When driving, Xu Zhizhou held my hand, I didn't struggle, just let him hold it like this.

He started the car, and then suddenly said to me: "Lane, try to rely on me from now on, I will do my best to protect you and take care of you, and I will not let anyone hurt you, because I don't want you to get hurt." ”

Xu Zhizhou's palm makes me feel very warm, and I think his love must be warm.

I think that in this world, only Xu Zhizhou is the man who is really good to me.

He is always like a warm light in the darkness in my life, always allowing me to illuminate my life and even pull me in the darkest and lowest times.

So from now on, I won't be so cruel to him.

I know that he likes me, and although I can't give him the same amount in return for the time being, I hope that over time, my relationship with him can really take root in my heart.

I don't want to lie to him, after all, Tan Yiyang has been a real person in my life for seven years, and my feelings for him are like a thick tree, intertwined and intertwined too deep-rooted.

The day before they separated, and the day after that, they completely promised another man, probably no one could do it.

Whoever leaves this world can live well, it's not that I don't understand this, but for me, it takes a certain amount of time to forget Tan Yiyang, and I need to slowly hide him in the deepest part of my heart, the most hidden corner, so that no one can see it.

Facing Xu Zhizhou, I just had red eyes, he understood me.

So after seeing my expression, he didn't say anything more.

He just grabbed my hand and continued to drive in the direction of his villa.

As soon as he arrived at the villa, Xu Zhizhou took out a lot of wine from his wine cabinet, red and white beer all occupied the table, he looked at me fixedly, although the emotions flashed in his eyes made me feel a little untouchable, but I was still very surprised to meet his gaze: "What is this going to do?" ”

"I'll drink with you, in order to say goodbye to the past and meet the future, then drink a good drink and get drunk, tomorrow after waking up is a new day, whether you can forget him or not, I will let myself occupy your heart as soon as possible, if you feel that life in Shanghai is too uncomfortable, I can take you to the Netherlands, without saying a word, you can leave at any time."

Leaving this sentence, he turned around and sat on the sofa, opened a bottle of beer and handed it to me: "Drink, toast to the broken love." ”

Last time, no matter how much I drank, I didn't get drunk, and I was still sober and terrible, and this time I took the wine, and I couldn't care so much, since I was at home, I had no scruples, I drank as much as I wanted, and I hoped that I could really get drunk completely.

Don't look at how energetic I am drinking now, as if I am not drunk after a thousand glasses, but where I drank at the beginning, it was always inexplicably sad and sad when I got along with Tan Yiyang, and I had no friends to talk to, so over time I fell in love with the feeling of anesthetizing myself with alcohol.

Sometimes when you are drunk in this drunken state, you don't think about it so much.

Xu Zhizhou also began to cooperate with me, I picked up the wine bottle, and he also drank with me.

Probably slowly got a little up, and in the face of Xu Zhizhou, I began to chat with him without a match.

"These are my treasures, Lafite in '82, Lafite in '97, Patrick in '89, Latour in '90, as long as you drink it, I don't feel distressed at all."

As he spoke, he took a wine decanter, which was 89 Bai Cui, the aroma definitely amazed my sense of smell, it seems that this wine has to be awakened for at least a few hours, so Xu Zhizhou knew early on that I would definitely drink to buy drunk.

I leaned back on the sofa with a glass of red wine, and looked at him quietly through the glass: "Xu Zhizhou, you have long planned to get me drunk today, right?" ”

He just glanced at me lightly, and then said nonchalantly, "What can you do when you're drunk?" Can you sleep or can I sleep with you? I'm a decent man, I can't do that kind of ill-intentioned thing, I just want you to get drunk and pour out all the troubles in your heart, I want to share it for you. ”

Xu Zhizhou suddenly stood up as he spoke, and opened his oversized wine cabinet, which was full of wine, and it was dense enough to count.

"Do you know why I have so much wine?" He pressed his pestle in front of me and met my eyes, took a deep breath and asked me.

I shook my head, and then he just said with a wry smile: "Since you were discharged from the hospital until now, I need alcohol to anesthetize myself every day to force myself to sleep, otherwise I can't close my eyes at all when I think of you beside Tan Yiyang." ”

When Xu Zhizhou said this, my heart suddenly felt like it had been pricked by a needle, and I felt a little painful and a little panicked.

For me, he almost doesn't care about his parents in the Netherlands, nor does he care about the business of the group, but he is with me wherever I am, so I can't live up to his sincerity in the future, otherwise I will be too cruel.

