I made another big decision in my life, at the age of 27, the year I graduated with my PhD.

As soon as my PHD studies were over, I accepted an invitation from a research institute in Hong Kong to give up my green card in the UK and get permanent residency in Hong Kong.

I promised Chen Yinjun that he would never come back.

But that doesn't mean I can't go back to Chinese soil.

After obtaining the right of permanent residence in the Special Administrative Region, Qiqi also officially became a resident of Hong Kong, China.

Zhai Yi knew that I was running away, but he didn't chase after me. He said he would give me time to figure it out. Apart for a while, maybe it's better for each other. But he said he would never let me out of his life again.

Wherever I went, he would come to me as soon as his PHD studies were over.

I really didn't think about whether to accept him or not.

With a month to go before graduation, Zhai Yi and I sat on a cruise on the Thames and decided to open up and talk.

"I'm divorced......" I opened my mouth as I pondered.

"I don't mind." "I know why. Moreover, you did it for Qiqi's sake. He paused, then continued: "Even if it weren't, divorce shouldn't be seen as a stain, it just means that you've had a while." This experience is no different from any other experience in life. ”

"Men just don't like women having too much experience." I say.

"Yes." Zhai Yi said, "But men don't mind that they have a time, but that they once loved others so deeply." Jealousy. ”

“…… I have loved others deeply. I said.

"I know."

"You don't mind?"

"I used to be very jealous."

"Then you ......"

"I said, it was 'once.'" Zhai Yi said, "Now I'm sitting across from you. What I care more about is your future. ”

He didn't pretend to be generous, but he made me feel at ease.

"Why me?" I asked him, "Is it because of Qiqi's relationship...... Something has to happen to us? ”

I always suspect that he is coming for Qiqi.

But Zhai Yi told me in a firm tone, "Qiqi is your son. Legitimate, and reasonable. He looked at me with a serious expression, "My biological father has never done anything for him. But if you have to do something about it, I'm going to make you my legal wife. ”

My face turned red. This is a Chinese love sentence that I have heard in the real sense since I arrived in London.

Euphemism, but clear meaning.

I shouted, "You don't have to make this sacrifice for Qiqi......

"No, not for Qiqi. It's for myself. Zhai Yi said, "And it's not a sacrifice. ”

As he spoke, he knelt down on one knee at me, took a delicate crimson velvet box from his trouser pocket, and opened it to me.

Inside is a gemstone ring of emerald.

"This is what my mother gave me before I left." Zhai Yi said.

My heart was surging, "Aunt Fang, she ......"

"She knew I had another purpose for my trip to the UK." He added with a smile, "So you gave me this ring." ”

I was silent—her sympathy for me and her acceptance of my love for her son were two different things.

"Zhai Yi, maybe you will be wrong, I don't know." I say.

"They all know that I'm here for you." Zhai Yi said, his tone revealed infinite emotion: "What a miraculous fate. It separates us without saying anything, and quietly brings us together, and we all experience other feelings, but at the moment of reunion, it appropriately leaves a blank. He took my hand, "Torrential rain, I don't want to miss you again." ”

As he spoke, he handed the ring to me along with the old velvet ring box, "This ring, it belongs to you." ”

"No......" I felt very uneasy and wanted to refuse, but Zhai Yi said, "If you don't want it, you can throw it away, but please don't give it back to me in front of me." His words were exactly the same as they had been years ago, as if expressing an unwavering determination, "Because I won't give it to anyone else." ”

Zhai Yi said he didn't care about my past. But my past is mixed with countless scars, and I am not happy to show those wounds to Zhai Yi. But if two people really want to be together, they shouldn't have anything to hide.

I can't have children again in this life.

In Chen Yinjun's words, it is equivalent to "a chicken that can't lay eggs". This sentence pierced me deeply.

My voice calmed down, "The past and the future are always connected. Without any of these parts, I wouldn't be where I am now. ”

Zhai Yi said, "I accept all your past. ”

I bit my lip and shoved the ring back into him, "This is too expensive for me to want." And, I'm going to feel sorry...... Sorry for the rosary. ”

Zhai Yi's eyes darkened a little, and his voice lowered: "If you want to say I'm sorry, it's me too—morally, I should be responsible to the end." Emotionally, I can't do that, it's unfair to each other. I have failed many people, but the only person I don't want to live up to is you, and the only person I want to love is you. He stared at me and said word by word, "Even if it...... You'll never love me. ”

I was moved. But he still said, "Why bother with people like me? ”

Thinking of a sentence that the rosary had said to me, she borrowed the words of the poet Mu Xin to evaluate the story between Zhai Yi and me - "It's your affection that makes him inexhaustible." ”

Is it really because he never got it, so he wants it more?

I think it was probably because of my repeated refusals that he became even more obsessed.

Then I'll let him get his wish. It can be regarded as the whole of his affection over the years. The big deal is that after he got it, he left in a huff. Then I can die.

I'm not afraid of this. It seems that I am more overwhelmed when I am faced with "gaining" than when I am facing loss.

That night, I slept with Zhai Yi.

My sense of morality has always been low, but this time, it made me feel quite guilty.

I've always convinced myself that my intentions are good.

Life always has to go through some twists and turns. An angel with a big and soft heart wants to save a Shura who has gone through the ugliness of the mortal world with his own strength, which is simply a fool's dream.

I want him to know that I have never been a good person.

However, I never expected that I would take him badly.

The angel is *addicted, and in turn seduces* Shura. The alienated angels made the Shura, who was both good and evil, panicked and had nothing to do.

