Chapter 19: Time is Infinite and Days Are Limited
Ming Qing's body showed no signs of recovery, and his condition continued to deteriorate.
Perhaps, the Ming and Qing dynasties already knew that their time was running out, but they just didn't want everyone to be uncomfortable with them:
Husband Yunxin often weeps silently after turning off the lights; The extraordinary care of her father-in-law and mother-in-law, the careful care of her brother-in-law and sister-in-law, the irrepressible sadness and reluctance of her father and mother when they came to see her, the concern of her younger brothers and sisters, and even everyone's heartfelt pity and forbearance for her daughter Cao'er, Mingxin can feel it completely, but she doesn't say anything, just desperately wants to stay with her young daughter for more than a minute in her heart.
The clothes she made for her daughter could be worn until she was four or five years old, and her daughter could not understand the stories she told, but could her daughter remember the voice of her helpless and incompetent mother because of this?
She was thinking about what else she could do. But apart from being able to look at her daughter more and spend more time with her, she can't do anything anymore, and she already feels difficult to knit sweaters and sew clothes. She was suddenly a little scared, not because she was afraid that she would not be able to accompany her daughter when she died, but because she was afraid that she would not be able to be with her daughter again when she was still alive.
Her heart was sour and fearful, a kind of sourness and fear that a mother and daughter would be forcibly separated.
Yun Xin couldn't do anything except comfort and accompany his wife more, and take her and her daughter to have more fun together.
In the face of birth, old age, sickness and death, no one can become a superman beyond reality.
In the south in September, even though it is already the autumn equinox, the sun still has the afterglow of summer. Yunxin forgot how many times he had walked this road from the gate of the backyard to the county people's hospital: his wife's pregnancy test and delivery during her pregnancy in the Ming and Qing dynasties, the birth, illness, medicine, and re-examination of her daughter Cao'er, and now his wife's repeated examinations and medicines. After that, what will be the reason for him to take this road again? He couldn't help but shudderโhe didn't dare to think about it, but the dark shadow of death kept drilling into his heart made him afraid!
The Ming and Qing dynasties, who were sitting on the back seat of the bicycle, looked greedily at the mountains and rivers on both sides, one grass and one tree, one field and one land, and one of them had to pass through their own peanut fields......
When she first married into the Yun family, she also came to this field with Yun Gang, Yun Jin and Yun Yi to weed peanuts, loosen the soil and pull peanuts. At that time, the sun was at its brightest in July, and she complained that when she came out to work for a day, she became a black man's skin, and everyone laughed at her next to her, saying that she was born white and could not tan.
Now, the laughter is still in my ears, but there is only a green peanut seedling in the field, and there is no sound or a shadow in the field.
When he arrived at the hospital, Ming Qing still didn't ask anything, asked Yunxin to go through various procedures, followed Yunxin, and did various examinations according to the doctor's instructions.
It was still Dr. Li who showed Yun Xin the results of Ming Qing's examination.
"I'll have to think about hospitalization."
Dr. Lee's brow furrowed.
"Can you take it a little longer? In the hospital, I'm afraid she will feel even more stressed. โ
Yun Xin's tone was almost pleading.
"The development of her condition is quite normal, it has not accelerated, but there is no way to resist, if she is hospitalized, the drug can be better controlled, and her time will be longer."
During the contact with Yunxin during this time, Dr. Li could also feel the sincerity and simplicity of the family, and he took more care of his tone.
"Then I'll discuss with her and see what she means, she is stubborn, and I have to take care of her emotions."
"Okay, you can tell me about the length of your hospital stay."
"Okay, thank you, Dr. Lee."
Yun Xin walked on the long dark corridor from the infirmary to the outpatient hall again, the cold air penetrated through the back and then out of the heart, he didn't know how to talk to Ming Qing.
"How's it going this time? Did the doctor say it was better? โ
Ming Qing, who was sitting on the bench, raised his face and asked her husband Yunxin, who walked to the side.
"Ming and Qing, Dr. Li just talked to me for a while."
Yun Xin sat down next to Ming Qing, tried to squeeze out a smile and said to Ming Qing:
"Well, he suggested we were hospitalized."
"Oh......"
Ming Qing didn't look too surprised, but looked calmer than Yunxin:
"Did he say he had to live?"
"Well, hospitalization can have better medication and will be more helpful for your condition."
