But when I finished reading the two full pages of paper, I was full of doubts. Without waiting for her urging, she went to look for the envelope with the letters, opened it and looked for it again, and finally found that only three of her many letters were actually written, and the others were all empty.

From beginning to end, those three letters are not about my father's affection or what Yu's father has experienced together, but about a third person I didn't expect. To be precise, Zhou Yu's aunt was full of disappointment and hatred for that person, but she was sorry for her father. I pinched my eyebrows and roughly sorted out the clues and stories to get a minimalist version.

Back then, Zhou Yu's mother introduced her sister to her father, and the parents of both sides looked at each other and decided on this family business. But as everyone knows, Zhou Yu's aunt has long been in her heart, and this arranged marriage is actually a stick to beat mandarin ducks. Seeing that the marriage date with her father was imminent, the aunt decided to elope with her sweetheart, and she took the opportunity to go to the city with her father to buy things.

Unexpectedly, her sweetheart had no intention of abandoning everything like her, and only two days after the two fled to other cities, the man ran back and stole all the money she took out. She hated that she had no eyes, and she didn't want a good man like her father, but she wanted to elope with that negative man, and as a result, her father was scolded by others.

She walked all the way back from the field, and the cold and hunger she suffered were very imaginable, and slowly her nerves began to be abnormal. By the time he finally came back to City A and was found by his family, the whole person had fallen into madness. She was full of anger and hatred that had nowhere to vent, and deep remorse that had nowhere to go, so she had to write it down with a pen.

The three letters were handwritten in a messy and choppy manner, presumably when she first went crazy.

So in the whole incident, Dad was the most innocent person. He has been kept in the dark, but he has been reviled by the world and hated by that family. But he thought that maybe he knew it a long time ago, but he chose to fulfill it and let all the faults and responsibilities be borne by himself.

It is impossible to know what the truth is, and it does not matter.

"Did you find it?" Zhou Yu's aunt asked me while yawning, obviously she was sleepy, and her eyes had narrowed slightly.

I put down the envelope and looked up, "Not yet." ”

"Oh, forget it, go to sleep."

When I walked out of her room, I couldn't help but look back and see that she had climbed into the bed and covered the quilt and slept peacefully.

The pouring rain outside hit the eaves very loudly, and he couldn't sleep even if he lay down, Zhou Yu should have opened the room over there. My mind couldn't help but turn to his aunt, and I was furious when I first learned of this person's existence, not against this person, but at this matter. A cause twenty or thirty years ago has affected me twenty or thirty years later, forgive me for not having such a broad mind to think from whose standpoint.

Even when I learned that Zhou Yu brought me to meet his aunt, I was also angry, but with the slow contact with his aunt, not to mention completely letting go, but that anger gradually dissipated.

I would even think that in fact, his aunt was not crazy at all, but she was disappointed despite everything for love, and the guilt of her father made her unwilling to face reality, so she trapped herself in that dark world. From a medical point of view, this is also a mental illness, collectively known as depression. It was Zhou Yu's grandmother who opened the door after her death, making her regret her mistakes and want a new life at the same time, and the first step of this new life is to learn to forget.

Thinking about it further, she actually waited for her father to come to her, but in the end, she didn't wait for her father to come to me, so she revealed the letter to me when they met for the first time, and even opened the letter to let me know what happened back then, which can be regarded as a confession and compensation for my father's past to a certain extent.

Of course, this is all my speculation, there is no way to verify, as long as his aunt is so confused all day, then she is a patient.

I don't want to delve into the past anymore, my father is gone, if he could hide it for her back then, I can do it now.

Repeatedly messed up my thoughts, I don't know when I fell asleep, I only heard the sound of rustling rain in my dreams, thinking that the rain would stop when I woke up, but when I opened my eyes, the room was dim, and the rain was still pouring down outside the window.

When I went out, I found that Zhou Yu had already come over, and was talking to his two aunts, and when they heard the movement, they all turned their heads to look at me.

He asked, "Have you freshened up?" Seeing that I nodded, he said, "Then come and have breakfast." ”

Breakfast was a night of rice noodles, and I said that I couldn't get food from the kitchen when it was raining, so I had to eat some in the house. I had no opinion, I sat down and buried my head in eating, and heard Aunt Dong asking worriedly, "What are you doing in a hurry to rush back after such a heavy rain?" ”

"We'll all have to go to work tomorrow." Zhou Yu replied with a light smile.

"But how dangerous it is to drive on such a road."

Zhou Yu responded: "It's okay, I'll just drive it slowly." ”

I didn't express an opinion, I just concentrated on eating rice noodles. In fact, it was already reluctant to let me stay for this night, and I really didn't want to stay any longer, so even if I was worried that it would be difficult to drive on the road, I didn't object.

