In order to excel, you must get a divorce! Lin Ximeng is no longer afraid of the sharp pain of walking to the operating table, and he is no longer worried about whether to jump to the paradise of happiness or the abyss.

All worries are gone. There is only one belief left in the whole body and mind: for the sake of Zhuoqi, divorce immediately.

She suddenly thought of that dream, the dream that Zhuo Qi was about to die. She finally knew that Zhuo Qi was not dying, but about to be reborn!

Lin Ximeng became more and more aware of what he should do. Professor Qian Zhongkai looked at Lin Ximeng with a strange gaze when he asked for leave to return to Wutong again, she neither agreed nor said that she was not sure, but asked Lin Ximeng to go to her house at night.

Yes, where is there a student like her, Lin Ximeng, who has only been here for a few months, and has been running home again and again, is this here to go to school, or is it here to do something, can the tutor not be angry?

In the evening, Lin Ximeng brought a few bags of Bailang Island specialties and a work by Fan Tianfu and knocked on the door of Professor Qian Zhongkai's house.

Lin Ximeng sat next to Professor Qian Zhongkai. She now had to open her heart to this respectful teacher in order to find a stronger spiritual pillar from him.

Although she already knew what to do, she longed for greater emotional support to avoid escaping from the operating table again.

She thought about all the people she knew, and felt that the only one who could give her this kind of support was Professor Qian Zhongkai. Professor Qian Zhongkai studied in France in his early years, and her husband was there

"**" died unjustly, since she was thirty years old and widowed, went south and north, retreated behind closed doors, and she read the course of life even more.

"If you have anything to say, don't worry." Professor Qian Zhongkai leaned back on the sofa. Lin Ximeng talked about Zhuo Qi from beginning to end from love to marriage, and then to the current divorce.

Then, he moved his feelings outward, and now he was in love with another person.

Professor Qian Zhongkai nodded and listened. After Lin Ximeng finished speaking, she suddenly opened her eyes and said, "This person is Fan Tianfu, right?" Lin Ximeng was taken aback: "How do you know?" She smiled and closed her eyes again.

Lin Ximeng never mentioned Fan Tianfu's name in front of anyone in the school, but when she showed everyone the painting just now, Professor Qian Zhongkai asked who painted it and who the painter was, and she admired the painting very much.

Lin Ximeng is only a brief introduction. She had to honestly admit it. Professor Qian Zhongkai asked her what she was going to do.

She said that one was to go back and divorce Zhuo Qi, the second was to tell Fan Tianfu that she did not divorce him just to marry him, and the third was to return to school immediately after doing this.

Professor Qian Zhongkai still closed his eyes and recuperated. Lin Ximeng looked at her nervously, waiting for her to speak. After about five minutes, she spoke: "The first step must be taken, divorce." After the divorce, tell Fan Tianfu that you are not divorced for him, you are for yourself. But don't break his heart too much. To come back to Beijing to develop yourself, you have to stand up on your own and not invest too much emotion in anyone. Remember, big grievances, small grievances, no grievances. This is the first step, and it has to be done. As for the second step, don't plan for it yet. Between you and Fan Tianfu, it will be you who will change in the future, not Fan Tianfu, Fan Tianfu will not change, and his divorce is divorced. When the teacher says this, it is not that the teacher does not trust you, nor that the teacher suspects that there is love between you, but that the teacher relies on his own life experience for most of his life. After going through the divorce formalities, come back immediately. Lin Ximeng looked at the teacher's closed eyes with wide eyes, and did not dare to miss a word of these words in his heart.

She finally got her wish. Not only did she feel a lot more relaxed, but she also felt as if the suffocating clouds were gradually dissipating, and the sunlight was shining into her heart one by one.

The taxi stopped at the school gate, and Lin Ximeng got out of the car and ran straight towards the public long-distance phone booth. Fortunately, Fan Tianfu didn't turn off the phone, and as soon as he heard Lin Ximeng's voice, he asked, "Where have you been?" Coming back so late? I've called you a dozen times, and no one knows where you've gone. ”

"I ...... I ......" She panted and couldn't answer for a moment. Fan Tianfu's questioning became more and more urgent, and she had to wait for a moment to calm down before saying, "I'm going to my mentor's house." ”

"Then you don't have to come back so late! Who knows what you're going to do. ”

"I'm really at Professor Qian Zhongkai's house, I just came back, and I haven't entered the school gate yet, so I'll call you first." Fan Tianfu sighed lightly and changed his softer tone: "Ximeng, I don't know where you are, I am guarding the phone in this office, the mobile phone is on, and I will call you once in five minutes...... Ximeng, I love you. ”

"Tian Fu, I'm going back to go through the divorce procedures tomorrow. This time I didn't hesitate. ”

"Ximeng," Fan Tianfu's voice changed due to excitement,

"You should have decided a long time ago, we ...... after we got married"

"Tianfu," Lin Ximeng interrupted him, knowing that he had to imagine and plan things after the two of them got married,

"Tianfu, I didn't divorce you just to marry you." It didn't matter if she interrupted, there was no more sound on the phone, she kept going

"Hey, hey", there was still no sound, and after a long time, I heard a low and hoarse voice: "Ximeng, do you take our marriage so lightly?" ”

"It's not a matter of underestimation."

