Xiao Se frowned slightly, lost in some kind of waiting contemplation. He took out his cigarette and lighted it, took a deep breath, and for a while, just sat there and smoked it. After a while, he whispered: "I said that my secret is only said to those closest to me, and now I can tell you." ”

There was an indescribable emotion in my heart, some anticipation, and some confusion, and telling the secret hidden in my heart was tantamount to revealing a scar, which was the pain of a bloody forest. "There are some secrets that don't need to be said, just bury them in your heart forever." I don't want him to be in pain.

"It's okay, I've been depressed for too long, and I need to talk about it." He took another puff of his cigarette, then extinguished the butt of his cigarette, his voice turning into a long sigh.

"Ye Ying, the ballet queen of the year, is my mother." Xiao Se slowly opened his mouth, "The story I told you in Yejia Village, more than 20 years ago, a couple of men and women fell in love under the alder tree, and the protagonists of that story were my parents. Their later ending, you have already heard, my mother fell off the high stage during rehearsal, can no longer dance, and after giving birth to me, she suffered from postpartum depression and returned to Yejia Village to commit suicide by throwing herself into the lake. ”

"But why, your surname is Xiao?" I had already guessed that Ye Ying was his mother, but I was suspicious of his surname.

"My father's original surname was Luo, and he changed his surname later. He couldn't get rid of the shadow of Zuxun, and felt that the surname Luo brought him only pain and depression, as well as a spell that could never be freed, so he decided to change his name and surname. He liked Su Shi's "Fixing the Storm" very much, so he changed his surname to Xiao and named me 'Xiao Se'. After my mom died, in order to give me a complete home, my dad married my aunt again. ”

Xiao Se's tone was sad, "Senator Ye is my grandfather, and his two daughters have violated the ancestral teachings, and he hates my father so much that he refuses to forgive my aunt, and he doesn't even want to accept me." I really hope to be able to resolve the grievances of the previous generation, so I often go to the village to visit him, I can feel that although he is still unforgiving, in fact, he has begun to get close to me, people's hearts are flesh and blood, I believe that one day, I and my father, aunt and grandfather, we can really be like a family, sit together to eat and chat. ”

I finally fully understood that Xiao Se kept calling Senator Ye "master", but in fact, he was shouting "grandpa". I think of the fishing on the shore of Lover's Lake in Yejia Village, the old man with a strange temper, the face carved with the vicissitudes of life, the occasional warmth in his eyes, and the empty fish basket full of memories. A soft string was suddenly plucked in my heart, and I said softly: "Definitely, I can feel that your grandfather loves you, he is just too stubborn and unwilling to admit it, and one day he will figure it out." ”

Xiao Se looked at me earnestly. "Grandpa likes you very much, if I am not here in the future, can you occasionally find time to visit him for me?"

My heart ached suddenly, and I couldn't spit out a word at the thought of the coming separation.

He immediately realized it, holding my face up, his eyes wandering over my face apologetically and sourly, "I'm sorry, it's too embarrassing for you, forget it, I ......"

After the words, he wanted to speak and stopped, and his eyes flashed with a heavy light.

I barely managed to squeeze out a smile. "Xiao Se." I called to him softly, "I don't want your promises, and I don't want to bind you." You don't have to feel sorry for me, I was willing to do it myself. That day in the hospital, I heard what your dad said, and it made sense. We are all too young, the road of life is long, and there are many uncertainties. You have your ideals and ambitions, and I have my dreams to pursue. Now that you've decided to leave the country right away, don't delay each other. I had a deep prejudice against you before, I haven't been able to recognize my feelings for you, I missed it for a long time, I regret it, and I regret it, but now I can give you myself completely before you leave, I have no regrets. ”

He shook so hard that he held me in his arms. His kisses rained down on my lips, cheeks, and hair...... He gasped and said sincerely, heartache: "Tong Xin, I will always remember you, remember you firmly!" As long as there is fate, we will definitely be together. ”

I reached out and hugged him, and my voice came out of his bosom with a suppressed and indistinct voice: "Your words are enough." ”

We embraced quietly for a long time, and when I looked up, I saw that Xiao Se's eyes were moist. He sighed deeply. "I became bad because of my rebellion against my family, which caused you to hate me for so many years. In order to concentrate on taking care of me, my father and aunt have been married for many years without having children, and I have never known that the person who has called my mother for many years is actually my aunt. Later, my brother was born, my aunt's feelings were obviously inclined to my younger brother, when I was about to take the high school entrance examination, I accidentally injured my younger brother, she scolded me, my father blamed her for influencing me to review my homework, the two had a quarrel, my aunt broke out, blaming my father for only loving my sister's children and snubbing her children, and I learned the truth.

