12. The old thing repeats itself
Weekend.
Wang Jingwen sat on the bed in a daze, her expression confused and her eyes scattered.
She woke up from a nightmare again.
In fact, the nightmares that come and go every day no longer frighten her. She had actually adapted to this kind of mental torture that was commonplace, and had developed the ability to wake up from a nightmare in the blink of an eye. But it is precisely like this that Wang Jingwen feels deeply sad and desolate - how did her long-awaited "normal person" life become like this? It's better than being in a sanatorium. Although the previous life was monotonous, boring, and lacking freedom, at least the heart was quiet and full of security.
Wang Jingwen looked back and sighed. She knew that what made her more and more uneasy was the growing sense of contradiction every day. Whenever she doubts or dislikes her current life, she is overwhelmed and grateful for the warm smiles and meticulous care of her parents. Especially in the past two days, the parents have taken great pains to enrich their lives. My mother cooked all kinds of fresh dishes at each meal, and my father bought back a lot of books he liked to read from the bookstore. All of these moved Wang Jingwen, but she was sad for a while. Because it meant that she had to continue to endure the nightmares and visions.
And in the past few days, there is one thing that has caught Wang Jingwen's attention - she found that the same man will appear in every terrible hallucinations and terrifying dreams she has. The man either had no head, or lacked limbs, or the whole thing was a black shadow, unable to distinguish the outline and appearance. But Wang Jingwen's intuition told her that these were all the same person—from beginning to end, it was this ghostly illusory man who haunted and tormented her. She didn't know why. She felt nothing but deep fear and helplessness.
Today's sky has been gloomy, Wang Jingwen looked out the window, the gray sky enveloped everything, making everything seem heavy and depressing, just like her mood at the moment. She looked at the wall clock again, it was already six o'clock in the afternoon—she had been in the room for more than five hours, and it was time to get out and get some air.
Wang Jingwen opened the door and stepped out of her room, she just looked up at the front, and she was stunned for a moment-
The two parents sat neatly dressed on the sofa, looking blankly ahead, their eyes empty. There were no lights or TV on in the living room, and it was dull and breathless. Wang Jingwen didn't know what was going on, and asked blankly, "Dad, Mom, what are you doing?" ”
The father turned his head mechanically and slowly, and looked at Wang Jingwen gloomily: "We are celebrating our anniversary. ”
Wang Jingwen's brain turned numbly: "What to commemorate?" What day is it? ”
"Do you know what day it is?" The mother's tone was stiff.
Wang Jingwen stood dumbfounded, unable to remember for a while.
"Today is September 12th." Her father looked at her and paused word by word.
"September 12th......" Wang Jingwen snorted slowly, her mind confused.
The parents turned their heads away from her, as if they didn't want to be reminded further, and their attitude made Wang Jingwen feel that this date represented a day that should not be forgotten. She repeated in her heart: September 12th, September 12th...... Does this day have any special significance?
Suddenly, a feeling of panic struck her violently, making her tremble. She also had a cramp in her stomach and felt like she wanted to throw up. She covered her mouth, trying to keep herself from vomiting, and then without saying a word, she opened the door and rushed outside.
In the garden at the door, Wang Jingwen took a few deep breaths and tried to calm herself, but her heart was still beating wildly and uncontrollably. For a split second—just as she was silently thinking about September 12th—a memory flashed through her mind, barely a fraction of a second, and she hadn't been able to figure out what was going on. But this was only a few tenths of a second, and she was already frightened and trembled. And at this time, what Dr. Nie had said to her appeared in her confused mind again-
"If you want to completely get rid of the psychological shadow, you must say goodbye to the 'past', and you can't recall and investigate. You have to forget all about what happened before. ”
That's what I do, I swear! But, oh my God—
I seem to have something in mind!
Wang Jingwen panicked and trembled.
She turned her head and looked at the door that had been closed, and suddenly there was a surge of anger, and she wanted to go back and ask her face to face what was going on!
Wang Jingwen slammed the door open. My parents are no longer sitting on the sofa in the living room. The doors to each room were closed, and it was not known which room the parents were in. The whole house was black, revealing a solemn atmosphere.
Wang Jingwen stood at the door, looking at the scene in front of her. For a moment, time seemed to stand still, and everything froze.
This scene has happened before.
I entered the door, it was pitch black and there was no one in the house, and then I went to my room......
Yes, I walked to the door of my room, and that's what I did. Wang Jingwen's gaze slowly moved over, staring at her room, her legs became disobedient, and she slowly walked to the door of the room as if she was obsessed.
It is an antique-style keyhole door through which you can see a part of the room.
Wang Jingwen is like a puppet under a spell at the moment. Her body couldn't be controlled by her brain, all she knew was that she had done it then—yes, like now, slowly crouching down, eyes on the keyhole.
She looked inside. I saw the scene inside.
At this moment, Wang Jingwen's blood was surging up her brain. All the feelings and memories of the original time have been restored. She held her head and muttered with a pale face: "I remembered, I remembered everything......" In the midst of the whirlwind, she collapsed, and suddenly found that the floor and walls were full of blood, and the whole room had been dyed bloody, and her body and hands were also stained with blood. The last string in Wang Jingwen's brain finally broke, and she fainted after screaming a few times.
In the haze, she saw her parents standing high in front of her, looking down at her, with a look of indifference......
I don't know how long it took, Wang Jingwen woke up. She found herself sitting on the couch in the living room, her parents sitting across from her, staring at her coldly. At this moment, Wang Jingwen's memory has been completely recovered, and she involuntarily curled up in the corner of the sofa, staring at the two people in front of her vigilantly.
Dong Lin sneered: "Why are you so scared?" We won't eat you again. ”
Wang Xingyu said indifferently: "Looking at your appearance, you really remember everything-since this is the case, our goal has been achieved." ”
Wang Jingwen twitched twice, and suddenly burst into tears: "You guys...... After all these years, you still haven't forgiven me. And you won't let me go, and you want to take revenge on me in this way......"
"Forgive you?" Dong Lin's shrill voice was like metal slicing across glass. "How dare you ask us to forgive you? What do you think you've done before? Break a teacup? ”
Wang Jingwen's body trembled, not daring to face them.
Wang Xingyu took out a photo album from behind him and threw it on the coffee table in front of Wang Jingwen: "Don't you want to see this album?" Look at it. ”
"No, no......" Wang Jingwen shook her head in fear, her body shrunk into a ball.
"Nope! You have to watch! Wang Xingyu roared angrily, "You don't want to forget!" I want you to keep your eyes open and see how much pain and suffering you have caused us! ”
Wang Xingyu frantically flipped through the photo album and held it up in front of Wang Jingwen, almost touching her nose. Wang Jingwen couldn't avoid it, and her eyes touched the photos on the album. Five years later, she saw the man again, a sharp burning pain churning in her internal organs, and two lines of tears accompanied her thoughts back to years ago......