Chapter 23: I Am a Man with Nothing
The two of them still walked to the nearby bubble tea shop one after the other, Wen Shaoran sat down and gave her the menu, "Lady first, what do you want to drink?" ”
"As before, I want a cup of ginger to mix milk." Feng Xiaoxiao said.
"Before? I don't even remember giggling ...... before," Wen Shaoran said with a smile.
Feng Xiaoxiao didn't know what he meant, but she was very annoyed, she lowered her head and didn't speak.
Wen Shaoran glanced at her, and then called the waiter to order a cup of ginger milk and a cup of original milk tea, and after ordering, he saw Feng Xiaoxiao in silence in a daze, and said, "Ginger milk is actually very difficult to drink, I can't stand the taste." ”
Feng Xiaoxiao looked up at him in disbelief, he used to drink the same thing when she ordered, but now what does he mean by saying this, she never seems to have asked him if he likes it or not, but she has never forced him to order the same thing with her. Was he trying to tell her that her tastes were strange? Feng Xiaoxiao couldn't stand it anymore, stood up and said, "I'll go to the bathroom." ”
When Feng Xiaoxiao stood up, tears were rolling in his eyes, did he want to do this to her now? She desperately held back her tears, walked quickly to the bathroom, stood by the sink for a while, then rinsed her face with clean water and adjusted her mentality before going out.
When she walked to the position, there was a bowl of ginger on her table, and Wen Shaoran said, "There was a sound in your bag just now." ”
Feng Xiaoxiao was puzzled for a moment, sat down and picked up her bag and looked through it, it turned out that the mobile phone had ringed. She looked at the call, it was her father calling, so she turned sideways and called back, and Father Feng quickly answered the phone, "Hey, girl, are you scattered?" I'll pick you up. ”
Feng Xiaoxiao said speechlessly, "Dad, what time is it?" Eight...... Who left so early? ”
"Oh, I thought you were just eating, and it shouldn't take long to eat." Daddy Wind said.
"Dad, I'm not young anymore, I'll go back by myself, that's all, bye." Feng Xiaoxiao felt impatient for some reason, and hung up without waiting for Father Feng to speak.
Wen Shaoran chuckled, "It's good, your dad still loves you so much." ”
Feng Xiaoxiao felt very uncomfortable when she saw his smile, frowned and said, "Aren't parents like that." ”
"Oh, I don't understand people like me who don't have parental discipline." Wen Shaoran still seemed to be smiling.
Feng Xiaoxiao didn't like it very much, but she didn't know how to say it, so she was silent.
Wen Shaoran took two sips of milk tea and said, "With a mobile phone?" What is the number? ”
Feng Xiaoxiao didn't think about it, his father gave her the mobile phone just now, and forgot to ask him what the number was, so he replied casually, "I don't know." ”
Wen Shaoran thought that Feng Xiaoxiao was reluctant to tell him the number, so he sneered, "Also, people like me are afraid of being harassed if they tell the number." ”
Feng Xiaoxiao looked at him puzzled, and then said angrily, "Wen Shaoran, what do you mean?" One night here sneering. ”
Wen Shaoran sneered and said, "So angry? You think too much, that's how I speak. ”
Feng Xiaoxiao looked at Wen Shaoran's eyes, then bit her lip and did not speak.
Wen Shaoran looked at her aggrieved appearance, and changed the topic and said, "Eat." It's even worse when it's cold. ”
"You...... It's not bad at all! Feng Xiaoxiao picked up the spoon and scooped it fiercely and put it in her mouth, but it was too hot, she spit it out, and opened her mouth wide and felt uncomfortable looking for water left and right.
