Zhuo Qi's letters flew in like snowflakes, making Lin Ximeng upset and restless. Every time she received a letter, she called back, and she had to put forward, hoping to send fewer letters, give her a little time and space, and let her settle down her feelings, otherwise she would be anxious.

As a result, the express soon came again: you were accusing me on the phone of writing you so many letters. You can't feel and understand how much damage you have done to me, and how deep the pain you have caused, because you have not experienced it after all.

I do have a stomach problem, every day my stomach hurts, and the fire burns. Maybe everything I'm doing is destroying myself.

The world should have been destroyed, full of deception and betrayal. I'm taking step by step steps to make Fan Tianfu, the bastard, pay the price, you

I can't "protect" him, I need to do it whether we are husband and wife or not. You've been struggling for years

The men who "fit" you, you try them one by one like fitting clothes, and many men walk through your life like a marquee.

If you still love, if you still want to walk into the twilight with me, then I ask you to respect yourself and stop your bitter seeking.

There are still many problems between us that need to be resolved, and you will not be able to solve any problems if nothing happens. I admit that you have scheming, and the relationship between you and Fan Tianfu has been able to develop to this point because I love you deeply, trust and support you infinitely, and be unsuspecting of you, but you must not forget that there is an old Chinese saying,

"The road is one foot high, and the magic is one foot high." I hope that this is the end of the relationship between you and Fan Tianfu, and that there will be no more contact between you and his family, for yourself and for his family.

I repeat it here: if you don't cut ties with Fan, then I'll cut ties with you.

You say yes

"Coercion" is actually a kind of protection for Fan, and I have seen through your conspiracy. I tell you this, I'm not your teacher, so I will meet each other with a sword, and my six relatives won't recognize me!

Why are you righteous if you are unkind to me? Lin Ximeng was disturbed by Zhuo Qi's letters, and he was restless. She had to write back to him, hoping that Zhuo Qi would give her a little time and space, so that she could settle her feelings before making a choice.

Because she is in Wutong, the influence of her parents, friends, and society makes her not have the opportunity to precipitate.

After sending the letter to Zhuo Qi, she calmed down a little. In the blink of an eye, Zhuo Qi's letter came again: I may have entered Beijing before you received this letter.

At this point I have a splitting headache! I never have a headache, you know. In that letter yesterday, I told you something, about the chapter of Fan Lin, I am helpless, I am painful, but I can't help but accept this fact.

You don't have to live an easier life than I do, I'm too tired to have the courage to live any longer. You trust me, I am grateful to you, but after all, I have lived up to your trust, I cherish our love, cherish our family, and I don't want others to poke my backbone.

I was bored, and it was my most vulnerable period. Yesterday afternoon I was alone at home crying: Open your eyes, O God!

But I have to face the reality, face the reality, for the sake of the children, I have to endure everything I don't want to bear, and I hope you can do the same.

Your letter does not read your self-reproach at all, and I am very sad for this, my dear, don't force me!

Zhuo Qi is coming to Beijing! Reason told Lin Ximeng that he had to react immediately. It's better to go home right away and stop him.

But what about going home? Divorced now? No, it's still early. First of all, Fan Tianfu still worries her, this is a man who doesn't speak well and can't be responsible for his words, she doesn't dare to act rashly and entrust her life to him.

In case of the slightest slip-up, she didn't have the mental capacity to bear such a momentary lost choice. Besides, he divorced just a month after leaving Wutong, and the war is still spreading with Fan Tianfu.

At lunchtime, the bearded man Shi Siyuan sent three more letters, two from Zhuo Qi and one from Fan Tianfu.

In the face of Zhuo Qi's bitter and inseparable love, she really couldn't bear to abandon him; And Fan Tianfu's fiery love made her even more painful!

The contradiction had left her completely burned and her lips sore. After reading the letter, she didn't say a word, put down the meal she had just returned, and lay down.

Soon, she fell asleep. She and Fan Tianfu lay on the floor in a room without any furnishings**, her sexual excitement was like the raging waves agitating, constantly rushing from the center of the sea to the shore, swinging, swinging...... She's **,**...... Fan Tianfu's muttering also appeared and disappeared with the sexual excitement...... It wasn't until she was satisfied with the pleasure of sex that Fan Tianfu dragged her up, saying that she was asleep and couldn't open her eyes...... When I woke up, the sun was shining directly on the bed, warm.

Lin Ximeng finally understood that she couldn't do without Fan Tianfu. The dream of sex implied to her that between love and sex, people are inclined to sex.

