When everyone looks back, they feel that they have missed a lot of good things.

But if time can really be reversed and you are given another chance to choose again, maybe there is a lot of helplessness in all the regrettable initial abandonment.

In some cases, even your choices are simply not at all influenced by the circumstances of the time.

The choice is destined to be a two-way street, and it will not change because of your own will, even if you are given a thousand chances to start over, the final choice may still be the same.

Therefore, a positive view of life is that we should grasp the present and the future, after all, what has been lost is destined to be irretrievable.

A weekend after school starts.

Da Gang came to my school again for a small gathering, and once again mentioned the Yellow House party.

I know that at the beginning of the school year, when he talked about the topic of the Yellow Mansion party, he wanted to stop talking, and there must be some situations that he didn't finish.

Sure enough, Dagang's topic this time involves a lot of information that I have been paying attention to.

We talked about Ah Hong.

At first, he was silent for a long time and glanced at me, "Do you remember Ah Hong in your class when you were in the Yellow Building?" ”

I looked at him, didn't respond positively, and felt a little apprehensive.

"He shouldn't know much about my relationship with Ah Honghuanglou," I thought to myself.

Da Gang saw that my face was expressionless, and his face was a little abnormal.

"I don't know if my feelings are correct, the reunion of Huanglou Junior High School in the winter vacation town, what I saw and heard, based on my judgment, has a lot to do with you and this Ah Hong."

It seems that Dagang came to my dormitory at the beginning of the school year, and what he talked about the party in Huanglou Town, and my judgment that I had reservations about his conversation were correct, and he did have something to say to me, and it was key information, but I don't know if he would have reservations after he finished talking this time.

"The party in the Yellow Mansion was organized by your squad leader, remember what I told you, right?"

He asked me.

I nodded.

"When I was drinking, I heard a lot of classmates say that your class leader is Ah Hong."

I nodded in reaffirmation.

"I also heard that Ah Hong and you have always had a good relationship back then, and Ah Hong seems to have been pursuing you, right?"

My face flushed, and I remembered the episode when Ah Hong shyly stuffed me with a love letter after the junior high school graduation party.

At that time, we were in love, pure as water, and we really didn't know what love was, let alone pursue.

Da Gang's words reminded me of Ah Hong's rare friendship and her kindness to me back then, and I thought that I might never see her again in the future, and I had mixed feelings in my heart.

I still haven't taken a stubble, this is looking at Dagang, looking forward to his words.

"At the party, everyone was talking about Ah Hong, I listened to everyone's discussions, and they all said that her relationship with you was not ordinary, so I made a special inquiry, and I also wanted to find out who Ah Hong was in the crowd." Da Gang noticed my focused expression and continued.

"But the strange thing is that I didn't see her from the beginning to the end of the party." , Dagang's words, I was a little surprised.

"She organized the party, why hasn't she shown up?" I'm a little curious.

"That's why I've always had scruples, and I didn't tell you about Ah Hong last time." After Da Gang finished speaking, he looked at me again and fell silent.

I know what he's thinking, and there must be a deeper story in this.

"Then the information you got is fake, how can she not show up at the party she organized? It doesn't make logical sense," I asked tentatively.

Sure enough, Dagang's next words verified my guess.

"Yes, I thought so at the time, and later an insider told me why." , he wanted to speak and stopped, as if he was reluctant to say more.

"Brother, my gut feeling is that you have lost a very good girl who likes you." Dagang looked a little depressed and seemed to feel sorry for me.

After Ah Hong's graduation ceremony, she wrote to me and has not been heard from since.

Since I was in high school and college, I have been living a difficult life, emotionally confused, and taking care of myself, and I really haven't continued to pay attention to this relationship.

I just vaguely felt that I lacked a clear answer to Ah Hong.

I couldn't accept all her good things with peace of mind, but I was indifferent to her final confession and didn't respond to anything.

After Ah Hong went to secondary school, she never contacted me, which made me gradually fade my attention to her.

I don't know what Ah Hong really thinks now, but is Ah Hong the same affection for me and Ding Ling?

This is also unknown.

During the period of living and studying in the Yellow Building, Ah Hong gave me all kinds of good things, and had a kind of family-like warmth.

In all these years, no one of the opposite sex has treated me so well, and I suddenly felt as if I owed her more than a clear confession.

So, looking at Dagang, I suddenly realized his sad mood at the moment---- he felt sorry for me!

It seems that he really didn't handle his relationship with Ah Hong well.

Da Gang looked at my complicated expression, as if he had guessed my heart, and the expression on his face changed from sad to a little hesitant.

"Say whatever you want." It's a sad topic, but I know he has more important information to tell me.

"Actually, strictly speaking, the party in the Yellow Mansion should be organized by the fiancé in Ahong County." After he finished speaking, he looked at me, and was quiet for a long time.

"Oh." , I am very calm, but there are countless waves in my heart.

"Did you see him?" , I was a little embarrassed, and asked Dagang, I really hope that Ah Hong's him is good enough to match her excellence, so that she can completely forget a young and casual me, simply like a child.

"He's a good drinker." Da Gang smiled. Seeing that I didn't behave unusually, he seemed relieved.

