When I was still flustered, I was already embraced by him, and his burning lips quickly caught mine. My heart was beating wildly, my brain was dizzy, and it seemed that my whole body was floating lightly. My arms unconsciously wrapped around his neck, hugging him tightly. My heart is beating, my thoughts are drifting, and people are reduced to nothingness. Our lips and tongues were entangled, and blood was rushing wildly inside me. It's been a long time since I've experienced this feeling, and I feel tears welling up in my eyes and flowing down my lips.

He sucked my tears and slowly looked up into my wet eyes. His face shone in the light, his eyes were like two cold stars in the sky, his breathing was heavy and rapid, and he asked in a low voice, "Why are you crying?" ”

I shuddered. "I don't know, I'm so confused."

He hugged me again, my cheek pressed against his chest, listening to his heartbeat, my mind was in a mess, and in this jumble of thoughts and almost exhausted consciousness, I heard his steady voice: "I said that I would rely on my own ability to win you again, and I will do what I say." ”

I was hypnotized again, uncontrollably and tightly wrapped around his waist.

I finally overcame the "32 laps" of the black swan, and by the end of the practice, I was numb to the pain. But a "cruel" thing is in front of me: the real challenge of the black swan is not "32 laps", but to make an actor who is immersed in the perfect and tender white swan at all times become a bewitching and greedy black swan in an instant. And this enchantment is not obscure and obscene, but passionate and extremely aggressive.

The white swan is pure, noble and kind, the black swan is evil, sinister and cunning, the confrontation between tenderness and aggression, the interweaving of pure good and evil, the fusion of truth and demagoguery...... The white swan and the black swan symbolize the two extremes of a woman's desire for love and faith, so for me, in addition to the 32 laps that scarred me, to play the black swan well, it is more important to integrate the noble love and greedy possession into that tragic myth beautifully and magnificently.

I felt like I had entered a completely new field, and while I was excited and excited, I was also facing unprecedented challenges.

Fast forward to August, and at the end of this month, world ballet superstar Natalia Makarova will come to Haicheng to guide us in rehearsals. On Friday, I arrived at the rehearsal hall at 8:45 a.m., and Zhuo Yichen had arrived before me, sitting on the ground, cutting bandages with scissors, wrapping around ankles and other vulnerable areas, and then stretching to warm up. Zhuo Yichen is 30 years old this year, and like me, he joined the dance troupe at the age of 17, and he joined the troupe at the same time as him, with 18 friends. Thirteen years later, he is the only one left in the company. He suffered a lot of minor injuries from his ankles and knees to his waist and spine, but fortunately there were no fatal injuries.

"My left ankle is aching again, and the rain is coming." Zhuo Yichen said with a smile when he saw me. I glanced outside the rehearsal hall and the sun was just right, but I knew that his foot injury was the best weather forecast. Three years ago, he broke his left ankle during rehearsals and spent months in bed for the longest rest of his life. Now in addition to the left ankle, the right ankle is also injured. When jumping, you must be very focused and full of activity before you dare to make big moves. The doctor had advised him to have ligament recombination repair surgery because his ligament was like a cowhide band, which had been stretched for a long time and was too loose, so the doctor asked him to cut it short and then pick it up. But he's still jumping, and he's dancing happily.

Among the actors, Zhuo Yichen has worked the hardest, the troupe stipulates that there are 10-15 days off a year, he, like me, always starts rehearsals early, as long as he doesn't practice for more than three days, his muscles will become stiff and his reaction will be slow. Even if the team doesn't ask for it, we will find time to train on our own on the weekends. Not everyone can find joy in ballet, but he and I both enjoy it.

At 9 o'clock, the music played, and the actors warmed up on the stage wearing vests and shorts. Zhuo Yichen is the only one who is still wearing trousers, long-sleeved sportswear, snow boots, and a towel around his neck on a hot day. "Wrap it tightly first, warm it up fully, and then take it off", Ye Zihan repeatedly reminded him, "Don't be too anxious, take your time." ”

Before the formal rehearsal began, Zhuo Yichen took off his coat and snow boots, changed into warm stockings, and tied a gray waist brace.

Zhuo Yichen and I trained the dance sections of the Black Swan and the Prince with the rhythm of the piano accompaniment. Natalia Makarova's Swan Lake is the most popular version of Swan Lake on the European and American stage today, and this version of Swan Lake embodies the standard Russian school dance style, and is loved by the Royal Ballet and other world-famous companies. Makarova is a legend in the history of contemporary ballet, and it has been commented that what makes her unique is that she really brings the swan to life. Makarova asks the black swan to seduce the prince with a mysterious look, as if hypnotic, so that the prince wants to know her better. I also hope that the actors will maximize the expressiveness of the human body, and the movements should be very smooth, as if the body is singing, and create that kind of magical charm.