Wen Shaoran hurriedly handed his frozen milk tea to her mouth, frowned and said, "Why are you always so reckless?" Can't you be careful? ”
Feng Xiaoxiao took a sip of milk tea aggrievedly, put it on the table in front of him and said, "I am such a person, I was and will be, what's wrong?" Don't you remember? ”
Wen Shaoran concealed his distress, picked up the milk tea and drank it, bowed his head and said, "You always don't grow up like this, no one will take care of you twenty-four hours a day." ”
"You...... No one, no one, anyway, I don't have to worry about leaving myself to fend for myself. Feng Xiaoxiao said stiffly.
"......" Wen Shaoran shook his head self-deprecatingly, "yes, what's the matter with me." ”
Feng Xiaoxiao really can't stand it, when did he treat himself like this, and did he have to do it like this when he broke up? She stood up, took her bag and said, "Thank you for your hospitality, I'll go first." When she said this, she was very reluctant to see him, but his attitude made her uncomfortable.
More than ten seconds after she left, Wen Shaoran was still in a daze, and after thinking for a few seconds, he still got up and hurriedly threw a piece of money to the service desk and chased it out.
Feng Xiaoxiao saw that Wen Shaoran hadn't caught up for a long time, and couldn't help but feel a sense of loss, and heard his magnetic voice, "I'll send you back." ”
Feng Xiaoxiao couldn't help but stop, turned around, and said stiffly, "Don't bother." ”
"Okay, don't be angry, I'll send you." Wen Shaoran's tone was very gentle, and his attitude changed greatly. Feng Xiaoxiao really couldn't figure out what was going on with him, and he didn't agree, but his pace slowed down, and Wen Shaoran followed, side by side with her.
The two walked side by side like this, Feng Xiaoxiao felt a little restrained and embarrassed, and secretly glanced at Wen Shaoran from time to time, her lips moved slightly, and she wanted to talk and stopped, looking for something to talk about.
After a few minutes, Wen Shaoran spoke first, "I heard that you did well in the exam, did you get your wish?" ”
Feng Xiaoxiao's eyes were a little dim, "Well, otherwise I'm sorry for the decision I made at the beginning." ”
"Heh, the original decision ......" Wen Shaoran naturally knew that Feng Xiaoxiao was talking about the breakup of the two, so he laughed at himself, "You did it right, very right......"
"I didn't mean that, I meant ......" Feng Xiaoxiao was anxious to explain, but she didn't know how to explain.
"Okay, I understand." Wen Shaoran saw that she was anxious and interrupted.
"You don't understand at all...... Feng Xiaoxiao lowered her head and whispered, she actually wanted to say that she lost her favorite when she made this decision to separate, and if she didn't do well in the exam again, what she lost would be in vain, but she felt that it was not right, and she couldn't say it again.
I don't know if Wen Shaoran heard her speak, but he didn't answer the topic.
Feng Xiaoxiao couldn't help but ask him, "After that, did you learn to smoke?" ”
Wen Shaoran smiled, laughing a little sarcastically, "Well, smoking, skipping class, jumping over the wall, indulging in game halls and Internet cafes, you heard such a talk, right?" ”
Hearing him say it so calmly, Feng Xiaoxiao was still a little surprised, frowning and asking with sadness, "Are these all true?" Why? ”
"Heh, why?" Wen Shaoran said sarcastically, "I also want to know why." Can you tell me? ”
"Even if we break up, are you going to give up on yourself like this? Is it worth it for you? Feng Xiaoxiao asked.
Wen Shaoran shook his head, his face full of self-deprecation, "Is it worth it or not, you have asked me about such an answer a long time ago, forget it, you shouldn't remember it." ”
"What do you mean?" Feng Xiaoxiao's eyes were moist, "Is your life ruined like this?" Why don't you take care of yourself like this......" Feng Xiaoxiao choked up and couldn't go on, and directly turned her head over, not wanting to cry in front of him.
Wen Shaoran pretended not to know that she was sad, looked ahead calmly, and said lightly, "All my life, what do you do to think about so many things like this...... I don't know what tomorrow will happen today. ”
Feng Xiaoxiao didn't know how to answer him, and after blinking her eyes vigorously to blink back the tears, she turned her head to look at him and didn't speak.
