Yun Feng's mother was still talking to Yun Feng on the phone about his grandfather, and while listening to it, Yun Feng desperately warned himself in his heart to be calm and calm again. Grandpa's accident has happened, and the remains are buried in the ground. Even if she went home at this time, it would not help.

She still didn't tell her mother that she was taking such a big exam in her life.

For her graduate school entrance examination, she mentioned it to her parents in her junior year, but her parents did not agree, thinking that she would continue to study, she would be an old girl, it was not easy to marry, and the tuition fee was also a big problem, and the family had no money for her to go to graduate school.

Yun Feng has been emphasizing that she does not have to bear the tuition fees of her own graduate school at home, but her parents still don't believe that she can solve it by herself, which is why Yun Feng can't mention to her parents that she will go to the United States to meet Shanan, including the existence of Shananan, and her parents don't know about it at all.

Yun Feng is so accustomed to making his own decisions about his own affairs, and he waits for things to be done at that point, and then tells his parents.

Therefore, she only knows how to do things with her head down, and is fully responsible, coupled with the arrogance and loftiness hidden in her personality, she does not know how to coordinate and cooperate, and she does not know how to ask for help. In particular, when she heard from her grandmother that her parents still thought she was too stupid and wouldn't ask anyone for help in anything, her self-esteem was greatly hurt, and she was very filial to her parents on the one hand, but she was still very alienated on the other hand, and even the adolescent rebellion has been hidden in her heart and has never disappeared.

Now, my mother had inadvertently told her such a big bad news at this juncture, and despite how much she told herself to be calm, she felt as if she was calm, but when she took the English test, she still couldn't help but lose her mind. In the two subjects on the second day, although she also followed the rhythm of calmly answering questions in the pre-exam review exam step by step, she still no longer had the full sense of winning the political exam when she came out of the examination room after the last subject.

She suddenly became unhappy, thinking that if she was admitted or not, she would leave it to fate. Her heart was very tired. She had to admit that she was still fragile in the face of these losses in her life.

When she returned to school on the day of the exam, she saw Sha Nantong's email, and she didn't have much energy to say, so she replied, "Okay, you take care of yourself, I'll go to sleep first." "I really fell asleep.

Immediately followed by the school's final exams, Yun Feng was busy invigilating, revising papers and making various arrangements for the school's winter vacation, as busy as a spinning top, without stopping. After everything was in order, I went home.

She stayed at home for a day, greeted her parents, and after handing over the 5,000 yuan she had saved in the past six months to her parents, she hurried back to her hometown.

The two houses where my grandfather used to live have completely collapsed, and there are still traces of black fire burning on half of the wall. When it rains, it feels even more miserable. The banana trees and figs that Grandpa had planted in the yard in front of the two houses are still there, but the small kitchen on one side seems to be in disrepair and dilapidated.

I heard that when everyone found out, the fire was in the sky, and after the fire was saved, the wall collapsed and the house collapsed, and then I found the few bones left by my grandfather to bury them. Yun Feng's eyes were full of tears, she didn't dare to imagine the scene of the incident that night, let alone the pain of her grandfather at that time. She couldn't imagine how such a thing could happen to her loved one. If it weren't for this fire, grandpa would have survived this Spring Festival and waited for her to come back.

With heavy steps, she moved back to the living room of her grandmother's house. The little aunt Yunxiu followed her, but she was also silent.

"Have you seen the old man's remaining house?"

Grandma came over and stood in front of the aunt and nephew and asked.

Yun Feng lowered his head and nodded, and two tears fell to the floor again.

"Oh, it's been more than a month since people left, and you're still sad!"

Grandma took her eldest granddaughter over distressedly, lifted her apron and wiped Yun Feng's tears.

"I didn't expect you to be so sad after so long, and your heart for this dead old man hasn't passed. If I knew this, I wouldn't have let you see it. ”

Grandma looked at Yun Xiu while helping Yun Feng wipe her tears. Yunxiu listened to her mother's words, bowed her head and did not squeak.

Yunxiu stopped crying, followed her grandmother around the stove in the kitchen, and listened to her grandmother say some short words from parents, and her heart was relieved. Fortunately, she was not there on the day of the fire, nor was she at Grandpa's funeral, so although I was sad in my heart, I always felt that Grandpa was still alive and did not see him, because he went to the city to watch the door, or he slept in his own room.

remembered that Yun Feng used to visit his grandfather when he was in junior high school and high school. Yun Feng said that he was looking at his grandfather, but in fact, he always asked his grandfather to take care of his own food and drink, either buying her nutritional products or buying books for her, and even grandpa gave her his only women's bicycle to ride.

At that time, grandpa said that he was old, his legs and feet were not good, and he couldn't ride, she didn't feel the ruthlessness of the years from her grandfather's words, and she didn't think of grandpa's aging and love for her, and she only thought about whether to accept this beautiful women's bicycle.

Parents felt that she couldn't ride such a good car under the dormitory building, and asked her to leave the small bicycle at home, and still ride the big bicycle modified by her father, she was not happy, thinking that it was given to her by her grandfather, and she said that she had to ride it herself, so her parents couldn't resist her, and let her go.

Later, when my grandfather returned to his hometown to recuperate, he planted banana trees and fig trees in the yard, and raised a few rabbits in one of the houses. Every time Yun Feng came back, the old man would either drag out the ripe plantain tied in a plastic bag for her to eat, or take her to the yard to see if the figs were ripe, and then he would always kill a rabbit for her to eat in stewed soup and stir-fried respectively.

When the old man was lying on the bed and couldn't move, he asked her if she had enough money, and wanted to give her the little money he had stored in the bank.

Now the car is still there, the plantains in the yard and a few figs in front of the door are still there, but the grandfather is gone.

But what about her? What did she give to the old man?

What is delicious about her grandfather? Easy?

None of them, even a few good words, she herself doesn't remember whether she said them to her grandfather well, let alone bought a dress for her grandfather, gave her grandfather a penny of pocket money, and didn't even give her a piece of candy! She just accepted her grandfather's gift with peace of mind, and asked the old man for it with peace of mind.

Now, grandpa is gone, and she has gone so miserably, and she is limited to even grieve for her grandpa.

She always felt in her heart that her grandfather was still alive, and that the places she couldn't see, the places where he had stayed, were also alive in her heart. She wondered, can this feeling be regarded as a kind of compensation for the elderly?

For countless nights after that, Yun Feng would see his grandfather in his dreams.

Sometimes I dream that my grandfather is like in the past, and after dinner, I stand alone from the eaves for a while and then go to other people's houses in the village to find someone to visit the door, and more often I dream that my grandfather is in his room, with the meal he made on the small square table, beckoning Yun Feng to eat together, and Yun Feng is also eating happily with his grandfather in the dream.

And the grandmother and grandfather who died a year earlier, Yun Feng still sees them in his dreams, and in his heart, he remembers that it is always related to eating.

These dreams with the old man who passed away, waking up, are all the same as the real thing. Yun Feng was also happy in his heart, as if they were all still alive one by one, at least, still alive in her heart. She stubbornly thought so, unwilling to admit that they were dead in reality.