When I entered my room, Xiao Se collapsed weakly on the sofa next to the bed. I went and poured a cup of tea, brought it to him, and saw that he had a cigarette in his hand and smoke filled his face.

"Have a cup of tea and get rid of hangover." I whispered.

He took the teacup, placed it on the small table next to him, and grabbed me with a flip of his hand, holding my wrist firmly. "Why are you doing this to me?" He gritted his teeth and turned blue, "Is it because you're dissatisfied with me, or are you simply unable to withstand the temptation of a man?" It was like that for Zhuo Yichen before, but now it's the same for my dad and Zhao Junning, and there will be more men in the future......"

"You talk nonsense!" I raised my head and shouted out angrily, "I haven't done anything at all, it's you who don't trust me, doubt me, and wronged me." You and Lin Enmo and Xiong Qianyu are not clear ......"

"Xiong Qianyu is my father's illegitimate daughter and my half-sister! The reason why I haven't told you is because I don't dare to say it without my dad's permission. Yesterday I had a showdown with my dad and told him that I was going to let you know the truth anyway so that you wouldn't be mistaken again. He smoked violently, his fingers trembling, "Are you satisfied with this answer?" As for Lin Enmo, I explained it to you a long time ago, and I don't want to say anything more. Now we should talk about your problem. ”

I shuddered. "What's wrong with me?"

"I saw you and my dad making out on the sofa last night, and I saw you and Zhao Junning in the room tonight...... Do you dare to say that you have no problems? My dad said he didn't use those third-rate methods against you, just a momentary distraction. Later, I calmed down and suspected that Lin Enmo was the ghost, and secretly investigated, but found no problems. His face was furious, "And Zhao Junning...... I want to hear your explanation, and I want you to explain to me what the hell is going on. ”

I understood, I saw the figure flashing outside the window, it was Xiao Se, at that time Zhao Junning pressed me against the door, looking in from the angle where Xiao Se was, our posture was absolutely ambiguous, and I didn't make any resistance. A layer of fog floated in front of my eyes. "I said, would you believe it? I don't understand why it happened last night. I was waiting for Zhao Junning in the study tonight, I didn't expect that he would run out of the room naked...... "I gave a general account of the situation before and after arriving at Zhao Junning's studio.

He stood up at once, staring down at me, his breath short, his expression stern. "I reminded you before, Zhao Junning has other thoughts about you, don't be alone with him, you take my words as wind in your ears. Also, you said that the door could not be unlocked from the outside, and when I pushed the door, it was not locked at all. I don't think you want to open it yourself, you're interested in appreciating him......"

"Say no more." I interrupted him weakly, I knew that my explanation had become pale and useless, "Since you no longer trust me, and think that I can't withstand the temptation of men, it is useless for me to justify......" My voice choked up, and I couldn't say any more. After a while, he struggled to say: "We don't trust each other, the most important thing between lovers is trust, and if you can't even do this, what's the point of continuing." ”

He let out a thick puff of smoke, his eyes flashing behind the smoke, and asked gloomily, "You mean, there's no need for us to continue?" ”

I lowered my eyelashes, tears rolling down my cheeks. I was silent, unwilling to explain or utter anything, and let the tears flow.

He stared at me, breathing heavily. "Answer me!"

I looked directly at him and whispered, "It's you who indiscriminately look down on me and despise me." ”

"Am I indiscriminate? If I were like that, I wouldn't have come to you. Do you think I've been busy like that for the past two days, and I'll have time to see Zhao Junning's performance art, I'm going to look for you. I didn't sleep all night, and I'm obviously angry, but I'm still worried about you. The community security guard is not so kind, takes the initiative to care about you, and also helps you call a taxi. I was so busy that I wanted to talk to you, and I was restless at dinner with the project team in the evening, and I called you as soon as it was over, but you never answered. I had to ask Yin Jingshu, she told me that you went to Zhao Junning, and I rushed over. ”

He dropped the cigarette butt, grabbed my shoulder, and began to shake me violently. "It's not that I despise you and despise you, it's that you can't give me a reasonable explanation!" His eyes were full of red threads, and his expression was hideous and terrifying.

He looked like he was going back to ten years ago, when I was tricked into his bedroom and struggled against it. I timidly ducked into the bed.

"What are you hiding!" He was furious and pulled me desperately, "Come out, you make it clear why you are doing such a thing behind my back and other men." I have promised you that I will come back in two years, and you have told me personally that as long as I am willing to let you wait, you will keep waiting. But I haven't left yet, you're like this, your so-called waiting, is it waiting for me while having fun with other men? I can't imagine what you'd do while I wasn't there! ”

"Enough!" My anger erupted uncontrollably, "It turns out that I am such a woman in your eyes, you go out, go out immediately, I don't want to see you again!" ”

"Good! Good! His voice trembled with anger, "You don't want to see me again, I'll do what you want, but you must first pay me back what you owe me!" ”

"I don't owe you anything!" I stubbornly ducked into the bed.

