Chapter 392: Pushing Yourself Too Hard
The more important thing is to look at the present, how to make your life better, how to make yourself happy. After all, life is to be lived by yourself, although you think about other people, it is not that you are anything, the premise is that you have to live your own life, so that you can help other people.
You have to be able to have enough ability to think about helping others, and you can't even live your own life, let alone help others.
After all, people live in reality, not in fantasy, thinking about things that are not very practical. Those can only exist in their own inner world, just a sweet dream, and it is impossible to do so in reality.
So more often than not, it is necessary to distinguish between reality and dreams, and not to be confused by these two. To live in reality, you should see the reality clearly, know what you should do, and how much ability you have to do it.
Reality is a dream that exists in reality, but what exists in your heart is only an idea that exists in your mind, but it cannot be realized in real life.
"As you said, I have really experienced a lot of things since I was a child, and at that time I wanted to make myself stronger, only in this way that I could not get hurt, I could protect myself, and I had the opportunity to protect other people." How could Shu Yixin not know that he had such thoughts since he was a child, and wanted to make himself stronger, because he had no backer.
If you have a backer, maybe sometimes you will be a little weaker, just because you don't have any backer from beginning to end, and you have to rely on yourself for everything. In such a situation, what can I do but rely on myself?
"Since you know this clearly, you should let yourself live a better life, and think more about yourself, although sometimes it will be very selfish to think like this, I don't deny it, but people are selfish." Everyone thinks like this, think about yourself first, and then think about the rest.
So you can't say who is selfish or whatever, in fact, everyone is selfish, first consider their own personal interests, and then consider the interests of the collective.
He Yuhe really hopes that her thoughts can be a little bit, no matter what she faces, she should think more about herself, don't always think about others, obviously her life is not particularly good, but she doesn't care about her own affairs.
"So after getting along with you, I feel like I've changed a lot, and even the people around me say that about me." Shu Yixin may feel that after being with him, he has become more, and he will think more about himself, which has changed a lot from before.
"It's good to change, I'm just worried that you've always been like this, and you won't change." He Yuhe was worried that no matter what happened to him, he told her bitterly that in the end, she hadn't changed much, so in such a situation, she would have a headache.
What I want is for her to be able to improve and change, not to say that it is unchanged and has not changed.
Obviously, I want to help her, but sometimes I think about my position and her thoughts, even if I have such an idea, I don't dare to say it in the end, after all, I am really afraid that she will reject her.
If things were too obvious to herself, she would have doubted them.
Doubting why she wanted to help her like this, it was all in her heart, she must have thought like this, she was not related to herself, and she didn't have much friendship, why did she have to pay so much, just to help her.
And in such a situation, I can't always tell her, after all, I haven't explained those things to her clearly in the past, so in order to avoid some trouble, I can only put these words in my heart and can't say them.
He Yuhe looked at her with affectionate eyes when she didn't notice it, in fact, she had a lot of things to say to her in her heart, but she couldn't say the words.
"I can't imagine the night view here, it's actually quite good, and it's really good to go out for a walk after dinner." Usually myself, where do I have this leisure, where do I have this time, come to such a leisurely walk, if I didn't happen to come here today, I wouldn't have this time.
"Yes, in fact, there are many beautiful things around us, but many times I don't notice them." I went back to China for so long, but I rarely did this, and I went out for a walk at night.
If she hadn't accompanied her today, maybe she wouldn't have wanted to take such a leisurely walk and see the night view of the city. I always feel that I have something to look at alone, what is to solve, and I will always seem lonely, and in such a situation, I might as well stay at home alone.
"I don't usually have this time, but it's rare to be able to walk like this today." Shu Yixin chose with a sigh, after all, he was usually busy doing business, and now, he was busy learning from him.
I always feel that people are very leisurely, why do I feel that I am very busy, there are always things that I can't finish, either busy with things or busy with that thing.
I don't understand other people's lives, I can live so comfortably, but my own words can't. Is it because I have only one person, I have to rely on myself for everything, so I have to work harder than others, and only in this way will I live a better life?
"It's because you're pushing yourself too hard and don't let yourself relax and rest more." Although she is a small business, in fact, the time is relaxed, but it depends on how she uses it.
According to what she knows about her, she would rather stay in the café and book house and earn a little more money than let herself relax more.
Although he knows that he is very short of money, he still has to rest when he should rest, he still has to relax when he should relax, and he must know how to be kind to himself when it is appropriate.
"A lot of times, all I think about in my mind is making a little more money, and I don't think about anything else at all." After all, I clearly know that I am different from other people, and I have to work harder than others.
Sometimes I want to go out and walk, but I think that I shouldn't waste my time like this, but more should work harder and earn more money, so that I can improve my life and help those in need.
If you have such an idea in your head, and with such a thought, you will naturally be motivated, so there really is no such time to come out and relax like this.
Anyway, what he said is not wrong at all, and sometimes he pushes himself too hard. I have never denied this, in fact.
"It's not right to have such thoughts, but sometimes don't push yourself too hard, you know" He Yuhe didn't understand her thoughts, but I just hoped that sometimes, I could let go of myself and let myself rest more.
I just hope that sometimes she can be kind to herself, be able to let go of herself, let herself relax, and don't keep herself in a tense state all the time.
"Yes, I didn't tell you just now, the current me and the past have changed a lot." Shu Yixin knew that he was worried about himself, so he would say such things to himself.
"Do what you know, don't make me worry about you anymore." He Yuhe really doesn't have any other requirements for her, he just hopes that she can be better to herself.
Shu Yixin turned his head to look at him, thinking in disbelief, he just said that he was worried about himself, why did he suddenly hear such words, it would make him feel very heartwarming and couldn't say that feeling, but he always felt that he was cared for like this, and his heart was very warm and touched.
"Just now, are you caring about me when you say this?" I refused to believe his words, but really felt that this sentence made me very warm.
He Yuhe also looked at her with strange eyes, and then said word by word, "I don't care about you, do you care about myself, you look at you like this, I don't know how worried people are." This sentence was completely subconsciously spoken, and I didn't think about it that much at all.
Thinking of the closeness between himself and her, thinking that he and her at that time should have nothing to talk about, and they can say anything, but at this moment, many words can only be said vaguely, and even many words cannot be said at all, afraid that she will be aware, and even more afraid that in the future, she will no longer pay attention to herself.
Therefore, in such a situation, the words that could be said did not know how to say them in the end, so they could only choke in their throats or put them in their mouths, and finally they were quietly swallowed by themselves.
To be honest, this feeling is really uncomfortable at all, and I don't want to do it, but many times I can't change the situation in front of me at all, after all, I am not completely sure.
Thinking about these days, it's also a torture for yourself. In fact, it can be changed, but I am reluctant to change, maybe I am really worried that everything, after a showdown with her, I and she are not facing the same problem, but parting ways.
Now I can't seem to gamble, and I can't afford to lose. I never felt like I was so wretched, I couldn't do anything, I didn't feel like my style at all.
Shu Yi looked at him blankly, thinking about other things in his heart, he really couldn't believe what he said just now, but he was really concerned about himself, and he could feel it about it.
He is not a ruthless person, nor is he the kind of person who is unconscious, but he also knows the meaning of what he says. Maybe it's because since I was a child, I was rarely treated like this, and I always felt that suddenly someone treated me like this, and that feeling was really too fascinating.