【19.】

There was still room for a second thought in my mind, and the man lying on the bed had already opened his eyes. I hurriedly put my clothes on my body, but this dress was very cumbersome, and I wore it for a long time and was unruly, and I almost broke it in a hurry.

Du Bin put on his clothes at some point and walked up to me: "I'll help you......"

I took a step back and shouted like crazy, "Don't touch me!" ”

His hand was stretched out in the air, and at last he was still depressed, and it was a long time before I straightened out the incomprehensible gown as if it were a matter of great seriousness.

I got dressed, took a deep breath, and headed for the door.

The person behind him came over and grabbed my arm: "Liu Jia! ”

I don't know where the strength came from, so I shook off his hand fiercely, and Du Bin stumbled, almost unable to stand on his feet. I looked at him, and the water vapor gradually accumulated in my eyes, but I stubbornly refused to cry.

I know...... I'm left with nothing.

But I can't bear what little dignity I have.

Du Bin lowered his head, and after a long time, he raised it and looked at me, his lips closed one by one, piecing together a complete three words.

"I'm sorry."

I laughed, tears and smiles, I had never been so hopeless.

"Excuse me?" I looked at him, wishing that he would crush his bones and scatter ashes, "I can't stand your words, blame myself for not knowing the point." ”

"Don't say that......" he took a step forward and looked at me firmly, "If you don't want me to say it, I'll just think yesterday was a dream, and I can't help it." If you feel sad...... I'll take care of you in the future. I must be like him, be good to you, take care of you, and cherish you. ”

I was in a trance because of Du Bin's sentence "like him". I'm afraid that in the future, I will not be blessed to enjoy such a good time.

"I can't act like nothing happened......"

He seemed a little surprised when he heard this. I deliberately ignored his surprised expression and continued, "I hate you. ”

Du Bin reached out and wanted to hold me: "Liu Jia......"

I dodged on my side, and finally uttered the words, "But I hate myself even more." ”

He seemed to be frightened by my words, and stayed there in a daze, unable to say a word. I didn't want to entangle him anymore and turned away.

When I got home, there was only Shen Duo sitting in the hall......

and Liu Xin.

Shen Duo was very happy to see me: "It's finally back...... Liu Xin said that you drank too much yesterday and were taken to live at home by your classmates. Is it? ”

Liu Xin sat on the sofa, tugging at the hem of his clothes a little uneasily.

I had never been so clear as I am today, and everything was as clear as I had ever seen before, and I smiled and replied, "Yes." ”

He walked into the hall with my waist around and kept saying: "After I toasted the uncle's wine yesterday, I couldn't find you when I turned around, and I thought you had gone, but fortunately, Liu Xin told me when." ”

I struggled to squeeze out a smile.

Shen Duo looked at my clothes and frowned: "Why don't you change your clothes...... How uncomfortable. ”

"It's okay......"

He was about to say something, but I interrupted him: "Shen Duo, I have something I want to tell you. ”

He smiled: "What's the matter, you just say." Can I still promise you? ”

"Let's ......," I said, taking a deep breath before I had the strength to continue, "let's break up." ”

Shen Duo didn't seem to hear clearly, and asked, "What?" ”

But I kept my mouth shut, got up, and walked out the door.

"Wait!"

Shen Duo walked over and took my hand, with a look of disbelief: "What did you say?" ”

I didn't dare to look him in the eye, but I had to look at him. This is such a difficult thing for me, I can only comfort myself repeatedly: just get through it...... It's good to get through it......

"I said break up."

His hand was gripping my arm tightly, and my hand was numb with pain. But I didn't make any sound.

Shen Duo's face sank like water, but his eyes were full of sadness: "Why? ”

I lowered my eyes faintly: "No, I don't love it." Isn't it okay? ”

"Don't love it anymore?" He laughed, as if he had heard a big joke, "Liu Jia, we have known each other for five years, and we have been together for two years." Now you say you don't love it? You walked cleanly, but where did you put me? ”

Where to put it...... Where to place?

"From the beginning, it wasn't you that I liked. The reason why they try everything to please is just to ...... For the sake of your identity. ”

He grabbed me suddenly, and I fell into his arms, his other hand wrapped tightly around my waist as if to insert me into my body.

His voice was choked, but he stubbornly said word by word: "I don't believe it, you love me...... You love me! ”

I can't break free from such an embrace, coveting the warmth of his arms.

"Let me move out...... "I leaned into his arms, my heart was desolate" and let me be alone for a while. ”

"Good ......" his tears fell on my shoulders, scorching temperature.

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I moved back to the dormitory, and the three of them were very strange at first, but seeing that I didn't smile every day, I could generally guess that I was having some dispute with Shen Duo.

There is always a steady stream of things in the dormitory, such as food, clothing, and seeing. Later, these three people took turns to be Shen Duo's lobbyists. I listened, but I just smiled faintly.

Occasionally, Gao Yuanyuan will also talk about Shen Duo, such as "I met Shen Duo in the library today, this kid's eyes are so lonely that people can't help but feel pity......"

Another example: "When I came back just now, I vaguely saw that it seemed to be that handsome little guy standing downstairs in our dormitory." ”

And so on and so forth.

Liu Xin looked for me once and told me to refuse. She asked me on the phone if I resented her, and I thought about it for a long time before replying, "You should hate me...... I don't owe you any more. You don't have the right to be my sister. ”

These are not the only people who come to act as lobbyists, I receive Shen Yao every day, Gege...... Even Beizi's invitation, but he never went to the appointment.

I just need a time to digest this, I dare not say that I am a chaste martyr, born in this era, my mind is inevitably open at times. In fact, I don't need anyone to say it, I just want to slowly forget about it, maybe I still have a chance to walk with Shen Duo again.

But one afternoon two months later, I was tidying up my cabinet and happened to see the neat and untouched tampon in the cabinet.

I was shocked...... A thought came to me...... But I can't control it anymore.

I crouched on the ground and laughed until I cried.