"You owe me a favor, and you can't afford to pay it back, so use someone to pay it back first!" He shouted incoherently, ripped off my coat, grabbed the clothes on my chest, and pulled hard. The tearing sound sounded crisply, and the clothes were torn. I bit my lips with my teeth, and with a look of "out of the way", I opened his hand and took off all my clothes and pants myself.

"Isn't that what you want, okay, I'll satisfy you!" Tears rolled down my face in strings, bursting wildly on my face, and I cried, "But after this time, I don't owe you anything more, we'll stop here!" ”

His eyes were bloodshot, and he was gasping for breath, for a long, long time, just staring at me, like a demon, like he was in a state of mind. Then he suddenly pounced, and I shuddered, but there was nowhere to hide, nowhere to retreat. He pressed me against the bed, two fiery lips pressed against mine like a fire, he was so fierce and furious, like an enraged beast, trying to eat me. I was short of breath and was about to suffocate.

He abruptly let go of me and looked up. I passively opened my eyes, and all I could see was his wild eyes, shining with some kind of wild, scorching, burning light. The light frightened me, panicked, nervous and overwhelmed.

I struggled a little and tried to sit up, but he pressed my hands so that I couldn't move at all, and he stared at me, grinding his teeth: "Since it's the last time, I'm going to get it back with interest!" ”

I suddenly lost my strength, I didn't want to struggle anymore, and I closed my eyes in exhaustion. I heard the sound of him undressing, and felt his heavy body pressing down on me, without the slightest pity, and forcibly invaded.

"It hurts—" I shuddered and couldn't help but cry out.

He paused, his hand slid over my skin, moved up, and suddenly pinched my chin. He squeezed hard, and the muscles in my cheeks sank in, inhaling in pain. He gritted his teeth: "It's just to make you hurt, and you will remember it when it hurts, remember it firmly!" ”

I didn't move, my eyes were silent, blank open.

He suddenly relaxed his hand, and his lips pressed against mine in pain and confusion.

I still didn't move, just as painful, as dizzy, and weak as he was.

His eyes became frantic and dangerous, and after intense repression, they erupted again.

I was swept by the storm, staring at the ceiling with tears wide open, inverting my blurred vision, and everything in heaven and earth turned into chaos......

When he finally stopped torturing me, my face was covered with tears and sweat, and my hair was brushing against my face, soaked with tears, and sticking to my cheeks.

Without saying a word, he got out of bed, got dressed, walked out of the room quickly, and slammed the door shut. The sound of the door shutting shook my mind and my mind, and I slowly rolled over and buried my cheeks in the pillow, and quickly, the pillowcase was soaked with tears. I just crouched there, curled up there. I felt like I had been hollowed out of my internal organs and turned into a hollow wood carving.

After that night, Xiao Se didn't contact me again. I heard that he returned to France early, not even after the Spring Festival.

During the day, I practiced and rehearsed as usual. At dusk, I hid by the uninhabited wall, looking at the colorful sky and the sunset, and quietly sobbed and whispered: "Xiao Se! Bleak! "I can't eat, I can't sleep. Anytime, anywhere, it's like a fragile object that can't be touched. Because the floodgates of tears are always open, and if you touch them, you will shed tears.

The Spring Festival is coming soon, and in the days when I went home for the New Year, I forced a smile in front of people, and when I was alone, the shadow of Xiao Se floated up. I secretly wept, secretly wept.

After returning to the company, he began to rehearse and perform endlessly. Two days before the troupe went abroad to perform, Zhuo Yichen and I did a lifting movement during rehearsal, but due to my distraction, I fell and fell to the ground. I had a cramping pain in my lower abdomen, my forehead was sweating, and warm fluid was pouring out of my body.

"Blood—you're bleeding—" I heard someone scream in terror.

I saw Ye Zihan rushing to my side, and then, my consciousness began to blur......

I woke up from a coma and found myself lying in a hospital bed. Zhuo Yichen sat on the edge of the hospital bed and looked at me, his face pale.

"What's wrong with me?" I asked blankly.

"Tong Xin, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have let you fall." His eyes were red and his voice was gagged, "You...... You miscarried......"

I was stunned. I didn't know I was pregnant, and I had been on safety all the time, except for the last time. At that time, he was in a violent mood, where could he take care of it. And I didn't expect that an accidental omission would actually grow jade in the blue field, or in such a painful situation.

"I'm sorry, I'm really sorry." Zhuo Yichen's face was full of apology and bitterness, "I heard Yin Jingshu say that Xiao Se went abroad and couldn't be contacted. You call him and ask him to come back, if you want to beat or scold, I will deal with him. ”