Regarding the question I asked, Xu Zhizhou still didn't answer me.

Maybe my question was too explicit, maybe he had already equated me with those casual women in his mind. In short, on the way back, he looked embarrassed, but drove quietly the whole time.

When I got back, I went straight back to my room and didn't do anything but go to the bathroom and take a shower.

When the cool water crossed my skin, my mind slowly cleared up, and I thought that it must be because of Ye Shan's words that I was stimulated for a while, so I blurted out such a question so openly.

Now that I think about it, I don't even know how to get along with Xu Zhizhou.

Just as I was about to go to bed after taking a shower, there was a soft knock at the door.

"Xiao En, have you slept?" Xu Zhizhou asked softly.

At this time, I was leaning on the head of the bed, and said sullenly with the embarrassment of Fang Cai, "I'm about to sleep." ”

"I can answer the question you asked me tonight, it's not that I didn't want to answer it before, but you suddenly asked me this question and didn't know how to answer it for a while." His words made my heart tremble.

After that, he continued: "Men have a strong desire to possess the woman they like, in fact, many times I want to be very domineering to possess you, but I always want to wait for you to be willing, if it is a happy relationship, I must be gentle, then we will also be very happy." ”

This time, Xu Zhizhou really answered my question directly, but I don't know why, I have an indescribable feeling in my heart.

I walked to the door and said calmly through the door, "Oh, I... It's just asking, in fact, it's nothing, maybe I suddenly asked this question when my brain was in water, you think I didn't ask. ”

After a long while, Xu Zhizhou paused: "Then can you open the door, let's talk for a while." ”

When I opened the door, he was leaning against the frame of the door, still wearing the same clothes he had just come back from, while I was wearing a dressing gown and my hair was wet.

After opening the door, I suddenly realized that I didn't look good dressed like this, and even inside was still vacuum, but it seemed a little late, because Xu Zhizhou had already walked in, and I didn't even have a chance to change clothes.

Xu Zhizhou stared at me, and this look suddenly made me inexplicably a little disturbed.

Seeing that I didn't speak much, he reached out and touched my head, and then asked me in a low voice, "Are you unhappy that you didn't answer you at the first time?" ”

I bit my lip and shook my head, I was upset, I just felt that I was too reckless.

Obviously, I listened to Ye Shan's words and made me suddenly become hypocritical, regardless of the resentment, I just wanted to know if all men only became gentle when facing the woman they liked.

If it weren't for this obsession, I wouldn't have asked such an embarrassing question.

Speaking of which, I am a little ashamed of Xu Zhizhou, in my relationship with him, I owe him too much from beginning to end, and I always think about how to make up for him.

Before I could figure out how to make up for it, Xu Zhizhou suddenly took a step forward and directly held up my face, and his lips were already tightly covered by him.

I froze a little, with indescribable nervousness, and I didn't move to let him kiss me.

Maybe I didn't refuse, he grabbed my waist, gradually deepened the kiss, and forced me back to the edge of the bed step by step.

During the kiss, he suddenly pressed me to the bed, and even his hand went directly into the pajamas, perhaps he found my vacuum state, his eyes suddenly brightened, like a hungry wolf that has been fasted for a long time can be regarded as excited as he can get his wish.

But when he was ready to hit me, I suddenly pushed him away as if I was awake, and even shouted out of breath: "Don't, Xu Zhizhou don't." ”

Xu Zhizhou didn't seem to hear it, no matter how I struggled, his heavy body made it impossible for me to push it away.

He's a man, I know how strong he is, and if he pretends not to hear, as long as he doesn't let go, I won't be able to push him away.

Xu Zhizhou seemed to be determined to continue, and he had already ripped off my belt without any scruples.

So when his kiss fell again, I was really ruthless, and the moment his soft lips and tongue came in, I bit down hard.

I saw Xu Zhizhou stop with a hideous face, and even the hand that was messing with me just now.

There was a trace of blood oozing from his mouth, and the smell of blood in my mouth was also dissipating.

After calming down the heat just now, I said a little embarrassed: "I didn't want to bite you, but I can't think of a way to make you stop." ”

Xu Zhizhou just wiped the corners of his mouth and looked straight at me with rapid breathing.

