Chapter 625: Feelings of Gain and Loss
"Next time, don't be so troublesome, buy me a gift, it's good to have this heart." For him, it is still a very difficult thing to choose a gift, and he doesn't want him to think about buying a gift for himself because of his work.
It is enough for him to be able to put himself in his heart, and why should he be too greedy for the rest of himself. He has never been so greedy, and he is not a greedy person, as long as he has himself in his heart, then why should the other selves care too much.
I have always hated him, but he is too selfish, only thinking that he has not considered his own feelings at all, and he has not put himself in his heart, which is what makes him the most angry.
Recently, after getting along with him slowly, I also realized that he is really different from him in the past, at least he has changed.
As long as there is a change, my requirements are not high, I just hope that he can put himself in his heart, so that I am very happy, as for whether there is a gift or not, I don't care so much.
"As long as you like it, in fact, at the beginning, I didn't have this mind, and I couldn't think of these things, so I rarely gave you gifts before, but now, every time I go to a different place, I always want to find you a special gift." In fact, it doesn't take much time for me, and I can't spend my energy, as long as I think about the happy expression after receiving the gift from her, it is worth it no matter how hard and tired I am.
Ye Jinghao feels that she is willing to do whatever she wants, especially her things, whether it is big or small, for herself.
"You should have a tight schedule on a business trip, where can you have time to buy me a gift, don't do it next time, or let yourself rest more." Although he said that he was very happy to receive the gift he gave himself, he felt more sorry for himself and wanted him to rest more.
"You don't have to worry about this, in short, you can be happy to receive the gift, and the rest is not important." How could Ye Jinghao not hear it, in fact, she was feeling sorry for herself and didn't want to work so hard to say this.
The more she feels sorry for herself, the more she feels that it is worth it to do this, and it can be seen from this that she really has her own in her heart, not that she doesn't have herself.
Ren Xiaoou still felt sorry for him somewhat, glanced at him, opened his lips lightly, and said slowly, "If it's too troublesome, there is really no need for this, after all, you are on a business trip for working hours, and you should arrange it very tightly, there is no need to bother with such a trivial matter, you still have to pay more attention to rest." ”
Knowing that he worked so hard and had to do such a thing for himself, how could he not feel sorry for him? He was able to bring these gifts to himself, and while he was very happy, he also felt sorry for him too tired.
"I know, I'll take your words to heart, if I don't have time, I won't do it, I'll definitely bring you some gifts back when I have time." Ye Jinghao couldn't hear it, people were worried about themselves, and they didn't want to work too hard.
In fact, I can feel her care like this, and I can't tell how happy I am in my heart. In fact, she still has her own in her heart, and she is not as cold as she appears on the surface, but sometimes she pretends to be strong.
In the end, seeing her like this, my heart is still very happy, because in her heart she really has her own existence, she really cares about herself, no matter how she behaves on the surface, in fact, she can't deny that she does have her own existence in her heart.
As long as she knows this, she knows that all her efforts are not in vain, she doesn't mean that she has no feelings at all, she just wants to care more about her, and wants to pay more attention to her.
In other words, her request is not too much, if you want to blame, you can only blame the previous self for being stupid and only thinking about work, but ignoring the true thoughts in her heart, she had to come to this point today, before making such a choice, if she continues to waste time, and finally breaks up, then she wasted her youthful time, it seems that she still thinks about these things very clearly, and thinks very clearly.
I should be very glad that she is a reasonable person, not a person who does not distinguish between black and white, in fact, as long as she makes it clear to her, she will still be the same as before in the end. She just wants to reciprocate the affection she has given, but it's not too much.
Ren Xiaoou listened to him say these words, in fact, he really wanted to ask, is my feelings really that important?
No matter what he did before, he couldn't see it, and even said that he directly ignored the time when he paid for him, he was really uncomfortable, and he seemed to have really changed a lot in this paragraph recently. At this moment, when I faced him, my thoughts were a little complicated, because I was glad that he had changed, and at the same time I was very worried. These changes are only temporary, and he is back to the same state, so what should he do when the time comes.
After a while, he found his voice and spoke lightly.
"No matter how important work is, it is better to pay more attention to rest, and the body is the most important thing." Ren Xiaoou felt that he was a little short of words at this moment, and he didn't know what to say.
I can only say something casually and let her pay more attention to her body, after all, these words can be said at any time, and they are not outdated when they are said.
"Yes, you should be the same, pay more attention to rest, there may be times when I can't worry so much, maybe I don't have time to worry about your side, but no matter what, I have to learn to take care of myself first." Ye Jinghao's heart is also very concerned about her, and he wants her to rest more, don't say that others will be able to do it himself.
Ren Xiaoou looked at him with big eyes, he really didn't expect that he would say such emotional words, after all, he had known him for a while, and he had never seen him say such emotional words, and today I don't know why, suddenly I felt deeply touched.
Whether he felt that these words should not have come out of his mouth, when he had ever said such things to himself, or whether he had worried about his personal safety.
"You know what? I always feel that you are different from before, and there is a feeling of gain and loss. When Ren Xiaoou faced him, he still said that he might have feelings.
Ye Jinghao didn't quite understand the meaning of her words, and said lightly, "Why do you have the feeling of gaining and losing, does it mean that I don't give you enough security, or do you feel uneasy?" "I've been working really hard for a while, working towards her goals, wanting to become what she wants, aren't you satisfied with all this I've done? Why does she still have a sense of gain and loss?
After reading his words, Ren Xiaoou felt that he had misunderstood what he meant, so he continued, "I think you misunderstood my words, in fact, I just think that you have such a change, which makes people feel a little unbelievable, afraid that you will lose you at any time, and you will become the same you as before, focusing on your work wholeheartedly, and other things can't enter your heart." "I've done so much and worked hard for so long, but no matter what I do, I still can't go to the depths of his heart.
Tomorrow will inevitably be a little uneasy about himself for a while, and he is still a little worried that he will return to his previous self. After all, this is his nature, and isn't it normal to have such worries?
It is inevitable that he has such worries, because he gave himself too many uncertainties before, and at that time, he also felt that he had paid so much, and knew that one day he would definitely see his own good, but in the end, he gave so much and got something.
Day after day passed, day after day of giving, all this seemed to him as a matter of course, but he never thought about it from his own point of view, and one day he would feel tired and would feel like retreating, because the feelings he gave did not have anything in return.
Finally, one day, I finally took that brave step and made it clear to him that I didn't want to be so unclear with him.
After he told him about it, he changed, maybe he really realized what he was wrong, or maybe he didn't want to lose himself for doing it on purpose, in short, he didn't know which one was the real him.
It is precisely because of this that I have a feeling of gain and loss, and I always feel that all this is like a dream, not so real, and everything will return to the same after waking up from the dream.
"It turns out that in your heart, you still don't have enough security, you always feel that I can change at any time, don't worry, since I have realized where I am wrong, then I will not become the same me as before, if this is really the case, then everything I do will be in vain, why should I toss myself like this?" Ye Jinghao can assure her with certainty at this moment that he has really changed, and it is impossible to return to his previous self.
In the past, I really didn't know what I was wrong with, and I didn't realize this mistake, so I did so many wrong things that I felt that she would revolve around the center of her world, but now I know that not all people will revolve around you.
After realizing this, how could I go back? can only say that her efforts at this time are not enough, she still has a skeptical attitude towards herself, and she can't blame herself for not understanding her, to be honest, she can really understand her thoughts, so she can only redouble her efforts in the future and become a man who makes her feel secure.