13. Eight years ago

Eight years ago, a girl named Guo Jingwen was studying at a university of technology in southern China. At the age of 21, she is beautiful and generous, like a flower that has just bloomed and has crystal dewdrops. It stands to reason that a beautiful girl like her has no reason not to leave a few romantic memories in a love mecca like college. But for some reason, she closed her heart and ignored the many admirers around her. She left those touching love words behind her and burned the fleshy love letters. Like a proud saint, she doesn't accept any boys' pursuits. Over time, she got the nickname "Ice Rose".

When her girlfriends and boyfriends in the same dormitory go in and out of dance floors, parks, cinemas and other places in pairs, Alyssa Kwok always comes to the library alone, and only in the company of books does she not feel lonely.

It was a weekend night, and the dormitory was naturally empty. Alyssa Guo once again came to the empty library alone. There are very few people here. According to my roommates, the only people who go to the library on weekend nights are the dinosaurs and frogs that no one wants. Of course, Alyssa Guo is an exception.

She sat down at a large, empty table and flipped through a copy of the latest car magazine. Unlike ordinary girls, she doesn't just like clothes, jewelry, and makeup. She also likes masculine things like cars, construction, etc. She flipped through the beautiful picture album and admired the beautiful new cars, and did not notice that there was a person behind her who stood silently for a long time.

The man seemed to finally couldn't help it, he sat next to Guo Jingwen, and asked in surprise: "Girls also like to read this kind of book?" ”

Guo Jingwen looked at him sideways. A handsome, handsome big boy, with a nice voice and a somewhat cute childish face, she couldn't help but be a little surprised in her heart - it stands to reason that this type of boy should be holding a girl's waist instead of holding a few books. Her gaze lingered on the boy's face for a moment, then she smiled faintly, her eyes returning to the book.

"You know, I'm a big car fan, too." The handsome boy said, "We both have common hobbies, maybe we can talk." ”

For Alyssa Guo, this kind of accosting is very common, and she is also used to how to get rid of it. "I'm sorry, this is the library, I don't think it's suitable for chatting." She coldly refused.

"Well, that's right...... Still, maybe we can go out and talk? ”

"I'm sorry, but I still have to read." She didn't even lift her head, and her tone became more indifferent.

"Okay then." The handsome boy shrugged his shoulders dryly and got up from his chair. Before leaving, he generously said, "I guess it's not a bad thing for us to get to know each other." My name is Wang Yang. ”

After saying that, he looked politely at the girl in front of him. Guo Jingwen couldn't be too rude, so she could only say: "My name is Guo Jingwen." ”

Wang Yang nodded. "I remember." Then he left the library with a few books in his hand.

After Wang Yang left, Guo Jingwen actually felt a little lost. She has a good impression of this boy who is both handsome and polite, and who acts simply without dragging his feet. However, she told herself in her heart that she must let this feeling disappear quickly.

Originally, Guo Jingwen thought it was a chance encounter. But she didn't expect that since this time, she would often be able to meet Wang Yang on the huge campus. Every time the two met, Wang Yang would greet her generously and say hello. As the number increases, they sometimes talk about cars or something else. Wang Yang is cheerful, lively, and humorous, Guo Jingwen is very happy every time she meets him. Gradually, Wang Yang's smiling face full of sunshine seemed to slowly melt the snow in the depths of the "Ice and Snow Rose" heart.

Guo Jingwen always sighs at the wonder of fate every time she "happens" to meet Wang Yang. She didn't know that from the first time to the present, every "chance encounter" between them was carefully arranged and planned by Wang Yang. Although Wang Yang and her are not in the same department, they have long been fond of her, and they have also learned from others how difficult it is to pursue "Ice and Snow Rose". Therefore, he carefully designed a long and arduous pursuit plan - first pretending to meet her again and again and get acquainted with the relationship; Then become a good friend with her, and then seek further development. The results proved that Wang Yang's tactics were very effective. After they knew each other for more than three months, Wang Yang finally proposed to date Alyssa Guo alone. Guo Jingwen naturally understood what this meant, but this time, she did not refuse.

On the first date, Wang Yang of course arranged it in a colorful and meticulous manner. Surrounded by a large bouquet of roses, the two enjoyed a romantic candlelit dinner in a high-end Western restaurant. Alyssa Guo's lovely lips have been changing in a variety of colors in the anecdotes and laughter carefully prepared by Wang Yang. Next, in the shopping mall, Wang Yang ignored Guo Jingwen's refusal and bought her a lot of thoughtful gifts. At ten o'clock, they returned to the campus and took a walk in the dark playground. At an opportune moment, Wang Yang thought that the time was ripe, and his lips slowly approached Guo Jingwen's red lips.

