Chapter 14: Loss
Chen Xing stared at Yang Fan for a long time, and when he saw that he was silent, he no longer continued to ask for guilt. They used to be fatal friends, he saved Yang Fan, and Yang Fan also blocked bullets for him. For Mo Yu, they will compete with each other. "One more thing I want to confirm, why is Mo Yu's necklace so similar to Li Li's necklace?"
"I don't know the specifics, the one I gave you is Xiaoxue, that is, Mo Yu gave it to me many years ago, by chance, I saw that Li Li also had a white one, out of curiosity, so I asked a few more words, Li Li said that it was given to her by her mother, at that time I carefully looked at the white necklace, it is indeed very similar to the green one, as for the rest, I don't know" Yang Fan was also curious about Chen Xing's question, but Xiaoxue is from Meihua Village, a remote mountain village in Qingcheng, and Li Li's mother has been living in Qingcheng University, The two of them can't fight, and it really doesn't make people think of any connection, maybe it's just a coincidence.
"Oh, the white necklace has been returned to Li Li, and as for the green necklace, I gave it to Mo Yu."
Yang Fan stood up and grabbed Chen Xing's collar, his fist raised, but in the end, it didn't fall. A meeting, unhappily parted, Chen Xing looked at the two backs that were leaving step by step, and sighed secretly, he and Yang Fan were still drifting apart after all.
Mo Yu's bedroom windowsill was very wide, and she put a cushion and sat on the windowsill. The music sounded slowly in his ears, and Ahsan's voice was long, "Leaves, they are wings that can't fly, and wings are leaves that fall in the sky... Loneliness is a person's carnival, carnival is a group of people's loneliness, love, the original beginning is companionship, but I gradually forget, what kind of companionship was at that time, I ate alone, traveled, walked around and stopped, also read books alone, wrote, talked to my own heart, but where did my heart drift to, even I couldn't see clearly, I think I didn't just lose you... ”
The sky in Qingcheng was mostly gloomy, and at this moment, there was no lightning and thunder, but there was a light rain. Outside the window, a pair of flying birds, chasing and falling to the branches, after a while, one bird flew up, the other also flapped its wings to chase, Mo Yu's eyes gradually glanced into the distance with this pair of birds, until the birds formed two black dots and disappeared. When it rains, they should be home, maybe there are children waiting to be fed at home, waiting for them to return from predation. Maybe there is nothing at home, but they still want to go home and escape the wind and rain.
The knock on the door shook the sky, and Lu Yixue slammed the door hard, "Mo Yu, open the door, hurry up and open the door for me."
Mo Yu turned up the music a little louder, pretending not to hear it. "Miss Xue, is Miss Yu not at home?" Mama Li's voice sounded at the door. "How is it possible, I saw her shoes, but I didn't wear them out at the door", Lu Yixue continued to slam the door, "Mo Yu, did you hear it?" Open the door, I have something to ask you".
After waiting for a few seconds, there was still no movement, Lu Yixue kicked the door a few times with her foot hatefully, "Mo Yu, don't forget, whose you eat now, whose clothes you wear, whose you use, who raised you for your study." Okay, you're hiding inside and won't come out, are you? I don't believe you can hide for the rest of your life."
The rain gradually became a little heavier, and the sound outside the door stopped, Lu Yixue should have left. This is in Chen Xing's house, she knows that Lu Yixue doesn't dare to go too far, and she still has to maintain a good image of a wealthy lady in front of Chen Xing. It's just that outside of Chen Xing's house, I don't know what she will do. Mo Yu thought that it should be that Chen Xing deliberately said that he was his girlfriend in order to relieve her yesterday, which stimulated Lu Yixue, otherwise Lu Yixue would not have Chen Xing walking on the front foot, and she would have come to her teacher to ask her guilt. As usual, Lu Yixue should find an appropriate time outside and give her a sarcastic warning and threat, instead of being as impatient as she is at this moment. Thinking of yesterday, Mo Yu remembered the necklace again, and Chen Xing should have no unevenness when he came forward. As for the results, perhaps she doesn't need to pay attention anymore. Now Mo Yu's mood is extremely low, and he really has no time to pay attention to Lu Yixue or Li Li. She sighed silently and continued to look out the window. Downstairs, a young mother, holding a little girl about four or five years old, is running vigorously, the little girl is on the top of her head, wearing the coat of a young mother, Mo Yu judged that it is a girl, because of the pair of red and bright shoes on the child's feet. Mom was drenched in the rain and couldn't open her eyes, but she still ran forward with all her might, and said something to the girl. Mo Yu couldn't hear clearly, but he seemed to hear clearly. Mo Yu's gaze locked tightly on the mother and daughter in the rain, until the pair ran into the corner and could no longer be seen. The rain gradually became a piece, and God gave the earth, no, it should be said that it was a curtain for Qingcheng.
