You have to do your best to restrain yourself before you can't help but slap the past!

"Zhou Gongjin, you are a scoundrel! We're divorced, and you're trying to tie me up again with a car accident, and now I'm going to tell you, there's no door! Yes, I live in the shadow of my father and have a boundless fear of car accidents, standing outside the door just now, I was numb from head to toe, others don't know, don't you Zhou Gongjin know? That's a rotten sore in my heart, and it can't get better. Not only did you collaborate with Zhou Liang to deliberately expand the injury, but you also said what if you died. ”

I took a deep breath to calm my increasingly uncontrollable emotions, and only after I pressed it down did I stare into his eyes and say word by word: "Today I will put my words for you here: if you die, I will be your surviving person, and I will live in your shadow for the rest of my life, and I will never recover." ”

Zhou Yu was shocked, and the pain in his eyes was revealed, "Jia Xiaoru, I didn't mean that." ”

"So what do you mean? You have repeatedly forced me with car accidents, don't you want me to say this? Yes, we just got divorced, and I haven't been able to ignore you, and I can't hear that you have a car accident and treat it as if you were watching the news of an idler, isn't this what you want to see? Now I give it all to you, if you really die because of this car accident today, then I will be alone with you for the rest of my life. Is that enough? ”

All of a sudden, I couldn't restrain my emotions anymore, and I just wanted to pour out all the pain and annoyance. But I regretted it, the car accident was like a catastrophe to me, and the image of my father lying in a pool of blood still feels so painful that I can't help myself, how can I say the words that cursed him for dying in a car accident?

Unexpectedly, he suddenly jumped up and shouted at me: "Not enough! I don't want you to be my surviving person, and I don't want to die! I was so scared that I couldn't do it when I brushed shoulders with death, but afterwards I was glad that I was still alive and alive to see you. Jia Xiaoru let me tell you, in this life, I only want you to be my wife, and I don't want you to be any other role. ”

I laughed miserably, "I've already been, and now I'm your ex-wife." ”

He took a step back, a painful expression on his face, but his eyes were puzzled: "Why can't we start all over again?" ”

I sat on the hospital bed and looked up at him, and asked in a whisper, "How do you start all over again?" Rewind the clock? That's going to be back in my father's time, and I didn't know your aunt. Otherwise, even if we go back to the past, what can we change, and you are close to me with a purpose? Then you won't like me. Zhou Gongjin, this is an endless loop, do you understand? Now I have started all over again, but I just want to cover up or cover my ears and steal the bell, the fact is there, and it can't be erased or eliminated. ”

Even if they are really together, there will always be a quarrel or contradiction at a certain time, and the past will be stimulated again. What's more, except for Zhou Liang, who is not bad to me in his family, the rest of the people are against me. Especially his mother, it was not a simple prejudice, but a secret hatred that had been buried for decades.

It's not that if you avoid it, the problem doesn't exist.

I've done it once, but it's ended up in failure and scarring.

Forgive me for not having the courage to do it anymore.

When I got up again, Zhou Yu didn't come to stop me, only shrunk his eyes and lowered his eyes, I looked at the wound on his forehead and reminded softly: "The wound should be cracked, find a doctor or nurse to help you rebandage it, don't learn from me." ”

The wound on my finger had already healed, leaving only one scar there, which should not go away anytime soon. I remember that during that time, I always cracked the wound again and again, and thought it would not get better, but it turned out that no matter what wound, there is always a time to heal, and no matter what scar, there will be a scar after all.

As I walked to the door, he suddenly said behind me, "I can't turn back time, and since the past can't be erased, why don't you look forward?" If you don't forgive me now, wait for me to show you. ”

Gently opened the door and said slowly, "I can't do it." ”

Bumped into Zhou Liang who came back from outside downstairs in the hospital, he raised his eyebrows and asked, "Why did you leave?" That's it? ”

I paused, lowered my eyes and raised them again, and asked lightly: "Second brother, do you know about my divorce from Zhou Gongjin?" ”

Zhou Liang's unsurprised expression told me the answer, and I only listened to him: "Can you know, he hasn't been back since the second day of the Lunar New Year, and my queen mother ordered me to call no matter how many times I refused to go back, so angry that the old lady and the old man went back to live in their hometown." And on the seventh day of the new year, he suddenly appeared again, and called us all to his hometown, and directly threw your divorce certificate on the table, saying that he divorced you that day, as everyone wished. At that time, the old lady was very surprised, and went over to pick up the divorce certificate to inspect it, but was slapped away by the stinky boy, and then asked the old lady if she was satisfied. ”

I listened silently to these events, it was something that Zhou Yu could do, and if he didn't go back to make trouble, it wouldn't be him.

