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As my consciousness returned, I finally understood what was happening. I didn't care that I was sitting on the ground at this moment, and I didn't even have time to stand up, so I had to crawl to him with my hands and feet.

The blood surging from under Shen Duo's body stung my eyes, but even if I tried to keep my eyes open wide, I couldn't see him clearly, and the tears that had accumulated under my eyes had blurred my vision.

I hurriedly reached out to wipe it, but I didn't want to wipe it more and more. I simply ignored it and held Shen Duo's hands tightly. I was afraid that if I cried too loudly, he would be upset in pain.

Shen Duo ...... "I didn't dare to push him, and I didn't even know what to do."

The sound of an ambulance was heard in my ears, and several people came over carrying stretchers. I knelt beside him, motionless. Until someone came and grabbed me: "Miss, please let go, we are going to carry this gentleman on a stretcher." ”

I was able to stand up, but I felt that my eyes were dark, and I finally fell unconscious.

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The pungent smell of disinfectant water, and when I opened my eyes again, I was lying in the hospital.

"Are you awake?"

I turned my head and saw Du Bin's face relieved.

"Du Bin!" I grabbed his hand, and the tears were uncontrollable," he ...... Is he okay? ”

His face froze, and my heart sank to the bottom with his expression, and I was still in pain, and my knees and calves seemed to be injured during the pull.

Seeing that he didn't speak, I lifted the quilt and was about to get out of bed, Du Bin seemed to react, stood up and pressed my shoulder fiercely: "Don't move." ”

I struggled desperately, and the needles in my hands were thrown out by my vigorous movements: "What the hell is going on with him!" ”

"He's fine!" Du Bin roared, "Do you know what your current body is like?" You're almost going to have a miscarriage! Do you know what's going on with him? Your sister, Gege, Hu Wei...... They're all there! ”

I grabbed his arm with my backhand: "How do you know Gege?" How do you know Hu Wei? ”

Du Bin's expression flashed with a hint of remorse.

But I couldn't help but laugh.

"Liu Jia......" He messed up and said incoherently, "You ......"

I pushed him away: "Which ward?" ”

But he didn't stop me again: "Thirteenth floor...... There was only one patient on that floor, and you would see it when you went. ”

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I haven't walked such a difficult road, every step is like walking on the tip of a knife. I have thought about a lot of things, starting from the night of Shen Duo's birthday banquet until today. I felt like a farce, and I couldn't figure out why. Who's at fault?

In fact, the fault is not Jin Tongtong, not my sister.

It's my fault.

Because I'm cowardly, because I'm selfish...... Because I'm always self-righteous and feel like I've given a lot.

Du Bin is right, when you get to the thirteenth floor, you can know Shen Duo's ward, although it is only one afternoon, there are already a lot of fruit baskets and flower baskets here, I still remember the last time in Wuxi, he was like this, I went to his ward to find him, and washed a lot of strawberries.

At that time, although he was still sick and pale, when he looked at me, his eyes were so gentle.

He said, "You see your eyes are about to fall on the plate, do I dare to eat it?" ”

Changed...... It turned out to be such a painful thing.

I clamored to see him, even if it was just a look, and he was fine...... It's okay......

Pushing open the door, I was greeted by him lying on the bed.

Just seeing him lying there quietly made me cry.

I walked over and took his hand and put it on my face, Shen Duo seemed to feel it, and gradually opened his eyes.

"Awake?"

He smiled and ran his finger over my face, "Are you alright?" ”

"It's fine."

"What are you crying about...... he seemed to be very weak, and he gasped a little after saying a few words, "I'm fine." ”

I didn't speak, just looked at him quietly.

"I'm in pain." He kissed my finger and looked at me like a child, "Can you snort?" ”

I nodded, overflowing with sadness and distress, and I couldn't tell which one made me hurt more.

Just about to say something, Shen Duo closed his eyes: "I've thought about it...... As long as you are happy, I will not force the rest. "Even if it's true as you say, that's all we can do. I don't have anything to regret...... Liu Jia, I loved you. When I loved you, I tried everything I could to spoil you, as far as I was concerned...... I didn't let you down. ”

I stupidly listened to what he said, but it seemed like I didn't understand: "What did you say? ”

"Let's break up." He opened his eyes and looked at me, his eyes so complicated that I couldn't confirm that "I'm tired." ”

I looked at Shen Duo: "But I don't want to." ”

"Stop making a fuss." He waved his hand tiredly, "So many years...... I'm really tired. ”

In fact, at that moment, I was not unresponsive, nor was I calm and rational, and I also thought of many ways, such as begging, such as redemption.

Later, many nights, when I couldn't sleep alone, I would also sigh if I hadn't been silent that day, if I hadn't chosen to accept it that day...... Maybe I don't have to have to endure such hardship.

But I didn't.

Liu Xin walked over and forcibly pulled me away: "Sister, let him rest for a while." ”

"Don't!"

"And what are you going to do?" Liu Xin's eyes were slightly red, and he seemed to be even more excited than me, "He is like this now, he said let go, can't you give him a good life?" ”

My hands gripped the sheets on the hospital bed and refused to let go.

"Shen Duo ......"

He didn't look away from me again.

The last bit of hope was finally disillusioned, I just felt like the whole world had collapsed, and I never thought that one day, he wouldn't want me. What am I going to do.

Oh, yes...... I've always been the one who is messing around. His feelings were never taken into account.

I let Liu Xin push me out of the ward, she lowered her head and didn't look at me, and said, "Don't come back after you have it, since he has given up on you, please give each other a way out." ”

Everyone has a way to live...... I was the only one who drove myself to a dead end that could not be reversed. Eternal life shall not be exceeded.