The news that Dazhi's childhood sweetheart's cousin is living with a Beijing native who sells CDs and is about to get married brought me more than just shock.

At the same time, Lily and Daliang, who were penniless in the capital and married naked for love, let me see the hope of love again.

After sending Dagang away, I began to carefully prepare for Ding Ling's invitation to go to the small town in the southwest.

Dazhi is still in a depressed mood, although I work and live with him every day, but the reality is like this, I don't know how to comfort him, so I have to let him go, I know, like Dagang's experience, maybe time is the best antidote to emotional healing.

The time to meet Ding Ling is getting closer and closer, but my mind is gradually uneasy, so many years, we are only intermittent contact, and I have not had any substantive expression to her, although every time I take the initiative to contact her, but her intentional estrangement has always made me shy away from the idea of further development, Da Gang is the only person who understands the inside story of my relationship with Ding Ling, every time I talk to him about Ding Ling, he is flickering, deliberately avoiding the topic, Dagang's attitude towards my relationship with her, It also aggravated my doubts to a certain extent.

The trip to the southwest is destined to have too many uncertainties.

However, no matter what the outcome is, this is also the first substantive face-to-face meeting between me and Ding Ling since we have been at the same table in the Yellow House for three years, and this is not an opportunity and encouragement for me.

I booked a train ticket from Beijing to the southwest town early, and informed Ding Ling by phone that I would have a specific arrival time and train number, and an agreed meeting place.

The journey was very long, the train had to travel for two days, although the journey was very hard, but as I got closer to the destination, my feelings could not be expressed in any words, excitement, joy, and hope were mixed together, so that I should have been very tired, in an inexplicable state of almost pathological euphoria.

Finally arrived, I got off the train, found the café where I agreed to meet on the phone, sat down, looked at the entrance, and waited for Ding Ling to appear.

The scenery of the small southwest town is beautiful, and the passers-by are also very leisurely, completely without the oppressive feeling of the fast pace of the capital.

Ding Ling came, she wore a long skirt, Tingting walked towards me, kept looking at me at the door, saw her figure, immediately stiffened, originally designed, rehearsed countless times to meet and greet the way, completely left behind, I just sat there fixedly, looking at her, seemed to stop breathing.

She walked lightly across from me and smiled.

"How long have you been here? Isn't it tiring to sit in the car for so long? ”

"No, no, it's not hard, it's not hard." I lost my ability to speak again.

"I, I, I've just gotten here." I stammered in response.

I haven't seen her for a few years, and Ding Ling has lost a lot of weight.

She looks like she has completely faded from the youth of her student days, and she is completely dressed as a professional woman.

Looking at my fixed eyes, she smiled slightly.

My two days of travel seemed to melt away from her smile.

"You, do you want to drink something?" I saw her sit down and gradually return to normal.

Ding Ling ordered a cup of coffee, took a sip slowly, and glanced at me, as if she was a little absent-minded.

"Let's rest here for a while, and I'll take you to the hotel later." The hotel here is not easy to book, so you have to make an appointment in advance. She said.

"Okay, no hurry." I couldn't agree more with her arrangement.

"You're my old classmate, I'm really touched to come so far to see me this time." She took a sip of coffee gracefully, her expression pleasant.

"Two days ago, like you, another good friend of mine came to see me, he was in graduate school, and he also ran a long way, alas, I told him, don't come, he must come, as stubborn as you." She still seemed to be touched by the feelings of her old classmates, her eyes flickered, and her incomprehensible expression was exactly the same as that of the Yellow Mansion period.

My heart sank, and I felt a little uneasy.

"Ding Ling put me and her old classmates together, it seems to have some meaning, right?"

"Maybe in her opinion, I came from the capital to find her, just an ordinary friend visit?"

Thinking about this, I was a little restless.

She looked at me, stirred the coffee in her cup with a spoon, and asked nonchalantly:

"Who else have you been in contact with lately?"

"Do you remember when we were in the Yellow Building, there was an old classmate named Moon in the class?"

"Do you have any messages about him lately?"

Ding Ling's questioning reminded me of what happened to the grove next to the Yellow Building.

Of course I remember the moon.

After the incident in the Yellow Mansion Grove that year, the words of the iron head and the bald head in the town made me pay special attention to the boy named the moon.

The moon is white and pure, with a face as beautiful as a girl, his family lives in the town, the living conditions of the family are superior, he always likes to mix with children in society, during his study in the Yellow Building, he is always surrounded by a group of girls, his grades are very bad, and there is no news after the Yellow Mansion junior high school.

Ding Ling's question was combined with what happened to me in the grove next to the Yellow Building, and I suddenly realized that the inside story of what happened to Ding Ling and the moon back then should be almost the same as what Tietou said, and my heart felt like I had been stung, and I was a little numb in pain.

Could it be true that the Iron Head and the Bald Head were true before they committed violence against me in the grove?

Is it true that girls like handsome, rich, and bad boys?

Could it be that Ding Ling also likes boys who look as beautiful as girls like the moon?

My mind was confused and I was silent.

Seeing that I didn't answer, Ding Ling sighed.