He leaned down and confessed to me in native British English: "I'm hu."

g

y.” (I'm going to eat you)

I couldn't help but run away again.

As soon as my studies were over, I received the offe

After that, he took Qiqi with him and fled to the island.

Soon I was caught in a new predicament.

With my professional skills, I am invincible at work, but I am clumsy in my daily interactions with people.

I mostly use English at work, but I don't understand Cantonese very well and can't speak it. This has caused quite a hindrance to my normal life.

I had to sign up for a language course and take time to study.

I thought that Qiqi was young and had a better ability to adapt to the language than me, so he would definitely be better. However, Qiqi came back crying one day: "They called me 'ghost*guy'!" ”

I hurriedly comforted me, but I couldn't do it.

Qi Qi angrily hugged the turtle "round and round", returned to his small room, and gave it to his Zhai U

Cle called.

Soon, he left the room smiling.

I was curious about what Zhai Yi told him, but no matter how he asked, Qi Qi refused to explain. also said, "Mommy, if you want to know, go ask Zhai U."

Cle. ”

As a result, the next day, I was called to school by the teacher because Qiqi had a fight with a little boy named Madi in the class.

"He did it first." Qiqi said.

The other party's face was bitten by Qiqi, and the tooth marks were still there. Before Madi's parents arrived, his Filipino maid was there to comfort him, glaring at us with round eyes from time to time, and casting disgruntled glances at us.

"But you scolded me first in words I didn't understand." The little boy sobbed and choked.

I looked at Qiqi with a serious expression: "What did you say?" ”

Qiqi was silent, and the little boy replied for him: "He scolded me for being a 'little red * guy', Hong Kong * egg, and starting a * Western Expedition ......" He only remembered these three, so he continued to cry.

It's all H city dialect. It is similar to but different from the S-market dialect.

How can Zhai Yi teach children to swear?

My heart was on fire, but the teacher was watching, and it was obvious that I couldn't have a seizure in person.

When Madi's parents arrived, I hurriedly pulled Qiqi forward to apologize, and offered to take Madi to the hospital, and I said that I would compensate accordingly. My attitude was forgiven by Madi's parents, and finally Madi's father opened his mouth and said, "This age of a child is not a hundred hates." Say so

Y, hello everyone, good friends. (There is no such thing as a child of this age who is not naughty.) I apologize, everyone is reconciled, and they are still good friends. ）”

It can be heard that the Ma family's parents are still very reasonable.

I looked at Qi Qi, and even if he couldn't understand a large part of Cantonese, he could guess what it meant, not to mention the unambiguous "Say so."

y”。

Qi Qi pursed his lips, and because of the situation, he lowered his head and walked over: "Book that (fuck), so."

Y. ”

The veins on my forehead jumped.

Madi heard "so."

Y", seeing his sincerity again, he glanced back at his parents and immediately forgave him. "I've got a place to go, I'm sorry!" (I'm sorry that I'm wrong, too)

The two shook hands and made peace. The Ma family's parents smiled and nodded at me, and left with their son and the Filipino maid.

Qiqi turned her head, caught a glimpse of my face, and immediately pursed her mouth tightly.

After driving home, without waiting for me to say anything, Qiqi ran into the bathroom and locked the door to escape punishment.

I knocked on the door a few times to no avail, so I had to say, "Okay, then you can stay in there for the rest of your life." ”

Qiqi said: "Unless Mommy, you promise that I won't teach me a lesson when I go out, otherwise it will be a lifetime." ”

I got angry, turned around and sat down in front of the sofa in the living room, picked up my phone and settled the account with the instigator of the crime.

I truthfully reported Qiqi's "great achievements" without the slightest hint of adding oil and vinegar, just hoping that he could understand the severity of this matter.

After Zhai Yi listened, he actually laughed.

I was upset, "How can you teach him to swear?" ”

Where have those principles of yours gone?

"I can't see Qiqi being bullied, and I think the gentleman will do it or not." Zhai Yi said, "The child has been wronged, and I can't help from thousands of miles away......"

You've been a great help. Again, I sneered.

"The gentleman speaks, but doesn't do it?" I said, "Didn't you end up beating people?" ”

"That's better than him being ridiculed and beaten by others, right?" Zhai Yi's heart ached, "When I think of my child's young age, I have to endure school violence in an unfamiliar environment......"

School violence. These four words made my heart sting, but I couldn't say that Zhai Yi did the right thing. So I said a few words and hung up.

Qiqi began to shout in the bathroom, "I'm hu."

g

y......" The cry shook the sky, but people did not dare to come out.

I'm hu

g

y……

I immediately thought of a special occasion where I heard someone say this. I suddenly felt that the whole person was not good.

I don't know if it was instigated by Zhai Yi again, but I don't want to call to confirm it again.

I'm a little annoyed. Zhai Yi did this, obviously turning me into a mother who didn't like her children in disguise.

Of course I want to be a loving mother, too. But children are not always well-behaved and obedient. At this time, whether the child wants to or not, someone must come out and correct him.

He blindly follows Qi Qi like this, thousands of miles away, and gives him bad ideas from time to time, which is really not like the Zhai Yi I know.

But every sentence he said had a truth that I couldn't refute.

I never dreamed that one day, I would be pinched by him by seven inches.

Qiqi should be tired of crying, crying sometimes loud and sometimes small. I felt powerless in my heart, and cursed Zhai Yi fiercely in my heart.

As for whether he will sneeze in Edinburgh, I don't care.