My mother avoided my gaze and said a little tiredly, "Soft, you can go back to Beicheng." ”

There were countless holes in my heart in an instant, and the cold wind passed through the middle, making a loud noise.

"Let's go!" Xu Zhi came over and pushed me and yelled at me, "It's all because of you!" My mother was scolded, and I was laughed at by my classmates! Su Ruan, you ruined all our lives! ”

"Mom!" I grabbed her arm and red-eyed, "Please......"

She gently broke free of my hand, with compassion in her eyes, "Soft, when will you change your unpleasant temper." ”

I didn't, Mom, I really didn't.

Even when I went to Beicheng to study, I listened to your words and never had contact with those people. I didn't know that Xu Wenhui was from that circle before, and I didn't know that Tang Jingwen and Li Zifei were actually friends.

"What are you doing in a daze, let's go!" Zhang Sufen seemed to have used all the strength of her life on me, and she grabbed my arm and dragged me out fiercely.

I wouldn't have given her this chance in normal times, but now I don't have the strength to let her push me out the door.

I leaned against the wall, and when I looked up, I could see the words on the wall, red and dazzling, like blood.

I stared for a moment and knocked on the opposite door.

Before the other person could speak, I shoved all the cash in my hand into her, "Get me a water pipe." ”

……

I pinched the hose and rinsed the fonts on the wall, wiping them with a rag. It was as if the words were erased, and the shadow of this matter could be completely erased from my mother's life.

I don't know how long I wiped it, and I was almost exhausted.

"Squish."

I looked up and saw my mom standing on the steps, looking at me with no sadness or joy, "Go back." ”

"You don't want me anymore, do you?" I looked at her cautiously.

I saw her burst into tears, and she said, "Soft, you don't understand how hard it took me to jump out of that fire pit in the North City." At the beginning, I was ruined in Beicheng, and it was not easy to start again in Changzhou. What now? I've lived in vain for the past ten years, soft, before I don't complain about you, leave. ”

With that, she stopped looking at me and turned away.

Let's ......

As soon as my hand loosened, the hose fell to the ground, and the cold water spread over my feet, not as cold as my heart.

I walked out numbly, it was already dark.

Sitting on the edge of the flower bed, staring at the lights upstairs, I thought to myself, my mother must be talking angry, why is she reluctant to let me go.

My hands and feet were numb as I sit, and the lights upstairs had gone out for some reason.

"Su Soft!" I followed the sound and looked over, and actually saw Xiao Qingmo, as if it was an illusion.

He leaned over and picked me up, looking down at me, "Why did you mess yourself up so much?" ”

I tugged at his clothes and cried, "Xiao Qingmo, my mother doesn't want me anymore." ”

"She doesn't want you, and she wants me." He carried me and walked out quickly.

Liang Fei opened the car door, and I shrunk into his arms, feverish, and gradually couldn't hear what he was saying.

It was as if I had a dream, and I dreamed that I was talking to Xiao Qingmo.

"Xiao Qingmo, am I really annoying?"

"Nope."

"Then why doesn't my mom want me anymore?"

"She doesn't love you enough."

"Liar, my mother doesn't love me anymore, who else in this world will love me."

"Me."

……

The dream was full of noisy sounds, and I didn't sleep well.

When I woke up, there was a moment of darkness in front of me, and after a while, I opened my eyes again.

It was Xiao Qingmo's room, and he took me back to Beicheng.

I had a needle in my hand, and as soon as I moved, someone held me down.

"The high fever does not go away for two days." Xiao Qingmo looked at me, with some contemplation in his eyes, "Su Soft, you are really good at torturing people." ”

His eyes were full of green shadows, and he still had a beard on his mouth. The shirt was crumpled and I don't know how long it hadn't been changed.

I remembered that dream in a trance.

"Who else in this world would love me?"

"Me."

No, Xiao Qingmo doesn't love me, he just loves me and that person.

I sat up in silence and removed the needle.

"Where are you going?" Xiao Qingmo pinched my arm and frowned fiercely.

I pushed him as hard as I could, "My mom needs me now." ”

"Su Soft, she doesn't love you! Didn't you know! Xiao Qingmo's cold and hard voice pierced my heart like a sharp needle.

I slapped him, gritted my teeth and said, "Shut up!" ”

"If she really loved you, she wouldn't have chosen to leave you in the Tang family back then." Xiao Qingmo pressed me on the bed without mercy.

I retorted, "That's because she can't afford to raise me!" ”

A hint of sarcasm flashed in Xiao Qingmo's mouth, "Xu Qing is not capable of raising a child?" That's the biggest joke I've ever heard. Su Soft, admit it, she just doesn't want you to be a stumbling block for her. She needs a fresh start, and she has to get rid of your stain. Leave you in the Tang family, and you can still get a sum of alimony every month, why don't she do it. ”

"She loves herself the most." Xiao Qingmo stroked my sideburns and said deeply: "I knew what happened to you in the Tang family, and I asked you to ask for money." Su Soft, in order to maintain her life, she can sacrifice you at any time. ”

I shook my head and said, "She has no choice, Xiao Qingmo, I don't allow you to talk about her like that." ”

Xiao Qingmo refused to give in, and continued: "The market value of the house in Changzhou is 800,000, as long as you are willing to find a way, you can raise that money." Xu Qing was unwilling to ruin his comfortable life, so he could only turn to the Tang family for help. ”

I bit my lip so hard that I couldn't think of the slightest reason to contradict him.

But deep down I still don't want to accept this fact.

"No, Xiao Qingmo, you're not right." I tried hard to convince him, and also convinced myself, "She wanted me to get a better education and a better life, so she left me in the Tang family." ”

Xiao Qingmo held my face, looked into my eyes, and said in a low voice: "Su Ruan, you have been abused in the Tang family for a long time, Xu Qingqing knew about it early in the morning. But she didn't want you to ruin her life, so she didn't choose to take you away. ”

My eyes widened, tears welled up all of a sudden, and I slapped Xiao Qingmo vigorously, "I don't believe it!" You let go of me! I'm going to ask her, I don't believe my mom would do this to me! ”

Xiao Qingmo held me hard in his arms and let me struggle.

I bit his shoulder and held back the crying, tears streaming freely.

Why did it suddenly become like this, it turned out that everything was whitewashed, and there were already acne under the gorgeous robes.

When all the truth was revealed to me, I was powerless to resist.

Xiao Qingmo put me in the quilt and carefully retied the needle. He leaned over and kissed my forehead, and said comfortingly: "Su Soft, sleep well, when you wake up, I want you to stand on my shoulder and watch the world." ”