"Can we stay for a while?"
Ming and Qing have no fear of the development of their disease, but they have a thousand reluctances for their daughter. She still wants to be with her daughter more, even if she will forget her mother in the future, but at least she has done her best.
"Ming and Qing Dynasties...... Let's listen to the doctors, okay? โ
Why doesn't Yunxin understand his wife's thoughts? It's just that, as far as he is concerned, as long as there is a glimmer of hope, he must hold on to it and never give up.
"Yunxin, how long does the doctor say I can last?"
Ming Qing suddenly looked at her husband with firm eyes, and what appeared on her face was the tranquility that had been hidden under the meekness.
Yun Xin looked at his firm and calm wife, unable to refuse, but it was so difficult that he couldn't speak:
"Ming and Qing ......"
"It's been more than a year. I have read the diagnosis report and asked the doctor privately. โ
Ming Qing didn't want to torture himself, nor did he want to torture Yunxin. If it is said that since her onset, the husband and wife have been in the same heart, but they hide each other on their faces, then at this time, Ming Qing decided to stand on the same front with her husband from heart to face those short days that belonged to her.
Yun Xin heard his wife's sad answer, which was still calm, and a huge hole was torn in his heart.
His heart has been torn apart many times in the face of this problem, but finally, this time, it is to face his wife, from now on he does not have to dodge, he does not need to escape, he only needs to fight against the enemy with his beloved wife, and fight against the disease. Suddenly, he was brave and as determined as his wife.
"Ming and Qing ......"
"Yunxin, let's go see Dr. Li together."
Ming and Qing rarely interrupted her husband's words.
She already has a clear idea in her heart: the illness is born by herself, and she is dragging down her husband's family, but her husband and family think about everything for their own sake, she can't repay it in this life, just wait for the next life, but, as a mother, she is really difficult to let go of her infant daughter. That kind of heartache and reluctance can only be experienced by those who have been mothers. So, she still has to fight to stay with her daughter.
"Dr. Li, I'm sorry to bother you again."
The couple returned to the medical office and found Dr. Li, who was still calmly addressed to Dr. Li in a calm tone:
"Dr. Li, I want to be hospitalized later, is that okay?"
Dr. Li looked at the couple, the woman in front of him, and he admired it in his heart:
Anyone who has a terminal illness is either looking for death or crying, or emotional, but when the film came out, she took advantage of her husband's absence to find herself in private to understand her condition, and only shed tears once in front of herself, and then every time she came to ask herself, her face was calm and emotionally stable. What is especially rare is that I can clearly express my thoughts about the condition and treatment to myself.
Now, when the couple comes together, they should have both talked about it and stopped hiding it from each other. It's okay like this, but it's rare and difficult for this couple.
Thinking of this, Dr. Li couldn't help but reply approvingly and embarrassed:
"I still recommend that you be hospitalized as soon as possible, your condition will be difficult to control if you are not hospitalized."
"But I can still go down to the ground now, and then be hospitalized when I can't do it, is it okay?"
There was no sadness in Ming Qing's tone, just an unusual calmness, as if she was solving a problem that had nothing to do with her.
"It won't be too late then."
As a doctor, Dr. Lee still stands by his opinion.
"Dr. Li, you also know that my daughter is still so young, you did the last operation, and you also personally reviewed the situation, she is still so young, I really can't let go of her, I want to spend more time with her...... It's just that I'm sick, I'm not worried anymore, I just want to spend one more day with her. โ
Speaking of his daughter, there was uncontrollable sourness in Ming Qing's tone.
"Okay, then you have to observe at home, and if there is any situation, you should come to the hospital immediately, and in addition, come to the hospital every other day for injections, can you do it?"
Dr. Lee understands the patient's feelings, knowing that as a mother who sees death standing at the door waiting for her, and her daughter is waiting for her torment and choice inside the door, she finally made some changes.
"I can do it, I can do it, thank you Dr. Lee."
The couple replied almost in unison, with their beloved Dr. Li eager to bow and thank them.
If he could, Yun Xin really wanted to exchange his life for more time for his wife. But is it possible? No way! Yun Xin also figured it out, according to his wife's wishes, it was the last thing he, a husband, could do.
Time is unlimited, but the days that can be with her husband Yunxin and daughter Cao'er in the Ming and Qing dynasties are almost numbered.