thirty-seven
Fan Tianfu was the last person to see Lin Ximeng off. Lin Ximeng was very glad that Zhuo Qi had never had the habit of sending her out.
Zhuo Qi's point of view is that even if it is delivered to the destination, he still wants to come back, and he simply does not send it. Yang Junman has also been here.
Yang Junman is older than before, and the wrinkles on his face are already very deep. Zhao Yizuo betrayed her and had an affair with the company secretary, Yang Junman went to his company to make a hysterical noise after finding out, and Zhao Yizuo simply lived with the secretary publicly.
She was already heartbroken, but when she suddenly heard that Lin Ximeng was going to school in Beijing, she hurried over.
Fan Tianfu waited outside Zhuo Qi's line of sight to drive Lin Ximeng to the Bailang Island Railway Station. Along the way, none of them spoke.
When they arrived at the train station, two hours before the train departed, they went to a small restaurant near the train station, where the waiter led them to a couple's room that could barely accommodate the two of them.
The two of them sat silently facing each other, half a bottle of beer had been drunk, and a few dishes had already cooled, and they didn't even move their chopsticks.
Lin Ximeng's tears had already wet half of his face, and his two hands were tightly held by Fan Tianfu, always refusing to let go.
They hadn't seen each other for a long time. During this time, Lin Ximeng was completely controlled under Zhuo Qi's strict surveillance, and he had no time for himself, so he could only hurriedly give Fan Tianfu a few phone calls when Zhuo Qi went to the toilet.
At this moment, she finally saw Fan Tianfu, who she missed day and night, but the separation was just around the corner, she felt that her heart was about to be torn to pieces, tears kept flowing, and she couldn't say a word.
"Ximeng," Fan Tianfu said,
"I gave our children a name." Lin Ximeng raised his head in surprise and looked at him in a daze.
It was a handsome face burning with hope. There is no trace of sadness or sorrow to be found in it.
"Ximeng, I want you to give me a daughter, a daughter who will be exactly like you when she grows up. Ximeng, promise me. A deep and kind fatherly love permeated the handsome face that was burning with hope.
She was shocked and stopped crying. Fan Tianfu picked up the remaining half bottle of beer, filled her with a cup, and then poured the rest for himself, saying: "Ximeng, they all say that drinking the leftover wine in the bottle can give birth to a daughter, I wonder if your father gave birth to you because he drank the leftover wine in the bottle." Ximeng, if I drink these, I will definitely be able to give birth to a daughter like you. He held the cup in both hands, placed it on his chest, closed his eyes, and seemed to pray in his heart.
After a while, he opened his eyes, tilted his neck, and drank. Lin Ximeng was moved by his pious demeanor, as if she had really given birth to a daughter for him, happiness and sweetness welled up in her heart, and she smiled.
Only then did she understand Chi Ningning, Chi Ningning would rather give birth to a daughter for him for Zhao Lifan.
I can't help myself in the depths of my feelings.
"Ximeng, there is still an hour, let's go to the beach." The restaurant is only a few dozen steps from the beach, and at night, the restaurant is full of people selling groceries.
Fan Tianfu hugged her as if no one was around, walked past the traders who kept selling seafood handicrafts to them, and stopped by the sea guardrail.
As far as the eye can see, the shore is meandering with brilliant lights. On the surface of the sea, there are countless speckled lights reflected, and they continue to flicker as the sea surface continues to turbulent.
The beautiful and enchanting sea is opening its vast and deep mind. Fan Tianfu took out a small red and beautiful heart-shaped velvet purse from his pocket, opened it, and took out a gold ring.
He stuffed his purse into hers, saying that he wouldn't be able to see the contents until the train left. He took her hand, kissed it, and put the ring on his left ring finger.
Lin Ximeng was hugged into his broad chest, and his hands were tightly clenched into his hands.
"Ximeng, remember, my love for you is like this sea, which will never run dry; Like this gold ring, it shines forever. Lin Ximeng lowered his head, looked at the ring on his hand, and pondered.
Then, she looked up at the man. Yes, like everyone who sees him, Lin Ximeng doesn't think he's not a meat-eating tiger because he's smiling.
Now, she was in the tiger's arms, and, instead of smiling, he was staring at him.
However, she no longer wanted to escape from this embrace, never to seek it again, never to trek again, and stopped in this embrace.
All the love in her life had turned into blood, poured into this embrace, flowing in every delicate vein in his body.
