【22.】

Back in the ward, Du Bin was still there, and he saw me coming in. He immediately got up and walked up to me, took my arm and asked, "Are you alright?" ”

I avoided his hand and said lightly, "Why are you still here?"

He didn't care about my attitude, he followed me, saw me lift the quilt and go to bed, and helped me set the pillow for me.

I lay on the bed and waved my hand tiredly: "You go, I can do it by myself." ”

"Liu Jia." He seemed to be trying to say something, but he didn't feel like it.

I really didn't have the heart to say anything to him, so I turned my back to him and let him do whatever he wanted. Now that I can't even control myself, how can I worry about others?

"Forget about him, let's go abroad."

I smiled, and finally looked back at him: "Du Bin, you calculated well." ”

He didn't seem to understand, and looked at me confused: "What? ”

I sat up and looked him in the eye: "So far, it has been as you wanted." What's not to be happy about? You have to sing with a white face, and you have to sing with a red face. What do you want? It's better for you to say it, if I can help, I will definitely help, and I don't need you to be here with me every day. ”

"What are you talking about?" He took a step forward slightly, as if he really didn't understand, "What's wrong with me?" Who do you say, with you? ”

"Hah!" It's a big joke" Don't tell me, until now, everything is a coincidence, Shen Duo's birthday is a coincidence, and Shen Duo's appearance in the hospital is also a coincidence. ”

"I really don't know what you're talking about. What the hell is going on? What do you want to know? He anxiously grabbed my arm, "Does it have anything to do with me?" ”

I quickly withdrew my arm, a sense of powerlessness rising within me. simply lay back and didn't look at him again: "It's okay...... It doesn't matter anymore. ”

"Come with me abroad......"

I didn't answer, and gradually fell asleep.

In my sleep, someone seemed to touch me, the familiar warm fingers, with an incredible tenderness. Is that him?

It won't be......

The hand ran from my cheek to my brow bone, from my brow to the tip of my nose. It seems to be imprinting something, and it seems to be extremely obsessed.

It must have been a dream...... But even if it's a dream...... It's a dream or not.

There was a sigh in my ears, it was so real that I wanted to open my eyes and see, but I didn't have the strength to do it.

His voice was so close and so clear: "Five years...... Five-year ...... I always felt so short. Without me...... You'll have to live well in the future. ”

When I woke up on the second day, Du Bin was lying next to me, without changing my clothes, I moved my arms, he got up, saw me wake up, and asked, "Do you want to have breakfast?" ”

I shook my head and thought for a long time before asking, "Did anyone come last night?" ”

"Nope." He was tidying things up and didn't look at me.

Seeing that I didn't speak, he turned to me and said, "I've been here all the time, and no one has come at all." It's you, who have been shouting Shen Duo in the middle of the night. Liu Jia, can't you forget him? If you can't forget, why did you come back alone after you saw him yesterday, and you would be so sad? That's a matter of the two of you, and I don't want to ask why, but I'm afraid you'll have another heartache when you talk about it. But if you look at your current appearance, it's clear that you're already a demonic barrier. Can't you be a little more sober? ”

My eyes were dry and uncomfortable, but I couldn't cry, so I could only look at Du Bin pleadingly, hoping that he would say the answer I hoped for.

"Come with me abroad." He couldn't bear to look at my eyes, don't look over, "I've arranged everything, the school abroad...... Or your major. ”

"I don't."

I'm going to stay here, even if I can't see him, I'm at least in the same city with him, and I have a thought.

It's not a luxury, isn't it?

"Liu Jia! You have to think about your child, no matter who the father of this child is, but the mother is you! In China, you are a female college student who is pregnant before marriage. What kind of criticism do you want your children to face in the future? In the end, foreign countries are more open, and there are few people who know you. You and the child ...... It's going to be better. ”

I'm not good at biology, and I'm weak in math, so I can't figure out what the odds are that this kid is Shen Duo. It doesn't matter if it's 99% or 1%. Du Bin is right.

My hand subconsciously stroked my lower abdomen.

But my mother is me.

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Everything was so logical, before leaving, I went back to Wuxi.

Mom and Dad obviously didn't expect me to come home, so they were pleasantly surprised. Made a lot of things I love to eat.

After eating, I talked about going abroad.

My mother was very surprised: "Why do you want to go abroad in a good way?" ”

"It's an exchange student." I explained it to my mother one by one, but it was like saying to myself, "I'll be back." ”

Compared with his mother, his father seemed very calm: "What country? ”

"Canada."

"It's okay...... Dad reached out and patted me on the shoulder, "My daughter is older...... Go wherever you want. ”

Mom's eyes are slightly red, don't look over.

Early one morning on the day I was leaving, my mother stuffed me with a jade pendant: "This is what I asked for in the temple, you should be more careful when you go out." ”

I hugged my mom and cried like a mess.

Mom pushed me with red eyes: "Hey...... What is this for? It's not that he won't come back. ”

The flight back to Beijing was 2 p.m., and I went out after breakfast.

The playground of the alma mater is a little different from a few years ago, and the students around me are wearing school uniforms and are unbridled and youthful, which is enviable.

The court where he once played has now changed its protagonist, and the boys' sweat is free under the sun. I still seem to be able to see the young man, with a handsome face and a tall figure.

I remember Gege telling me that if there was an afterlife, he wouldn't let her see him play.

Then if there is a next life, I must not meet him......

So you don't fall in love.

I went to Shen Duo's villa, which was uninhabited all year round and the gate was locked. Only the flowers and plants outside the door are still blooming. Presumably, someone should still take care of it.

I can't name the little lush trees, but I remember that occasionally Shen Duo would play with their leaves, as if he loved them infinitely.

I carved my name under a tree.

Even though I knew I was leaving...... Also want to be here, leave something behind.

It seems that as long as I carve it like this, I will really be like this tree and never leave. Garrisoned here, waiting for him to return.

Youth is a river that cannot be returned, and on this river, it flows and travels in a tight way; If we look back, at the moment of the occurrence, we have done a lot of things that we think are right, and we have also suffered a lot of injuries that we think we can't let go, and time has taught us the truth and taught us to grow.

However, before the truth is known, the period of confusion and helplessness ...... Also known as time.

The moment the plane hit the sky, I said to myself in my heart.

Good bye.