255. There is no way back
The original use of the freshwater villa was the wedding room of Tang Jingqing and Xie Yinan. It's just that what happened later, and this became the "home" at the end of the season.
Although this "home" has never given her any sense of belonging, she is still desperately trying to find a little living space for herself here despite the struggle in her marriage.
But when Xie Yinan lived in the freshwater villa for only half a month, he forced the little space that he had managed to squeeze out in the last three years at the end of the season to ashes.
She didn't have a job, and she didn't like to deal with the rich wives all day long, and in her idleness, raising flowers and grass became her greatest pleasure.
The flesh that is treated so attentively is thrown when she says that she is thrown, and she is trampled on the ground like her heart.
There are also those curtains, I'm afraid Tang Jingqing doesn't know what kind of mood she used to decorate this home at that time.
It's a pity that it's gone.
She wanted to escape, but there was nowhere to run! can only be in the freshwater villa, enduring Xie Yinan's uninterrupted ravages every day. sneered at her in private, saying the most ugly words; In front of Tang Jingqing, he played a look of grievance and empathy.
"At the end of the season, Yinan is not in good health, can't you tolerate her a little more?"
But I just don't want to talk to Xie Yinan, isn't it okay?
In the Tamsui Villa, she made it difficult for Ji Mo with Tang Jingqing's connivance with her, and in turn she had to say: "Jing Qing, Ji Mo is so cold to me, am I causing you trouble by living here?" ”
So, even if you avoid her, it's your own fault!
Even, I have to watch the intimacy between them every day, reminding the end of the season every moment - in this home, her existence is so redundant.
"Jingqing, look! I didn't fault this sofa at the beginning, after so many years, the style has not been eliminated at all. ”
"Hmm. If you like it! Xie Yinan held his hand, but the inadvertent look in his eyes was always the reaction at the end of the season.
"By the way, Jingqing, I don't think it's better to live in the living room as a jingle bell, isn't there a kennel in the garden? He gets dog hair all over the house all day. ”
"No, Clank is in the living room, he likes to be there." During dinner, Xie Yinan's request was vetoed without hesitation at the end of the season, although it was still useless.
"Yes."
"Really? Jingqing, you are so good, in this case, I can buy a single sofa in the vacated space, and it must be very comfortable to sit there in the sun and read a book in winter! ”
Syllable!
"Don't touch my dog, go and get your filthy heart in the sun first." At the end of the season, he smashed the cup in his hand and stood up from his seat without controlling his emotions.
She couldn't stand to sit at the same table with the two of them for a second!
"At the end of the season, who allowed you to talk to Yinan with this attitude!"
"Heh, hehe! How? Do you want to say it's my fault again? So, what the hell is she doing? Why let yourself live so sadly!
"Jingqing, how can you say that about me at the end of the season!"
"Ahh I can't stand it, I really can't stand it! Completely devastated, Ji Moyi swept all the food on the table to the ground, shattering like her heart as the sound of dishes hitting the floor.
In the daily torture, I couldn't sleep at the end of the season, and the severe insomnia made dark circles under the eyes, as well as messy hair, and even the appearance that I had always paid attention to had no intention of dressing up, compared with Xie Yinan's delicate face, it was simply embarrassing. "Tang Jingqing, get a divorce! Since I'm so redundant in this family, it's okay to divorce me! Please, get a divorce! "Isn't it okay for her to admit defeat? She just wanted to get out of here now and find a place to lick her wounds alone; She just wanted to live like a human being
Already! Isn't this even allowed?
"At the end of the season, I said - if you want a divorce, it's up to me! Don't even think about it until I'm tired of it. The expressionless man said the cruelest words, but the heart—also felt like a knife.
He didn't really want to torture her, he just wanted to make Ji Mo admit his mistake! Even, deep down in his heart, he had a strong fear, afraid that she really didn't want to live with him, afraid that she really didn't love him anymore.
Because of the stubbornness at the end of the season, he could only use stronger means to constantly persecute her, forcing her to dispel the idea of divorce, and forcing her to give in.
"A long time ago, I was weaving a beautiful love story for myself, and now that I have finally woken up from the pain, you won't know how much I wish it was a nightmare!"
At the end of the season, her whole body seemed to be drained, and she gave up the struggle, stepping up the steps back to her "cell".
It took her a second to fall in love with him, five years to have a crush on him, three years to force him, but at this moment - love, destruction.
Something collapsed in his heart, Tang Jingqing couldn't tell clearly, but at this moment, he suddenly felt that Ji Mo seemed to be far away from him, although he used all the methods to trap her by his side.
I want to catch up with her and ask her what she means by that? But pride and self-esteem stopped Tang Jingqing's pace!