After breakfast, Zhou Yu asked the owner of the farm to buy two raincoats, and he and I wore one and then held an umbrella.

After taking a few steps, I looked back and saw that his aunt was still standing at the door, because the rain was dense, and I couldn't see her expression clearly. With a tightening of his hand, Zhou Yu behind him said loudly: "Don't look at it, if you want to come here for a while, I'll bring you over." ”

I was noncommittal, turned and walked on.

When I finally got into the car, I was fine because I was covered by a raincoat, but my pants and shoes were wet. After the air conditioner was warmed up, Zhou Yu asked me to roll up my trousers and take off my shoes, and then drove the car into the rain.

It's really unwise to drive on a rainy day, and the wipers don't have time to scrape the rain that looks like it's pouring down, so the front windshield is like a waterfall, and the view is almost completely obscured. Zhou Yu drove very slowly, but I was still trembling in the low visibility, and I began to regret my decision to insist on driving back.

Finally the snail crawled to the highway entrance, and the staff at the highway intersection told us to stop traffic today.

Zhou Yu glanced at me and said, "If you insist on going back, we will take the national highway from the bottom." ”

I looked away, "If you don't go back now, you can't go anywhere else, can you drive back to the farm?" ”

"We can drive into the city," he said. ”

Seeing that I had no objection, he re-navigated and drove slowly towards the city. Because he had to concentrate on the front to prevent a car from jumping over and not being able to see, the two of them did not speak or talk, so the atmosphere remained quiet.

When I arrived in the city, there were a lot of cars, but they all drove like turtles, Zhou Yu suddenly said: "You pay attention to whether there is a hotel with a better environment on the side of the road, and tell me if you see it." ”

After another ten minutes of walking, I saw a hotel through the rain curtain and called him. As a result, the parking lot was open-air, and after finally finding a parking space, he asked me to put on my raincoat in the car first. After he put it on, he got out of the car and came to my side to hold an umbrella for me, so it was not convenient for me to hold an umbrella again, so I had to drill to him, and he naturally wrapped his arms around my shoulders and walked quickly towards the hotel lobby.

I caught a glimpse of almost all the umbrella over my head, and most of his body was exposed. When I entered the lobby, I was fine, but he looked particularly embarrassed, because the shoulder of his raincoat was torn and almost all of his body was dry.

What was even more annoying was that I asked the front desk staff if there was a room, but they replied that due to the heavy rain, many customers did not check out and renew the room fee, so there was no room available.

Zhou Yu helplessly surrounded me and said, "Let's go." ”

I grabbed him, "Let's not go first, someone may check out, do you want to find a change of clothes first?" ”

The staff immediately said alertly: "This gentleman can use our staff bathroom to take a bath first." ”

Zhou Yu didn't object when he heard me say this, so he asked me to sit on the sofa in the lobby and wait for him for a while. Fortunately, I was really waiting, two men in a hurry came out with suitcases to check out, I immediately went to investigate, and heard that these two people only opened a standard room. After the two of them checked out, the front desk asked me if I wanted to stay in this room, and I was still hesitating when I heard Zhou Yu's voice from behind: "Let's move in." ”

Subconsciously turned around and saw him with wet hair, wrapped in a white nightgown that is often placed in the wardrobe of the hotel, and slippers on his feet, which should have been rinsed.

When he opened the room, he couldn't help but ask, "Where are your clothes?" ”

He laughed: "You're still afraid that I'll throw away my clothes, so naturally I'll send them to dry cleaning and drying, and you'd better change your clothes and send them to dry cleaning when you go to the room later." ”

I glanced at his dressing gown and told me to walk around like this, I was afraid I wouldn't be able to.

The room is not big, the facilities are quite complete, the bathroom has a bathtub and shower room, and the distance between the two single beds is not large.

"If you don't mind, I'll find a bathroom and lie down all night."

There was a pause in my heart, "Where is there a bathroom near here?" ”

He didn't say anything, I didn't say anything more, and the space fell silent. A heavy rain came unexpectedly, stopping us on our way back and even pulling us into the same space once again. I can't tell if it's good or bad, but I think it's time to break it after this time.

At noon she asked me if I was going downstairs to the restaurant for dinner or if I was going to call room service, and I looked at my half-wet and muddy pants and muddy sneakers, and I still couldn't go down. So Zhou Yu called room service, and after ordering a few dishes, someone was knocking on the door, and his clothes were cleaned and dried.

Zhou Yu handed me his clean pants, "You go in and wash, let's change mine first." ”

I hesitated, took his pants and went into the bathroom. As soon as he took off his shoes, he heard him say outside: "When you change it, hand it out to me first, so that I can have someone take it and wash it." ”

I didn't answer him, but I took off my dirty pants and threw them out with my shoes.