"So what's it?"

"I divorced for the right to love."

"Isn't that different?"

"It's different. Tian Fu, I have made up my mind to stand up on my own and not attach myself to anyone, because I have the ability. In the past, I just decided to be the woman behind a successful man, but now, I have completely abandoned this notion. I want to stand side by side with men in society. ”

"Nightmares,...... You've changed. ”

"Yes, I've changed." Putting down the phone, she easily walked out of the phone booth. Lin Ximeng returned home with a very good wish.

She got a surprising news: Yang Junman has become a nun! Lin Ximeng was desperate to see her, but was stopped by Zhuo Qi.

Zhuo Qi said: "I don't think that's necessarily a way out. Even if you want to see it later, let's solve your and my affairs first. Lin Ximeng suppressed the huge shock in his heart, opened the duffel bag with a strong spirit, and took out the gifts purchased for Zhuo Qi, Yao Huijuan, and Niu Niu.

Zhuo Qi is a watch, Yao Huijuan is a red cashmere scarf, Niu Niu is a philatelic album and a wind chime.

Also, I bought a pair of gold earrings for my mother-in-law. She poured all the coins on her and returned to the Sycamore, penniless.

Regarding property, Lin Ximeng's attitude has always been very clear, in order not to make the three of them see the slightest change from the furnishings in the home, she has already said that after the divorce, she does not want color TVs, video recorders, refrigerators, washing machines, books, including the furniture that her parents gave her to accompany her when she got married.

But in the other two private houses in the county, she wants one. It was built by her and Zhuo Qi over the years.

The purpose of asking for a set is to give Niu Niu Niu for Niu Niu's marriage in the future, and now to give an explanation to Lin Tianming, so as not to make her parents think that she was easily married by Zhuo Qi and sent away.

Zhuo Qi also agreed, and joked that he would give another set to Yao Huijuan. But when she went home this time, Zhuo Qi changed her mind and said that he would only give her half of the set.

Lin Ximeng asked strangely, "How do you live then?" Zhuo Qi replied: "Use the method of subsidizing money." If you ask for it, give me half of the money; If I want it, I'll give you half of the money. He clearly knew that Lin Ximeng had no money.

In this case, she didn't want to say anything more, let him watch it. She sent Niu Niu to a neighbor's house to do her homework.

Looking at this familiar home, she burst into tears and began to pack up some diaries and a few single clothes.

When Zhuo Qi first returned home, she asked if she could not get a divorce, because he did not believe that she and You Xinshan would have an adulterous affair.

She said that he could think whatever he wanted, and this time she put aside her feelings and was rational.

She picked up the green notebook, which was plastered with all the love letters that Zhuo Qi gave her when she was a teacher. She casually flipped the page and read on: please don't forget that together we dug pits, watered and planted saplings...... In my imagination, it will be a big tree that becomes yin.

Plant, keep planting. In our hearts, in our hopes, in the soil of knowledge to be developed, in the ideals that we are constantly pursuing, in our sacred labors, we plant, we plant, we plant with our own most precious blood and sweat...... Don't be afraid of the bumpy road ahead, and don't be afraid of the boat of love going against the water.

Isn't the love boat fighting with the waves? I stared at the waves crashing against the bow of the ship, I stared, stared, and suddenly felt an inexplicable admiration.

I found that the waves on the bow of the boat were a crown of flowers for those who went against the current, a symbol of courage and strength in fighting.

Tell me, what have you encountered during that long, distant journey? How will you endure loneliness and survive the long and painfully rugged years in the muddy and dark distance beyond my eyes?

Tell me how you spread your waiting wings, and let the curved track bring you to me once more, so that we can reread the flowers, like wanderers in the dark, and finally bathed in warm tears.

Tell me, O me, when the dark life is once again illuminated by the intense light, how will you, my dear, sing of the joy of reunion, of a magnificent tomorrow?

Ah, my dear, let us graciously hold the white clouds, hold the sunset with graciously, and pour the sun, the blue sky and the blue sky are the background against which we soar.

I will search for eternity, in order to make my heart as transparent as yours, in order to float your pure spirit in my blood forever.

Ahead, clusters of orange lights shone in the vast dark night, and flower-like buds were dreaming of spring.

After writing a long sentence about the desert, there is an oasis in front of it.

"Ahh After writing a long sentence about the desert, there is an oasis in front of you! Lin Ximeng's tears were like a spring, and he couldn't bear to turn it down again, so he immediately closed the book.

I don't know what to do with this book.,Zhuo Qi said: "You take it.。 That's when she put it in her bag.