He won't budge and will definitely not give any possibility of divorce at the end of the season! The beginning of this marriage was provoked by her, why should she even say that the end was her decision!
Of course, the only one who is happy is Xie Yinan. Especially when she heard the hysterical talk of divorce at the end of the season, at that moment she felt that her dream was about to come true! As long as they divorce, then they can become a rightful Mrs. Tang!
However, why did Tang Jingqing disagree! Haven't they already broken down? So why continue?
Questioning in my heart over and over again, self-comforting over and over again, it doesn't matter - one day, they will be completely separated!
……
That night, all three of them had their own thoughts on their minds, and they couldn't sleep all night.
The next day, Chinese New Year's Eve ushered in.
Because Xie Yinan lives in a freshwater villa this year, it is natural for Zhao Yonghua to come here, and their "family of three" plans to have a reunion dinner happily and welcome the New Year together. And in this plan, there is no end of the season!
She is an embarrassing existence in the freshwater villa, she simply hides in her room and can't even go downstairs, tossed by them.
The relationship between Tang Jingqing and Ji Mo completely fell to the bottom, but even so, he still went his own way to create the illusion of "family harmony", but his heart didn't know where he flew.
"Jingqing, what's wrong? Is today's meal unappetizing? Zhao Yonghua looked at Tang Jingqing's chopsticks and asked with concern.
Coming here, I heard Xie Yinan talk about him and Ji Mo, she was happy to see it, and she also looked forward to their divorce soon.
"Nope."
The room full of laughter and laughter made Tang Jingqing nostalgic for last year's Chinese New Year's Eve, and it was clear that their relationship had gradually warmed up since then.
It's a pity that this year, by the end, they were able to say a nice word.
……
Zhao Yonghua simply took advantage of the Chinese New Year to live in a freshwater villa, and there was another person in the family who hated the end of the season, which shows that her living space is even narrower.
It was better when Tang Jingqing was there, but what about when Tang Jingqing was away?
At the end of the season, she had already discovered her abnormality, her weight dropped from 89 to 80, and she had severe insomnia, and even occasionally vomited, which she tried to persevere.
Seriously, at the end of the season, he found that his heart had become abnormal.
At first, she only felt unhappy, and the whole person was depressed. But since Zhao Yonghua came to the villa, her situation has become more serious, and she has become even more silent, unless necessary, she will not step out of the door, she can't even speak, and she has no appetite.
After realizing that he was abnormal, he still tried his best to let himself eat, and finally vomited it all as well!
I don't know the meaning of my life, and I spend every day in extreme self-loathing!
The end of the season was painful, like being stuck in a swamp, and the harder you struggled, the more painful it became.
She knew her symptoms all too well – it was depression!
But the most terrifying thing is that she doesn't even have the ability to walk out of the freshwater villa and ask the psychiatrist for help! From childhood to adulthood, she watched Yao Qinyin go crazy step by step, she knew too well that depression can completely defeat a person.
……
After the fifteenth day of the first month, Zhao Yonghua and Xie Yinan still had no intention of leaving the Tamsui Villa, they were happy to see the end of the season that was driven crazy a little bit.
"Miss Ji's shelf is really big, I can't even invite you to dinner."
"Miss Ji, no matter what, Aunt Hua is your mother-in-law, you can hate me, but can you please respect her a little!"
"At the end of the season, you really think you're the mistress of this house!"
As long as Tang Jingqing is not there, even if she hides in the room, she can't stop them from attacking her!
How much lethality language has, at the end of the season, every minute is deeply experienced!
Who can save her? Who will save her? If it is so painful to live, is it easier to die?
The thought of suicide passed through her mind over and over again, from imagination to thought, when she held the fruit knife against her artery, Tang Jingqing finally realized that something was wrong with her!
"What are you doing at the end of the season?" It was supposed to be late at night, Tang Jingqing couldn't sleep inexplicably, and went downstairs upset to pour a glass of water to drink, and saw that Ji Mo, who was indeed pale, was holding a fruit knife with a terrifying appearance.
At that moment, Tang Jingqing clearly heard the sound of his heart beating to a halt!
In a panic, she pulled the knife in Ji Mo's hand, looking at the shallow scratches on her wrists, what if it was deeper? What if he came a little later?
"End of the season! Say! What the hell are you doing! The sternness of his tone could not hide his fear.
No, there's something wrong. What the hell happened to her? How can you be so skinny? is obviously under the same roof, but before he knows it, she seems to be a different person! Empty eyes, eyes out of focus, like a soulless rag doll.
"Don't! Say no more! Please, don't say any more! ”
"I'm damned, I'm damned, I know it's wrong, please—don't say it again!" The incoherent speech at the end of the season slapped him in the face like a slap.
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