I didn't feel inferior and ashamed anymore, only a faint sense of guilt and self-blame, so for the first time in the past few days, I showed a real heartfelt smile, squatted on the cement ridge, ate all the food, and there was nothing left, after wiping my mouth, I smiled and said to my mother: "Mom, I'm sorry." ”

The apology that came out coldly made the old mother slightly stunned, and then reacted, and smiled a little crampedly: "Han Bao cub, what are you talking about, what is there to be sorry for Mom." ”

"I know, Mom, you've been worried about me these days, and of course Xiaowei. Anyway, thank you, thank you, didn't let my dad see me before, but it's all in the past, I'm getting better, so Mom, you don't have to worry about me anymore. Scratching the hair like a chicken nest, I laughed.

As soon as I heard this, my mother suddenly became a little more cramped, and I don't know if it was all of a sudden, not very suitable for the way I spoke, or seeing that my son finally woke up and was no longer as decadent and depressed as before, and was happy and excited, and laughed a little speechless for a while before she really reacted, nodded and said, "It's okay, it's okay, it's okay, it's okay." As he spoke, he reached out and smoothed my hair, which was as messy as dry grass.

From the first time she saw me, this woman had already noticed that her son was not the same as usual, not only after going up the mountain, but also starting to be a little different from before, so she felt happy, and her hard work these days had not been in vain.

There are not many words, because there is no need for these emotional words to show that after the mother and son laughed for a while, there was inevitably some estrangement in the past few days because of my depression, and the mustard disappeared in the simple and plain words.

Then I asked my mother, do you have a mobile phone, can I contact Zhang Xiaowei?

My mother was naturally happy to see that I took the initiative to contact Zhang Xiaowei, so before I could speak, she had already taken out her mobile phone, it was still my mobile phone, not hers.

Although I didn't say it, I also expected that the only people who knew what state I was in recently were my mother and Zhang Xiaowei, that is to say, for my depression, my mother chose to hide it from her family, and only told Zhang Xiaowei when she couldn't hold it back in her heart. So now that I've figured it out, I can't let the little woman stay far away in the provincial capital, and I have to worry about it all the time.

As for the current image, no matter how sloppy I am, it represents my journey these days, so there is nothing to be embarrassed about.

After taking the fully charged mobile phone from my mother's hand, I had an exact understanding of the time when I came over in a daze.

It turns out that twenty days have passed since I returned to the mountain.

For most of the twenty days, I spent most of my time lying in bed and pretending to be dead, because I did not understand some of the old man's behavior.

Thinking that because of such a small sesame thing, I got myself into the tip of the horns, like a walking corpse, and it took me so long to figure it out, and I couldn't help but feel an indescribable bitterness in my heart. So he took a deep breath, turned on his prestige, and sent a message to Zhang Xiaowei first, and after she almost replied to the message in seconds, she directly sent a video call.

The more embarrassed I am to mention it, the more I have to face such a self at this time and remember such a self, otherwise I will not be able to learn a deep enough lesson, and I will be ashamed to mention this paragraph in the future.

If it weren't for that glance in the water yesterday and being scared by myself on the water, I don't know how long it would take to come to my senses, so to a certain extent, I have to thank myself for being such a ghost.

Although I myself was frightened by my appearance, Zhang Xiaowei, who had not seen me for more than a month, was not surprised by my appearance, there was no surprised expression at all, and I couldn't see that there was any hidden element at all, as if I knew everything, and had seen what I looked like at this time, or I had always been like this, or that smile full of tenderness, after saying hello, he said the words he often said as always, as if nothing had happened.

It wasn't until I couldn't help myself, and asked her with a smile if she had been disappointed in me these days, why she wasn't surprised that I was now a beggar, and the doubts in my heart were answered.

"Because it's already in the past, I know you're back, so there's nothing surprising, no matter what it looks like, you're still you, and after this time, you'll become a better you, so why be disappointed."

That was the little woman's answer.

Seeing her smile and say this, I couldn't help but feel a wave of emotion in my heart, and then my whole body was surrounded by a burst of warmth from the inside out.

Since the two most important women in my life are accompanying and caring for me in their own way, then what reason does I have for being a big man, and why does I have a hypocritical and depressed face?

Look at what you've done for the past 20 days.

After making an appointment with my little daughter-in-law for the next meeting, hanging up the video, handing back the phone to my mother, and letting her go back with confidence, I will send the food to the mountain intersection in the future, and don't get too close to here, I started to face this place for the first time in the past 20 days.

After so many days of unscrupulous gathering, the yin qi in the mountain bay has already been thick to the point of being quite serious, but I was disheartened and confused before, and I didn't bother to pay attention to it. And the location where my mother delivers food every day, although it is not directly affected, but compared to other places, the temperature is still relatively low, and if the situation continues to deteriorate, it will not be long before it will become cloudy.

As for the grass hut in the middle, especially in the thatched hut, it is even more needless to say. Even these days, like the walking dead, I don't care much about anything, and I have discovered a few days ago that even in the middle of the day, looking up at the sky from the outside of the grass hut, there is a foggy feeling, the sun shines in and there is no temperature at all, and I will be frozen and awakened several times every night.

Fortunately, there are twelve yuanchen on top, and it will only wake up cold, and there is no problem with the body.

But even this alone is uncomfortable enough, not to mention the fact that it is already clear that the situation will continue to worsen without any relief. Because the old man will not come to the mountain again, my pen, ink, paper, and inkstone have all been taken home, and I can no longer draw pictures to dispel the yin qi.

I'll need to stay in this increasingly gloomy place until I have the ability to solve the problems here.

