Let's go over there."

From childhood to adulthood, they are inseparable. I once thought that Xu Leqiu had so many friends that he never lacked himself, and countless times he was angry that Xu Leqiu had new friends and ignored himself, but he didn't know, unconsciously, Xu Leqiu's dependence on himself was accumulating to such an extent.

Eat the same meals, have the same long hair, go to the same high school, choose the same liberal arts, and even get into the same class...... There are so many "just like you", Su Wen suddenly woke up at this moment.

She is dependent on herself.

The nose suddenly became a little sour, and the friendship that I thought was drifting away in the past three years of junior high school has actually been in my life in a posture of habit to habitual neglect. It's just that a lot of times, she never speaks, and she never asks.

"Xiaoqiu," Su Wen looked at Xu Leqiu, who was sitting opposite him, "Let's go shopping together after eating?" ”

Xu Leqiu nodded, his smile was very soft, "Hmm." ”

It seemed that the two of them hadn't walked the campus paths alone for a long time.

The weather in March is warm, and you can even feel the heat rising from your body under the sun.

"Xiaoqiu," Su Wen turned his head and looked at Xu Leqiu's eyes full of worry, "If you're unhappy, remember to talk to me!" Don't hold it alone in your heart! ”

Xu Leqiu looked at Su Wen, a flash of sorrow flashed in his eyes, "It's okay......

"I know you're not happy......" Su Wen clenched Xu Leqiu's hand, as if transmitting some kind of power.

Girlfriends who grew up together since childhood, they don't need to explain much, they already know the meaning of each other's words.

Xu Leqiu shook his head in frustration, and did not hide his low mood, "It really doesn't matter, I was originally... I came to Bode by going to the relationship, and my admission grades were already very poor, and I was lucky enough to be able to enter the key class of liberal arts now, and I shouldn't expect more......"

Xu Leqiu once had a comfortable choice.

After the junior high school entrance examination, she only needs to attend an ordinary high school in the county middle school, anyway, with her original grades, it is not a problem to mix in the key classes of the county No. 2 middle school. She only needs to spend an ordinary high school life in the county No. 2 Middle School, and after three years, she will get her high school diploma, and if she is lucky, she will be admitted to an ordinary second university, and she can continue to live her ordinary life.

Then when I graduated from college, I followed the family's arrangement to find an ordinary job, and when I reached the age of marriage, I found a man with comparable strength to marry, take care of housework, and teach my husband and children. Although life is uneventful, it is also smooth sailing...... There seems nothing wrong with such a life, such a life seems to be plain and warm.

Xu Leqiu once thought, don't people only want a comfortable life in the end? Whether it is reading a book or working in the future, all efforts point to one result - to live well.

She can indeed choose to live such an unchanging, comfortable life. But she didn't give up, but she envied Su Wen for being admitted to the most prestigious Bode Middle School in the provincial city, but she was unwilling to be mediocre alone.

If Su Wen hadn't been admitted to Bode, but continued to attend an ordinary high school in the county like her, Xu Leqiu might not have too many extravagant expectations.

But no, Su Wen was admitted to Bode as the pride of their county, and Su Wen became the object of everyone's praise in their county during the summer vacation that year.

A life that can be seen to the end at a glance, the more Xu Leqiu thinks about it, the more desperate he feels. It was as if it was an abyss of endless darkness, and a pair of dark hands were reaching out to her, and as long as she nodded, the hand would drag her into the darkness, and she would fall into the endless abyss, dancing with the darkness.

She is unwilling, she is unwilling to go on like this forever. So, Xu Leqiu agreed to the suggestion put forward by his biological father Yin Kequn - to send her to Bode by going through a relationship. Things are going well, and sure enough, money can make the devil grind, even in the rumored selfless Baldur School. Yin Kequn hitched a ride with money and connections, and quickly solved the problem that Xu Leqiu could not get into Bode in the high school entrance examination.

At first, Xu Leqiu was too self-conscious, or he was too eager to enter the key class of the most prestigious Bode Middle School like Su Wen and live an ideal high school life. The truth was indeed as he wished, but in the first key class of the first year of high school in Bode Middle School, Xu Leqiu was soon cramped by his own self-indulgence, and he was so badly beaten that he was bleeding every day and night.

The girls at the same table noticed Xu Leqiu's completely bottom-of-the-line academic performance, and were shocked by the huge gap between Xu Leqiu and the penultimate score.

The surprised eyes of the girls at the same table deeply pierced Xu Leqiu's eyes. Since then, Xu Leqiu has been unhappy every day, staying in a class that does not belong to him, and he seems out of place at every moment. Even, Broad Middle School did not belong to her, it was obtained by her father by force through shady means.

Xu Leqiu finally recognized herself under the bottomless despair, but she had no face to return to the county No. 2 Middle School to continue her studies, and the strong unwillingness in her heart drove this stubborn girl to stay. Enduring the huge humiliation, Xu Leqiu asked Yin Kequn to help him transfer to the ordinary class. In the end, he got what he wanted, Xu Leqiu was in the ordinary class, trying to catch up and finally adapt to his gentle teaching rhythm.

In order to spell "the same as Su Wen" and pretend that everything is a natural result, God knows how much effort and energy Xu Leqiu put into it.