The days of cram school passed quickly, and before I knew it, it was the spring of the next year approaching the college entrance examination.

After a few quiet spring rains, the sky began to brighten, and the air was filled with the fragrance of freshly turned earth. On the hill behind the prefectural high school campus, white and pink apricot blossoms bloom all over the mountains, and when the breeze blows, the refreshing fragrance of flowers wafts through the closed window lattices of cram schools, into the classrooms surrounded by a sea of books, and into everyone's hearts.

On this bright spring day, Da Gang fell in love. Just as Jin Shuzeng's "Meet in 1998" lyrics sang, "Meet in the sweet spring breeze, meet in that eternal youth", one afternoon in the spring of 1998, Da Gang returned to the rented cottage and excitedly told me that he liked a girl named Lily in the class, and if she wanted, he liked to give up his life for her.

Lily is a late cram school, when she came, it was already the early spring of 98, it is said that after reporting to the university, she found that the school she was admitted to was not her ideal goal, and then returned to school, gave up the admission and returned to the county middle school to prepare for the college entrance examination again, when she joined the cram school, according to the review and preparation plan of the cram school, it has reached the sprint stage. The teacher took her into the classroom and introduced her to everyone, and Lily looked very shy forever, tall and thin, with a long and thin face, a pale complexion, slender eyes, and a black mole at the corner of her mouth. She was wearing a milky white cotton skirt, holding a book, and glanced at the class out of the corner of her eyes, as if she wanted to see through everyone's thoughts. When introducing Lily, I saw Da Gang's body sitting next to him constantly writhing like a worm, and his eyes were round looking at the new girl on the podium, which was a little abnormal.

Lily was arranged to sit in front of me and Da Gang, and it took less than a month to capture Da Gang's spring heart.

"Lily gave me a question today."

"Lily changed her shoes today."

"Lily's house sent her something."

For a period of time at the beginning of contact, every night when I returned to the rented dormitory, Dagang's endless topics were inseparable from Lily, and I teased him, "You Lily is long all day long, Lily is short, do you like people?" Da Gang suddenly shut up, looking thoughtful.

However, the next day, when I returned to the dormitory, I started nagging again.

"Lily bought a new bag today,"

"Lily didn't eat at noon."

"Lily was so wonderful when she answered the teacher's questions today."

My ears were almost worn out, so I teased him again, "Lily looks so ugly, her face is so long, like a horse." ”

"Shut up, you know a piece of." He was anxious, "Lily is so pretty." "He looked intoxicated,

"A hundred times stronger than the lover of your dreams. The one you like, that's ugly, the ass is twisted and twisted, the big thick legs, and the elephant is no different",

"Damn, you know who I like?" I'm in a bit of a hurry,

"You like Lily so much, Lily on the left, Lily on the right, Lily herself knows that?" Da Gang's expression suddenly darkened, "I never told her." Looking at his appearance, I couldn't bear to say anything more, so I patted him on the shoulder and reminded him, "Brother, I'm going to take the college entrance examination soon, study hard!" ”，

"After the exam, confess to your Lily. What do you think? ”

The Da Gang I know is a person who dares to love and hate, what he wants to do, and is decisive and resolute, but Lily's sudden intrusion makes me feel that I want to get to know Da Gang again, he suddenly becomes hesitant and hesitant, and even answers the question is thinking about whether the answer is the only one, and if there is another solution, is there any other answer. I kept reassuring him that the exam question is not love, and even though there are thousands of solutions, the answer is still the only one. These were not enough, he began to be like I met Ding Ling again two years ago, tossing and turning on the small bed in the rental house at night like a pancake, not sleeping well, and the next day the two dark circles under his eyes were like pandas, and he got up early to go to self-study. However, he was completely absent, and I often saw him, sitting in his chair, his hands on his face, staring at the back of Lily sitting in front of him.

Dagang's results began to sway like a falling kite.

I know the pain of unrequited love, how could I not? It's just that I have too much on my shoulders, and I choose not to think about it and ignore it in desperation, which is a temporary escape from self-deception and temporary discouragement.

I still can't bear to see my good friend go on like this, I am very worried about his grades, worried about his future big exams, so I mustered up the courage to give him advice, I want to use a way that I have the same situation but have never tried, to see if I can get him back to his original state.

"Da Gang, you like Lily so much, I think you have to tell her, right? Just say it. ”

One night, looking at his tangled appearance, I couldn't help but say to him.

He didn't say anything, ignored me, and walked out of the room silently.

After a while, he came back with a few bottles of wine, and at the same time packed a few side dishes at the small restaurant at the door.

"Dude, come on, let's have a drink." He's a bit of an anomaly.

