Sometimes, deliberate avoidance can make emotions more complicated, even more entangled, and full of contradictions.

I saw Lin Xueer's investment advertisement, and I knew the intention of her message, but I couldn't pay attention to the meaning of the code words.

I suspect that she must have experienced some inexplicable changes, so she gave up her long-awaited life abroad and ran back to China again.

After returning to China, what must have happened to me in Beijing, a person who was alone and helpless, would think of finding me?

However, the real purpose of her return to China, I can't guess anyway.

That's why women often behave in a way that is incomprehensible.

"The intention of her investment advertisement is to find me and return to my original emotional state with me? Continuing the previous relationship? ”

It's impossible and not in line with her character.

In the current situation, it is not the result I wanted.

"She gave me a hint that she had something important and wanted to say it to my face?"

That's the key, and that's the only way she expects me to reach out to her.

She knew in her heart that I could find her whenever I wanted.

However, in my current condition, I have just been injured and bruised, and I am still too busy to take care of myself, where will I be in the mood to pay attention to her hints?

I closed off my emotional world almost completely, and I always felt that I had lost my judgment and was unwilling to open my heart to anyone anymore.

After going through so many things, I gradually realized: "The closer you are, once there is a barrier, this obstacle is often sadly insurmountable!" ”

Communication is very important, but it is not communication that can solve or even change all problems, people's hearts are very important, and what is in the heart, how many things can be accepted by each other with just a few words? Besides, there are so many insurmountable emotional gaps between people?!

I stood under the eaves, staring blankly at the rain and fog and the pedestrians who were hurrying by, and my heart was like being drenched in the rain, wet, empty, and my heart was like a rain curtain fluttering in the wind, and there was no landing.

The phone rang.

On the screen, there is a string of familiar numbers.

My mind suddenly became sad and agitated.

"She still took the initiative to call me!"

"That's what I expected, and that's what I reject in my heart."

In the midst of this ambivalence, I answered the phone.

On the other side of the phone, there was still a habitual long silence.

"You, are you a big country?"

Lin Xue'er's voice changed a little bit, from the original crisp to a little dragged and low.

"It's me." I tried to keep myself calm.

"I used to go to the café to drink coffee now, and after going back to Beijing for so long, I often come here to sit and sit, but I have never seen you here." In her tone, there was a disappointment that was difficult to hide.

"Oh, my tastes have changed now, and I don't drink coffee anymore." I was in a terrible mood, and the words I said were no longer my own rational logical thinking.

"Oh, yes?!" Lin Xue'er seemed to hear my voice, and there was a long silence in the microphone again, and I could even hear the sound of rain on her side coming from the microphone.

"You're not busy, are you? Come and sit with me for a while, will you? After a long time, she struggled to say a word, and seemed to hesitate for a long time.

I resisted her invitation from the bottom of my heart, but I couldn't find a good reason to decline for a while.

"Okay, you wait for me for a while." After holding it for more than ten seconds, I said something that surprised me.

I meant to reject and reject this meeting, but the conclusion of rational thinking was very different from such a decision.

Since the words had been spoken, I couldn't change them, so I had to return to the office, pack up my office supplies, and prepare to go out to the café to meet Lin Xue'er.

The rain was getting heavier and heavier, and although my car was driving slowly, I felt like I was quickly at the place I had been deliberately avoiding.

I parked the car and stood in the rain, looking at the entrance of the café, still a little hesitant.

Through the window, I saw the familiar figure of Lin Xue'er, who was sitting in the place where we used to sit, waving at me.

It's hard to describe the mood at that moment.

Love-hate, mixed feelings.

In a blink of an eye, it was a few years of time, and all the grievances of the past seemed to disappear at the moment of meeting.

If I was in the rain outside the house, when I looked at Lin Xue'er, I still had a trace of hatred in my heart, and the moment I walked into the café and sat down face to face with her, my heart was full of tenderness, and I didn't have any other thoughts.

Lin Xue'er looked haggard, but she was in good spirits.

She looked at me, coffee in her hand, and didn't speak for a while.

I don't know what she was thinking, but from her facial expressions, I could tell that her mood should be as calm as I am.

"When did you come back?" , I broke the silence first.

"How have you been doing for the past few years?" She didn't answer my questions and stared at me with concern in her eyes.

I sighed.

"Me? All these years? It's okay, it's not bad. ”

"What about you? How are you doing abroad? ”

"I actually...... In fact, I have already returned to China. Lin Xue'er's words had a hint of hesitation, and she looked like she wanted to speak and stopped.

"Haven't you been abroad?" I was a little surprised, and I was a little surprised by such an answer.

"Speaking of this, I can't explain it for a while." , Lin Xue'er sighed, her words carried a lot of information.

It seems that this is another very long and complicated story.

Experienced Lan Gu's emotional failure experience.

I'm very afraid of women's stories now.

Especially the woman you like, and the lover who has a close relationship with you.

My fear is justified, this society is too terrifying, and time is too ruthless, any person, inadvertent time, will be completely turned upside down, right and wrong.

Lin Xueer herself said that she has been back to China for a long time, what kind of experience will she have?

Why hasn't she contacted me for so long?

What's the secret here?

Judging by the way she looks, she should have had a hard time lately.

She returned home early, and had she and her Mark broken up?

I looked at Lin Xue'er's face, however, the unfamiliar expression on that beautiful face made me unable to guess her mood.

I was trying to find a little bit of an answer, but there was not a single clue in that face that was once so familiar.

Is this still the lover with whom I was once so close?

Suddenly, I felt that although she and I were only separated by a table, the reality was so close, but psychologically we were separated by more than thousands of miles between the eastern and western hemispheres.

This strangeness so familiar breaks my heart.

The rain outside the window has slowly stopped.

The rain-washed streets are crisp and clean, and the air is filled with the smell of fresh earth, which is refreshing.

Lin Xue'er was almost out of coffee, and I leaned back on the chair in the corner of the table, thinking about all the possibilities about her situation.

What kind of future will this reunion after a long absence bring us?

What kind of story did Lin Xueer have when she returned to China and even during her time abroad?