Past life (Part I) – Happiness that cannot be given
"Uncle Chen, is your uncle awake?"
As soon as Chen Han closed the door of the ward, he heard a voice behind him, he turned his head to look, and immediately smiled and squinted, "It's Miss Xinyu." The chief had already opened his eyes once, but soon fell asleep again, and if you want to talk to him, wait for the afternoon. ”
Han Xinyu, who is over forty years old, looks very young, with neat short hair and bright eyes with a smile, wearing light makeup, wearing a peach-colored bat shirt and white slim pants, with a generous and hearty temperament, and her visual age is only in her early thirties.
"It's okay, I'm on vacation today, and I'm empty." Han Xinyu and Chen Han walked out of the hospital side by side.
"Did Miss Xinyu have breakfast?" Chen Han asked.
"Not yet." Han Xinyu blinked and said, "I originally planned to come over and eat with my uncle." ”
"How about Miss Xinyu and invite the old man to breakfast?" Chen Han said with a smile.
"Uncle Chen, you are too humble, you are an old man and a handsome old man." While laughing, Han Xinyu pulled Chen Han to a nearby breakfast shop.
The breakfast shop she chose did a good job, but fortunately the seats were separated by potted plants, so it didn't feel noisy.
After ordering two bowls of seafood noodles and a basket of roasted wheat, Han Xinyu picked up a chopstick noodle and asked with some hesitation, "Uncle Chen...... What kind of person is Auntie? ”
In fact, their family and uncle have not known each other for a long time, only half a year, but she has a natural affection for this uncle.
The reason is very simple, the two families have Liu Yufang's common enemy, and her father cares so much about this uncle, it is difficult for her to have a bad feeling.
What's more, Liu Yufang and the third uncle's family ended up like that some time ago, but it was all Uncle To's blessing.
Her mother, grandfather, aunt, uncle, and cousin were all killed by Liu Yufang, and she was not grateful and happy to her uncle who helped her take revenge.
It's just that...... Seeing her uncle looking half-dead now, she felt uncomfortable.
In this way, she is even more curious about the woman who made her uncle love for a lifetime, and finally lost all her thoughts because of her death.
In fact, it stands to reason that the uncle and the elder have divorced, and she should no longer call the other party aunt, but the uncle is very insistent on this point. Usually he is cold and indifferent to everything, but if he disobeys him in this matter, don't think about him giving him a good face again.
Hearing this, Chen Han's face changed, but in the end, he only sighed and said, "It's a very good woman, otherwise how could he fall in love." ”
He actually didn't like Lin Xiaoliang, if it weren't for her, how could Shen Chi be lonely all his life, but he also had to admit that the other party was actually very innocent.
Shen Chi has been harmed by her for a lifetime, how could she not have been harmed by Shen Chi for a lifetime?
With such a general sentence, Han Xinyu naturally felt dissatisfied, knocked on the bowl and said, "Uncle Chen, you can talk more, especially the matter between her and her uncle." ”
Chen Han shook his head, "Those things...... Don't talk about it. ”
Han Xinyu grinded for a long time, but Chen Han didn't let go again.
The two went back to the ward, where Shen Chi was still asleep. Looking at the old man on the hospital bed who was full of wind and frost but gave people a sense of solemnity, Han Xinyu's heart moved, and suddenly asked: "Uncle Chen, why is my uncle reluctant to appear in the media camera after becoming a major general?" ”
If it weren't for this, with the uncle's face that was exactly the same as that of his grandfather, how could the two families have delayed until now to recognize each other?
Yes.
She suddenly thought that before meeting her father, her uncle had always thought that he was the illegitimate son of the Han family, and he wanted to hide this disgraceful identity as he could.
"Because I don't want your aunt to see him as he is." Chen Han replied.
Han Xinyu was stunned for a while, and only after a while did she realize what he meant, even if she wanted to be eccentric, she had to admit that her uncle was not good-looking, he was too old, and people in their early sixties looked like they were seventy or eighty, with all white hair, as if they had boiled up all the hard work of their lives, no wonder......
The uncle and aunt are ten years apart, and she has seen her aunt's body, which is as beautiful as a double ten woman, without any traces of time.
Uncle was already in his forties when he became a major general, and people who didn't know saw him and his aunt might think it was the age gap between father and daughter.
So old...... How can you want to be seen by your beloved woman.
"Chen Han." At this moment, an old and frail voice sounded.
Chen Han walked to the window excitedly, "Chief, are you awake?" After being a guard for so many years, he has become accustomed to calling the other party's chief, but the original friendship has not changed.
"Help me up." Shen Chi narrowed his eyes and said lightly.
Chen Han helped him up, and Shen Chi asked, "When?" ”
"It's half past ten." Chen Han replied in a low voice.
Shen Chi looked at the sky outside the window, and a smile suddenly appeared on his face, fortunately he didn't miss the time.
As soon as Chen Han's face sank, he knew ......
"Change my hospital gown." Hearing Shen Chi's words, Han Xinyu frowned to stop it, but saw Chen Han open the wardrobe without saying a word and took out the clothes that went out.
