Self-confidence comes from strength

(TXT full text) two hundred and three difficult brothers

Two hundred and three difficult brothers

I wish my friends a happy Mid-Autumn Festival

The success and popularity of the European premiere of "Glass Air" has greatly increased our attention at the festival. This year's film industry was originally a bit deserted, lacking the world's first-line hot stars and brilliant blockbusters, and it is natural for the media of various countries to pay attention to us. And the overseas operators of "Glass Air" are all Han Lexiang or experienced people who have worked with Han Lexiang for many years.

Under the fame of Han Lexiang and Dang Hanye, I feel a little shabby. Yes, whose start is not chilling? One day, I will leave the umbrella of the party's cold night, and I will be a towering tree that can produce nutrients!

Our reception after the premiere attracted special attention, because of the cold night of the party and the face of our operators, we invited nearly 30 key figures of the film festival, including the chairman and judges.

I knew that I was the protagonist of this reception, and I was still wearing the same dress I wore on the red carpet, as if I was poor, and I was able to get my hands on this dress, a white pure dress, somewhat conservative, neither backless nor low-cut. He used a Su embroidered handkerchief to tie his long hair behind his head, and his face was slightly retouched. I am very simple about dressing up and spend most of my time applying makeup to other people.

My Cambridge classmate Robert came from Munich to help, and he often said, in the taste of a philosopher: "I have encountered many unexpected things in my life, but the most unexpected ones." I used to be a director from an inconspicuous Chinese schoolmate. ”

Lin Yushi, Hou Yujian and I stood at the door to greet the people who came to the drinking party. Until now, I have not adapted to the Western hug and kissing etiquette, whether male or female, I just shake hands and greet each other, I can't imagine myself being hugged and kissed by those German beards. Because of my reserved smile, everyone only shook hands and greeted me when they saw me, and no one asked for a hug with me.

But Hou Yujian is different, he already knows a lot of friends in the foreign entertainment industry, and this time he must be even more enthusiastic, especially those old foreign women, seeing such a handsome and lovely Chinese handsome guy, the red lips are unceremoniously glued. I remember that before I went to Han Lexiang's headquarters, he had offended the local underworld in Germany, and it took a lot of effort to rescue him on a cold night. So I have been praying in my heart for God's blessing, don't let us meet his enemies, I don't have the magic power of the party's cold night, if I do, maybe I will throw his life here.

Lin Yushi is more afraid of the opposite sex than me, and hides behind me most of the time. But when the Chinese actress Bai, who was hired as a judge of this film festival, arrived, Lin Yushi's misfortune began.

Dressed in sexy and revealing clothes, this old girl took the arm of a German bearded man and walked into the door of the reception in three steps. The word "exposed bones" immediately came to my mind.

I always thought that the Berlin Film Festival, as one of the three major film festivals in Europe, should have its inherent elegance, but when I saw this compatriot judge, the beautiful soap bubble in my heart immediately fell apart.

Every time this old girl appears, she will thunder the media of various countries. And then get up, her sexy belly pocket, big V-neck, and backless and navel clothes, which can be exposed, and what can't be exposed, really opened my eyes. If our film is judged by such people, then I would rather not have any awards and go home immediately.

I knew she was Chinese, who had grown up in China, and reached out her hand and said in Chinese, "Welcome." ”

But this woman opened her mouth and spoke to me in fluent American English, which, I admit, spoke very well, but I still got goosebumps.

Finally dealt with her, when my goosebumps fell, she found our Lin Yushi again, the last time we went to a party, she invited Lin Yushi to dance, but was blocked by Hou Yu's arrow and danced with her. It was a party for someone else's film, and we could be perfunctory, but today is our own film reception, how can we refuse the invitation of the judge--guest again? Poor little stone is in trouble.

The fragrance she took out when she held Lin Yushi's hand could kill Lin Yushi. I can see that. Lin Yushi gritted his teeth and pushed through.

I've always wondered that Lin Yushi and Lin Qifeng are two brothers, one is lustful and the other is frightened, which seems to be the two poles of the same thing. Except for me, I really haven't seen Lin Yushi let that woman approach him within one meter of space, and he talks to any other woman, at least keeping a distance of more than two meters.

