Along the way, the two of them quietly did not have any conversation, and Shen Yan sat in the back row and stared out the window a little distracted.

After she finally mustered up the courage to ask Jian Xiu about the doubts that she had been in her heart for many years, she found that in fact, after three years, the answers that had made her linger in her heart for many years seemed to be not so important, if it was three years ago, after Jian Xiu answered her like that, she was afraid that she would be so desperate that she wanted to die.

But just now, after she gave Jian Xiu a slap, the grief in her heart calmed down inexplicably.

She glanced at the back of Jian Xiu's car, and was a little stunned, what did she love about Jian Xiu for so many years? Is it really to the point that even if you lose all your dignity, you still love him very much?

But why, at this moment, she stared at him like this, but her heart was unprecedentedly calm, there was no feeling of heartbeat, no hatred, and no unwillingness...... It seems that all the emotions of Jian Xiu have all been calmed down at this moment.

Maybe she didn't love him anymore, she thought.

The love she had thought would run through her entire life came to an abrupt end at this moment, but she was numb and didn't have any sad feelings.

The corners of Shen Yan's mouth suddenly raised a smile, a very quiet smile, this is very good, all her tragedies start from falling in love with Jian Xiu, so from the moment she doesn't love Jian Xiu, maybe her life will be alive again.

The next day, when Shen Yan saw Xu Jin'an in the crew, he looked very calm, but Xu Jin'an looked a little cramped, "...... words"

Shen Yan glanced at the time and made sure that the time was sufficient, then he looked up at Xu Jin'an again, "Is it convenient to chat?" Yesterday's words are not finished. ”

Xu Jin'an carefully distinguished Shen Yan's emotions, but found that he was a little frustrated, and he couldn't see anything on her face at all, maybe in the three years since he left, Shen Yan has changed, and he is no longer the Shen Yan he knows very well.

He nodded, "Let's go." ”

The two walked to a corner away from the crowd, and Shen Yan spoke, "Say, why do you want to do this." ”

At this time, she looked calm and wise, no longer as excited and collapsed as she was when she first heard what he said yesterday, but this kind of Shen Yan made people a little incomprehensible.

Xu Jin'an pursed his lips, "Why don't you answer me first, do you still hate me?" ”

Hate? Shen Yan couldn't say what kind of feeling he had for Xu Jin'an, from being a buddy who talked to him about everything at the beginning, to being grateful for his dedicated help, and then to being deceived and calculated by him, it was disgust and hatred, and now everything in the past has been overturned......

She should have no reason to dislike and hate him anymore, but the deception that was played with between applause also made her unforgivable, this is her own life, but why should he change track in such a way?

Shen Yan shook his head slowly, "You have always been very good to me since I was a child, and you haven't really caused me any real harm, so I have no reason to hate you." ”

Xu Jin'an lowered his eyes, and a self-deprecating smile appeared at the corner of his mouth, "You don't hate me, but you still hate me." ”

"Do you feel wronged?" Shen Yan looked at him quietly, "But my life has become like this, and a large part of it is because of your deception, isn't it?" ”

Shen Yan looked into the distance and slowly said the possibility she imagined, "If you hadn't lied to me at the beginning, maybe I would still be unable to help but pester Jian Xiu, but in terms of his desperation, it is still impossible for us to be together, after being abandoned, maybe I will be miserable for a while, but in the end I think I will gradually be relieved, and then I won't run to be an actor because I can't let go of those pasts, maybe I won't meet Jian Xiu again......"

Her gaze slowly shifted to him, and then laughed to herself, "You see, if it weren't for that, I might have many possibilities in my life, instead of struggling in a desperate marriage like I am now......" She stared into his eyes, "I don't believe you don't know that I'm unhappy." ”

Yes, he knows, in the past three years in country Y, his eyes have never left her, he knows that she is an actor, and he has seen every drama she has filmed, although he is not the main actor, although she is not so dazzling under the background of the leading actor, but his eyes still fall on her.

He was once very glad for what he had done at the beginning, because he thought that Shen Yan had finally gotten out of the quagmire of Jian Xiu, and she had finally started her new life, although it didn't look so perfect, it was better than struggling by Jian Xiu's side.

Until he saw the news that Shen Yan was married to Jian Xiu, his mind was completely confused, what did Jian Xiu want to do? Why did the two of them get married all of a sudden? Looking at Shen Yan's overwhelming negative reports, he finally understood that he had failed in the end.

