When school started, I didn't need to be accompanied by my family, and I went to the university in the provincial capital alone.

The school occupies a small area, but it is beautiful and tidy.

The university has a long history, many buildings are Soviet-style, echoing with modern architecture, creating a unique style and connotation, the campus is verdant with green trees, the landscape layout is elegant and solemn, and the academic atmosphere is very strong.

I arrived early to register, and other students in the same dormitory have not yet arrived.

The counselor is a veteran, tall and thin, very serious, sincere and enthusiastic, after confirming that I am a student he took me, he personally took me to the designated dormitory, set up a bed, explained the relevant rules and regulations of dormitory management for half a day, and some matters that new students need to pay attention to, before going to other things.

My college classmates Dazhi and Ah Peng in the dormitory also moved in one after another, and we quickly got to know each other, and the two of them became my best friends in college life.

Dazhi and Ah Peng both live in the county seats near the provincial capital, but they are far apart.

Dazhi's family is rural, and it can be seen that the family conditions are not very good. He is not tall, thin, his hair is always messy, he likes to squint, he wears a pair of glasses, and he has a Chinese face, and he looks very serious.

The county seat where Ah Peng's family lives is the closest to the university, it is said that it is only a dozen kilometers, he is tall and thin, with a flat hair, a fat round face dotted with two small eyes, habitually blinking, also wearing a pair of glasses, he likes to pull a tail note when he speaks, and he is very righteous.

The school curriculum is very tight, after the military training, the students immediately put into the intense study, I originally imagined that the life of the university should be much easier than high school, but the actual situation is very different, the college life is also very compact, the pace is very fast, so reading at night is also a common thing, and the university coursework is broad and profound, in addition to classroom tutoring, there are too many things to understand, some courses to really understand, learn well and do what you have learned, it will be very difficult to learn.

In my spare time from university courses, I have to find a way to make a living, the consumption in the provincial capital is very high, I am a newcomer, unfamiliar environment, no relatives, all rely on the support of my parents, the family's economic conditions are limited, after paying the tuition fees, there is no greater ability to afford my living expenses, I have to find a way to solve it myself.

I found an enthusiastic counselor, applied for a work-study program, and with his help, I took care of the cleaning of a dormitory building in the engineering department, and I could receive a salary of several hundred yuan a month, plus the school's public subsidy, which basically filled my stomach.

On weekends, I would ride my bicycle to the medical university in the same provincial capital to find Dagang and talk to him about Dazhi and Ah Peng, my new friends, and the experience of entering the university. Sometimes, I will also talk about the past, about the Yellow Building, about the county, about the people and things in the past, about the current situation of people, Dagang has just read his favorite medical major, and he can see Lily he likes every day, and he seems very content. He was in good shape, although according to what he had told me in private, Lily had always been lukewarm and polite to him.

One weekend, I went to the medical university again, and when I saw Dagang, he seemed very excited, grabbed me, and said that he had a surprise for me. It was indeed very surprising that Da Gang found the contact information of Ding Ling's unit address through some channel, stuffed me with a full-written address message, and encouraged me to take the initiative to contact her.

After getting Ding Ling's contact information, I hesitated for a long time and finally decided to write to her.

I didn't dare to write any words about feelings in the letter, I was afraid that if I accidentally said the wrong thing, I would lose her only way of contact, although I never made it clear that I liked her, but I knew that Ding Ling was actually sensitive and vulnerable, I remember when I was in junior high school in Huanglou, I once made a small joke with her, saying that her face was too round, like a baked cake bought in the cafeteria, and she ignored me for half a month. I was afraid that I would get the same result if I wrote the letter and said the wrong thing.

The first letter I sent to Ding Ling was written carefully, and the content of the letter was nothing more than that I had arrived at the university in the provincial capital, what specific address the university was, what was the campus environment like, and what was the academic atmosphere in the university. In short, the content of the letter is very empty and boring.

After the letter was written, I secretly sealed it and prepared to send it.

I went out with Daishi, passed by the school communication room, and pretended to be absent-minded and stuffed the letter into the mailbox, but due to distraction, the letter was not put away and fell out at once.

Dazhi noticed my abnormality, he took a step ahead of me, picked up the letter from the ground, glanced at it, and asked me with a smile: "Dude, you have a love letter, right?" Looks like the name on the envelope is a girl. ”

"It's a cousin from my hometown. She's a soldier in another province," I lied. He took the letter and stuffed it into the mailbox. After the letter is sent, there may be various consequences, and I haven't figured out how to deal with it yet, so I don't want to explain too much for the time being.

"There's nothing to be embarrassed about, love letters are love letters." Dazhi looked at me and teased. "Oh, I know, it looks like you kid doesn't want me to know too much."

Dazhi is very smart, and he saw through my thoughts at once.

