Chapter 435: I love her, but I still want to make amends

"It was one of her best friends who thought I was very similar to the Lin Xu back then, and then told me these stories, and later I also asked my grandfather for verification, and even went to the United States to ask my parents." If you had known, you shouldn't have been curious, you shouldn't have known these things, otherwise, you wouldn't have had to be so uncomfortable.

Knowing some things is really uncomfortable for yourself, just like yourself at this moment, really, you are thinking sometimes, it is better not to know anything, so that you will not have these burdens.

It's just that I was too curious at that time, and I wanted to know what was going on, and now I really regret it when I think about it, if I don't know anything, I don't have to be so entangled, and I won't have so much psychological pressure when facing her.

It can only be said that these pressures are self-inflicted, if you don't dig out the truth of the matter, you don't know these things, how can you have your own pressure?

"So now are you recovering your memory?" If you don't have your memory back, how can you ask these questions?

Ye Lao asked He Yuhe very bluntly, just wanting to know that she really recovered her memory at this moment, or just wanted to know something, and deliberately said so.

He Yuhe paused and said lightly, "No, it's just that I have always had a familiar figure in my mind, and most of the reason why I chose to come back from the United States is because I want to know who the familiar figure in my mind is, and I have been just looking for this answer." ”

All along, I just wanted to find an answer, I wanted to know who the girl who had always been in my mind was, why she appeared in my mind, and why I had a feeling that I cared about her so much.

Because my heart has always been obsessed with an answer, I want to know who the other party is, and I want to know what the relationship between myself and her is, so I hesitate until the end before I choose to return to China to find that answer.

At the beginning, I thought like this, I felt that no matter what, I should work hard, take action, see if I can find that girl, at least I don't want to leave any regrets in my life, if she was really a girl I loved deeply, I don't want her to wait for her whole life for herself, no matter what, I have to give the other party an explanation.

No matter what the result will be after finding her, whether she is still waiting for herself, or whether she is already married and has children, she doesn't care so much, what she cares about is that she still owes the other party an explanation.

"It's just that you didn't expect the other party to be her, you didn't expect it to be so coincidental, after you returned to China, the girl you met was the person you had in mind in the center, right?" I can only sigh that there is really fate between the two of them, if there is no fate, how can they meet again in five years.

"It's just that now I feel that I don't know how to tell her about the past things at all, and I didn't know that my parents would do this, in fact, I only recently learned about these things, but these are my faults, and I am sorry for her." He Yuhe has never denied that the root of these problems appears in his body, but what is the use? I still hurt her invisibly.

This matter has not been resolved, and she has a certain amount of pressure when she concludes by herself, and she always feels indebted. My parents shouldn't have done this at the beginning, even if they wanted to take themselves away, they should have made it clear to the other party that they didn't love her anymore, but because of other reasons, but their parents didn't say anything at the beginning, causing the other party to misunderstand themselves, plus they haven't appeared in the past five years, isn't it just more solid for this crime?

It's a pity that at that time, I couldn't support this thing happening, and I could only watch it happen, and now I can only find a way to make up for it.

"That's right, but the damage was done, and that's part of the reason why she chose to lose her memories of the past." Ye Lao is still a very reasonable person, although all this is not what she wants, but her parents' actions still have an impact invisibly.

There are some things that cannot be denied at all, and it is impossible to deny them, and he did not say that he would not admit these mistakes, but some injuries that he wanted to repair but were not so easy, and he thought about this very thoroughly.

"Yes, that's why I'm so scared, if she knows this, will she ignore me in the future? That's why I've been hesitant to tell her. "Where the problem is, it's not that I don't know, the point is that I don't know how to tell her, and I'm afraid that after telling her, she and myself won't even be friends.

"Then you're going to drag it out like this, and don't you make it clear to her?" Even if you don't have to ask, you can actually see that He Yuhe still has feelings for Yixin.

"I also wanted to make it clear to her, but I didn't know how to say it, and I didn't know if she would believe what I said, so I was always very conflicted." It's not that I don't want to talk to her, but I really don't have the courage and I'm afraid that I won't even have the opportunity to do this now.

"But such problems always have to be solved, and they won't take long." One day, we will have to face it, it's just a matter of when that day will come.

"It's not the right time yet, and if you find the right time, I'll make it clear to her." I haven't found the right opportunity yet, and I don't know what to say even if I want to talk to her.

"Grandpa asks you, do you love her in the past, or do you feel indebted to her because of the past and want to make up for it, or because you really love her." Of these three possibilities, I want to know whether he really loves each other or for some other reason.

If it is not true love and will hurt the other party, then in such a situation, I hope he can tell himself honestly.

Although she is not related to herself, she really treats her as a relative in her heart, so she does not allow anyone to hurt her. I have said before that I will protect her and take care of her, and if someone dares to hurt her, I will never spare her.

He Yuhe looked at Ye Lao, how could he not know in his heart, he wanted to know if he was sincere about his first love.

"In fact, she has been in my mind for a few years, although I forgot her, but I have never forgotten, which is why I chose to return to China and take over my grandfather's career, the purpose is to find her, but I didn't expect it to be so coincidental, it will be her, but I am absolutely sincere to her. Even if I didn't know she was the person I was looking for, I had a special feeling for her, and I couldn't put it into words, but it was special. At that time, I didn't know her identity, and I could have been so good to her before, let alone at this time.

You can definitely rest assured that you will definitely treat her well. Because in his heart, he wanted to hold her in the palm of his hand, in such a situation, how could he be willing to hurt her?

So don't even think about it, you won't do it, and you can't do it. I just want her to forgive herself, after all, it wasn't my intention to do this at the beginning, and I was forced to do it, I hope that after listening to her explanation, she can understand how helpless she is, and how much she wants to make up for it in her heart.

Now it's up to her side to react, if she can forgive herself, can understand herself, and was helpless at the beginning, then this result is what she is most happy to see, she really doesn't want to, and she doesn't want to pay attention to herself in the future.

"But if you don't say anything all the time, how can people know what you think in your heart, you want to minimize the damage, but will the other party think like this? Do you feel like you've been trying to hide the truth of the matter? "After all, you didn't know about it today, and you already knew about it, but you never told her.

"Grandpa, what you said is also reasonable, but I am worried and suspicious, so I can't make up my mind at this time." It's not because I have too many worries in my heart, there are too many possibilities to happen, and I feel that there are any possibilities, so I dare not tell her easily.

"This matter will put you in a dilemma, but you also have to show sincerity that it always has to be solved, and it is not a way to drag it out." It always has to be faced, it always has to be solved, and dragging it out will only make you more annoyed.

"Yes, I'll try to solve it as soon as possible."

"I can see that you are very special to her, but grandpa can't help with such a thing." Emotional matters, you have to let them deal with their own affairs, if there are other things, maybe they can help.

The only thing about feelings is that I am the most reluctant to interfere, after all, I am not a party and I don't know what to feel, so it is inconvenient to say more, in fact, I am quite happy to see the two of them together. In addition to the ID card, the two of them are really a good match.

"I know that emotional matters need to be handled by myself, and the problem now is that I can't make up my mind at all." It's not that I don't want to, it's that I really don't know how to do it.

If you can make up your mind, you don't have to worry so much at this time. It's because things are far away, and it's much more complicated than I imagined, which makes me a little dilemma.

At present, he should clearly know whether he really loves her or wants to make up for her, because he has always felt guilty about her in the past for hurting her, so he wants to make up for it.

(End of chapter)