She stamped her foot and ducked out the door.
When Chen Han came out with Shen Chi, who was trembling but with a straight back, Han Xinyu glared at Chen Han, why did he still let his uncle be willful at this time?
understood the meaning of her gaze, but Chen Han ignored it, lowered his head and silently helped Shen Chi out of the hospital.
Han Xinyu seemed to think of something, her face was pale, and her expression darkened.
Chen Han drove the car, Han Xinyu sat in the passenger seat, but Shen Chi leaned on the back seat and closed his eyes to recuperate.
At some point, he opened his eyes and looked out the car window, and saw that the French plane trees on both sides were a little distracted.
Wanwan......
If you knew that there was this day, how clean would it be that I died with you in my arms?
When they arrived at the gate of the cemetery, Chen Han and Han Xinyu wanted to follow, but they were stopped by Shen Chi. The two could only watch in horror as the old man walked into the depths of the cemetery step by step with crutches.
His head was a little dizzy, but when he saw the woman smiling quietly on the tombstone, Shen Chi couldn't help but smile.
He sat down with difficulty holding on to the stone fence next to him, looking at the photo on the tombstone stupidly and refusing to blink, before he whispered for a long time: "Wanwan, do you still hurt?" ”
He could never forget the painful expression on Wanwan's face that could not be erased even if it was cold and stiff.
It's his fault, if he can run faster......
But he's old, he's going to die, and he can't run fast, so Wanwan should dislike herself even more.
In fact, he was glad in his heart, fortunately, Wanwan left first, otherwise he was really afraid, afraid that he would not be able to help but take Wanwan with him.
It's just that I still feel distressed, and Wanwan is dying and has to suffer so much.
"Uncle Chen, what's wrong with my uncle's condition?" Outside the cemetery, Han Xinyu asked in a low voice.
"It's only been these two months." Chen Han sighed.
"How is that possible?" Han Xinyu couldn't believe it: "Hasn't my uncle insisted on it for eight years?" I think I'll be able to hold on for a long time. ”
"Not really." Chen Han didn't look at his face to hide the tears in the corners of his eyes, and said in a low voice: "Is that a malignant tumor growing in the head, the chief was able to hold on to it before, it was because the revenge was not avenged, it was because Lin Xiaoliang was obedient, but now it is ...... Now that these are gone, he has lost the strength to support him. ”
"Since Lin Xiaoliang died and dealt with Xu Meimei, the chief refused to take medicine anymore, and he was unwilling to cooperate with the treatment he had cooperated with before."
"But ......" Han Xinyu said with red eyes: "Uncle Chen, you persuade him, he can always listen to your words." ”
Chen Han shook his head and said: "Let him be, what if he gets through it, he is bitter in his heart, and living a few more days is a few more days of torment for him." ”
Han Xinyu was dumbfounded when she heard this, if she met her uncle in such a situation, she probably wouldn't want to live like that.
Shen Chi leaned on the stone railing, his mood was rare and quiet, and his memory couldn't help but drift to the distant past, he thought, this should be the last time he recalled the past-
He thought more than once that if it wasn't for the guilt in his heart and the fact that the divorce didn't affect his promotion in the army, but directly agreed to Wanwan's request for divorce, would his life have changed?
But even if he goes back to the past, he will still choose to hold on to her and die!
He used to think that Wanwan's beauty was the weapon that could confuse him the most, otherwise he would not have fallen in love with her at first sight. But later it turned out that the charm of this woman is not at all superficial, but in a deeper place.
Such a beautiful person, when you really get along with her, you will find that the other party's beauty is becoming more and more absent day by day, but the soul in those eyes is more and more than day by day to occupy your heart.
Even if he saw more of her indifference and coldness towards him, even hatred and pain, those clear and pure eyes could make his heart flutter. The occasional glimpse of a shallow smile, sadness, or fragility also seeped into his heart little by little.
Let him sink willingly.
Seeing the beloved woman becoming more and more silent under his shackles, his eyes were filled with madness and despair, and the pain in Shen Chi's heart at that time was known only to him.
- I just want you to be with me, don't care about children, even if you don't have children!
- Don't cry, I'll feel sorry if you cry.
- If you hate them, can I help you take revenge on them, and don't show a painful and desperate expression, okay?
- If you don't have children, will I stay with you?
- Why do you always avoid my eyes, you look at me, you look at me!
He had shoved the knife into Wanwan's hand and pointed it at his heart for her to stab it in, but she threw it away.
He was smiling so happily because he had made a bet with himself a moment ago that if Wanwan really wanted him dead, he would let her go.
Wanwan is so kind, he feels that as long as he is sincere, he will one day be open.
But he later found out that Wanwan was indeed kind, but she was also stubborn, stubbornly unable to see his affection for her, stubbornly drawing her heart to the ground, stubbornly ...... I don't want to be happy on my own.
Yes, even Wanwan herself didn't find out that she hated so many people, but the person she hated the most was herself, so she didn't allow herself to be happy.
It is not allowed to protect the happiness of oneself without protecting the child.
So Shen Chi has a thousand means, 1152 ( )