[February 14th, the 538th day of Tianxiu's departure]

What kind of mountains and rivers do you have to go through to meet you again?

[April 17th, the 600th day of Tianxiu's departure]

Do you know Tianxiu? You've been gone for 600 days.

In the past six months, I have been staying in the United States with Zilong, in fact, my English is not good, and I have hardly been able to help Zilong in the United States.

My brother also asked me if I wanted to go back, but I didn't agree, because I always fantasized that if I stayed in the United States, maybe I could meet you one day.

You know, I've also fantasized about a lot of scenes where I meet you.

I even thought that if I saw you, I would slap you hard because you had left me for so long.

But God seemed to be joking with me, we were in the same country, maybe in the same city, but we never met.

[April 18th, the 601st day of Tianxiu's departure]

Tianxiu, am I not a very bad woman.

Today, Zilong confessed to me again, although I still cruelly rejected him, but I was a little shaken.

Since you left, Zilong has saved me many times these days, and although I live in his house as his life assistant, he actually takes care of me more than anyone else.

After you left, how many nights I missed you, he was always by my side, comforting and enlightening me.

Even how many times I cried silently because I missed Tianxiu, it was Zilong who borrowed my shoulder to let me lean on and help me wipe away my tears.

If it weren't for Zilong's companionship and care, I might not be me now.

He was so good to me, I really don't know how to repay him.

I thought badly that when I saw you get married one day, I should completely give up, and then I would accept Zilong.

Every time I realize that I have this thought, I feel like I'm a bad woman, a bad woman through and through.

[April 28th, the 611th day of Tianxiu's departure]

Tianxiu, I want to go back to China tomorrow.

Zilong would give me a birthday in the evening, and he wanted me to give him the answer he wanted on his birthday.

I knew what he wanted, but I couldn't afford to give him the answer he wanted.

Because I can't forget you, you are like a root that cannot be plucked out in my heart.

I knew that my heart was a little shaken, because the better Zilong treated me, the more I felt sorry for him.

Although it is said that the dedication of love does not need to be reciprocated, just like I have always loved you.

But in the 611 days that you disappeared, Zilong's kindness to me was in my eyes and in my heart.

Even no matter how hard-hearted I am, I can't ignore Zilong's care for me in the past 611 days.

I owe Zilong nothing in my life.

So after my birthday tonight, I'm going to go back to China, and after I return to China, I will resign and move to another city, maybe I'm not with Zilong, he will slowly think about it.

[May 24th, the 637th day of Tianxiu's departure]

The most painful goodbye in this world is never spoken, but the heart knows that it is all over.

I'm done with you.

In order to save you, I don't even want my life to block a knife for you.

But what about you!?

Not only did I leave me dying, but I didn't even come to the hospital to see me for the next 27 days.

At first, I thought you were busy, but I checked the Internet and found out that you have been doing well these days. I want to talk with more like-minded people about "Billions of Favorite Wives: Who Can Know Lovesickness", WeChat pays attention to "Excellent Reading Literature", chats about life, and looks for confidants~