"That boy should be in our hometown, he is a very good person. He works for the county party committee. If you can drink, you will definitely have a bright future in the future. Da Gang seemed to be back in the party, holding a wine glass, indulging in it.

"That's good, good good...... Very good. "I want to say such things from the bottom of my heart, and I also want to wish Ah Hong to find an excellent boy from the bottom of my heart.

"Alas....." Da Gang suddenly sighed.

"At the party, many people drank too much, and after drinking too much, many people knew that you were my friend, and they all said it was a pity." , he continued.

"What a pity?" I was a little nervous for some reason.

"Everyone pities the matter between you and Ah Hong, everyone thinks that you and Ah Hong are the best match." , he replied.

"It's just everyone's drunken talk after drinking." , he went on to add.

"." , I'm a little unnatural.

suddenly remembered Ding Ling.

My feelings for Ah Hong are indeed not as deep as everyone thinks.

Thinking of this, I couldn't help but feel a little embarrassed.

"My relationship with Ah Hong, that was a long time ago. At that time, after so much time, who can really say clearly? ”

"Besides, at that time, we were all children, and we didn't understand anything."

After listening to my defense.

Da Gang's face was a little ugly, "You didn't understand it then, but now you understand?" ”

I was silent again.

Yes, how much can I really understand feelings now?

"Forget it, don't talk about you." , Da Gang diverted the topic again.

"I'm here this time, mainly to talk to you about my affairs, I've been very annoyed lately." This time, he came with a lot of worries, and he looked different from before, depressed and uneasy.

"What's wrong with you?" , I asked.

"Is it about Lily?"

He did not speak, and was silent again.

"Lily has been going to the capital on weekends in the last few weeks to find Daliang." After a while, he said with difficulty, looking distressed.

I was a little surprised, "How do you know?" ”

"Don't forget, I'm a medical student."

"What does it have to do with your major?" , I have some doubts.

"The intuition of studying medicine will be very sharp, and the fact that Lily went to the capital to find Daliang has been confirmed, and I also know that they have lived together." He said it painfully.

"You're guessing, aren't you?" I was a little shocked and didn't want to believe it was true.

"Lily went to Daliang, and I have been personally confirmed by her, but the matter of their cohabitation is the conclusion of a person who studies medicine from a professional point of view. This doesn't need to be confirmed", Da Gang finished speaking, lowered his head, looked very decadent, and didn't seem to have the strength to continue talking about this topic.

"Give her up." , Looking at his sad appearance, I have no better advice, as a close friend, I think that emotional matters, should be broken, after speaking, but more uncomfortable than him, yes, in this world, emotional things, where is so simple! It's easier said than done!

"Brother, in fact, I think you must chase her for the college entrance examination, which is a mistake in itself."

"Lily is actually a very assertive girl, and it is difficult for you to change the things she believes, including the university she gave up to admit to, and went back to high school for Daliang to repeat her studies, which is something that ordinary people can't do. So, for you and Daliang, which one Lily wants to choose, the conclusion has always been clear, it's just that you don't want to accept it. I looked at his face and cautiously continued.

"Does cohabitation mean love?" Da Gang suddenly looked up and asked me.

Dagang's question made me stunned for a moment.

I thought of Dazhi and her cousin, according to Dazhi's own words, both of them clearly accepted and confirmed their love for each other, although they went out together for nearly two months, and even slept together, nothing happened.

For a while, my head was chaotic, and I was speechless.

"Lily is now suddenly very enthusiastic about me and approaches me on her own initiative, I don't know what she means, what the hell is she trying to do?" Da Gang scratched his hair and looked very painful.

"I don't know what to do now?"

Looking at my friend's sad appearance, I didn't know how to comfort or have any better advice for a while, but in fact, my own handling of feelings was not a mess?

Is it true that there are so many forms of love? Which is right and which is wrong, far or near, how many of us young can distinguish clearly?

"Are you sure Lily is looking for you to be in a relationship with you?" I'm really confused.

"I don't know, I don't understand what she really thinks, so I'm here to talk to you." , he looked at me, obviously not finding valuable information in my reassurance and advice, somewhat disappointed.

"It seems that you came to consult me about emotional matters, and you are looking for the wrong person." I'm very sincere.

"Maybe girls can better understand their true thoughts, I suggest you find a girl to ask, I really can't tell why she went to Daliang and came back to look for you. Do you just want to see you as a friend? Or what do you want to say to you? “

"I don't know, maybe it'll take time to tell me."

As soon as he finished speaking, he didn't look so painful anymore, as if he had decided something in his heart.

"I know what I should do, I've been sad and entangled some time ago, I don't know how to deal with this matter, after talking to you today, I know how to do it."

I looked at him with a relieved look, a little relieved, although I didn't know what he really thought next, but I felt that his mood had changed significantly.

I know Dagang, and he always surprises people in the end.

After the conversation, I remembered Ah Hong again, she didn't show up at the Yellow House party mentioned by Da Gang, it seems that organizing that party was not her intention at all, so she has not heard from me for so long, and has never had any contact with me, is this also her original intention?

However, why did Ding Ling go to the Yellow House party?

These questions haunt me like a mystery, and I can't figure it out.

Maybe young love is a mystery in itself.