After dealing with this Miss Bai, Lin Yushi dodged. I suddenly thought, does he have some kind of psychological barrier to women, so he refuses to make the kiss scene of the party cold night movie? Poor boy, I don't know where to hide and go to my stomach now.

At the reception, everyone congratulated the successful premiere of "Glass Air", and the chairman of the festival, Kuslik, praised the film, saying that it was a truly meaningful film of the festival. I smiled and thanked me, but at this time I no longer need the affirmation of these people in my heart, as a Chinese director, I no longer need the affirmation of foreign judges and film festivals, I now need the affirmation of the audience, the affirmation of the people of my motherland.

Everything was going well, only later I accidentally found out that at some point, that old girl was actually dancing with Lin Yushi in her arms! I saw that Lin Yushi was laughing, but he was laughing so reluctantly. I really wanted to walk over and separate them and tell Stone that I don't need him to work so hard for me, I don't care about this jury's award. But out of the most basic human courtesy, I held back. I endured it until the end of the dance, because Lao Nizi finished playing with Lin Yushi, and then a foreign woman invited Lin Yushi to dance, and I saw his hand trembling and painfully resting on the woman's waist.

At the end of the reception, I sent off all the guests with a reserved smile of an Oriental person, and found Lin Yushi who vomited in the bathroom.

"How's it going, Stone? Stone, are you alright? "I couldn't help anything but watch him anxiously.

His pale face and distorted expression let me know that his pain continued. I saw that he vomited a lot of gastric juice, and if this continued, I suspected that he would vomit his stomach out.

I pulled him to the roof of the hotel, where the cold wind swept through our thin clothes, the night was quiet, the city was still brightly lit, and in the distance there were dotted boats gliding by the dark Spree River, like shooting stars in the night sky.

Lin Yushi's spasmodic vomiting gradually decreased, and my fingers began to be numb from the cold.

"Xiaoxue, I'm sorry." He gasped.

"No, I'm sorry, maybe I shouldn't have dragged you into the entertainment industry, let alone brought you to Berlin." I looked at him worriedly.

He smiled and said, "I don't blame you, Xiaoxue. Before I met you, I thought I was finished, and I couldn't heal myself in this life, but since you appeared and gave me hope again, I think I'll be okay, and I'll love like a normal person. ”

"Mmmmmmmmmm No matter what happens. ”

"I know that you are my true friend, because you did not resent me and forgave me for all the mistakes I made. Xiaoxue, maybe at first, I really wanted to take advantage of you, but then, I took you as a friend, and I have been regretting my sinful thoughts. Xiaoxue, I'm sorry. There was a sincere glint in his eyes.

I smiled: "I said, we are friends, and we will see each other like this." ”

We looked at each other and smiled, and then he had another violent spasm. I held him up, his hand clasping mine, and gradually stopped shaking. The two of us, who were originally cold, shook each other, and slowly gained a trace of warmth. The coldness and loneliness of two people leaning together is lukewarm, which is a friend.

We sat down in the corner of the roof, I was next to him, and his temperature could be passed on to me.

"Xiaoxue, are you willing to listen to me talk some nonsense?"

It's not, I know what he's going to tell me.

"Hmm." I nodded.

His deep voice sounded in the darkness, and it came slowly: "My father and Lin Qifeng's father are both orphans who were adopted by a general, so they both took the general's surname Lin. My parents and his parents were both soldiers, and we both grew up in the barracks, and we were ironclad buddies from birth, and we grew up with the general, who was my grandfather's own granddaughter, and you have heard her name, because we grew up by the sea, and she liked to collect shells and wear them into all kinds of necklaces, and we all called her Little Shell. I am the oldest of the three, I am two months older than Lin Qifeng, one year older than Little Shell, and they all call me Brother Shi. Our childhood was a happy one. It is also pure.

My mother is a singer and actress in the army's art troupe, and I inherited my mother's musical talent and loved music since I was a child. With the joint efforts of my mother and me, I was finally admitted to the Central Conservatory of Music. When I went to school and left, three of our childhood friends had dinner together to see me off, and I didn't expect the little shell to cry. She said that I went to a conservatory, and if I became a musician, I didn't want a little shell. I just knew that the person that Little Shell loved was me.

