【13.】

Mrs. Shen stayed in that villa and asked the driver to take me back.

When I went home, Shen Duo hadn't come back yet, I couldn't get through when I called him, Jiang's mother saw that I was restless there, and comforted a few words, I had something in my heart, and I couldn't listen to it at all, so she simply gave up.

I always feel uneasy, and I don't really understand where this uneasiness comes from...... It's not Mrs. Shen, it's not Shen Duo, it's not Hu Wei, it's not me...... Not even anyone.

And these people, these things together, finally constituted the result of my trepidation.

A pair of hands on my shoulders: "Liu Jia? ”

I was startled and looked up. Shen Duo frowned, his eyes were full of concern: "What's wrong with you?" How do you sit here in a daze by yourself? ”

I dodged the serious: "You're back." ”

"Hmm."

"Have you eaten?"

"I ate, but I wasn't full." He looked at me pitifully, "I was asked by the old man to talk, there is no good banquet!" Where do I still have the heart to eat. ”

One called me away, and the other dragged Shen Duo...... Is it?

The dinner was quite sumptuous, Shen Duo kept serving me vegetables, I looked at the delicacies of the mountains and seas on the table, but my heart was not a taste.

Since when did I get used to such delicacies?

Since when did I get used to this kind of fine food?

Seeing that I hadn't touched the food in the bowl, he looked up at me, "What's wrong?" Not to your liking? Do you want us to go out to eat? ”

I put down my chopsticks and shook my head. I have a thousand words in my heart, and I don't know where to start.

"What's wrong?" He walked over, crouched down on my lap, and took my hand, "Isn't it comfortable?" Sick? ”

I looked at the person in front of me, how much he loved me, and I loved him so with all my might, we never touched love, but we knew what it meant to give up.

I reached out and grabbed his hand on my lap, and it took a long time before I spoke: "Shen Duo, I want to move out." ”

He was stunned for a moment, as if he didn't understand what I was saying, but I knew he understood, so he just looked at him and didn't speak.

"What's wrong?" He grabbed my hand eagerly, "Isn't it good here?" So...... What do you like? Tell me and we'll move to a new house. ”

I withdrew my hand: "I want to move back to school." ”

"No way!" He stood up suddenly, and forced himself to suppress his anger, "I can promise you anything, but this is the only one...... No negotiable! ”

"Shen Duo......" I also stood up and looked at him levelly, "I'm not angry with you, nor am I dissatisfied with anything, I'm just ...... I'm a little more equal like us, and not raised in a mansion like this. ”

"You!" He pulled me in front of him, "You think so?" ”

I knew I was going a little too far, after all, my request was so unreasonable. The way he is now, he must be very sad. I lowered my head and said no more.

"You can ask for anything, no matter what vexatious requests I can make. But I also have a bottom line...... Liu Jia, this matter is not allowed to be mentioned again in the future. ”

I lowered my head, not even daring to look at him: "I'm going to move out anyway, whether you agree or not." ”

"Good! Good! Good! ”

He said three good things in a row, I have never seen him like this, I just feel the pain in my heart like a knife, and I don't know if I am right or wrong to insist so much. I always comforted myself repeatedly, Mrs. Shen couldn't have any impact on our love, but I didn't expect that it was just a few simple bills, and I was devastated.

We parted unhappily that night, and although I said cruel words, he was like that...... In fact, it is more sad than angry.

So although I have this idea, I haven't moved out for a long time, Jiang's mother knows what I'm doing with Shen Duo these days, if it's just the two of us at home, she will do everything possible to persuade me.

I actually know what she said, but it's far from that simple......

That's it...... I consoled myself that I would wait until after his birthday, and before that was his boss.

After class on Friday, I went to the supermarket to buy a lot of vegetables, thinking that the events of that day were very unpleasant, and the atmosphere at home has not been good these days. Shen Duo is a person who is obedient to me in small things, and he is very principled in such big things that cannot be compromised.