People can be without love, but they can't be without sex. Without sex, there is no life. Between her and Zhuo Qi, the love is strong, husband and wife, teacher-student love, love, affection, however, **no longer exists, the ** that ignited the fire of life has died, which she can't save; And Fan Tianfu, in addition to the blazing fire of love, there is more sexual love between them.

Between them was like the raging flame, which melted everything, burned everything, and it made her feel the brilliance and beauty of life.

Without this, she couldn't imagine what life would look like. Lin Ximeng finally decided to divorce.

Only then did she understand that Fan Tianfu told on the phone that someone had written an anonymous letter to the mayor, accusing the Red Star Art Society of tax evasion and tax evasion amounting to 100,000 yuan, but she couldn't guess who sued her, and now it seems that it must be Zhuo Qi!

This is something she never expected! This art club was run by her this spring, and she resisted loudly: "Then you are suing me!" Do you know? Zhuo Qi did not hesitate, and replied viciously: "You are not sorry!" Aren't you just a woman with ×! This last sentence hurt her deeply.

For the first time, she felt that her love had been completely lost, which made her feel a little lighter, and it was only a matter of time before she divorced Zhuo Qi for a reason.

Mu Hongkuan came to see her every day and advised her to think carefully. She thought she should let Niu Niu be a little mentally prepared. That afternoon, she took Niu Niu to the room where she lived in the northwest corner of the campus

The place of the "breeding room". That building

The "breeding room", the building that gave birth to cows

The "breeding room" has disappeared from the face of the earth forever. On the ground, a new green bamboo has grown, and a new teaching laboratory building has been built nearby.

It was a holiday, and there was no one on campus. Lin Ximeng took a few photos of Niu Niu next to the bamboo forest, and then asked him to sit next to him and said, "Niu Niu, do you remember that hut here?" ”

"Hmm."

"A person goes through many big things in his life, and no one is an exception." She said. Niu Niu's tears fell to the ground and nodded.

"If there are two scenarios, one is the death of the mother, and the other is the divorce of the mother and the father, which one do you choose?"

"I don't choose either."

"What if I had to choose?"

"Why do you have to choose?"

"That's right...... These days...... You feel something between me and your dad, don't you? ”

"Hmm."

"Your dad loves me and I love him, but our personalities are so different. We live together, Mom is distressed, Dad is distressed......"

"That has to be chosen?"

"Yes."

"I won't let you die."

"Niu Niu? Do you agree with mom's divorce? ”

"Agreed."

"Why?"

"So mom is still alive." Lin Ximeng cried and hugged the child tightly in his arms. Niu Niu also cried.

The mother and son cried for a long time. She cried so much that she almost fainted, almost shaking her resolve to divorce. Niu Niu comforted her in turn, and did everything possible to make her happy, and when she returned home, Niu Niu put a small chair handmade in a can in front of her in class, and said, "Mom, this is what I made with my own hands, give it to you, and you can put my photo on it." Lin Ximeng held back her tears, put it on the sofa, and couldn't bear to put it in her bag.

The next day, Niu Niu reminded her again: "Mom, don't forget to take a small chair." "Child, it's not that I don't want to take it, it's not that I forgot to take it, I'm heartbroken and don't move it!

I am truly the most sinful and damned mother in the world! I'll never be able to pay back everything I owe you!

Why should I be so ruthless? Why is my heart so cruel? I have been trying to cover up the painful nerves of the separation of mother and child, and I dare not touch it, and once I touch it, the severe pain in my heart is beyond my bearing.

Child, forgive Mom, you will always grow up, and Mom has only this one choice. Zoki pulled her into the bedroom, closed the door, and knelt down in front of her.

"My dear, for our children and for myself, I beg you." Lin Ximeng burst into tears, knelt down, and said, "I beg you not to do this." ”

"My dear, if you don't agree, I won't get up." Zhuo Qi insisted on not getting up, and asked her to promise not to divorce before she could get up.

She cried out loud and said, "If you do this, you can only prompt me to divorce now." ”

"I beg you, don't push me." Lin Ximeng knelt there, crying. Now, she doesn't want to hide anything, she tells all the changes in her heart after her love for her husband has been eaten away over the years.

"My emotional world is too vast and too rich, and you can't fill my spiritual world. If my spiritual world is this room, and you are just a desk in this room for me, the rest of the room is empty, I am miserable, lonely, unbearably empty, and I have to find something else to fill these spaces......" Zhuo Qi pulled her up and asked her to sit down at the desk, where the two of them sat facing each other.

He said, "Well, my dear, I understand you. I agree to the divorce. However, until you have found a man who is suitable for you, let's not get a divorce. When will you find it, and when will we go through the formalities. Otherwise, I can't reassure you. ”

"Heavens! How could I bear to abandon this man! Lin Ximeng fell into another kind of despair.