After a while, the rain gradually subsided and slowly stopped. Mo Yu had been sitting by the windowsill and had not moved. This rain comes and goes quickly. And what about her mood? Since that rainy night on his tenth birthday, there has been no going back. She didn't understand what Chen Xing said in the morning, people should look forward, not always look back. But she can't, she has no way out, no way forward. On that day, she not only lost her mother, lost Zheng Fan (Yang Fan), she also lost trust, lost her emotions, and even lost her qualification to live. She is wheezing like a walking corpse now, only because of her mother, the woman who suffered so much, one day, she will reunite with her and give her material security and emotional happiness with her own efforts.
As for Chen Xing, maybe she has to talk to him again, and if it doesn't work out, she won't feel guilty anymore. She can't influence other people's behaviors and emotions, but she can choose not to accept them. As for... He, thinking of him, his heart still can't stop hurting. always thought that after many years, time would heal most of the injuries and resentments in her heart, but at this moment, she still felt heartache. How good it was, how disgusted it is now, how much hope it once was, how desperate it is now. Since he chose to let her give him the phalaenopsis necklace appear in front of her, it means that soon, he will appear in front of her. Now that I think about it, many things have been explained, why does she always feel like she is being followed? Why does he always wear a cap and look down and dodge when he sees her? Why did he help out in the library? Why does his back always make her feel inexplicably familiar and uneasy? At the moment, everything is self-evident. Yang Fan is Zheng Fan, and he, like her, has also changed his name. It's not surprising to think that he used to live with his maternal grandmother and follow his mother's surname, and then he was taken home, so naturally he had to follow his father's surname. Mo Yu suddenly felt a little ridiculous again, once she followed her father's surname, he followed her mother's surname, but many years later, he changed his father's surname, and she changed her mother's surname. Life, how can the world be impermanent.
After Chen Xing came back, he went upstairs and knocked on Mo Yu's door, but she didn't move. At this moment, Mo Yu doesn't want to deal with anyone, and he doesn't want to deal with it. "Xiaoyu, open the door, I'm here to bring you lunch."
"Not hungry" Mo Yu even saved his thanks.
Chen Xing had no choice but to take it downstairs and put it on the dining table. Lu Yixue looked at Chen Xing, blinked a pair of innocent big eyes, and said with a hint of anger, "She didn't even open the door?" ”。 Chen Xing was noncommittal, picked up the chopsticks, and took a chopstick dish to his mouth. "Xing, don't blame Xiaoyu, yesterday's necklace incident was troublesome, I guess she is not in a good mood"
Chen Xing continued to eat and did not respond. Lu Yixue raised her eyebrows, and her heart was happy, it seemed that Chen Xing was a little angry. Chen Xingsheng is angry with Mo Yu, she naturally likes to see it. "Xing, don't be angry, otherwise after eating in a while, I'll call my dad, Xiaoyu may not listen to other people's words, but my dad's words, Xiaoyu will still listen to a few points, after all, it was my dad who took her back from her poor relative's house, raised her to grow up, and provided her with education. Even if you are a person who is unkind, you have to know how to repay Entu." Chen Xing still didn't speak, Lu Yixue suddenly felt better, be angry, it's better to be angry, and never interact with Mo Yu again. Lu Yixue thoughtfully sandwiched a piece of fish and put it into Chen Xing's bowl, "Xing, eat more fish, Xiaoyu is still a child, and she is not worth it to be angry with her." Chen Xing still did not respond. Lu Yixue suddenly couldn't get it right, she said so much, and the other party didn't agree with it, what does it mean? Is it so angry that you don't want to speak, or are you not so angry?
"Star, I heard yesterday... You said you were with Mo Yu, yes... Are you sure? Or are you trying to help her out... Lu Yixue plucked up the courage and asked this question, which has been entangled since last night. For this, she had a sleepless night last night.
Chen Xing put down the dishes and chopsticks and looked at the girl opposite, "What do you say?" After speaking, Chen Xing got up, "I'm full, you eat slowly." "Star" Lu Yixue put down her chopsticks and stopped the tall figure who was about to turn around and leave, she stood up, because she was a little emotional, her body trembled slightly, "Star, there are some things I can't say, no matter how I say it, I'm a girl." But... ”
"Since you can't say it, then don't say it" Chen Xing interrupted Lu Yixue and looked at her fixedly, "Xiaoxue, some things depend on heart and fate, the Lu family and the Chen family quickly became friends, I have always taken care of you as a sister, but this is a prerequisite, that is, your existence cannot affect my life, let alone my feelings." Otherwise, Xiaoxue, after getting along for a while, you should have discovered that I am not as gentle as I seem, and everything is enough once."