I was born in Majiabang, Meiyan Town, Wujiang District, Suzhou City. My father is shorter and uglier than me, and my mother is not short or ugly, but she is from a mountain village in Guizhou, and she doesn't understand our language. My father is not good-looking, and his family is poor, so he can't marry local and nearby foreign wives. I also have an older brother who is about as short and ugly as me. In addition to being ridiculed all the time, the products on my family's land, such as rice, cabbage, etc., are also always stolen, and they think that my father can't beat me, and my mother can't scold me, so I have no fear, which makes my family even poorer. Therefore, I went to school two years later than the average person, and I wanted to turn over my schoolbag, so I studied very hard and was admitted to a key high school in Wujiang.

When I was divided into liberal arts and sciences in my sophomore year, I chose liberal arts. However, in the face of 69 liberal arts students, divided into two classes is too little, and one class is too much, the teachers implemented persuasion. I bore the brunt of it because I was the best in science. The head teacher of the liberal arts department looked at me and said, "With all due respect, the future work of liberal arts students has a lot to do with their looks, so you should go to science." "The original homeroom teacher was a chemistry teacher, and he also came to persuade me: You have such good grades in chemistry, why do you go to the liberal arts to join in the fun?

So, I entered the science class. Finally, he was admitted to Lanzhou University, majoring in chemical engineering. Although I also had laboratories in high school, I didn't go there much after all, and I mainly watched the teacher; But college is different, and a lot of it needs to be hands-on. I was originally timid, and I was born out of dead study, and I couldn't combine theory and practice, and after a small accident, I had an inexplicable fear of experiments, and I always found reasons to be the hands of other students.

After graduating, I went back to my hometown to look for a job. I didn't want to go to the factory, because I was in a chemical factory when I was an intern, and I felt that it really didn't smell good. But I couldn't find a job from July to October, and I was in a hurry. On that day at the Suzhou Talent Market, I saw an advertisement for the recruitment of laboratory technicians in a chemical factory in Zhangjiagang, which was originally in Suzhou and was now moving to Zhangjiagang. Therefore, I didn't pay attention to the requirement that the academic qualifications only require high school students, so I copied the email address on it and sent my resume to the Internet café.

The next day, I received a phone call to accept the offer. The factory is in the suburbs of Zhangjiagang, which is quite large, provides dormitories, the treatment is not bad, and the laboratory is relatively clean and relaxed. But the small laboratory I am in are all aunts, the products tested are not finished products, I need to work three shifts, and I need to go to the workshop for sampling every time. The smell of a chemical factory, you have to stay in a workshop for a long time, and slowly it is estimated that you can get used to it. But for a person like me who only goes to sample every day, it means that every time I smell it for the first time, I am not used to it every time, and I feel choked every time. The most important thing is that we are not only testing a semi-finished product, so the stimulation is even greater. So all things considered, I don't like it.

Because the efficiency of the factory is good, most of the old workers in Suzhou followed when they moved. Although every Friday evening, a factory car is sent back to Suzhou, and a factory car is picked up back to Zhangjiagang on Sunday evening, but it is still not very convenient for the workers who work on the third shift. In addition, the laboratory is full of older women, there are old people in the family, there are small ones, there are many things, ask for leave, it is not cost-effective, so they will find me to replace the shift, and then pay me the salary. I don't hate it when I see the monthly salary. I sent money to my brother every month, and by the beginning of the fifth year, my family had built a house. Although my house is many years later than those that were usually built in the mid-to-late 80s, my house is much more trendy compared to their buildings.

Originally, it was three shifts, and I usually took my turn to rest and was on a substitute shift, so the days went by in such a mess. It wasn't until the HR department told me that I was going to renew my contract in two weeks that I knew I had been in the factory for almost five years. If the visa is renewed, it means another five years of muddy, by then, I will be thirty-six years old, and I will come out of this book anyway - when I entered the factory, the aunts were surprised how there was an undergraduate, they were all junior high school graduates or technical school students; Later, they all comforted me that college students were going to work at the grassroots level. But five years have passed, not only have I not entered the quality inspection department as a clerk, but I have not yet entered the large laboratory to test the finished products on a regular basis, and I have not even become the squad leader of the small laboratory.

Another important point is that the purpose of my work to earn money is to let my family live a good life and not be looked down upon, but now the building is the most beautiful in the village, and people look down on my family, only I can't get a family. I have self-knowledge, I have long been prepared not to get married: a person like me can find an excellent partner to marry, it is wishful thinking, but find someone who is not good, make do, and the children born in the future are still not good, then I might as well not get married. However, if you are still an ordinary worker in this factory, this unmarried doctrine is a bit difficult to adhere to - because your parents can't pass that hurdle. My mother kept one for me in the newly built building, which was intended to be a marriage room; My father also said that if in two years, if there is no suitable one, I will find a girl from another place. I told him, how can you forget that you found your mother and couldn't raise your head, and my brother found my sister-in-law, and I couldn't raise my head. I knew my father was proud of me, but he didn't know the bitterness behind me. I don't want my future children to suffer like this again.

But I don't know if I can get a better job if I give up this job, and I know that those units didn't want me back then, just because of my looks.

In the end, I decided to go to graduate school because I wanted to fulfill my dream of liberal arts, and since I chose science, I didn't do well, which shows that what the teacher said back then was not entirely correct. Of course, it was also because Lang Shifu, who was on the same class with me, came back from Suzhou that day and brought a newspaper about Ma Yun. From the report, I also learned that Jack Ma is also a liberal arts student. Of course, I knew that I could not have the perseverance and perseverance of Jack Ma, so I chose the relatively unpopular ancient literature. As I said, I went to the city and bought relevant books.

Only Lang Shifu knows about my preparation for the graduate school entrance examination. She was very appreciative of me doing this: "You are an undergraduate student, and it is not a matter for a young man to mingle with a group of old aunts; This chemical factory has been around for some years, and the relationship is complicated, and it is difficult for you to get through it on your own. My brother lives alone in Tiger Hill, Suzhou, and when your contract expires, you have no place to live, so you can live with him. ”