"It's been so many years since I found out your real birthday." Zhai Yi looked at me intently.

"It's okay, I can't help it anyway." I say.

Since then, Zhai Yi has often visited on holidays, and even went to school to pick up Qiqi more often than me.

Time flies, and in the blink of an eye, it's another season.

I'm in my third year of Ph.D., and I'm even more busy. One weekend, I received a call from my PhD supervisor, Professor White, who needed to go to school immediately. So I temporarily asked Madeleine for help, but she was at a relative's house out of town.

Zhai Yi is in Edinburgh, and he can't dissolve the fire from far away. And Zuo Yi's phone didn't get through. Zheng Encheng didn't think about it, he and I were a doctoral supervisor, and they were also rushing to school.

Just when I was running out of options, Madeleine called back, and she said that she could let her husband's **Jenna come over for a while.

I am grateful and promise to get back as soon as possible. Madeleine sent Jenna's contact information, and when we got in touch, she said she would drive over immediately. Immediately afterward, Zheng Encheng's phone called again, urging me to hurry up.

Professor Wright hates being late.

So I hurriedly packed my things and prepared to go out, and before leaving, I repeatedly told Qiqi to stay at home until the nanny arrived.

However, when I finished dealing with the matter at hand, I found that Madeleine and Jenna had made a bunch of missed calls one after another.

An ominous premonition rose in my heart, and I quickly dialed Jenna back.

"No one opened the door for me." She said. "I suspect something is wrong."

"Maybe Qiqi fell asleep and didn't hear ......"

"Impossible." Jenna said, "Madeleine also called the landline at home, but no one answered. ”

My heart sank, and I commanded, "Please open the door of my house anyway and see what is going on." Whatever the consequences of loss, count it on me. ”

Jenna was stunned for a moment, then said, "OK." ”

While I was rushing home, I took out my phone from time to time to see if there was any latest news to be sent.

Less than five minutes from my apartment, I received a call from Jenna: "The house is empty. She paused, then added, "I've called the police." ”

"Jenna, thank you." I took a deep breath and tried to calm myself down, "I'm going home right away. ”

I raced to the door of my apartment, where a Chinese woman with chestnut hair held a phone and stood in the open doorway looking this way. When they saw me, they immediately beckoned tentatively.

"Jenna?" I asked.

"The door was kicked out." She said, "I'm sorry. I searched every corner of the house, but I couldn't find the child. ”

I forced myself to calm down, went into the house, opened the closet, and found nothing.

"Where is he likely to go, little one?" Jenna followed me and asked, "Did he usually talk about where he wanted to go?" ”

Yes! He always said that he was going to find Zhai U

cle。

As if grasping a life-saving straw, I called Zhai Yi.

It took a while for the phone to be picked up, and as soon as I opened my mouth, I asked anxiously, "Is Qiqi there with you?" ”

"I'm not there." Zhai Yi seemed to be sleepy-eyed at first, and then his voice immediately became nervous: "What's wrong with Qiqi?" ”

"Qiqi is gone." My voice was incoherent, "You, will he go looking for you?" ”

"How is that possible! London is not close to Edinburgh. "He was just a four-year-old child. ”

I heard him get up and get dressed as he got up, and he asked, "Did you call the police?"

I glanced at Jenna, who was still on the side, trying to hold back my tears, and choked up, "Report." ”

"Okay." Zhai Yi comforted, "Qiqi will definitely be fine." ”

I finally couldn't stop crying, and Jenna tried to come over to comfort me, but stopped half a step away because she didn't know me.

I sobbed: "I don't know if I should sit at home now and wait for him to come back, or sit in the police station......"

"I'll rush over now. Torrential rain, listen to me-" Zhai Yi's voice was calm, and it was reassuring to listen to in his ears: "First go to the police station to provide Qiqi's photo and where he may go, so that the police can strengthen the search." I rushed over and waited for Qiqi at the door of the apartment. ”

"Okay." Originally, I had no master, but after listening to Zhai Yi's words, I finally regained my composure.

Jenna, as the informant, also wants to go to the police station with me.

While I took out the identity information about Qiqi according to what Zhai Yi said, I kept praying in my heart.

As an atheist, I want God to really exist in this moment.

Minutes and seconds passed.

It is said that 48 hours after the disappearance is the golden time for search and rescue. And now, apparently, time has passed.

I was devastated, almost suspecting that the police were deliberately delaying when I was at the police station, and even suspected that Jenna had lied that she had abducted Qiqi with others, and that she didn't want Madeleine to be implicated, so she pretended to be there waiting for me to return.

Yes, I have lost faith, and with that I have lost trust in the world.

I walked awkwardly, pushed Jenna away, and stumbled home.

