Chapter 269: Feeling Helpless
Besides, this is the garden where I grew up, and I have a lot of memories of this place, wasn't it the same when I was a child? Maybe for me, it's just that I'm here to find some memories.
It's a good thing to remember some of the things that happened here at this time. It can be regarded as his last precious memory, there have been many things that have happened in this land, those bits and pieces, I want to remember it in my heart, don't say that I am greedy, because for myself, it is my childhood memory, and I don't want to lose it here.
It is very likely that in the end, this place will be razed to the ground, completely different from everything in the past, but there are some memories that will not disappear in my mind. At this time, you should come over more and remember all of them, so that no matter what becomes after that, you will live in your mind.
"Hehe, every time I see them so happy, I can probably guess that you are back." How could Dean Han not know that he had been running this place all these years, and many of the orphans who had gone out were reluctant to come back at all.
Actually, it's not that they can't understand that mentality, maybe they just don't want people to know that they are orphans, so they will try their best to hide it. In the past, I was a last resort to be able to leave quickly, but now that I have finally left, how can I want to come back.
In fact, I can really understand it, so I don't say anything about their approach, after all, this is a personal choice, and whether they can go back or not is their personal matter.
I can't force these things at all, and I haven't thought about forcing them, people will come back if they want to come back, and if they don't want to come back, they will send it, after all, everyone's choice is different.
Only the girl in front of me is special, she doesn't seem to worry about being found out as an orphan, she often comes back when she is free, and every time she comes back, she will bring some small gifts to make those children happy.
Seeing the happy appearance of those children, I could probably guess that she was back. She is the only one who has always missed this place, and even if she moves out, she will come back often.
Maybe among the so many orphans she brought with her, she was the one with the most heart, knowing that her environment was not very good, but she was concerned about the orphanage.
Seeing that she often comes back and often plays with those children, it can be seen that she still has a lot of affection for this place.
"It's because they're so enthusiastic, every time I come back, they'll happily call me sister, in fact, the mentality of children is like this, they also want someone to come back and visit them more." That's how I came at the beginning, so I can understand that feeling, and at that time, didn't I always hope that someone would come over?
At the beginning, I had such a mentality, so now this group of children also have this mentality, this is the only thing I can do for myself at present, in fact, I can only do my meager strength, I can only buy them a small gift. As for the rest of myself, I can only sigh and be powerless.
All you can do is buy them a small gift, and the rest is actually within your ability. After all, my living environment is not too good, and I am not unwilling, but I should take into account my own life.
If you are rich, you will definitely improve their lives and buy them more toys and delicious and fun things, but unfortunately your own ability is limited, so you can only buy them these gadgets.
Every time Shu Yixin thinks about this, he feels that he is very bad, he has been out to struggle for so many years, and he still hasn't changed much. Does it mean that you don't work hard enough, so you don't earn much money, or does it mean that you should work harder in the future?
Maybe for myself, this is also an invisible motivation. Because only by working harder, will I earn more money, so that I will have the opportunity to help the children in the orphanage.
"Anyway, it's because you have more heart, that's why they like you more." The children's ideas are very simple and simple, who is better for them, how can they not know.
Shu Yixin looked at Dean Han, who had brought him up, and wondered in his heart, should he tell her about the thing in his heart? Originally, I didn't think about hiding it, but I didn't know how to open my mouth at this time, and I was afraid that after she knew, I didn't know what kind of thoughts she would have.
After a long time, he hesitated for a while, but he still said, "By the way, Dean, I think I should tell you about this matter." Although she knew that this incident would be a certain blow to her, there was no way to face the reality.
Dean Han still looked very kind, smiled, and said softly, "If there is anything you want to say, just say it directly, you know that in front of me, there is no need to swallow." "Yes, in front of herself, she doesn't need to babble like this, she can just say anything directly.
"Do you know that the right to use the land for the orphanage has been determined?" Although I don't want to believe that this is true, one thing that cannot be denied is that I can't deny this fact at all.
"So you've heard about it, and I've heard about it." When Dean Han said these words, he obviously paused, and his tone was a little sentimental.
Although Shu Yixin was a little surprised, she felt that it was reasonable, after all, she knew this matter, and it was not an exaggeration for her to know.
After all, she also has her own way to know, but listening to her tone, it doesn't seem to be as ideal as she imagined.
When she heard about it, it was a big blow to herself, not to mention her, she had spent a lifetime of hard work here, but in the end she couldn't keep it.
I spent so much effort, but in the end I still couldn't keep it, I can only say that I have tried my best, after all, the result is already like this, and I can only face it calmly.
"I'm sorry, I can't seem to help with anything." Shu Yixin really hated himself for not being able to help in any way.
If you have the ability to help, maybe at this moment, the right to use the land of the orphanage is in your hands, then you have the right to control everything here, and then the orphanage will remain the same.
It's a pity that I don't have this ability at all, and I can't help at all. Every time I think about this, I feel that I am so useless.
"Yixin, don't say that, don't have such thoughts, in fact, you have worked very hard, you have to believe in yourself, don't always doubt your ability, I know that you have worked very hard in life." When Dean Han heard Shu Yixin say this, he felt that her idea was wrong, and he corrected her himself.
The problem faced by the orphanage is not a trivial problem, so it is reasonable that she can't help much, after all, she also grew up in the orphanage and walked out from here. I never thought about complaining about her, nor did I think about asking her to help, I just wanted her to live a better life.
I don't know that over the years, her life has been very difficult, and every time she has to try her best to help the orphanage, she is really hearted, so she does not allow her to have such thoughts, and feels that she is not capable.
"I don't want to think like that, but the thought that I can't help me with anything makes me feel very useless." When Shu Yixin said this, it was also from the heart, after all, he really wanted to help, but he couldn't help anything.
"You should believe in yourself, after all, you have not had an easy time all these years, and this matter is not a trivial matter, even I can't do anything about it, let alone you?" If it's not a small thing, there is no need to be so entangled, because these things are not small things at all, but big things.
Shu Yixin looked at Dean Han in front of him and fell silent.
She didn't know that this matter was not a trivial matter at all. If it's a small thing, it's easy to solve, because it's a big thing, and for people like them, there's nothing they can do about it, and they can only accept reality.
If you want to blame, you can only blame them for not having money, and if you have money, you can get everything. It's empty talk to say that there is no money, and this is the situation at present, the expenses on daily necessities are quite large, and it is already very good to be able to maintain it, not to mention that I want to buy this land, without a few million, I don't dare to think about it at all.
Or maybe a few million is not enough at all, or even tens of millions, for them, this is simply astronomical.
Even if they work hard all their lives, they may not be able to earn this money. I can only sigh that I am powerless, and I can only think that in the future, I will work harder and strive for more money, hoping to help the orphanage.
There are always so many helpless times in life, not that's it, I also grew up in this helplessness. It's not that I don't want to help, but my ability is there, and I can't help at all.
"Is there anything I can help me with? I really feel like I suck. "For myself, I really want to stay here, but I can't do anything about it.
Shu Yixin really felt that he was very bad, and if he had the ability to himself, then he would be able to help, but now he can't help with anything. So at this moment, I can only be moved, over the years, I have really mixed very badly.
"Yixin, don't think too much, let it be fate, I can see it through." I have lived to this age and experienced so many things, what else can I not see?