This bloodline will be the itinerary of her life. She will never be able to walk out of this strong and sturdy body, until the day this body disappears, and her life path will be over.
In the afternoon, Lin Ximeng was lying in the dormitory of Beijing Normal University. She stared at the ring in her hand for a long time, the sunlight shining in and the ring glittering golden in the sunlight.
It's been a week since school started, and she is still powerless to save herself from the pain of a strong parting with Fan Tianfu.
How hard she had tried. However, she did not succeed, she could not convince herself, she could not control herself.
All that flashed in front of her eyes was the image of Fan Tianfu. In front of this image, the huge city of Beijing is overshadowed.
She wanted to get into the role and start reading like the rest of her classmates, but she couldn't, she couldn't even write letters.
When she arrived in Beijing, she realized that her former friends were just an embellishment in her life, and she no longer had any urge to write to them.
Including Wei Ke, she came to Beijing to hide from Wei Ke. She couldn't say why she did it. She always wanted to tell Wei Ke that she had fallen in love with Fan Tianfu, but she never had the courage.
In the depths of her heart, how she longed for Wei Ke to bless her. The only person she wanted to write to was Fan Tianfu.
However, this is still not written. Every time she laid out the paper and lifted the pen, tears filled her eyes. She just couldn't write it.
She understands more and more that she can't do without this man. The days of leaving him became the most torturous time of her life.
At night, she stared at the dotted orange lights in the distance, fantasizing about which light should belong to her and Fan Tianfu, and which land had their beloved home.
So, she swore that with such a beloved home in this life and this life, she would do her best to build her, beautify her, and care for her, and never leave her.
Somehow, she thought of the places that provided them with a little room for the night, and that was a testimony of their love.
More thinking about that office. She even envied the people who were in and out of that office now and had nothing to do with her.
They were breathing in Fan Tianfu's breath, and she couldn't. The office, which is less than 20 square meters, is the most splendid, gorgeous and warm corner of the world.
In this life and this life, there is such a corner, and this wish is enough. Love makes it no longer a finite space, but a whole world.
Now, she didn't know if there was a panacea for alleviating the pain of longing, and if there was, she had to buy it, because the heart of longing was pinched and put down, let go and clenched.
She hadn't received a call from Fan Tianfu for two days, and she no longer used the payphone to make long-distance calls, trying to build up her endurance.
Besides, the Mid-Autumn Festival is coming, and it is the same set as in previous years, and hundreds of gifts are delivered from house to house, which is really busy for him.
In the first few days, they had to talk on the phone almost every day, not to mention the money she spent on calling him during the day to agree on the night call time, just say that every time he gave her the cost of the phone, sometimes it was an hour, two hours, and even as fast as three hours at one time.
She will never forget the moment he put her on the train. Fan Tianfu searched out all the coins on his body, 100 yuan, 10 yuan, and even a few hard cents, and stuffed them into her bag, saying that if she had no money, she could buy bread to eat, don't starve her.
Fan Tianfu knows that she spends money like water, has no plan, and spends it lavishly when she has money, but if she doesn't have a penny, she can deal with it for a long time.
Looking at the ring for a long time, suddenly, she felt like she was being tied up. This feeling is becoming more and more apparent.
The discomfort of being bound without freedom arises. In an instant, this discomfort disappeared, and then, she actually felt that this bondage of losing her freedom was so comfortable, so happy, and so peaceful.
The feeling is getting more and more inflated and intense...... until it becomes a belief: she wants to be bound like this in this life and this life!
All those so-called freedoms, get out! Lin Ximeng realized another meaning of wearing this ring on Fan Tianfu when he chose to separate, so he hurriedly found the red velvet heart-shaped purse, took out the contents, and looked at it over and over again: My beloved: Seeing that we are about to break up, my heart does not know whether it is sinking or rising, and it always feels different from before.
Honey, you took my heart. Really, at this moment, I feel that everything is empty, empty never.
Beloved, even I have regretted that I shouldn't have let you leave me, even for a moment, I really hope that a miracle will happen, you won't go.
In order to find and build the paradise of our love, you have embarked on a bumpy road, I have nothing else to send you, I just want to send my hope, that is my heart.
Honey, put
Put away the "heart", go on the road, take care. Tianfu, who will love you forever, had just finished reading it, and a classmate with a beard knocked on the door and came in: "Lin Ximeng, your letter." Lin Ximeng jumped out of bed to pick it up.