I met a senior sister who was one year higher than me at the Conservatory, she was so talented, she was the darling of the entire Conservatory, and she was as clear and beautiful as you. Her dad was a professor at the Conservatory of Music and was my teacher. My sister and I met during a rehearsal show, and we were attracted to each other because we admired each other. Then, we became a couple in the eyes of our classmates.

She played the violin so well that I would often be fascinated by it.

At this time, Lin Qifeng and Xiao Beike were admitted to the military academy together and became a soldier. Sometimes the two of us came to visit me at our school together, and I would bring my sister to play with them.

We play the mountains and rivers together, and sing the wind and snow together. At that time, I felt that the world was really too beautiful, how could there be unhappiness?

Once when our school performed externally, a senior government official appreciated my sister's program very much and went backstage to shake hands with her and congratulate her. He said that his sister will definitely be able to make a difference in the future. I'm very happy for my sister.

Soon after, the senior sister was invited by the official to play the piano for one of his private banquets. Because this person's position is too high, we all trust him, so I accompanied my senior sister there.

When we got to the location he said, we found out that it was a private villa in the suburbs, but we were too young and innocent to happily jump into someone's trap. ”

Lin Yushi held my hand and began to tremble violently, I saw his lips fluttering, I knew that this was the first time he had told the secret of his psychology, and that experience must have been painful.

His face was distorted: "You must know what happened, but you must not know that they did it to her in front of me." Ahh

He clutched his head in pain, as if the scene had refreshed in his mind. I hugged him and told him that it was all over and that there was no fear, that all sins would be punished as they deserved. I helped him wipe away his tears, and he slowly cleared up from the blur of tears.

"Later, my sister couldn't stand the stimulation and committed suicide by jumping off the building, and the school thought that she committed suicide because of me, so they fired me. When I left school, her father wouldn't even look at me, so I bowed for him and told him in my heart that I would avenge my sister.

When I returned home, I locked myself up, studied hard, was admitted to the military academy, and when I graduated, I was selected into the special forces and became colleagues with Xiao Beike and Lin Qifeng.

Our work is secretive, and I can't tell you much more. Once abroad, we were on a special mission, Lin Qifeng and I were selected as undercover agents because of our appearance, yin a foreign female high-ranking official, and by the side of that woman, we both lost our innocence.

After the task was completed, Lin Qifeng and I had the same mental illness, but our symptoms were completely opposite, we went from the previous purity and innocence to become perverted, he was abusive, and I was afraid of sex.

We were given psychotherapy, but nothing improved, and we were afraid that if we couldn't be cured, our lives would be over.

But we are still the best special forces, the most successful spy, so even if our mental illness is not cured, we still have a lot of important tasks to perform, and we risk our lives again and again to complete the mission. This extraordinary work pressure, which was eventually suppressed to my tipping point, once in a foreign country when I was sent to approach a homosexual, I broke down, I did not complete the task, and my identity was leaked, and the little shell tried to save me...... sacrificed. ”

Lin Yushi wiped away his tears, "Xiao Feng hates me to death, he has always loved Xiao Beike." We had a fight, and both sides lost.

I was expelled from the military because I failed to complete the task and seriously violated discipline.

My mom got sick because I was fired twice, I took care of her at home for a few months, and she left me forever. My father was a very good soldier, and he couldn't accept me as a deserter son, and he wouldn't accept me as a son again. I began to live a wandering life, and my hope of avenging my sister by becoming a soldier was dashed.

Then, when the high-ranking official went there, I followed him with my guitar.

Xiaoxue, I'm really helpless, I don't know if the path I'm taking is right or wrong, I don't know if I'm still worth living, can you tell me, what should I do? ”

The night wind blew and coldly brushed my frightened eyes, I never knew that such a thing would happen in the world. What comfort can I give him, my own heart is trembling. But I couldn't show it, I held his hand tightly and gave him a firm hint that justice on earth would live forever.

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