Chapter 23: Once Life and Death
For two days in a row, Cao'er was carried by her grandmother to see her mother in the ward. All the busyness, festivity, and shadows of the Yun family after her birth before, although she was also in it, were only perceptions, and could not be stored in visible memories. Although she was missed by everyone, she never asked to do anything, but was only taken by her elders to do something.
Seeing her mother on the hospital bed unconscious in front of her eyes, Cao'er was crying, as if she could sense something, but no one could talk to her. He babble, and no one had time to teach her to call her mom and dad. She just relied on her own discoveries to imitate a few words with adults, and most of the time, it was still a difficult baby language.
Her mother, who was about to die, was in a coma in less than a few minutes when she saw her. And our grass, in addition to crying to make the adults around us even more sad, can't prevent the slightest change in the facts.
At this time, the Ming and Qing dynasties were already swollen all over the body, and their consciousness was difficult.
That night, Ming Qingniang seemed to get up in a daze and went to close the far door of the house, as if she heard her daughter's voice:
"Mother, I'm leaving."
In a daze, she came back to lie down on the bed, saw her daughter standing at the head of the bed, looked at her for a while, and then turned away.
As soon as Ming Qingniang was in a hurry, she woke up, and her heart ached.
In the evening of the next day, Yun Xin rode his bicycle and came to his mother's house in the Ming and Qing dynasties, leaned the car against the courtyard door, and ran to the mother-in-law who was working in the kitchen, crying:
"Mother, Ming Qing's whole body is swollen, and he can't speak anymore!"
When Ming Qingniang heard this, she dropped the spatula, and ran to call the old man, saying:
"Let's go out and see her, she'...... She ......"
Before he finished speaking, he was already crying.
"Dad, she can't speak anymore!"
Yun Xin's heart was also flustered, whether he came to tell Ming Qing that his mother's family was dying of illness, or to let Ming Qing and his mother's family see each other for the last time, he himself couldn't tell the difference.
"Don't say anything, let's go."
Ming Qing's father ran to the neighbor's house opposite the door, asked him to drive the tractor, threw Yunxin's bicycle behind the tractor, called the three children at home, supported his wife, and rushed to the county people's hospital with Yunxin on the tractor. In any case, I want to see my daughter one last time. This is the only thought of the father and mother of the Ming and Qing dynasties.
When they arrived at the hospital, everyone from the Yun family was present, and they were already in the ward, and when they saw the Ming and Qing families, they all got out of the way and let the Ming and Qing fathers and younger siblings go to their daughter's bed.
Ming Qing heard the sound, and struggled to open his eyes, looking at his father and younger brothers and sisters, his eyes were so dry that he couldn't shed tears, just stared blankly.
Ming Qingniang opened a pair of teary eyes, squatted down, held her daughter's shoulder, her lips trembled, and she couldn't help crying and said:
"Daughter, what's wrong with you? At such a young age, how can you let go and leave......"
Before he finished speaking, he was already lying on his daughter's arm and couldn't cry anymore.
Ming Qing's father also squatted beside his wife, holding his daughter's hand, speechless, and tearful.
The younger siblings of the Ming and Qing dynasties stood next to them, sobbing quietly.
Grandma Cao'er hugged Cao'er and stood on the side with her eldest son Yunxin, feeling sad and unbearable, and she couldn't stop crying. It was grass, with a pair of big black eyes, watching the room full of people crying, and gradually began to cry.
"Don't cry, good boy, don't cry, as soon as you cry, you will make noise for your mother to sleep, and your mother can't sleep anymore."
Grandma Cao'er gently shook her arms and patted Cao'er's back.
Cao'er was also obedient, and even stopped crying, but her eyes were full of tears, her mouth was pursed, and she didn't cry.
……
The neighbor who drove the tractor to send the Ming family out of the city to the hospital followed him to the ward and wept when he saw this scene.
It was already late at night, and Ming Qing fell into a coma after seeing his father and child for the last time. After the doctor came to check on him, he said to see if he could wake up, and that was the matter of the day.
Ming Qing's father looked at his crying exhausted and heartbroken wife, and decided to let Minglin take his mother and younger siblings back on a tractor first, and he guarded his daughter in the hospital.
Yunxin also wanted to stay, and Grandma Cao'er insisted on staying with Cao'er. Everyone else went back.
Grandma Cao'er and the two beds next to her apologized, saying that it was windy to go back at night, worried that the child would catch a cold, and her mother couldn't leave in this situation, so she had to wait, if the child cried in the middle of the night, let everyone take care of it. The patients in both beds were also very understanding.
Ming and Qing fathers, Yun Xin and Niang stayed awake all night, and they all sat on the edge of the Ming and Qing beds. Cao'er's small body was wrapped in a quilt and lay on her mother's side.
In the middle of the night, Ming woke up once, looked at his father, husband and mother-in-law with big eyes, opened his mouth, and wanted to say something, Yun Xin leaned down and listened close to his ears, but he didn't hear anything, so he put his hand into the quilt and held her hand and whispered:
"I'm here, I've always been there, what else are you worried about?"
knew that his wife couldn't speak, but Yunxin didn't believe it, and he didn't want his wife to feel a little uneasy.
"Don't worry, I will definitely do the things you told me to take care of Cao'er, that is the eldest granddaughter of our Yun family, and I will definitely not let her suffer."
Grandma Cao'er said as she looked at her daughter-in-law's hollow eyes sunken into her puffy face.
"Daughter, don't worry, everyone in the family has gone home, your eldest brother will take care of your younger siblings and your mother, you can rest assured. We're all with you tonight. “
Ming Qing's face couldn't see any expression, and even in his eyes, it seemed that the night in the deep winter was cold and lifeless, but he opened his eyes and seemed to be listening to what the three relatives said to him.
Finally, she lowered her eyes to see her sleeping daughter. At this moment, she still can't let go of her daughter.
Yes, if Ming Qing has consciousness in her heart, at this moment, it is the time when she can't let go of her daughter, because she is leaving, because her daughter has never received her mother's love at all, if God can slow down and let herself in a few more years, so that her daughter can at least receive some maternal love in her heart, and she can still remember some of her mother's voice and smile, and learn to take care of herself, then she can also walk with confidence. Can ...... now What will she encounter in her long life? How will she overcome these hurdles in her life? She really wants to be with her daughter, with her by her side, at least, so that her daughter can have comfort, not be lonely, so that her daughter can understand that her mother is waiting for her at home no matter what happens in the outside world, she knows that her parents love her, and she has her own home that will always accept her unconditionally. However, all this had to end, and God took away not her life, but the natural maternal love of a lifetime that her daughter should have, but can never get again. Perhaps, because of such a change, her daughter's fate has completely changed.
In her heart, she was desperate, but only this little person was involved, so she kept this last breath.
The next morning, Ming Qing stopped the last heartbeat with the last trace of affection for his daughter.
Her eyes were wide open, looking straight in black and white, as if she wanted to see through the future, so that she could see whether her daughter's future life would be smooth or hindered.
At the time of the burial, Cao'er stretched out her hands in her grandmother's arms and cried to her mother. She is a child, she does not understand life and death, but she has experienced life and death.
Yun Xin looked at Ming Qing with round eyes and wanted to close her eyes, but she couldn't close them after a few times. Seeing this, Cao'er's grandmother handed Cao'er to Cao'er's grandfather next to her, went over by herself, and said:
"Don't worry, I will help you raise your daughter and not let her suffer."
After speaking, Grandma Cao'er helped her daughter-in-law close her eyes, and Ming and Qing finally closed their eyes.
From then on, whether Cao'er can see her mother again depends on the creation in her dream.
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