He didn't say anything, nor did he ask me why I couldn't, but said a little vaguely: "I don't blame you, it's me who is too anxious, obviously you said that you will wait for me to convince my mother, it's not too early, you can rest well, let's talk about it tomorrow." ”

With that, he fled my room.

I was left looking at the messy bed in an inexplicable daze.

Is it too cruel for Xu Zhizhou?

But what can I do?

Although I know that in today's society, it is normal for boyfriends and girlfriends to be together physically and mentally, but I can't completely hand over the whole person to him after all.

After all, only I know that most of the time I am with him is that I feel guilty about him, and I can't say that I have no feelings, but I haven't reached the step of love, so when I really fall in love with him, I will give myself to him, which is responsible for the future of the two people.

After being rejected by me, Xu Zhizhou left the villa in a hurry, I don't know where he went, but he didn't return overnight, and when he came back, it was already the next morning.

I was making noodles and made spaghetti bolognese that he liked.

When I saw him come back, I looked at my tiptoes and lowered my head and asked him, "Are you back?" ”

When I looked up slightly, I saw him carrying two breakfasts, and I felt even more guilty and sad in my heart.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have done that to you last night, and in the future... I will never be like this in the future, I will put all my heart on you, in fact, I don't want to see you unhappy, is it that if I give myself to you, your heart will be better? ”

Probably he didn't expect me to say this, he finally showed a little smile, took my hand, and didn't forget to touch his stomach and said aggrievedly: "Yes, I'm so sad now, but seeing you like this, all the sadness has disappeared." ”

After speaking, he didn't forget to sniff it vigorously with his nose: "The meat sauce noodles made by my girlfriend are really fragrant, Li En, you wait for me to come back from the Netherlands, when you want to run, it will be useless for you to run, and you have to be my Xu Zhizhou woman to say anything." ”

As he spoke, he had already put out the pasta, sprinkled the meat sauce on top, and put two bowls of fragrant noodles on the table.

I was about to eat when I happened to receive a phone call.

It was Xu Cheng who called.

I was still a little puzzled when he called, but his voice was a little dull and even a little choked, and I guessed something was wrong.

"Lai... Miss Li, Luoxi she..."The sentence was said intermittently, and when I heard Tan Luoxi's name, my heart began to go up and down.

I shouted anxiously, "What's wrong with her, tell me quickly." ”

"She died, Mr. Tan had already flown to Nepal yesterday to identify the body, although Mr. Tan mentioned that he would not tell you, but after thinking about it, I think that Luoxi's relationship with you was still very good, and I should let you know about it."

When I heard this, my whole mind suddenly went blank, my brain was buzzing, and I couldn't accept the news at all.

Obviously, we talked on the phone before, and she swore that her soul had been cleansed in Nepal, but only a few days later, she got the news.

With trembling hands, I couldn't help but take out my mobile phone and planned to dial it to Tan Luoxi, but unfortunately all I heard was a voice, "I'm sorry, the user you are calling has been turned off." ”

I still don't want to believe it, as if I was enchanted, I called Tan Yiyang, and this time the call was connected.

It's just that before he could ask anything, I preemptively asked: "Luoxi she... She's really already..."

Before he finished speaking, Tan Yiyang said to me with a heavy tone and a hoarse voice: "You know everything? Wait for me to go back and say, she is indeed dead, she is right in front of me, and she has been gone for three days when I arrive. ”

After hanging up the phone, I sat on the sofa and looked at Xu Zhizhou in a daze.

He seemed to have noticed the blue and gray under my eyes, and walked over in a little panic: "What's wrong?" How did you make a phone call? ”

I just shook my head, "I didn't do much, it's just that Tan Luoxi is dead, and I'm a little hard to accept." ”

I clutched Xu Zhizhou's shirt tightly, my body even trembled slightly, and I continued with a choked voice: "In a short period of time, first my parents left, and then I separated from the man I had loved for many years, and finally I had a friend to talk to, and now she is dead again, and they all leave me one by one, Xu Zhizhou, can you not leave me, if you leave me in the future, my world will really collapse." ”

Xu Zhizhou hugged me tightly, his chin rubbed against my head, and through his thick nasal voice, I heard his words.

"Won't leave, won't, I won't leave you."

"Xu Zhizhou"

"Huh?"

"No matter what happens, we're not going to be apart, really?"

"Really, I promise, I Xu Zhizhou is the only one I love in my life, and I will not be separated when I die."