Ye Zihan was very dissatisfied with my performance and kept frowning. I've tried my best to find the feeling of a black swan, but after a few days, I still can't show that seductive and mysterious look. I was very anxious, and Ye Zihan and Head Yu were also anxious. Later, Ye Zihan asked Zhuo Yichen: "Prince Siegfried, will you be tempted by the eyes and expressiveness of this black swan in front of you?" ”

Zhuo Yichen looked at me and said half-truthfully: "She doesn't need to tempt me at all, I am automatically attracted to her and fascinated by her." ”

Ye Zihan was angry and funny. "You're so funny, the donkey's head is not in the horse's mouth." She said to me solemnly: "Tong Xin, your skills are no problem at all, but you haven't found the feeling of a black swan." In fact, every ballet dancer who wants to succeed has a 'black swan' living in his heart, and he hopes that the moment he stands on the stage is perfect, the most tempting, and he can't live if he doesn't go crazy! You have to completely liberate that black swan, not seal it in your heart. If you think about it carefully, if you really can't do it, you can only play the white swan alone and let Song Yuning play the black swan. Although her skills are not as good as yours, her current mastery of the eyes of the black swan is much better than yours, and her overall performance is also very wild and charming, close to the character. ”

As soon as I heard her words, my heart was half cold. Indeed, some theaters now have the two roles of black swan and white swan respectively played by actors with two performance styles, which can not only give full play to their respective strengths, but also reduce the burden on the heroine. But I was very eager to play two roles at the same time, in addition to making the dramatic structure of the whole play complete, but more importantly, to challenge the limits of my own performance, which is also a test of the willpower of an actress. What's more, I've put so much effort into this role, how can I be willing to give it to others!

Song Yuning was originally played as a B corner, and she also practiced hard for 32 laps like me, but I never thought that she would have the possibility of replacing me. It's that I'm too confident, and I think of what Xiao Se said, we are all small, so we must always keep a humble heart, don't be arrogant and proud. The previous achievements made me a little proud and underestimated, and I also lacked a sense of crisis.

During the lunch break, Zhuo Yichen saw that I was very depressed and comforted me: "Take your time, you can't eat hot tofu in a hurry, I believe in you, you will definitely be able to find a feeling." ”

Somehow, I suddenly remembered that Lan Jingyu was here. "I met Lan Jingyu some time ago."

His face changed suddenly. "What are you mentioning her for?"

"I thought that if Lan Jingyu hadn't left the dance troupe, she should be able to grasp the role of black swan very well." "She said to me that the only man she ever loved was you. The time with you was the happiest time of her life, and she was very eager to marry you in the future. ”

Zhuo Yichen looked at me stunned, he lowered his head, and then looked at the ground stunned. I felt his absent-minded confusion and lingering melancholy. It is said that women are unforgettable for their first man, but in fact, men are not unforgettable for their first woman.

For a moment, he looked up. "I don't have any contact with her anymore. Although there is no contact, I have heard a lot of lace news about her, and I really don't understand why she doesn't know how to respect and love herself so much......"

He sighed heavily, and did not say any more.

I sighed, resting my chin in my hand, and was stunned.

The ringing reminded me of my thoughts, and when I saw the word "Xiao Se" flashing on the screen, the flat lake in my heart shook and rippled, Xiao Se, he is back!

"Tong Xin," there was also irrepressible excitement in Xiao Se's voice, "I just came back last night, can you go to Yejia Village with me in the evening and accompany grandpa to dinner on his birthday?" ”

"Okay." I agreed.

Zhuo Yichen's foot injury, the "weather forecast" is really accurate. The weather changed from the afternoon onwards, the sun was obscured by dark clouds, and it was gloomy and rainy. After the rehearsal, I immediately went back to the apartment to take a shower, changed my clothes, remembered the jade bracelet that Senator Ye gave me, I took it out from the bottom of the wardrobe, and as soon as I put it on, Xiao Se called, I brought an umbrella, closed the window, and went out.

It was already more than 7 o'clock in the evening when I arrived in Yejia Village, and Senator Ye knew that we were coming, so he prepared a table of dishes early. I have visited Senator Ye several times over the years, and I always chose to follow Ye Zihan's car when she was going home on weekends or holidays. Every time I came and went in a hurry, I had dinner with the old man, I didn't want to disturb him, so I stayed at Ye Zihan's house at night, and went back with her the next day. The old man treated me like his own granddaughter, kind and kind. Every time I come, I also specially wear the bracelet he gave me, he will always look at it for a while, sigh sadly, see things and think about people, the eldest daughter Ye Ying, who died, must be the eternal pain in the heart of the old man.