I was in great pain, unable to understand and unable to accept the truth that it was cruel for a mother to abandon her newborn child and throw herself into a lake. I didn't do well in the high school entrance examination, and I was only admitted to the science and technology middle school, and I could have been admitted to the best high school. I went to Yejia Village alone, I wanted to see the place where my mother threw herself into the lake, but my grandfather ignored me, I met a person from the village, he took me to the lake, I asked him about the matter of someone throwing into the lake, he told me that the night my mother threw herself into the lake, someone in the village saw a woman holding a red umbrella and wearing a red cotton jacket by the lake, and my aunt used to like to wear a red cotton jacket, so it was rumored that my aunt pushed her sister into the lake in order to marry her brother-in-law. ”

The arms that surrounded me seemed to be spasmodic. "But that's just a rumor, that witness is dead, there is no evidence, I can't just doubt it, and my aunt has raised me for so many years after all. I had too much pain in my heart and nowhere to vent, so I began to give up on myself, and when I went to high school, I mixed up with a bunch of hooligans, and I soon became a hooligan myself, and I became their leader. I'm really sorry for the hurt I did to you in the first place. ”

I looked up at him, and his eyes were full of pain, remorse, and pity, and they spoke so much of the language of the heart, and so much of the deep affection. My eyes were wet for a split second and I buried my head in his chest. "It's me who is not good, I care and understand you too little." I muttered, "How is your relationship with your aunt and brother now?" ”

"My brother is about to go to high school, and he is a good boy who is sensible. My aunt had a serious illness two years ago, and her health has been poor since then, but now she is devoted to Buddhism and has a much calmer temperament. The family got along quite well, but there was always a knot in my heart that couldn't be eliminated. I know that my aunt also has a knot, and my dad favors me, but she always wants her own son. So I don't want to rely on my family, I want to make a difference on my own. In this city, I have a terrible past, and I am determined to be disgraced and return with fame. ”

Heavy breathing stirred his chest, "I don't believe my mom committed suicide, I read her diary, she wrote, 'My son is the sun shining into the dark world and will lead me to the light'. Since she yearns for the light, how could she throw herself into the lake and let herself sink to the bottom of the dark lake. It is said that the witness told the police about the woman holding the red umbrella he saw, but the police finally decided that the mother committed suicide. I believe that there is a woman and want to find evidence to confirm her identity, but more than 20 years have passed, and it is too difficult. ”

"No wonder, when I was bullied by you, I said that you would be arrested by the police and sent to jail, which angered you." At this time, when I think about that past again, my heart is no longer turbulent.

There was a glint in his eyes. "The first time I saw you, you were trying on ballet shoes, and when I saw them, I thought of my deceased mother. Originally, I just wanted to get close to you, but your attitude was really bad, and it me off. Later, you avoided me all day long, and I hated it so much that I found someone to trick you. I don't really want to do anything, I just want to teach you a lesson and let you understand what will happen if you offend me. I didn't expect you to be so violent, and my eyes were almost blinded by you. ”

After he finished speaking, we all laughed, and those past grievances have melted and disintegrated under the sunlight like an iceberg in spring.

We sat by the sea for a long, long time, as if we had endless words. Xiao Se said that the reason why he became a translator for Paul was to improve his French skills and prepare for studying abroad, and secondly, because it was a dance troupe for which his mother dedicated her youth and sweat. He didn't expect to meet me in the dance troupe, he saw me the day before the audition for the new dance drama actress, and recognized me at a glance, but I was so engrossed in my practice that I didn't notice his presence at all. At first, he just wanted to dissolve my hatred for him and reconcile with me, but the more he came into contact with me, the more he became fascinated by me and the more unable he could control his feelings.

When we got back to the car, it was already past lunchtime, and we didn't feel hungry. After finding a nearby place to settle lunch and dinner together, Xiao Se drove back to the beach, we sat in the car, snuggled quietly, watching the sunset swallowed by the waves, and the sunset reflected the red sea. The clouds looking at the distant sky turned from white to golden, and then from golden to orange, purple, and gray...... The water also changes with the color of the clouds, and it is breathtakingly beautiful.

Night fell all at once, countless small stars flashed in the sky, and thousands of sparkling lights shone on the pitch-black sea.

Xiao Se took me to his lap and tossed and turned deeply

Kiss me. The sound of the rushing and singing of the waves was in my ears, and I was lost in such a night, such tenderness.