"Why are you looking at me like that? I've always been such a pessimistic person, and you were right to leave me in the first place. Wen Shaoran said indifferently.
Feng Xiaoxiao closed her eyes, turned her head, took a deep breath, and said, "You think it's right, right?" ”
"yes, you can easily give up. As it is now, I don't even want to argue. Wen Shaoran said sarcastically.
Feng Xiaoxiao turned her head to look at her, with an angry face, "I'm easy to give up? What about you? Have you ever kept me for half a sentence? Did you look for me after that? ”
Wen Shaoran still looked sarcastic, "Keep ......?" What shall I keep...... I'm just a man with nothing. ”
Feng Xiaoxiao had nothing to say now, she thought that Wen Shaoran had always had low self-esteem and a sense of insecurity because of family reasons, and everything was thought of in a pessimistic way, no matter how much she said, she would not let him change her outlook, and blamed herself for being sad and ignoring his character before.
Seeing that she didn't speak, Wen Shaoran added fire and said, "Huh? You don't have anything to say. ”
"You...! I don't have anything to say because I agree with that statement......" Feng Xiaoxiao didn't know what to say, "In short, I'm sorry for you." ”
"I'm sorry, I don't need to say anything about this kind of meaningless thing, I'm tired of hearing it." Wen Shaoran stared at her and said, the look in his eyes was like an expression that saw through her.
These words reminded Feng Xiaoxiao that she had indeed said a lot of sorry, and her face flushed, but Wen Shaoran was very uncomfortable when she spoke like this, she pursed her mouth and looked aggrieved, which was very distressing, Wen Shaoran didn't look over, he didn't want to see her like this, so that he couldn't help but care about her again.
The two walked silently for a while, and Wen Shaoran asked again, "Why don't you speak?" ”
"Because you're tired of hearing what I want to say." Feng Xiaoxiao didn't want to answer directly.
Wen Shaoran actually laughed, "Over the past year, you have changed a little, and the good baby knows how to talk back." ”
"Really? But...... You've changed more than just a little bit. Feng Xiaoxiao looked up at him, her eyes full of distress.
"Heh, put away your sympathetic eyes, don't you understand why I became like this? I think it's good, at least I don't have to worry about anyone's feelings now, I can do whatever I want. Wen Shaoran's tone was very impatient, he was very tired of Feng Xiaoxiao's pitiful face, which made him upset, and he couldn't help but feel sorry for her again.
"Then you mean that I used to contain you everywhere and let you wronged you in order to take care of my feelings?"
"Feng Xiaoxiao! That's how you are, do you think you're happy to distort my words? You know what I did to you before! ”
"So...... Do you regret it now? Regret being so nice to me before, huh? I'm free and happy now, isn't it? Feng Xiaoxiao became emotional.
"You...... I don't have anything to say if you still think so! Wen Shaoran had no problem with Feng Xiaoxiao.
"I'll go back by myself, if you're going to send me home to anger me, then your purpose has been achieved." Feng Xiaoxiao wiped his eyes with his hand and walked forward quickly.
"Ah angry...... Feng Xiaoxiao was destined to be his Wen Shaoran's weakness, seeing her cry and leave, Wen Shaoran's heart of pretending to be indifferent had already been shattered, and he hurriedly followed.
Feng Xiaoxiao saw him follow, and choked up, "Why are you still coming along." ”
"How can I rest assured that you will go home by yourself in this state?"
"It's none of your business what I do......" Feng Xiaoxiao turned her head and continued walking. Wen Shaoran chased after him again.
"You ......" Feng Xiaoxiao stopped and said, "What do you want?" ”
"I want to get you home safely." Wen Shaoran said stubbornly.
"You're unreasonable!" Feng Xiaoxiao stomped his feet.
"Say whatever you want." Wen Shaoran said in a tone that would not change.