Yao Huijuan sat on the sofa and cried. The night before, Lin Ximeng handed over to Yao Huijuan and gave detailed instructions on everything that should be instructed at home and outside the home.

told that there was a businessman in Beijing waiting for her to get married, and asked Yao Huijuan to catch Zhuo Qi and not let go, get married as soon as possible, and if there were any difficulties at home in the future, she would help at any time.

Zhuo Qi and Yao Huijuan helped her carry the suitcase. Zhuo Qi turned around, took out two hundred yuan from the desk drawer, and said to Lin Ximeng that there was no cash at home, just two hundred, and let her use it to buy a ticket.

Lin Xi dreamed about it and took a hundred. Zhuo Qi glanced at her, sighed, and went to put the hundred back in the drawer.

Lin Ximeng got into the car called by Zhuo Qi's phone, and planned to go outside for one night first, and then go to the Civil Affairs Bureau to go through the divorce procedures by agreement the next day.

Lin Ximeng glanced back at them, Yao Huijuan had already cried and her eyes were red, and Zhuo Qi's face was blue and full of tears.

The car drove out of the Wutong Normal Campus, and Lin Ximeng finally let out a cry. Goodbye, familiar campus; Goodbye, this world of fifteen years of life; Goodbye, beautiful playground and aspen; Goodbye, the footprints under the green bamboo; Goodbye, unforgettable bed on the desk; Goodbye, eighteenth birthday vow; Goodbye, long sentence of the desert before graduation; …… Also, Zhuo Qi, Zhuo Qi!

Zhuoqi! Who sent you to me? And who sent me to your house? How long have we been in love?

How long have we been combined? How much joy is there in between? How much pain? How many tears? I can't count them!

Uncountable! Unforgettable your affectionate eyes, unforgettable your hard-working figure, unforgettable your loyal love, unforgettable your helpless waiting late at night...... Unforgettable!

Unforgettable, you have been engraved on my heart forever and forever, I can't erase it, I can't dig it up. From now on I will fall into another kind of pain, the pain of wrestling with memories.

I don't know if there's a man who can fight you and banish you from my heart. I really don't know!

They may be better than you, they may be better than you, but you are my first love, how can you forget this first love?

I felt sorry for you for the impurity of this first love, and the only impure thing was that I once looked at Wei Ke with each other, and how uneasy and self-blamed I had for it.

At that time, how could I have thought that today, I not only betrayed the original love vow, but also developed to make a physical and mental promise with another man, and hurt you deeply.

Even so, you are still bitterly in love with me, you can tolerate the private relationship between me and Fan Tianfu, but I can't tolerate the blandness with you.

Zhuo Qi, who is wrong? Is it me, is it you, or who? Is it wrong to love, or is it wrong to be loved?

Once upon a time, we loved each other and were inseparable. And now, I can't die for you.

I hate myself for it, I hate everything about me. So, I can no longer be too selfish and can no longer be sorry for you.

If I still have a pity for you, an old affection, and a conscience, then I can't go on like this anymore...... The driver asked her where to go, and Lin Ximeng had no idea for a while.

yes, where is she supposed to go? The parents' house did not dare to go, and the house on Bailang Island was retired by Fan Tianfu; Teacher Mu's house?

Chen Xiaqiu's home? …… After thinking about it, she decided to find a hotel for the time being. When the driver saw her like this, he asked her if she had any relatives in Wutong.

There are so many relatives, they have all been called and scolded by Zhuo Qi, how can she bother them again? The driver was careful and didn't send her to the hotel anyway, because he was afraid that she would die.

She had no choice, and after thinking about it again, she told Lin Chenshuang's address. Lin Chenshuang and his wife were at home, so they settled Lin Ximeng in a room and waited for the next day to go through the formalities.

Zhuo Qi knew from the driver that Lin Ximeng was at Lin Chenshuang's house, so he took Niu Niu and Mu Hongkuan to make a final effort to keep Lin Ximeng.

She was lying on the bed, Niu Niu cried and begged: "Mom, go back, Mom, go back......" Lin Ximeng's heart was torn apart, torn apart.

Oh my God, this operation is so painful! If you knew this, it would be better to die. She cried and begged them to leave quickly and not to let the children torment her.

Tell Mu Hongkuan that her love for Zhuo Qi has indeed disappeared, Zhuo Qi has the right to be loved, she also has the right to love, but this marriage cannot get what everyone needs.

In order to let them leave quickly, Lin Ximeng said some things against his will. Zhuo Qi called Mu Hongkuan and Niu Niu and left.

All her internal organs were taken out by the child. She regretted not killing herself before that. When this thought arose, she began to hate herself again: Lin Ximeng, you are really a selfish woman, if you die, your child will never have a mother again.

You selfish woman! You hard-hearted woman! You woman who deserves a thousand cuts!

For Niu Niu to have a mother, you have to live no matter what. It's just that it's many times harder to live than to die.