Not all love will be marked with a symbol of consummation, and not all feelings will be eternal.

Xu Yun, Li Youbin, has no way to say whether she is good or bad, sometimes she is good to him, and sometimes she doesn't seem to be so good.

I don't know when the meeting between him and Xu Yun has become a difficult thing.

He wants to see her, she has something to do, she is probably very busy, and always shirks.

The time to meet every day has become a twenty-minute run in the playground after evening self-study.

It's a very boring relationship.

One night after dinner, he went out for a walk with her, and he drank a little wine that day, and it was still Renshoushan Park, where there was still the romance left by the confession.

She took his arm.

He was not very happy, he went around and hugged her from behind, his neck was on her shoulder, the whole person was lying on top of her, his hands kept wandering around her abdomen, there was a little fat on her stomach, he teased: "When did you get pregnant?"

"Guess what."

"It's been a while."

"Three or four months."

"It's mine."

"It's not."

"Cut, I'm not going to strangle you."

"Haha."

Li Youbin didn't plan to go back that night, they didn't have any warmth, he wanted to take her out, and he brought his ID card when he came out.

He will not hide and hide for such and such reasons to trick her out, and put it very bluntly: "I will take you out to play tonight, and I won't go back."

"Where are you going?" She asked.

"Where else can I go? Lonely men and widows in the middle of the night. Li Youbin smiled meaningfully.

"I'm afraid not tonight." Xu Yun frowned.

"Why?" Li Youbin was a little disappointed.

"My roommate has a stomach ache tonight, so I want to bring some stomach medicine."

"Won't you come down and take a look?" Li Youbin babbled and thought: This roommate is really a bad person.

"Okay, okay, I'll go out with you another day."

Xu Yun spoke more like he was more mature than him.

"No, I won't let you go back tonight."

"Don't make a fuss."

"You said you, shouldn't you let your boyfriend have a good time?"

Li Youbin doesn't know how he said such shameless words, maybe people who drink are so open-mouthed, even if they drink a little bit, it is easy to paralyze people's nerves.

"Okay, let's go back."

Xu Yun's expression was like coaxing a child, and his current IQ was estimated to be like this.

He unwillingly put his hands on her chest and kneaded them fiercely, as if he had collected some profits, otherwise he would still feel that he had suffered a loss.

In the end, I went back and kissed goodbye at the foot of the fifth apartment.

She went upstairs and he didn't reply.

After leaving school, he sat on the rockery of Renshou Mountain and watched the artificial lake, he lit a cigarette, and I don't know when he developed the habit of carrying cigarettes with him, probably after cutting off contact with Lu Chaoling.

flipped through the phone, and there were photos and call records of Lu Chaoling in it.

The figure of the girl resurfaced in his mind, her smiling face, back, and gauze skirt seemed to be imprinted in his mind, lingering. He wanted to call her and ask: What are you doing? But this is his only persistence.

If he can let go of his face, he may be able to capture her heart, but he can't keep her people.

The finger was inadvertently placed on the ground, and there was a small pit, which had accumulated water, and the middle finger was just able to put it in. There used to be a crystal clear stone there as well.

This may be the only nostalgia between him and her, I wonder if she will grab that stone and wipe it repeatedly in the days without him.

Li Youbin casually threw the cigarette butt into the artificial lake, which is a very uncivilized behavior and a reflection of no quality, but he doesn't care, he thinks: Anyway, no one will see it at such a late hour, so it is better to indulge yourself.

The cigarette butts float on the surface of the water, which is particularly dazzling.

He left, did not go back to school, bought a bottle at the shop downstairs of the hotel, and the old village chief went upstairs.

Open the window, look at the night view of the city that is still bright in the middle of the night, and pour himself a drink with the old village chief.

When I was drunk, I lay in bed and fell asleep directly.

After leaving Lu Chaoling, his life became erosive, vulgar and degenerate, every day in addition to playing games in the dormitory, he went out with Xu Yun to hang out, and found a place to turn over the clouds and rain after shopping.

Such days pass quickly, and just one month has passed in a blink of an eye.

He finally didn't wake up every day when Lu Chaoling's face appeared in front of him, and he slowly adapted to life with Xu Yun.

This kind of life is very boring, just like a person who has lost his curiosity, has no things he wants to pursue, and lives a life of extravagance every day, and half of his studies are wasted.

He began to care about Xu Yun's feelings.

The word "long-term love" may be based on facts, two people who have lived without shame and impatience for a long time will slowly fall in love with each other, just like Li Youbin at this time.

He didn't know when he started to care about Xu Yun in his heart, he only knew that when he was with her now, he had the sweet and romantic feeling of being with Lu Chaoling, which was probably the performance that he liked her.

He fell in love with her.

What she did was right, she gave everything to Li Youbin without reservation, and trusting him was like really treating him as her husband.

Even at some moments, even Li Youbin had the illusion that the girl he wanted to marry in his life was probably her.

It's an illusion, and it's a mistake.

He shouldn't like her, and if he really loves each other, he may not be able to stay together for a long time, let alone because of the heartbeat of some moments.

When you are quiet, it is easy to think of the past and the future.

He thought that if Sun Qianqian was the first to find him after breaking up with Lu Chaoling, it was Sun Qianqian who comforted him, and he would also be with her.

It's a pity that she didn't give much, even if she loved more than her, it would only hurt deeper.

Li Youbin's love has never ended well, he doesn't know if it's because his choice is problematic or inaccurate, in short, he gets a scar every time.

He's a person who doesn't have a long memory, and normal people don't try to make a cut in a place where they already have a scar, he will.

If you are hurt a lot, you will not touch love again.

I remember that there was a very popular meme last year: everyone came to laugh at him, he actually believed in love.

It sounds funny, but when you taste it, it's a little sad.

When did love become something that needs to be believed or not to be believed?

Love is originally a kind of perseverance, and the ancients proved this with a variety of loyal stories, but in modern times, people have ruthlessly ridiculed this beautiful and romantic thing with words.

This is not to blame.

In the past, I thought that a person would stay together.

It's not necessarily the lovers who sleep together now.

Interests dilute love.

Li Youbin didn't know how long he and Xu Yun could be together, he only knew that if he left her, he might have to carve another knife in his heart, which already had several scars.