I was looking forward to the moment I got home, and the miracle would happen.

Of course, if Qi Qi had already returned home, there was no reason why Zhai Yi would not call.

I don't know how long it took me to get to the door of my apartment. Zhai Yi has been anxiously looking in the direction of the entrance of the building. When I saw me lost and depressed, I was stunned, and despair slowly emerged from my face.

I looked at him with remorse and sorrow.

Blame me, blame me. My son who usurped someone else's house has finally suffered retribution.

But if you want retribution, it will come to me, why......

I felt a fishy sweetness in my throat, and with a "wow" sound, I vomited a mouthful of blood.

Zhai Yi was shocked, and hurriedly supported me, "Torrential rain, you ......"

I knelt down in front of him and confessed in grief, "I'm sorry. I'm sorry for you......"

Zhai Yi was puzzled, helped me wipe the blood from the corner of my mouth, and gently hugged me into his arms: "Don't say anything I'm sorry, Qiqi will be fine, you didn't ...... sorry for anyone"

I shook my head, grabbed his arms, and bit my lip: "Qiqi, he's your son." ”

"I know."

"It's all my ...... to blame"

"Don't say that, no one wants that to happen......"

"If Qiqi can come back, I am willing to pay any price." I say. "Even if it's ...... Give him back to you. ”

Zhai Yi looked at me deeply, "I don't want him, I want you." I hope the three of us can become a family ......."

Before he could finish his words, his eyes suddenly turned to me.

"Mommy," I heard a soft call, it was Qiqi's voice, "You and Zhai U."

What's wrong with Cle? What's wrong with our door? ”

I was overjoyed.

Hurriedly turned his head and found that Qiqi had really returned, and behind him stood three or five white London police officers with high eyebrows and deep eyes.

"Qiqi!" I threw myself over and hugged him.

I saw that he tried his best to protect something, and leaned back. I felt something hard and uncomfortable. I let go of Qiqi, only to realize that he was holding a gray-brown object in his hand.

It's a turtle.

Zhai Yi was asking the police officer in English what was going on. I heard the police officer in the lead say that Qi Qi walked into the police station by himself and begged them to send him back with an anti-lost sign on his body.

"Where the hell have you been?" I asked Qiqi with a straight face, "Why don't you listen to me and wait until the nanny comes?" ”

"The babysitter is coming, and she will definitely watch me at home for a day to save trouble." "I want to go out." ”

"And where have you been?" I asked.

"I'm going to buy a baby turtle." Qi Qi said confidently, "You don't allow me to keep cats and dogs, you think they eat too much and smell bad." The turtle is always okay, right? ”

I endured it and didn't speak. It wasn't until Zhai Yi sent away the police officers that I, who had never been rough with the child, slapped Qiqi's buttocks.

Qiqi cried, "Mommy! You are so savage! I don't love you anymore! "I still have the turtle in my hand and I don't let go.

Zhai Yi hurriedly stopped, "Torrential rain, you can't treat the child like this......"

I looked at him, opened my mouth slightly, and finally said nothing, slowly lowered my arms, and walked towards the house.

I heard Zhai Yi bend down and say to Qiqi, "Do you know how worried Mommy is about you?" If you raise a baby turtle that suddenly runs away from home one day and never comes back, will you worry about being sad? ”

"Yes." Qi Qi burst into tears and pouted, "But." I'm not a turtle. ”

"yes, you're much more important and cute than a turtle." Zhai Yi said, "That's why Mommy is so angry." ”

"But the slap she gave me really hurts." Qiqi said.

"You're at fault first, go and apologize to Mommy first." Zhai Yi said, "Then Mommy will tell you sorry for beating you." ”

I walked inwards and listened to the conversation, one big and one small.

"Mommy, I'm so so

y。 Qiqi said loudly behind me.

I paused, walked on, and entered the room without looking back. I'm so angry that I need to calm down.

"Look at her!" Qi Qi was dissatisfied and complained to Zhai Yi, "Zhai U."

Cle, Mommy, what's this attitude? ”

Zhai Yi had an embarrassed look on his face, "Maybe...... There may be some people who ...... Uh, probably really because you're better than a turtle...... It's so much important. Mommy can't forgive you for sneaking away from home for a while. ”

“……”

I closed the door and shut out the sound outside.

Legally, Qi Qi is my son, but Zhai Yi and him have an inseparable blood relationship.

After this experience, the window paper was pierced, and it was impossible for Zhai Yi to fade out of my life with Qiqi.

I used to think I could give everything to my children.

But for Qiqi, just having maternal love is incomplete.

When I was growing up, the love of my parents was forever broken.

I know very well that the character flaws brought by the incompleteness should also make Qiqi have to carry the disability for the rest of his life?

I knew I needed to think about it.