At first glance, it was Zhuo Qilai. She thanked the classmate, and then took it apart: My dear: I was so disappointed just to send you away, you are my greatest wealth, and I feel fortunate to have a weighty and foundational woman like you.
At this moment, I couldn't help but burst into tears, I felt how inseparable I was from you, how attached to you, you belonged to me, I love you, in this life, in the next life...... From today onwards, I will wait for you for more than 100 days and nights.
Who sleeps with me in the long night? I will forget your past mistakes, and I have nothing but deep love for you.
It is difficult for other women to break into my life, I have given all my love to you, and you have taken possession of it. I've hurt you before, and I'm guilty and sad about it.
You this
"Fragile" has changed me many, much (though not in my bones), and I thank you for that.
We have gone through a long journey of happiness, joy, and pain, but my love for you has never changed, and my love for you remains the same.
I am glad that my love is warm and sincere. Looking back, I am indescribably happy, and I think I am the happiest man in the world.
My heart was taken away by you, I was in a bit of a trance, I was missing my beloved wife. You've just left me for so few hours and I'm like this, will I get lovesickness in the future?
After arriving in Beijing, safety first, health first, don't worry about family affairs. I hope you will return soon. Expecting, waiting...... Dream in the dream!
Hug you passionately and kiss you wildly! After reading the letter from Lin Ximeng, the husband who loves you, Zhuo Qi's thin figure of hard work and thrift suddenly appeared in front of him.
There was an inexpressible bitterness in her heart,
"I will forget your past mistakes, and I have nothing but deep love for you." She closed her eyes and thought: how difficult it is to abandon this man!
In the days before coming to Beijing, Zhuo Qi was almost a pathological love for her, and he never left her side.
Only when she is with Yao Huijuan can he put his mind at ease and do something. She knew that he was worried that she was still in contact with Fan Tianfu.
She has persuaded Yao Huijuan not to go to work in the factory, anyway, she earns less than 200 yuan a month, and it is her credit to take care of Zhuo Qi and Niuniu's life and food at home.
After coming to Beijing, except for Fan Tianfu, Lin Ximeng blocked her phone number from everyone. In her mind, she wants to cut off all contact with Sycamore from now on.
When she called to tell Zhuo Qi that she had arrived in Beijing safely, Zhuo Qi asked her phone number, and she said that she did not have a phone and used a public telephone.
This is also true, but although the telephone in the dormitory corridor cannot be used for long distances, it is still very convenient to call in from other places.
She finally received the first letter from Fan Tianfu from Wutong. Ximeng: Don't come for a few days, it feels like it's every other day.
How many dreams have we been clinging to each other and kissing...... When I woke up, the loneliness I had never felt before was like a net wrapped around me, wrapped me so tightly, I struggled to break free, relaxed, and chased after our old shadows...... The drizzly spring night, the snowy fields covered with moonlight, and the wheat fields, mountains and forests, and cemeteries...... Our love is imprinted everywhere.
My dear, as long as we lie there, there is full of vitality and warmth, and that is our happy home.
Isn't it? Evening dreams, we often get drunk and lie in love, we are happy to be drunk like that all our lives, never wake up again, we look forward to the time and space freeze when we are together, dear, maybe this is the feeling of being drunk, this feeling is too wonderful, too real, like the wind, like rain, like a mountain...... Oh, when it comes to mountains, I still have a piece of experience that I can only comprehend and cannot be expressed!
Ximeng, let me tell you today, don't blush! Whenever we hug and put together, I always have to do my best to press you, so that you are out of breath, at this time, I really have a man's unique pride and satisfaction, maybe this is the man's primitive desire to conquer and have!
My dear, I don't want to study any doctrine here, I just hope that I can have this feeling for the rest of my life, and truly have you for the rest of my life, so that you will never be able to walk out of this mountain.
I will never let you feel lonely, lonely, empty, I will make you feel that this is a very rich mountain.
Ximeng, I won't write it, and it will be overweight if I write it again, I just hope you can remember my words: for the sake of our love, please bear more.
I will give you my whole life, without reservation. May our kisses freeze. Your Tianfushu is holding a thick stack of rough-edged calligraphy paper, Fan Tianfu's vigorous and spicy handwriting, as if the ink has not dried, and a familiar fragrance of ink spreads, Lin Ximeng thought feverishly: Tianfu!
Tian Fu! My husband! For you, I want to make myself a better, better, more attractive woman, I want to use my wisdom to perfect my image, I want this man standing next to me in my life to embrace me, raise his proud head, and proudly say to the men of the world: This is mine!