Da Gang's alcohol is surprisingly good, I know this, a year ago, everyone at the high school graduation party was staggering, only Da Gang was sober, sent people away one by one, and went back to drink two bottles of beer, saying that it was gargling.

"I don't drink with you, why do you drink when you're idle?" I know how much he drinks, so I'm more resistant to drinking with him.

"Don't fuck up, don't talk nonsense, come quickly, I won't pour you, I'm just depressed and want to drink."

"Hey, are you coming? Seeing that I really didn't move, he was a little annoyed.

The small table in the room was filled with all kinds of plastic bags of food, and he opened two bottles of wine and stared at me.

"Don't drink it."

"Okay, you don't drink it." He ignored me and picked up his chopsticks on his own. Raised the bottle and touched the bottle in front of the empty seat opposite, "Come brother, drink." ”

"Damn, don't do this, it's like I'm hanging." I'm a bit compromised.

"Come on, big country, I really want to drink today." Da Gang's expression was a little wrong, and his tone was almost pleading.

I put down my book, walked over to the small table, picked up the bottle, touched him, took a sip of beer, "What's wrong?" ”

"Why do you have to drink? I really don't have any homework to finish. ”

"Brother, homework is never done." After a sip of wine, Da Gang's face was a little sad,

"We're fucking machines. There will always be unfinished homework and unfinished exams. "His emotionality alerted me,

"You're a little abnormal today, what's wrong with you?" and I asked him,

"I confessed to Lily today, and she refused!" He lowered his head, his eyes were red, and his voice was hoarse.

My heart sank, "How so, what did Lily say?" "Although I guessed the result, I still felt in my heart that he should have a glimmer of hope.

"She, Lily, said that she has a boyfriend, and now she is studying in the capital, and she is our senior. It's called Daliang. Da Gang's voice was a little choked,

"It's still a famous university in Beijing."

A series of behaviors after Da Gang came back, I guessed the ending a little bit, I know him very well, and in the face of him who is trapped in the emotional quagmire, I suddenly feel very strange.

"I seem to know Daliang, it's the person in the 3rd class of the original county middle school, the big man who lives in the county, the one who likes fishing?" I asked him,

"It's him, I know him, that person has a pimple on his face, a small nose and small eyes, how ugly, Lily actually likes him and doesn't like me." Dagang was a little childish, raised the bottle, and drank it all.

"Drink slowly." I sympathized with him a little, and at the same time thought of my own affairs, and I was inexplicably worried, did Ding Ling really like the moon as the iron head said?

Da Gang and I are the same, caught into the same love spell, the same unrequited love, but the way of expression is different, I am buried in my heart, Da Gang also wanted to do so, but in the end he did not defeat himself, chose to confess, the result was unexpected, but what about me, if I go to confess to Ding Ling, will I also get the same result as Da Gang now? The emotions that had been suppressed for a year were completely churned from the bottom of my heart by Dagang's half bottle of beer, and I began to fidget.

Crush is humble, and every crush will have a scar in his heart, but no one wants or even has the courage to uncover it and show the bloody wound to others.

The wine drank quickly, two bottles of wine went down, a large number of Da Gang was unusually drunk, his words began to increase, and he talked endlessly about Lily's various goodness, he was too ordinary, unworthy of her, etc., I don't know how to comfort him, Da Gang is my best friend, although he has shortcomings, but in my opinion he is a very good boy, such an excellent boy, how can he be rejected so ruthlessly by a girl?

I remembered Mr. Jin Yong's love words in "Dragon Babu":

Ah Zi asked her brother-in-law, "What's so good about her, where can I not catch up with her, you always think about her, and you can't forget her?" ”

The brother-in-law replied calmly: "You are good in everything, you are better than her, you only have one shortcoming, you are not her ....."

This ending shows that maybe Da Gang is not the one in Lily's heart, right?! Maybe they're really too young, too hesitant, and really don't know what true love is, right? However, if we missed out on love when we were young, who can get back those best years?

That night, Dagang and I didn't drink much, and because we were depressed, we were all drunk.

The next day, we woke up and went back to the class, Dagang was like a different person, silent and gloomy, buried in his own study. And she never talked to me about Lily again.

Lily and Da Gang also stopped talking like strangers, as if they were tacitly acquiescing, and she no longer turned around to ask me and Da Gang to borrow stationery, find things, discuss problems, and bury them in books all day long, as if they were isolated from everyone.

The days were dull again for the time being, and the weather gradually became hotter and hotter.

One day, with the rumbling thunder accompanied by a sudden rainstorm, summer arrived.

The college entrance examination is coming soon.