My face was a little ugly. glanced at her and replied truthfully:

"I know a little bit about the moon you said."

"Where did he go? What now? Ding Ling was indeed eager to know.

"After graduating from junior high school, he went to work in the provincial capital, and I heard that he was working on a construction site, and he married a girl in the village of the town the year before last, and the girl was still in junior high school, but she was pregnant, and she had no choice, so she dropped out of school and married him."

I know, there is indeed only so much, if it weren't for Ding Ling, I might not even remember the moon, let alone intentionally pay attention to it.

I saw Ding Ling's expression cloudy, with a faint hint of anger.

Soon, she was back to normal.

He became smiling again.

"Big country, I still remember your article in the third year of high school, it's really well written!"

The last thing I wanted to mention was mentioned again, and it was a little embarrassing.

"Where, it's okay to be idle, write and play."

"Everything you wrote in your article is true, right?" Ding Ling looked at me, as if the truth was written on my face.

"Poverty is real, events are creations, stories made up." I answered honestly, and at the same time felt relieved, after so many years, I no longer seem to pay attention to the impact of the article on me.

"You're funny, giggles." Ding Ling laughed, a little reluctantly.

"Oops, it's so late, I have to take you to the hotel." She hurriedly stood up, it seemed that the hotel in the small town was indeed difficult to book.

A few short small talks made my mood a little low, I vaguely realized that the matter between the moon and Ding Ling did not seem to be so simple, and at the same time, I also regretted that I had honestly dissected myself to Ding Ling for the first time, and a feeling of being abandoned long ago made me feel very lost.

I stood up mechanically and walked out of the café with Ding Ling.

The small town was bustling with pedestrians, and Ding Ling walked in front and glanced back at me.

Suddenly stopped.

"Am I pretty?" She pulled her hair and stood still, as if joking with me.

I was stunned and looked at her.

"It's beautiful!" I didn't have any flattery, and to be honest, she was indeed beautiful, and at the same time a little confused by her sudden question.

"Ugh." She seemed distressed.

"Recently, when I was walking down the street, people kept looking back at me."

"Look at my return rate, it's still quite high." She giggled.

She smiled beautifully, and I looked at her with a little lost soul.

"I'm still a soldier, and I can only wear civilian clothes when I come out." She said to me with a smile.

"It's not good in the hospital, there are pickets to investigate, and the control is too strict, you can't wear any clothes casually, you can only wear military uniforms."

I imagined her beautiful figure wrapped in a fat military uniform, which was indeed a kind of burial of beauty.

We walked past a palatial hotel.

Ding Ling paused, "This is the best hotel in the small town. She pointed, "It's more than a thousand a night." Are you going to live here? ”

She looked at me.

I was a little nervous, even in late autumn and early winter, it was cold outside, my face was still red, and I was sweating all at once.

Dazhi and I still live in the basement in the capital, life has to be budget-conscious, for this meeting, I bought a suit for the first time, the salary is already very little, and although the internship has just expired, the salary has risen a little, I have to send money to my hometown regularly, and the consumption of more than 1,000 a day is still astronomical for me.

"I'm here this time, and I plan to stay for two or three days, play in the small town for two days, and find a random place. I wasn't very demanding about where to live. ”

I propose.

People are poor and short-sighted, and I blushed and finished speaking, and I didn't even have the courage to look at her expression.

"Oh, yes." Her tone was calm.

"Stay in the army guest house next to our hospital, right? I can use my military ID so it's cheaper. She said and stopped a taxi.

"It's a little farther out there, shall we take a taxi?"

After checking in for the accommodation, the weather gradually darkened.

Ding Ling was very familiar with the whole town, and after settling my accommodation, she proposed to find a place to eat.

My mood was greatly affected, and compared to the high level of interest when I came, the content of the meeting and chat, especially the choice of hotel accommodation, ruthlessly hit my sensitive self-esteem, and I began to feel inexplicably lost.

Ding Ling found a specialty restaurant and ordered two dishes, I sat down and looked at the food, I didn't have much appetite.

I simply ate a few bites, looked at her, and it seemed that she didn't want to eat anything, but just a few bites with me in a polite and symbolic way, and then put it down, as if she was also full of thoughts.

After eating, she started to call and contact to arrange the next day's itinerary.

We made an appointment to take someone to visit the attractions around the town with us the next day, and after that, Ding Ling left in a hurry.

Back at the guest house, I lay on the cot with a groggy head. Everything that has been with Ding Ling from the Yellow House period to the present for more than ten years has appeared in my mind like a marquee, her attitude of imminent separation, and a series of expressions after meeting separately for many years, all the topics discussed, I found that I didn't know anything about the story behind Ding Ling, and even about her experience for so many years. I gradually began to realize that the current Ding Ling is very different from the simple girl in the Yellow House and even the middle school of the county, and I am afraid that there is already a sad barrier between us.

An inexplicable worry came to mind.

I couldn't help but think of Da Gang's feelings for Lily, the kind of unrequited love behavior like a moth to a fire, and finally ended in tragedy, I ran thousands of miles from the capital to the southwest city to see Ding Ling's behavior, after meeting and the huge contrast with expectations, what is the difference between him and him?