It's still the same, it hasn't changed, but the mentality has completely changed, it's no longer the old man asking me to do it, but I'm going to do it myself.

So from this day on, I went back to the straw mat in front of the bronze statue of my grandfather, and spent most of my day here, and I had less and less time to go to bed. Although I still don't know how to find the indispensable "qi" of the painter, my heart has also begun to settle down, and I no longer feel lost.

As the saying goes, there must be a road before the car reaches the mountain, and I believe that the reason why I can't see the road ahead now is not that my talent is too dull, nor that the old man is unwilling to tell me, but that I have not yet gone to the front of the mountain.

As my heart began to settle down, the increasingly cold air in the grass hut would naturally no longer be an obstacle for me. Although every minute and second of each day is increasing, under the premise that the twelve yuan chen blocks out most of the yin qi, my adaptability has also been increasing, and my senses are really uncomfortable, and every time the yin qi is the heaviest, it is like being wrapped in ice, but there is no real problem.

As for the various bizarre scenes that I occasionally experienced when meditating in front of the bronze statue of my grandfather, I have gradually become accustomed to it.

Until one morning, when I woke up from a state of complete forgetfulness, I found that there seemed to be something behind me.

Turning his head to look out, he saw that at the entrance of the grass house, a middle-aged man in rags and a gloomy face broke in.

The moment I turned my head to look, the middle-aged man's dark but pale face changed slightly, and then he withdrew from the grass hut.

And I didn't get up and chase after it, because I knew exactly what I was seeing.

As early as when I first discovered this place, it had become a gathering yin land, and I already knew that if I didn't find a way to solve it, it would take a few months at most, and this place would become a "forbidden area of life", and any living creature would be difficult to resist the gloom here, and at the same time, the increasingly rich yin qi in this place would also attract wandering spirits and wild ghosts that haunted within a certain range. Although it can be relieved to a certain extent after the body of Liao Yuting, who is in the center and is like an eye of the array, is removed, the effect is also extremely limited.

Now, twenty-three days have passed since I regained my strength after introspection, and in addition to those twenty days of confusion and the days spent alone in the mountains, this place has not dispelled the yin qi for nearly fifty days, so those things should also be attracted to them.

If it weren't for me, a big living person with twelve yuanchen, who had stayed here with the bronze statue of my ancestor and never left, this day would have come a long time ago.

I didn't think about how to deal with this "uninvited guest", because I knew that this was a wandering ghost who stayed in the yang world and couldn't enter reincarnation again, and was just attracted by the yin energy here, and there was no need to kill them all. Besides, this is only the first, not the last, and I don't want to put too much thought into these things, so under the premise of "people don't offend me, I won't offend others", it has become necessary to "coexist peacefully" with these attracted ghosts.

Of course, I can't really take it completely lightly, so when I went out to eat at noon that day, I deliberately told my mother about the situation, and told her or my dad that when I delivered the meal in the future, don't get too close to the mountain bay range, if it's windy and rainy and the weather is not good, don't send it at all, anyway, I'm now used to this mode of life, and I don't have to do any manual labor, even if I don't eat for a day, it's not a big problem, and I also go back to tell the people in the village, If it's okay, it's best not to go near this area.

Since the first Yin Soul has been attracted to it, there will only be more and more wandering ghosts in this place in the future, and it is inevitable that there will be a vicious heart among them, so it is natural to be cautious. Although my mother is protected by Bixia Yuanjun Yuanling, she is not necessarily 100% safe.

I watched my mother go away, until I had completely descended the mountain and reappeared in the dam, and after reaching the dam a little bit, I turned around and walked along the canal to the bay.

When I came to the bottom of the grass hut, I saw the middle-aged male ghost who broke in in the early hours of the morning, and came out of nowhere, standing on the grassy slope on the right hand side and looking at me.

Ignoring the first guy to arrive, he looked up at the sky, and found that from the mountain bay, the sky that was originally just covered with a layer of white clouds actually looked gloomy, as if it was going to rain heavily, and then he lowered his head and climbed up the canal, came to the outside of the grass hut, and just walked under the feet of the middle-aged male ghost.

In the past fifty days, this place has become an out-and-out place of extreme yin, even in broad daylight, it is difficult for yang energy to penetrate again, let alone suppress yin energy, so the yin things are here, and there is no longer any need to be afraid of the blue sky and white sun overhead.

"You want to use this place as a place to stay, I have no objection to staying here for a long time, and I will not deal with you, but there are two things I want you to remember: First, don't go out and harm people nearby. Second, don't break into my house without permission, and don't take advantage of the fact that I don't pay attention, think about something that shouldn't be started, otherwise there will never be any good end, I hope you will do it yourself. When I entered the door, I didn't look back and said lightly, and then went directly into the grass house, regardless of whether the middle-aged male ghost listened or not.

Anyway, I have already stated the conditions for staying here, and whether he wants to abide by it or not is his own business.

The subsequent facts also proved that I still had a bit of a deterrent effect when I spoke, and I said the bottom line until the place returned to normal and had to leave, the first "guest" to come here never approached the grass hut without permission, let alone go out to harm people, and also helped me more or less.

During this period, more and more ghosts were attracted from various places, and the number increased almost every day. At first, I didn't pay much attention to it, and I still focused on my own business every day, maintaining a delicate balance with the well water of these "guests" with different appearances and shapes.

It wasn't until one day, because of an incident that happened, that I suddenly realized that there were so many wandering ghosts and wild ghosts in this small place that I had to face it squarely, and the grass house had been completely surrounded by ghosts.

At this time, except for the mountain bay, there is still little change, and the grass and flowers are already blooming everywhere, and the rice planted in the mountains and fields has also begun to grow.