"No ......" At the moment when Wang Yang's lips just touched Guo Jingwen, she shook like an electric shock, and then gently pushed Wang Yang away.

Wang Yang ignored Guo Jingwen's refusal, but hugged her, and her lips pressed tightly to it. After Guo Jingwen was kissed by Wang Yang a few times, she suddenly seemed to realize something, she suddenly made a force, pushed Wang Yang away heavily, and then ran away.

Wang Yang didn't understand why Guo Jingwen had such a big reaction, he was stunned for a moment, and quickly rushed up and grabbed Guo Jingwen's hand: "Jingwen, what's wrong with you?" ”

"Let go of me, I'm going back!" Alyssa Kwok struggled.

"I'm sorry, Jingwen, I'm sorry! I was too reckless just now. I shouldn't have kissed you. Don't be angry, okay? ”

Guo Jingwen twisted her head to the side and didn't look at Wang Yang: "Let's not meet again in the future!" ”

"What?" Wang Yang was like five thunderbolts, "Just because of this, you're going to break up with me?" ”

Two lines of tears flowed from Guo Jingwen's eyes. She struggled to shake off Wang Yang's hand and ran forward again. Wang Yang chased after her again, hugged her tightly, and said loudly: "Jingwen, I love you!" I can see that you love me too! Otherwise, you won't be out today. But why are you rejecting me again? Can you tell me why you can't accept me? ”

Guo Jingwen still wanted to struggle, but she was tightly held by Wang Yang and couldn't exert her strength at all. She could only sobbed quietly in Wang Yang's arms.

Wang Yang felt that there was a reason for the incident, and he asked softly: "Jingwen, do you have something unspeakable, or is it a bitterness, can you tell me?" ”

After Guo Jingwen cried in Wang Yang's arms for a while, she slowly raised her head and said with teary eyes: "Yes, I have a hard time to say, because of this reason, I don't allow myself to fall in love with anyone!" ”

"What is it, Jingwen? You tell me maybe I can help you. Wang Yang said sincerely.

After being silent for a while, Guo Jingwen said with a sad expression: "You don't know, I'm an orphan. ”

Wang Yang looked at her in surprise, his eyes were full of puzzlement: "What...... Just because of this? You're an orphan, so you can't fall in love with me? ”

"I'm not done. It's not this ...... that matters."

"What's that?"

Guo Jingwen had a painful expression on her face: "I don't want to say it. Wang Yang, don't ask again. I don't want you to dislike me after you find out! ”

"No, Jingwen! I promise you, no matter what you say next, I will never dislike you! I love you from the bottom of my heart! No matter what unspeakable hardships or difficulties you have, let's face them together! ”

Guo Jingwen seemed to be moved by Wang Yang's sincere words, she hesitated again and again, and finally mustered up the courage to say with difficulty: "I...... History of psychiatric illness. ”

Although he was mentally prepared, Wang Yang was still deeply shocked, he couldn't believe that such a beautiful and gentle girl could have a history of mental illness. He stared blankly at Guo Jingwen, with an expression of disbelief on his face.

"When I was in junior high school, the doctor diagnosed me with intermittent schizophrenia, which may be out of control when confronted with certain stimuli...... However, the situation is not very serious. So after a period of treatment, my condition was basically under control. But the doctor told me that mental illness cannot be completely cured, and if there are some special conditions, it may recur......"

"So, you shut yourself off and deprived yourself of the right to love?" Wang Yang continued her words and said, "Are you afraid that if you get sick one day, it will affect others?" ”

"Isn't it?" Guo Jingwen burst into tears, which made people feel pity. "I don't want my beloved to find out one day that my lover will have psychotic symptoms, and what a hurt and blow it will be for him!"

"Say no more, stop talking!" Wang Yang hugged Guo Jingwen tightly in his arms, "You stupid girl, you are too kind, you would rather wronged yourself than let others be hurt in the slightest!" Now, you listen to me, I love you! No matter what kind of situation you have, is or will appear in the future, I am willing to accompany you, take care of you, and will do my best to protect you from harm! I won't let you get sick again! ”

After listening to Wang Yang's affectionate confession, Guo Jingwen was shocked by the sudden sense of happiness and felt numb and weak. She stopped struggling, stretched out her arms and hugged him tightly, her fingers digging deep into his back, her lips soft, submissive......