"It's nothing to write love letters, you're so old, but you look well-behaved, honest, not like being pursued, it's good to take the initiative, you always have to have a hope, and only when you have a pursuit will you have the motivation to live, right?" He continued to tease me.

", you're just." I decided not to bother with him.

"I didn't see it, you belong to the sullen type of man." On the way back, he was endlessly teasing. "You definitely can't write love letters, you should ask me for this kind of thing."

"Whatever you want to understand, it's really not a love letter, it's a very casual mutual connection." I couldn't help but respond, I didn't expect that my first letter set the basic tone of my communication with Ding Ling. Dazhi's words seemed to remind me, and I gradually realized that the content of my letter was inappropriate, and if the letter was defined as a love letter, the part of the letter was indeed less, which was a serious disqualification, let alone impressing Ding Ling.

I should have made it clear, too vague, too jerky, would Ding Ling not even be able to read it? Thinking of this, I wanted to go back and open the mailbox and take out the letter and write it again, but it was too late. Looking through the torn edge of the bottom corner of the mailbox, I could clearly see that the envelope I had carefully selected was lying quietly at the bottom of the mailbox, like hundreds of other ordinary letters.

After the letter was sent, it sank into the sea within half a month.

I started to get nervous.

Every time I pass by the communication room during class, I will glance at the small blackboard outside the communication room to see if there is my name on it, and the names of all the recipients in the university will be clearly written on it. However, a month has passed, and the little blackboard has been erased many times, and I have never seen any information about me.

I'm getting a little hopeless.

I began to regret writing that letter to Ding Ling, she may have received my letter, casually threw it aside and ignored it, thinking that the letterhead carrying my hot heart was casually discarded by her, my heart felt like something was gnawed away, and I felt a faint pain.

"It seems that it's really me who is a mediocre person and makes a lot of feelings." "After high school, she never looked at me in the eye, so how could she be interested in me?" "I'm a poor man at all, and pursuing her is self-defeating and self-inflicted." All kinds of ideas came flooding into my mind, and I began to lose my ability to concentrate on the lectures.

My anomaly didn't escape the eyes of Oshima.

"Dude, did your little lover write back to you?" In the beginning, Dazhi often teased me.

After asking a few times, seeing that my face was getting more and more ugly, he also began to avoid the topic.

Dazhi began to consciously or unintentionally drag Ah Peng and I out of the food stalls at the entrance of the university to drink and relax, avoiding talking about the letter I sent.

But the matter was soon exposed by him again.

Once, Dazhi drank a little too much, pulled me, squinted his drunken little eyes, and enlightened me: "Big country, I know your situation, you probably have a crush on that Ding Ling, right?" Do people don't like you? I'll tell you a secret, I actually like a cousin of mine, who is now in Beijing and sells software in Zhongguancun. "I'm a unrequited lover like you, you're not bad, you wrote a letter to the person you like, my cousin and I grew up together, we are together every day, I don't even have the courage to say I like her, you are much stronger than me!"

I was a little speechless, and at the same time a little sad, I remembered that Dagang confessed to Lily in the middle of the county and was rejected, but the matter between me and Ding Ling is not so complicated at present, besides, I didn't confess in the letter, I didn't say anything in the letter except for the situation of the school, why didn't Ding Ling give any response?

"Big country, I admire you, dare to love and hate, dare to write love letters to the people you like, you are a man!" After Dazhi gave me a thumbs up, he foamed at the mouth and fell asleep in Ah Peng's arms.

Ah Peng looked at me, looked at the fallen Dazhi, and laughed.

"I didn't expect that the two of you are more affectionate than the other, you still have a crush, and you confess, but you don't dare to say it....... Ha ha. "He seems to have encountered the most ridiculous thing in the world, and he can't stop laughing.

Ah Peng has always prided himself as a ruthless chivalrous man, iron-clad, never believed in love, and didn't know what it was.

The gaffe of me and Dazhi with love has become his boring joke.

After Dazhi woke up, it seemed that he had never said anything after drinking, and he returned to a serious and serious appearance.

I also never mentioned his drunken mantra, but Ah Peng teased him from time to time: "Hey, I said Dazhi, I heard that you have a cousin who is very good-looking, introduce me to him one day." ”

Dazhi's flying foot magic will show his power at this time, kicking Ah Peng in the dormitory and unable to hide, holding books until he escapes in a hurry.

Time flies, and another month has passed.

Late autumn is coming.

On the university campus, the yellow leaves of the birch trees on both sides of the boulevard began to fall, and a touch of autumn yellow and red began to decorate the corners of the campus.

One afternoon, I was riding my bicycle to self-study and passed by the reception room.

When the wind picked up, I stopped, wrapped myself in my clothes, and looked habitually at the small blackboard outside the communication room, and in the list of recipients, I saw my name prominently listed, and the chalk handwriting was strong and powerful, and it stood out in the bright autumn sun.