He is a frizzy and upright person, and he doesn't hide anything from me and my family, so the situation Zhou Liang said is an inevitable result.

Without me asking, Zhou Liang took the initiative to say: "Do you know how my wife reacted at that time?" It's a dark face, tsk, it's the first time I've seen it. The old man scolded there, but the third man stiffened his neck and asked, why should the grievances of their generation be involved in this generation, and ask you what's wrong, so that their eyes can't tolerate it. ”

I frowned and didn't say anything, Zhou Yu is falling out with my family for me?

Zhou Liang said that at that time, Zhou's father almost went up to slap Zhou Yu, but was stopped by him and Zhou Nian. But Zhou Yu looked at them and asked: Why don't you like me? What's wrong with me? Even my father, who they thought had hurt my aunt, was already buried under the dust, so why should I bear the grievances of the past?

In the end, he left the sentence - "You ruined my happiness" and turned away, never going back to his hometown or his apartment from that day. No matter who called him, he didn't answer, Zhou Nian also went to the police station to block people, and knew that he lived in a hotel near the police station every day.

Within two days, Zhou Nian returned to the United States with the second elder of the Zhou family, as well as his wife and children.

I asked Zhou Liang why he didn't leave, and he said angrily: "You and I are happy, it's not that my wife and the old man gave an order to let me stay in the country and watch the third child." ”

Can he be so obedient? I'm skeptical. But he didn't bother to care about Zhou Liang, so he just said, "I'll go back." ”

"That's it? Leave the third child here? ”

"He's got his own place, and it's none of my business. And with you taking care of it, nothing will happen. ”

Zhou Liang was stunned, "You two haven't reconciled yet?" ”

I tugged at the corners of my mouth, "Second brother, we are divorced, not quarreled." ”

But Zhou Liang sneered: "Didn't you two quarrel today since you were a child, and you will be reconciled tomorrow?" As for this time, divorce is just a document, no different from getting a marriage certificate. ”

I shook my head and whispered, "There's a difference." ”

When I drove back to the apartment, it was already dark, and I felt very tired after tossing all night, so I took my mobile phone to type Xiao Dong for leave, and I remembered that today was Saturday and I didn't have to go to work until I was halfway through. So I went straight into the bedroom and fell asleep.

I didn't wake up until the afternoon, I felt a little heavy in my head, my nose was stuffed, and most of the time I went out at night and caught a cold.

I didn't find cold medicine everywhere in the house, so I remembered that I had taken all the spare medicines when I moved to Zhou Yu's side before, how could I think of these after coming back this time, since there was no medicine at home.

I went straight to sleep when I came back in the morning, the water in the kettle was cold, and I had to go to the kitchen to boil it.

Originally, I have always drunk pure water, but since Zhou Yu entered my life, I was not allowed to use the machine anymore, saying that repeated re-burning is stagnant water, and I have to drink only one boiling of living water on the stove to be healthy.

I still have a water dispenser here, but I don't have it on his side, and if you want to drink water, you have to go to the kitchen to boil it, and the water you drink must be filtered through a water purifier. I didn't pay so much attention to it, so I just filled the kettle with tap water and started the fire.

Don't go away when boiling water, which is also Zhou Yu's statement many times.

Because it is often forgotten that the kitchen is boiling water, and then the water will overflow to extinguish the fire after it is boiled, which can be very dangerous.

After careful study, in fact, I live a rough life, but Zhou Yu lives a more delicate life; But in terms of personality, he is more frizzy, but I am more able to calm down.

Some time ago, I was able to refrain from thinking about it, but after last night, I understood one thing: restraint does not work, and the only way is to go with the flow. It is only when you remember that you once had no worries that it is possible to really let go.

Like at the beginning of this year, I was trying to let go of my father's departure; And at this moment, I'm trying to let go of my separation with Zhou Yu.