He called Shen Yan's father, and when asked about Shen Yan and Jian Xiu, Shen Huandong just sighed and said with a wry smile, "You may not believe it when you say it, in fact, we only found out about it when we saw the news...... Without any warning, the two of them were together again, and this time it was even crazier, and they actually got the certificate directly. ”

"After knowing about this, I was very angry, and then I called Yanyan, but that girl, this time, she was determined not to look back, and she was unmoved no matter what I said, because we also had a complete fall out over this matter, and she hadn't been home for a long time."

Listening to Shen Huandong's words, Xu Jin'an didn't know what he was feeling in his heart, Shen Yan finally married Jian Xiu, and all his previous efforts were in vain.

It would be good if Jian Xiu could really give Shen Yan happiness, but after a period of time, all Xu Jin'an saw was the wanton harm of Shen Yan by the media, and Jian Xiu never stood up to say a word for her, and for the relationship between the two of them, it was more said that the husband and wife were incompatible, and the two had never even appeared on any show together.

This is not the performance of loving a person, if Jian Xiu married Shen Yan not because of love, then it can only be because of ...... He wanted revenge.

So Xu Jin'an couldn't sit still, he couldn't watch Shen Yan fall into the sea of fire and be indifferent, so Xu Jin'an, who had promised Shen Yan that he would never appear in front of her again, came back again.

This time, he didn't want to hide behind the scenes and quietly watch Shen Yan be happy, Jian Xiu couldn't give Shen Yan happiness, and neither could others, no one in this world loved Shen Yan more than him.

He told Shen Yan part of the truth, because now that it was a foregone conclusion, everything at the beginning had no meaning except for making her miserable.

Of course, he also had a small expectation, expecting Shen Yan, who knew the truth, to forgive him.

It's a pity that Shen Yan still dislikes him.

In fact, it is expected, if it were him, he would also think that such a person is very annoying, right?

So in the face of Shen Yan's questioning, he couldn't say anything, only smiled bitterly, "I'm sorry, but I still hope you can forgive me, Yanyan, three years have passed, I haven't forgotten you, so if there is a slight possibility, can you give me another chance?" ”

Shen Yan frowned slightly, with a hint of incredulity in his eyes, "Xu Jin'an, are you joking with me?" ”

Xu Jin An lowered his eyes to avoid Shen Yan's gaze, in fact, he also felt that his words looked a little ridiculous, and he also knew that he might not be qualified to say such things again, but he didn't want to give up Shen Yan, he really didn't want to.

He moved his lips and continued with great difficulty, "I will make up for my previous mistakes......"

Shen Yan felt a little tired, and interrupted him in a deep voice, "I don't want to hear you say this, I have already answered your question just now, and you should also answer my question." ”

Xu Jin'an sighed in his heart, then pursed his lips and said with a guilty face, "I'm sorry...... In fact, I had already decided to go abroad at that time, and I had also guessed that Jian Xiu would definitely give up on you, we couldn't do it, and you couldn't do it anymore, so I just wanted to make you remember me forever in this way, and when you really experienced that kind of thing, you will know that I didn't do anything to you at the beginning. ”

Shen Yan didn't speak, Xu Jin'an's meaning was very similar to what he had guessed before, but now that he really said so, Shen Yan had a very strange feeling, is this really the truth? But if it's not the truth, what reason does Xu Jinan have to lie to her?

She stared at Xu Jin'an for a long time, Xu Jin'an also looked at her calmly, and in the end she could only suppress the trace of doubt in her heart, "I know." ”

After speaking, Shen Yan didn't stay any longer, turned around and left and walked towards the dressing room.

Seeing Shen Yan leave, Xu Jin'an leaned against the wall on the side as if relieved, and only felt very tired for a moment, but he had to keep the secret.

Everything has an answer, Shen Yan feels that her heart seems to be a lot more open, and she doesn't have to stick to the past anymore, then she should also look to the future.

Now I have been filming in the film and television city for more than a month, and more than half of the scenes in the film and television city have been filmed, and the scenes here will be over in more than 20 days.

As soon as this drama is completed, she will no longer have to get along with Xu Jinan and Du Ruosheng day and night, and if she continues like this, she is afraid that she will hold back her internal injuries, and she will never be rash in the future, whether it is Xu Jinan or Du Ruosheng, she will definitely hide as far as she can, and she can still afford to hide if she can't afford it.

In addition, compared with Xu Jin'an and Du Ruosheng, Percy is simply a little angel to Shen Yan in this crew, needless to say, his long-eyed and cute personality is needless to say, and he is empathetic!

Whenever she was impatient with those two people, it was Percy who came to the rescue in time, so that after two months, she couldn't establish a deep friendship with Percy!

So when the day's filming was over, when Percy came to her, she asked her with an embarrassed face, "Yanyan, can I ask you to do me a favor?" ”

Shen Yan nodded in agreement almost without thinking about it, "It's okay, what's the hurry?" ”