After Huang Siyao and her father passed the customs in Luohu, they separated in Shenzhen.

She saw Li Guangfu's WeChat and made an appointment at an Aix café.

He just stood there, tall and thin, actually wearing a formal suit that he didn't usually like, with an indifferent expression.

"Hey, you're here, you look so good!"

"Yes! But your complexion is not good. ”

She looked at his face anxiously. He was thin, and his cheekbones bulged out. But his eyes were smiling at her, making her feel kind. In an instant, she was no longer reserved. Something spilled out of his body, making her feel happy inside, like she was back home. She immediately showed a woman's happy instinct to come, that is, "I will be happy when he is happy". All the sunshine in Malaysia didn't bring her this inner cheerfulness and warmth either.

"Are you frightened?" She asked him after she sat down across the table. He was so skinny, and now she could see better. His hand rested on the table in a way that was familiar to her, and it was particularly careless, like a sleeping animal. She wanted to take his hand and kiss it, but she didn't dare to do it.

"People are always scary." He said.

"Are you distressed?"

"Yes, as distressed as usual, and I know it's stupid."

"Do you think you're like a dog with a firecracker on its tail? This is what Zhang Haifei said about you. ”

He looked at her. At this time, she was cruel, and his self-esteem was greatly hurt.

"I think so." He said.

She never knew how painful he felt in the face of the insult.

After being silent for a long time, she asked again, "Do you miss me?" ”

"You didn't get involved, which makes me feel so much better."

After a moment of silence, she asked, "But do people believe that there is such a thing between us?" ”

"Nope! I never thought they would believe it. ”

"What about Zhang Haifei?"

"I don't think he will either. He didn't think about it without thinking, but it was true that the rumors made him never want to see me again. ”

"I'm going to have a baby."

His face immediately changed, and his whole body was shocked. His gaze darkened as he looked at her, and the look in his eyes puzzled her.

"Say you're happy about it!" She begged to reach for his hand. She could see that he was excited for a moment, but this excitement was suppressed by something inexplicable.

"That's for the future." He said.

"But aren't you happy?" She insisted.

"I'm very skeptical about the future."

"But you don't have to worry about any responsibility. Zhang Haifei will adopt him and treat him as his own, and he will be happy. As she said this, she saw that his face had turned pale and he had flinched. He didn't say a word.

"Then I'll go back to Zhang Haifei and add a little master to the old Zhang family?" She asked him.

He looked at her, his face pale and indifferent, revealing an ugly wry smile.

"You must not tell him who the father of the child is."

"Hey!" "Even if I told him, he would have the baby," she said. As long as I want to tell him, I will tell him. ”

He pondered for a moment.

"Hmm!" He was saying to himself, "I think he would, too." ”

They were silent, and a chasm appeared between them.

"But you don't want me to go back to Zhang Haifei, do you?" She asked.

"What do you want to do?" He asked rhetorically.

"I want to live with you." She said simply.

Hearing this, he couldn't help but feel a faint fire burning in his internal organs, and then he lowered his head. He raised his head again, his eyes filled with panic, and said, "As long as you think it's worth it, I have nothing." ”

"You're richer than most men, you know." She said.

"In a way, I know." He paused for a moment, thinking about something, and then added, "People often say that I look like a woman in many ways, but they don't understand it. You can't say I'm like a woman just because I don't want to shoot birds, or just because I don't want to make a lot of money or don't want to make progress. I can get promoted in the army, easily, but I don't like the military. I hate the shamelessness of money, and I hate people's artificiality. What can I give to a woman in such a world? ”

"Why give what? It's not a bargain. We each love each other, it's as simple as that. She said.

"Oh no! It's a lot more complicated than that. To be alive is to move forward, to keep going. My life will never go into that gutter, never. So I ended up in a mess of wastewater. I can't get a woman into my life unless I do something, something famous, at least I think in my heart, that's how it can be fresh for both of us. A man must give a certain meaning in his life to a woman, if his life is independent, if that woman is a real woman. I can't be a man who clings to you. I can't afford to eat soft rice. ”

"Why not?" She asked.

"No, because I can't. You'll be annoyed in no time. ”

"You don't seem to trust me." She said.

That wry smile appeared on his face again.

"The money is yours, the status is yours, and the idea is yours. I can't just be a tool for my wife's love. ”

"And what are you?"

"You can ask. What is, not on the surface. I, at least for myself, am important. I understand the meaning of my existence, even though I know that others don't understand it. ”

"If you live with me, will the meaning of your existence be diminished?"

He paused for a long time and finally said, "Perhaps." ”

She also thought for a moment before saying, "What is the point of your existence?" ”

"I'll tell you, it's invisible. I don't believe in the world, I don't believe in money, I don't believe in promotion. ”

"And what does the real future look like?"

"God knows! I could feel something inside of me, mixed with resentment. But what it is, I don't know. ”

She looked at him and asked, "Then why are you afraid of me?" ”

He looked at her for a long time before saying, "That's because of money, really, and status." That's the world in your mind. ”

"But don't I have a little warmth?" She asked eagerly.

His eyes began to dim as he looked at her. "Yes! Comes and goes, just like me. ”

"But can you trust the warmth between us?" She asked, her eyes staring at him anxiously.

She noticed that his face softened and he let his guard go. "Perhaps!" He said.

After a moment of silence, she said, "I want you to put your arms around me, I want to hear you tell me that you're happy that we're going to have a baby." She looked so lovely, so warm, and so full of longing, that it made his whole body agitate.

"If you want me to say let's go to my room," he said, "but that would be another scandal." ”

She saw his indifferent energy come up again, and his face was filled with tender passion.