I deeply know the pain of being hurt, and I can't say anything that makes Xu Zhizhou sad again.

At first, I drank cup by cup, but later it became Xu Zhizhou's drunkenness.

Before I knew it, we had filled the table with empty bottles, and just when I thought the drunken act was coming to an end, he took a lot of them out of the wine cabinet.

He poured his wine and spoke: "If I had really done that in my apartment when you said I was doing well, would you have been able to be together a long time ago?" ”

I slowed down, probably because I had drunk too much alcohol and couldn't turn my mind for a while.

After a few minutes, I suddenly remembered what he said, it was before Xu Zhizhou lived in this villa, wasn't it that I was temporarily living in his apartment when I had a miscarriage and was approached by Tan Yiyang, I said casually but Xu Zhizhou who was standing outside the door listened to it.

I pinched the corners of my forehead, and I didn't know if it was because I was drunk or if I heard him say that he was doing a good job, and I felt my face burning.

I immediately covered my face and almost glanced at him with my eyes: "Xu Zhizhou, if you dared to do that, I guess we will not have a future, can you find some fresh ideas after chasing girls, is it that you men are thinking about how to trick women into bed?" ”

Xu Zhizhou frowned and looked at me: "So I'm different from ordinary men, suppressing my impulse towards you, and I've been waiting for you as a decent man and a gentleman." ”

After saying that, he raised his head to the full glass of wine in his hand, and I followed his rhythm and drank the wine in my hand as well.

He and I were lying on the carpet almost on all fours, obviously the carpet here was also very high-end, I guessed that it must have been very clean before I came, but at this moment, I can no longer look at the mess.

He must be reluctant to blame me, and I am very relieved to lie here with this mentality.

I suddenly patted his chest: "Xu Zhizhou, can I smoke a cigarette?" ”

Xu Zhizhou sat up as if he had heard something incredible: "Smoke? Which one do you want to smoke? ”

When Xu Zhizhou asked me this, I remembered that he was a serious cigarette collector.

He doesn't smoke much, but he likes to collect cigarettes.

And I don't know anything about cigarettes, but I only smoked once or twice to relieve anxiety when the blockbuster news broke after stepping into the entertainment industry, and I was really a little confused when he asked.

Soon, Xu Zhizhou took a cigarette and handed it over: "Just Russian white bend, don't choke." ”

I sat up, Xu Zhizhou slowly lit a fire for me, and I, who was almost not addicted to smoking, suddenly swept like a tornado.

I inhaled slowly one bite at a time, and suddenly my heart felt sad.

Looking at the starlight at the cigarette butt, flickering in the dim wall lamp, I just looked out the window, until the whole cigarette had burned my hand at the cigarette butt, I came to my senses and slowly extinguished the cigarette in the ashtray.

The smoke was too thick, and through the haze I saw that Xu Zhizhou had been looking at me, as if he was staring at a treasure that he particularly cherished, and his eyes were staring at me without blinking.

I didn't dodge, in fact, I also had a lot of questions for Xu Zhizhou, and I took this opportunity to ask: "Xu Zhizhou, you know that I used to be so shameless guarding Tan Yiyang, why do you have to wait for me?" ”

Speaking of which, in fact, I am quite frivolous, I have been by Tan Yiyang's side for so long, except for going to bed, he has no feelings for me, no matter how I look at me, I am willing to post upside down.

Xu Zhizhou didn't reply to my words, just looked at me affectionately.

"Xu Zhizhou, if you don't say it, forget it, then I will really be with you in the future, can you not be very domineering to me like Tan Yiyang, let me also understand what a gentle man is, and ah, if you don't want to have children, don't you get into it like him, okay? I'm really disgusted by taking pills all the time, you don't know, my body should be antibodies to the pill. ”

After saying that, I didn't forget to lie on my arm with a smile and look at him in a daze.

Xu Zhizhou suddenly walked over and lifted my face, then put his hand directly on the back of my head and kissed me on the lips.

But it didn't go deeper, it just stopped abruptly with a dragonfly touching it.

"Li En, I don't allow you to say such frivolous words, I know that you are afraid that you will not be able to give me a complete relationship, but I tell you, I don't care about your past, what I care about is your future, don't think that you can repel my love for you in this way, just like you said, you are very cheap to follow Tan Yiyang's side, how can I not, knowing that I am also cheap, I may not get your response, but I am still willing to guard you, so we are all the same people, it is better to let me stay by your side for the rest of my life, I'll keep an eye on you and help you get rid of your shit, huh? ”