It's up to me to please him......

Because I have been with Shen Duo for a long time, I know his tastes very well. Most of the things he bought were his favorite food, and when he was about to check out, he saw that the bamboo shoots in the supermarket were so fresh, and it happened that I still liked to eat this thing, so I was moved and bought some.

When I went home, there were a lot of big bags and small bags, and Jiang's mother was stunned for a moment when she saw me, and then took the things in my hand with a smile, and couldn't stop praising me: "Hey! That's right, make some of the dishes that the son likes to eat, and serve him softly. Maybe the people next to you don't work...... You are the person on the tip of Childe's heart, just make a little appearance, and Childe will be relieved of his anger. ”

I was so tired that I couldn't breathe, and I lay on the sofa and said, "I hope so, Mama Jiang, borrow your auspicious words!" ”

After only resting for a while, I hurriedly ran to the kitchen to clean up all the things, and Jiang's mother was guiding me on the side, and I did it myself. It turns out that there is so much attention to the meals that usually seem very simple, and you should use green onions, ginger and garlic to fry the pot before stir-frying, which tastes good. The seasoning of the stew was originally put in first, and the relationship between rice grains and water was so entangled...... I'm two big heads, and I just think these things are a thousand times more difficult than the experiments I usually do.

"Ouch! Be careful! Jiang's mother shouted, and before I could react, I only felt a heart-piercing pain in my arm.

"Ahh!!h I howled like a pig, "What's going on!" It hurts me! ”

Mother Jiang hurriedly put my hand into the pool and rinsed it with cold water: "It's all my fault, I patronized and talked to you, you want to fry bamboo shoots, there is water in the pot, you put oil in it, and it pops out." ”

"Ahh I was so tearful in pain that I said, "It's red, it's red, there are small blisters!" ”

"Yo, that's amazing! I'll go get you medicine. ”

It wasn't until I got the medicine that I felt better.

Jiang's mother pushed me out: "I'll do the rest of the dishes, don't make a mess." ”

"Ahhhhh I squeezed into the kitchen, "No, no. I made this table, and I can't afford to fall short. ”

She looked at me, very helpless, and said, "Look at your arms, they are all like that, are you still strong?" ”

"Okay!"

“…… All right. Jiang's mother told again uneasily, "You can watch it, be more careful." ”

I smiled and waved the bamboo shoot in my hand: "Don't worry, there's only this dish left!" ”

After the dish was ready, I happily called Shen Duo.

His voice was faint, as if he was still angry with me, and I thought to myself that I had decided to ask for peace anyway, so I didn't care about it.

"When are you coming back today?"

He was stunned and didn't speak for a long time, and I felt uneasy: "Shen Duo? ”

"I probably won't be going back today."

So what are you going to do?

This sentence is on his lips, and he wants to read it repeatedly, but he doesn't have the courage to ask it after all. In the end, he hung up the phone in silence.

I used to watch TV, and the lingering love story was boring, but I remembered the heroine's words: One wrong step, one wrong step.

I don't know if that's what I look like now.

Mother Jiang hung up the phone with me depressed, and hurriedly asked, "When will Childe come back?" ”

"I probably won't be back today."

"What about ......," she hesitated, but finally opened her mouth, "what about the food on this table?" ”

I lowered my head, not wanting her to see my lost expression: "I'll eat it later." ”

Jiang Ma wanted to say something, but when she saw me like this, she just sighed.

I was so tired from the day that I lay on the couch and fell asleep unconsciously. When I woke up, it was dark, the lights were not turned on in the living room, and the moonlight shone in, coinciding with a night in my memory, and my eyes were hot, and I finally cried.

There was still a meal I cooked on the table in the living room, and I wiped away my tears, walked over, and turned on the light. Soak the cold rice in hot water, and eat the cold food on the table with the soaked rice.

How does it feel in your heart?

It's not sadness, it's not anger, it's not even grief......

It's me who feels like I'm completely self-inflicted.